A Second Chance

Part Five

Ignoring all the laughing and nudging going on around him, Alex kept looking around at the huge number of people watching the ceremony. He said he’d be here, so he’s here, somewhere.

Probably hiding out near the back, because with his eyesight, he could see a lot better than Alex could. He sighed. Would have to wait until it was over to see him.

He’d waited almost four years, what was another hour or two? Shaking his head, he sighed again. Who was he kidding? Another hour or two would drive him up the wall. His hands were already sweating, his knees were shaking and his belly had so many butterflies, he wouldn’t be surprised if he started floating out of his hard metal chair.

And not because he was nervous over graduating high school. Wasn’t like he had never done it before.

Their phone call last night had been intense, the kind where he could barely breathe the whole time they were on the phone. The knowledge that Will’s self-enforced exile was up and he was coming for him made his heart pound in his chest and his head go fuzzy.

“Are you sure you’re ready for this, luv?”

“Of course I am. I’ve been ready for years.”

“Not talkin’ bout sex, you horny buggar. Well, not only about sex.”

“Neither was I! Okay, I was, but it’s all your fault! What else, then?”

Muffled laughter, then a seriousness he rarely heard from the vampire. “Pet, you do realize that the night I come back to you, you won’t be human the next day, right?”

He gulped. He was ready, he was. It was just… “That soon?”

“I can’t go through it again, luv. I can’t do it. I can wait as long as you need, but the next time I see you, it’s gonna be forever, baby.”

“I want forever right now, Spike.”

“You’re sure?”

Rolling his eyes, he had to laugh. “Yeesss, I’m sure. Absolutely, positively, without a doubt sure that I want to spend forever with you. Even if it means watching my family die, I can’t make it without you, Will. And hey, who wouldn’t want to be eighteen forever?”

A pause, then, “Oh shit!”

“What? What’s wrong, Xan?”

“I won’t be able to drink!”

“What?”

“I’ll be eighteen forever, I’ll never be twenty-one!”

“Git.”

“Hey, that’s a serious issue, buster!”

“Git.”

He laughed, his heart feeling lighter than he could ever remember it feeling.

“I love you, y’know?”

“Love you too, pet. So bloody much it scares me.”

“So uh… are we gonna tell mom first or am I just gonna run around soulless and evil having all kinds of fun?”

He could practically hear Spike rolling his eyes. “Of course we’re gonna bloody tell your mother. Not that she doesn’t already know. Fell in love with your soul twice over, didn’t I? Why would I try to get rid of it?”

“Whew. Cuz, I kinda like it, too.”

“Wanker.”

“Only when you make me!”

“Oh, shove off.” He could hear the suppressed laughter, though.

“Sure you wanna put up with me for eternity?”

“Christ, yes.”

He sighed, happily for once. Then looked at the clock and sighed again.

“Damn, I have to get up early for all the shit before graduation. You still coming? It’ll be dark ‘n all.”

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world.”

“Not like I haven’t done it before, but still.”

“Alex, hush. I’m so very proud of ya and I’m bloody coming and then I’m taking ya back to our place and fuckin’ ya till ya can’t move for days. Alright?”

He gulped again, face flushing hotly. “Uh huh.”

“You blushin’?”

“Uh huh.”

“Bloody adorable. See ya tomorrow night, luv.”

“Night, sweetheart. Love you.”

“Love you too, pet.”

Alex blinked, realizing his row was standing up. He had just daydreamed through his whole graduation. He grinned. Didn’t mind at all.

Least it was almost over now. He felt the tingles up and down his spine as he thought about afterwards, the though of dying again making him a bit queasy but worth it, so fuckin’ worth it, to be with Spike forever. The tingles warmed up when he thought about what else the vampire had promised him for tonight.

He glared hotly at the line of kids in front of him, wanting them to move faster, get this charade over with. He had the rest of his life to embrace, didn’t want to spend another moment in this place.

And then it was over.

His mother was hugging him and crying, there were people taking pictures everywhere, and he was surrounded by family. Dawn was pressing his palm to her belly to feel the babies kicking, when he heard the purred voice behind him.

“Bit havin’ puppies?”

She growled playfully, as Alex straightened, shaking, to turn around. Everyone went silent, or maybe it was just that his head shut out everything but the beautiful sight in front of him.

Golden hair, tear-bright blue eyes, snug faded jeans and a black t-shirt, Spike was the most gorgeous man he had even seen. And then those perfect lips quivered once before curving up into a smile and his heart just totally bottomed out.

Willow clenched his hand hard, once, and then slowly let go. His eyes flickered to hers and she smiled tremulously, nodding, and he took a step towards Will. One step was all he needed, because he was suddenly yanked hard up against the vampire’s firm chest, strong arms wrapped tightly around him as they clung, neither daring to even breathe in fear that it was somehow a dream.

There was laughter and some cheers in the background, but for them, everything else just faded away. Almost two decades of pain were wiped clean by the tight embrace, fingers digging in, heads buried in each other’s necks to hide the tears they just couldn’t hold in, shouldn’t have expected to hold in.

When they regained control of their emotions, they lifted their heads, both laughing softly as they wiped each other’s eyes. With Spike’s strong grip around his waist, they turned back to their family and everyone came up to hug them, knowing that they wanted to be gone as soon as possible.

It was a bit embarrassing for Alex, feeling like a bride on her wedding night with the knowing looks passing between everyone, but at least he had some memories of past times to make it a bit easier on his nerves.

