Bittersweet Goodbye

Title: Bittersweet Goodbye

Rating: NC-17

Spoilers: Post-Chosen.

Disclaimer: Not mine, they belong to Joss, ME, etc, and I make nothing off this story. Nothing!

Summary: Buffy and Faith’s last night together before one of them leaves. Buffy’s POV, PWP.

Feedback: always wanted, hayowhy@yahoo.com

Author’s note: This is just a short fic, I’m really not planning to expand it in any way. I thought of this when I was listening to ‘Bittersweet Goodbye’ (hence my creative title) by Kylie Minogue (yes, I listen to Kylie, don’t laugh). It’s also incredibly sappy. What can I say, I’m in a mood.

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She’s leaving tomorrow. I know it, she knows it, but she won’t say a thing about it. I really don’t want to acknowledge that fact either. I keep thinking if I ignore the whole thing, she won’t leave in the morning and this time tomorrow she’ll still be here.

Faith and I have been together pretty much after Sunnydale became a big hole. We settled in L.A., Faith’s choice not mine, and started a life together. We still slay, but we’re part-time slayers now. There’s so many we don’t have to patrol all the time anymore.

We’re loyal now to the new watcher’s council, the one started by Giles and run over in England. Dawn’s over there now, training to be a watcher just like Giles. He’s fixing everything that was wrong with the old one and we both support him. Hell, he’s paying us to train the newly found slayers he searches out and sends us so we’ll always be the first to support him. He pays us very well.

But back to the matter I’m trying so hard not to think about. Faith has to go to England to train with the watcher’s council. They’re trying to organize the training regiment so all the young slayers get the same training. I tried to convince them that I needed to go with her, but someone needs to stay and keep training the ones here.

I don’t know what I’ll do without her here. I look up as we eat the romantic dinner she made and find her staring at me. I smile at her almost shyly and she smiles back. Her just looking at me makes me go all soft. I hope it always will.

“Is something on your mind, B?” sayssays as she looks at me intently while I fiddle with the food in front of me.

“You know what’s on my mind,” I respond quietly, looking down.

She sighs. “It won’t be forever, you know.” Faith sounds like she’s trying to comfort me but it’s not working.

“It’ll feel like forever.” I look up at her as my eyes water.

She reaches across the table and touches my hand. “It’ll be okay. I’ll be back before you know it.”

I nod silently and take a few bites of my food, looking down and trying not to make eye contact with the woman across from me. The woman I love.

Before I can even register any movement, Faith is next to me, bending over slightly from behind my chair and caressing my shoulders with her strong hands. She leans down and kisses the top of my head before bringing her lips to my ear.

“We still have tonight, baby,” she whispers and pulls me to my feet. She faces me before pulling me into a tight embrace. “Are you finished eating?”

I nod silently against her shoulder and rest my chin there. She moves me away from her and I sigh at the loss of her warmth. Faith grins and picks me up, cradling me in her arms. I wrap my arms around her neck as she walks out of the dining room and back to the bedroom.

“I love you, Buffy,” she whispers as we reach our bedroom and she lowers me onto the bed.

“I love you, too,” is all I can say back. She lays down next to me and relaxes on her side to face me. She caresses my cheek with her hand and I move into it, kissing her palm.

“I’ll do my best tobackback as soon as I can,” Faith says as she looks deep into my eyes. Her hand flattens on my stomach and her fingers draw patterns across it. I pull her to me, kissing her, sliding my tongue into her mouth.

She moans into my mouth and I’m thinking we have too many clothes on. Faith’s moved half on top of me and her hands slide up and down the sides of my body. I break away gasping, catching my breath as she hovers over me with a wicked grin on her face.

“Let’s not talk about anything,” I say as I look up at her, “I don’t want to think about it right now.” She only nods as she tucks some stray hairs behind my ear before leaning down to kiss me again. I wrap my arms around her, making sure she’s as close to me as possible.

I move my hands lower on her back until I reach the hem of her shirt. I rub the skin there as she breaks our kiss and moves down my neck. She sucks on my pulse point and I arch into her, gripping her tighter.

We were in this exact same position the first time Faith told me she told me she loved me. I was so taken back I couldn’t even respond. I never really believed she would ever say those words to me and when she did, I knew I’d never let her go.

I don’t want to think about anything else at the moment, though. I want to memorize every movement she makes over me, not knowing when we’ll be this close again. Sliding my hands under her shirt, I caress her sweet skin and move upwards.

Faith moves away from me and a whimper escapes my mouth. She grins again at she straddles my waist and places her hands on mine, which are at her sides. She guides my hands up as I pull off her shirt, revealing her round, full breasts to the room. I pull her down to me, kissing her neck before moving down to her collarbone.

I reach her right breast, placing kisses around it before taking the ne ine into my mouth. She’s holding herself above me, her hands on either side of my head as I begin to suck lightly. She moaning loudly and before I realize, she rolls and suddenly I’m on top of her. She pulls me back down to her as we kiss wildly.

