I fall to pieces

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Joyce picked up the paper Buffy had left on the counter and read Spike’s heartfelt words. By the time she was finished reading she had tears falling down her face. ‘Why would anyone disapprove of someone loving her this much?’ She wondered.

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Insistent knocking at the door made Giles frown. ‘Who in blue blazes…I’m not expecting anyone.’ Walking towards the door he replaced the glasses on his face. “Buffy?”

“Giles…I need help.” She said softly. He could see her trembling; her eyes were red rimmed and puffy. It was quite obvious to him that she had been crying before she arrived.

Leaving the door open, without inviting her in he walked over to the table and sat down.

“You think he turned me? You think I’d let him do that?” She asked incredulously. She walked in and stood beside him tapping her foot impatiently.

“Buffy it’s not that simple. Spike kidnapped…” Giles glanced at the mark on her neck. He was furious. “He bit you? You let him bite you?”

“You don’t understand…”

“I’m sorry Buffy…but you must understand…Spike…he is an evil soulless monster who gives no thought to anyone else’s feelings…He is a shell of the man he once was with a demon residing in his flesh…”

Buffy glared angrily at him. She walked out of his flat wordlessly, Giles calling her name didn’t even penetrate her anger as she stormed out of the house. ‘I’ll trust my own bloody instincts thank you very much watcher-man.’ She was unconsciously using his words.

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She walked aimlessly. She couldn’t even cry anymore, she had used up all of her tears already. ‘Where is he?’

Suddenly an idea popped into her head and she took off in another direction.

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Getting no satisfaction from the bottle he downed Spike just wanted to go home. He left Willy’s and walked all the way there with his head down, not even enjoying the sun. He walked into his Crypt, slamming the door behind himself.

“Blondie bear!” Harmony shrieked throwing herself at Spike.

“Bloody hell.” He muttered pushing her away. ‘Forgot about the bint.’ Sighing he rolled his eyes. “It's been fun while it lasted, Harm, but I think it'd be best now if you hit the road. I’ll be back tonight and you best not be here.”

”What? Why?” She whined.

“I just can’t deal with you anymore…” He said running his hand through his hair.

“It’s her isn’t it? The slayer. Harmony snarled. “I’m gonna get that bitch.”

Spike’s arm shot out and he had her by the throat before she could even blink. “I would really rethink that if I were you Harm. I think it would be best if you left Sunnydale…”

“Alright alright. What’s your damage?” She growled grabbing him by the wrist.

“I’m…I’m just gonna go. I mean it Harm. Leave. Sunnydale. For good.”

“Ok…Ok…Sheesh…I can smell her all over you…if you think I’d want you back now…” She choked back a sob.

“Shut your gob.” Spike growled as he walked out into the sun.

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“Slayer.” Willy welcomed Buffy into the bar.

“Willy. Have you seen Spike?” She asked.

“He…he uh…he was here earlier…but he left a little while ago…” Willy said nervously wringing his hands.

“Did he say where he was going?” She asked.

“I think he mumbled something about home…but I’m not sure. Is this about him being able to walk in the sun?” Willy asked intrigued by the fact that a Master Vampire could.

“No. It has nothing to do with that…um…if you see him again could you tell him I was looking for him? It’s really important…” Buffy said softly.

“Sure Slayer…sure…”

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Buffy stalked silently towards her goal. She pushed open the crypt door silently. She could feel her ‘Spidey sense’ going off, but knew it wasn’t Spike.

She glanced around and no one was on the upper level so she made her way downstairs. “Harmony…have you seen Spike?” Harmony turned to her with fear in her eyes.

“You’re not here to fight me…are you?” She asked timidly.

“No…I’m really not. Just looking for Spike…” Buffy held up her hands palms out.

“He left…He asked me to move out of Sunnydale…as you can see I’m packing…” Harmony whined.

“He asked you to leave?” Buffy questioned.

“Yeah. He’s in love with you…” Harmony said softly, tears forming in her eyes.

“I know…I have to find him…”

“I knew he didn’t want to kill you. I’ve known for a long time…longer than he has…It’s why Dru left him you know…She knew too…”

“Oh…I didn’t know that…” Buffy said softly. “I have to find him…”

“Oh my god! Are those bite marks? Did he…bite you?” Harmony squealed.

“He…uh Angel said he claimed me…” Buffy said tracing her fingertips over the mark her vampire left.

“Claimed you? If he did that you’ll be able to find him easily…” Harmony smiled.

“Really? How?” Buffy asked excitement shining in her eyes.

“If I tell you…you’re not gonna hurt him are you? I know he isn’t always…”

“I’m not gonna hurt him. I promise…I just really need to…”

“Find him. I know. Ok…close your eyes and concentrate…you’ll be able to feel him. I mean really feel him. He’ll call to you…your mark there…” She pointed at the still inflamed skin. “It’ll tingle…”

“Thanks Harmony. I really appreciate your help.” Buffy smiled.