Her hands are in my hair while mine cup her face as our tongues duel in each other’s mouths. We break apart to breathe and Faith pulls off my shirt and unclasps my bra with incredible speed, pulling the offending garment of my arms. I smirk down at her and giggle as she flips me over so she’s on top once again.

“Always have to be on top?” I question her as she leans down to kiss my ear, licking behind it and sucking on the lobe.

“Right now? Yes,” she mumbles as she moves her lips down to my breasts sucking on each nipple in turn. I arch into her as her hands are on my sides, her weight resting on her knees. She releases my left nipple and moves lower, licking her way down my tanned stomach.

Her hands move to the fly of my jeans and unbuttons them while looking up at me, smirking. I smile back as my hand reaches up to caress the side of her face and move back to her hair, tussling it a bit as she eases my jeans over my hips.

I lift up as she pulls them down and off me, getting me completely naked. Faith stands up by the bed and takes her own jeans off never once taking her eyes off me. Her eyes are just so dark and yet so expressive. Every time I look into them I can tell she loves me.

I reach out to her and she moves back to the bed, resting fully on me and between my thighs. Her elbows are on either side of my head and she just looks at me for a second. Faith stares at me like she’s trying to memorize every inch of my face and it’s more than I can take. I grab the back of her head and pull her down to me, crashing our lips together.

Faith’s body is pressed against my own as she slides her tongue into my mouth, kissing me deeply. I suck on her tongue, causing her to moan and I smile inwardly. Our bodies begin to slide against each other as we start to build a rhythm. I can feel her pussy’s already wet as it presses on my own and the feel of it is driving me crazy.

I spread my thighs a little further apart in order to get more friction against my clit. Faith breaks the kiss we’ve been sharing and breathes heavily at me, her warm breath hitting my face. She pushes against me harder with a smile on her face before moving to suck on my neck lightly. My hands move up and down her back as her are trying to feel everywhere. Hers are moving up and down my sides to my front where she cups by breasts and rolls my nipples with her fingers. She being so gentle and yet isn’t and I want this feeling to last forever.

I lean my head up and kiss her shoulder, wanting to taste her delicious skin. I feel one of her hands move lower, gripping one of my hips and I can tell she wants to go further. I know I want her to.

“Faith,” I breathe out as she kisses down my shoulder, “baby... keep going.” I cover the hand that’s on my hip with my own and begin to guide it where I want it to be. I want her in me more now than I think I ever have.

Faith moves her head up to me once again and gives a stare that sends shivers down my spine. I can’t believe she’s the one who would make me feel this way but right now, there’s no one else I’ll ever want.

She gets this smirk on her face and I grin back at her. “I have a better idea,” she whispers as her smirk widens to a full-on grin. She pushes her thigh into me and I arch into her again, wrapping my arms around her back. She buries her face against my neck, placing light kisses there, before I feel her detach herself from me and I groan.

“Is this some sort of wicked foreplay?” I ogle her naked form as she walks across the room. “‘Cause I have to say, I don’t really like it.”

Faith turns back to me and grins, her dimples showing. “You know me better than that, baby,” she says seductively turnturns back to the top dresser drawer. She pulls something out and turns back to me. “I thought we could try this tonight.”

I look at what she has in her hands and my eyes go wide. She’s holding a strap-on and it’s big. She wants to fuck me with her own cock. I don’t think I’ve ever been this turned on. I open my mouth to say something but can’t so I just nod my head slowly.

“I’ll take that as a ‘yes’,” Faith chuckles quietly and puts it on. From the look of it, I can see she’s gonna get just as much pleasure from this as I am. We’ve never done anything like this before, but I think Faith wants tonight to be memorable. I know it definitely will be for me.

She walks back over to the bed and kneels down beside it. She folds her arms on the bed and rests her chin there before bringing her hand up to run through my hair.

“I love you so much, Buffy,” Faith says, looking at me with her huge brown eyes. I know she means this and everything else that she’s going to do. She never says my full name unless she’s being serious.

She lingers there for a moment before getting up and climbing onto the bed. I move so she can rest between my thighs. Faith moves her body so she’s hovering over me. She lowers herself slowly and kisses me so tenderly I think I’m about to cry.

I can feel the end of her cock lightly brushing against my pussy as we kiss. I hold her to me and I can feel her shift more of her weight onto me as she positions herself at my entrance. She looks deep into my eyes and I feel like I can see into her soul. There’s so much there and I want to process it all but before I can, she thrusts into me.

I cry out and arch into her as I feel her cock enter me. She only delves a few inches and it feels so good. She sucks on my pulse point as she moves with me and I’m so wet she can slide in and out of my pussy easily.

My nails are starting to dig into her back as she thrusts into me harder. I can’t stop the moans coming out of my mouth because this is just so good.

“God... Faith...oh, fuck,” I manage to groan out between the moans and cries escaping my lips. She pulls the cock almost all the way out before thrusting all the way in to the hilt.

“You feel so good, baby,” Faith sighs as she rests her forehead on mine, her breaths coming faster and faster. I bring my hand up to the back of her neck and pull her down to me, kissing her almost forcefully, but it’s so much more than that.

She thrusts harder, delving incredibly deep and I cry out, breaking our hot kiss. She hovers above me as she continues to thrust. I can feel my walls trying to pull her in deeper and out of instinct my hands move down to ass and push down.

Faith moans loudly and buries her face against my neck. She rests on one hand while the other runs up across my shoulder. “Fuck... B! You’re so wet,” she pants out and starts to nibble on my ear. I can feel how wet I am as her cock thrusts into me deeper and faster. I know I’m so close.

“Oh, baby,” I moan out. Her hard nipples are rubbing against me as we move together as one. I feel so connected to her right now and I never want it to end. “Faith... I’m so close... I think I’m gonna come.”

“I am too, baby,” she whispers, her warm breath hitting my ear. She moves her lips down and sucks on my neck again as she moves faster, grunting against my neck as she does. I know she’s leaving a mark, like she’s marking her territory, but I couldn’t care less. It’ll be something I can remember her by while she’s gone.

Suddenly, I remember she’s leaving and I want to cry all over again. Faith seems to realize this and moves her lips up my neck to my cheek, placing light kisses all over my face. I don’t think I’ll ever know how she can tell what I’m thinking, but it’s just one more thing that made me fall so helplessly in love with her.

Faith thrusts harder still, filling my pussy and making me scream her name over and over into the night. My arms wrap around her tightly as she holds me and begins to cry out as well.

“Oh, God, B,” she moans loudly, “I’m gonna come.” She moves her cock out and thrusts incredible deep and I scream out her name as I go crashing over the edge.

“Fuck... oh, Faith!” I scream and launch my body up into her, digging my nails into her back. Her body begins to shudder above me as her orgasm overtakes her. I can feel her cum dripping down on me and it’s the hottest thing ever.

I collapse on the bed and she falls on top of me. Her hands run up and down my sides as I keep my arms wrapped around her. Our bodies are covered in sweat and she rests her head on my shoulder, kissing anywhere her lips can reach. I can feel Faith’s cock still deep inside me, the walls of my pussy pulsing around it.

We rest where we are for a minute before Faith moves and pulls out of me. I whimper and sigh at the loss of her weight and of well, her. She rests on her knees, straddling my legs and removes her strap-on, throwing it to the side. She grins at me before laying back down and kissing me gently.

Faith moves off to my side and rests a hand on my stomach while her other hand brushes through my hair.

“Good?” she smiles and lifts an eyebrow.

“Oh, God, yes,” I laugh at her and pull her to see once again. We kiss softly and I run my fingers through her hair. I pull back and look into her eyes. “You are amazing.”

“I know,” she laughs jokingly and I swat her arm. She lies down on her back and wraps her arm around me, pulling me so my head rests on her shoulder. “I think the neighbors are gonna be pissed in the morning.”

“I’m pretty sure they’re used to it,” I giggle as I run my fingers across her breasts, teasing her nipples. “We really should get a house. Then I can really make you scream.”

“I am really looking forward to that. Maybe we can start looking once I get back,” she says as she sighs. Suddenly I remember she’s leaving in the morning.

“Yeah,” I whisper sadly. Once again, she senses my change in mood and pulls me as close as she can to her, running her hand along my arm.

“I love you, Buffy,” Faith says softly. She’s using my full name again. “Distance can’t change that. I’ll work my ass off there if it means I’ll be back faster. I don’t want to be without you any longer than I have to.”

“I know,” I whisper back and try not to cry. I know she’ll be back. I know she’ll never leave me for someone else. I just don’t want her to go. “When’s your flight?”

Faith looks over at the clock. “Early. I’ll have to leave for the airport in a few hours.”

I sigh. “You’ll probably need to get some sleep.” I look up at her and she’s smiling.

“I can sleep on the plane, baby,” she says as she pulls me up to her. I kiss her cheek and move back to nibble on her ear. She moans quietly. “I wanna be with you for as long as I can.”

“Hmm,” is all I can say. I’m too lost in the feel on her. Her naked body is pressed against mine and I can smell her all over me.

“Are you tired?” she asks me and I nod lightly against her neck.

“For some reason, I’m exhausted for the moment,” I chuckled quietly and she laughs against me, holding me even closer to her.

“Get some sleep, honey,” she kisses the top of my head, “you have to train in the morning.”

“I don’t want to sleep,” I whisper, almost afraid of what she might say, “I want to spend as much time as I can with you.”

“I’m here now,” Faith pulls me so I’m almost on top of her, “just sleep, B.”

“Will you hold me?” I ask so vulnerably I almost want to smack myself at the weakness. Faith’s the only one who’s seen me this way. She’s the only one I trust that much.

“Of course,” she says and wraps her arms around me as much as she can and moves me so my head is resting on her shoulder. “I’ll always hold you, Buffy. I’ll never let you go.”

“I know,” is all I can say. I drift off to sleep feeling only her and I can’t wait until she comes back to me.

The End