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Spike knew Buffy would either be in class or making up with Angel, his next destination was decided. He made his way over to Revello Drive. He honestly couldn’t think of anywhere else to go when he needed comfort.

Tapping softly on the door he waited.

“Spike.” Joyce opened the door. “Come on in…”

“I could really use a cuppa Joyce…” His voice was raw with emotion.

“Of course…” She said kindly. “I’ve even stocked up on those tiny marshmallows you like so much.”

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Angrily Angel paced the length of his room. ‘Well my old room anyway. Hasn’t really been mine in a long time. Much better than going into their room.’

He couldn’t think about that room anymore. He couldn’t go into that room, actually no one could go in there. Angel had trashed it. Slashing the bed with his claws he ripped it to pieces. He had knocked over the bedside table, shattering it, and howling in a fit of fury he urinated all over the whole mess. It went a long way towards disguising the scent that still lingered in the air.

That’s why he was upstairs in his room. He couldn’t think down there…couldn’t deny what was right in front of him down there. He couldn’t deny the fact that their mixed scent still lingered down there.

Angel lay down on the bed. ‘Need some sleep. When the sun goes down I’ll go to Buffy’s and talk some sense into her.’ Being as tired as he was sleep came easily to him.

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“Where is Buffy?” Joyce asked.

“Might be at school, or maybe she’s still making up with that bloody ponce.” Spike answered bitterly.

“She went to look for you…I guess she didn’t find you…” Joyce placed a steaming mug in front of him.

Spike didn’t know how to reply to that. He glanced down into his mug and kept his gaze locked there.

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Buffy stepped out into the sunlight. She closed her eyes and concentrated on Spike, on the feelings she could feel growing inside of her. She reached out to him.

She could feel herself being drawn forward, almost as if tendrils of mist were pulling her towards him.

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“You can stay till she gets back if you’d like.” Joyce offered quietly.

Spike nodded. ‘Need to see her, make sure she’s ok.’ Spike took a sip of the hot chocolate, savoring it. Joyce sat down beside him and just let him be silent. When he was finished his mug she offered him another.

“Thank you Joyce. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.” Spike looked right into her eyes and Joyce smiled.

“No problem Spike. My door is always open if you want a cuppa…or just some company.”

“You’re a bit of alright.” Spike smiled sadly. “Don’t know how much the slayer’s gonna want me around though…”

Suddenly he felt her behind him. Closing his eyes he waited for her to enter the room.

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Buffy got a few blocks away from her house. She could feel his mark upon her skin tingling, begging for him to be near. She broke into a dead run. He was calling to her, pulling her willing body to him. Buffy was exhilarated by the feeling. Grinning she pushed open the door to her house.

She stopped outside the kitchen door. Her heart was triphammering in her chest. iCalm down Buffy.’ She admonished herself as she took a few deep breaths.

Pushing the door in slowly her eyes were instantly drawn to him.

His eyes flew open and met hers. Neither of them noticed Joyce leave the room.

She gasped when she saw the intensity of his feelings in his eyes. “Spike…” It was a whisper, a caress of his name.

“Buffy…”

Three long strides and she was in front of him. “Spike…I long for you…I burn for you…when you left…it was…it was a big mistake…I didn’t want you to go…I want to be with you.” She took a step closer, cupping his face in both hands she kissed him softly.

Spike was too stunned to respond. Buffy pulled back slightly and smiled at him. “You are gorgeous, with or without vampface. You’re mine Spike, all mine and I’ll never let you go.” She said passionately.

Spike’s fingers wound themselves into her hair. He inhaled her scent deeply. They leaned towards each other and shared a sensual kiss. “Mmm missed you…” He whispered against her mouth.

“Missed you too…so much…” Her fingers curled into his hair and she tugged him where she wanted him, hissing in pleasure as his tongue came in contact with his mark.

“Spike…” She threw her head back and held him tighter, his blunt teeth dragging over the sensitized flesh.

“My girl…my Buffy…” He whispered against her tender skin.

“Always Spike…” She whispered back.

The phone ringing startled them and they reluctantly pulled apart. Joyce answered it from the living room.

“Hello?”

“Joyce. It’s Rupert…are we still welcome there tonight?” Giles asked.

“Yes of course…” Joyce smiled into the phone. She was looking forward to having a houseful for dinner. Since Buffy had moved into the dorm she had been pretty lonely.

“We’ll see you around six then.” He replied.

She knocked softly on the kitchen door. “Buffy?”

“Yeah Mom, come on in…”

“We’re going to have some company for dinner…”

“That’s nice…” She murmured, not taking her eyes off of Spike. “We’re just gonna go outside in the back yard and lay on the grass in the sun…”

“Ok…I’ll call you when dinner’s almost ready…” Joyce smiled softly at them as they walked out of the house hand in hand.

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Angel awoke with the sunset. He growled softly to himself before getting out of bed. Grabbing his jacket he walked out the door.

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“What are you doing here?” Buffy asked hostilely as when she saw who was on the other side of the door.


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I wasn’t entirely happy with this chappie…but it does move the story along…what do you think? Please let me know. ;)