When everyone had had their turn, they looked over at Willow and Spike motioned her over, to hug her so tightly she squeaked. “I’ll never forget what you’ve done for me, Red. I owe you more than I could ever repay you. Just know I’ll take care of him, yeah? Love him more than my life.”

“I know, Spike. I could never hand him off to anyone else.” She turned to Alex, cupping his cheek in her hand. “My baby. I love you, so much. Both of you. I’ve got the Orb, and Spike will call when I’m needed. Who knows, maybe you can talk Spike or Angel into turning Tara and I if we ever decide we’re ready. Eternity with this family, I could get used to the idea.”

Xander laughed, feeling his heart swell even more. Spike yanked her forward to kiss her lightly on the forehead. “Would be an honor for either of us, Red. If you ever decide.”

Goodbyes said, Spike led Alex to his car and the rest of the trip home was made in silence, their hands in an unbreakable clasp between them on the seats. His nervousness mounted with every mile closer to the house and Spike just smirked at him, shaking his head.

“All that teasing you’ve done over the years and you’re gettin’ cold feet now?” he said as he pulled the car into the parking lot behind the apartments. “Not cold feet. Just nerves. I’ll be okay when you kiss me.”

Spike groaned, tugging him closer as they walked to the building. “We still haven’t done that, have we?”

“Hard to believe, isn’t it?”

He laughed, unlocking the door and leading Alex inside. “Fuck, it’s so good to be home.”

“Always did feel like home to me. Even when I didn’t remember. Just cuz it was yours.”

“Ours. Was always ours,” Will said, turning to face him and pulling him close. “Do you have any idea how much I need you right now?”

He was sure his eyes glazed, they must have because Spike smirked and nodded. “Yeah, I see you do.”

A cool hand came up to lift his chin, bringing their mouths closer, and it was all he could do not to break out into shivers and melt into a puddle of mush before they even touched. So long, so fuckin’ long, he’d waited for this.

Then Spike’s mouth was on his, cool and sweet and firm and… his mind went blank as he felt the first brush of the vampire’s tongue against his. So good, so fuckin’ good. Why hadn’t he known a simple kiss could be anything but simple?

A few more swipes of Spike’s tongue against his and he felt his knees buckle. How embarrassing. But damn, that tongue was lethal!

The blonde chuckled into his mouth, making him moan at the slight vibrations, and at the small sound from his throat, he felt Spike stiffen and yank him closer, holding him up, tightly against him.

Devouring. That was the only word that could describe what the vampire was doing to his mouth. All Alex could do was hold on tight and give in to the incredible sensations, feeling tremors of pure pleasure skitter up and down his spine.

He didn’t remember them taking their shirts off, but his chest was pressed up against Spike’s cool one, naked one. And wow, wasn’t that an awesome feeling? Then fingers were ghosting over his nipples, plucking, then pinching lightly, and his knees buckled again. Shit. He whimpered as the electric shock of it went straight to his cock, which was already throbbing and hard, poking up into Spike’s. Which was another really nice sensation.

He hadn’t realized they were walking backwards, but the back of his legs hit the bed and he toppled backwards, déjà vu moment there, and then Spike was over him, pressing against him and any other thoughts flew out of his mind.

Lips sucking and biting gently at his neck, as hands worked frantically at his jeans and he lifted his hips a bit to help, hissing as it put more pressure on his aching dick. Then they were open, cool hands on his hot, hot flesh and oh god, should anything feel that good?

His memories didn’t do it justice.

Whimpering, moaning, he arched up into the cool hands, shivering as a wet mouth and sharp teeth fastened over a throbbing nipple. He was being devoured. He found he quite enjoyed it and would never see the word the same way again.

His hands yanked desperately at Spike’s jeans, wanting him now, now, not another minute later. Waited too long already, need it.

Apparently, Spike felt the same, because he leaned up to help jerk his jeans down and off, hissing as their erections pressed against each other, hot and cool, but both throbbing and hard, slick and so, so soft against sensitive flesh. They both shuddered, hands grasping for any skin they could grab onto, eyes blind with the pleasure of it.

“Can’t wait any longer, sorry luv, need you now,” Spike groaned out into his neck, rubbing against him and panting as Alex writhed underneath.

He gasped out, “Don’t b-be sorry, just fuckin’ do it already!” making Spike laugh against the pulse in his neck and rear back onto his knees. While Spike was reaching for the lube, Xander wiggled around to kick his jeans and socks the rest of the way off, sprawling back into the bed.

Within moments, the vampire was back over him, kissing him softly as slick fingers teased around the tight entrance to his body. When he relaxed enough for Spike, the blonde slowly inserted a finger, then two, as he gasped and panted under him. His body adjusted fast to the slow stretch and burn and when Spike hit that spot in him, he threw his head back and keened as his whole body shook.

Oh fuck, so that’s what he’d been missin’. Yeah, memories just didn’t amount to shit when it came to the real thing.

When he was begging hoarsely, body on fire with it, Spike finally, agonizingly slowly, entered him. And ow. Yeah. He breathed in, going still, waiting for the searing pain to fade as he knew it would. Ungh. Yeah, moving was good, too.

Fuck.

He almost wished for the pain back because with this bolt of pure electrifying pleasure every time Spike moved, there was just no way this was gonna last long. Then Spike swiveled his hips and hit his prostate again and Alex decided that it didn’t matter, anyway. They had eternity.

Within minutes, he was screaming and leaving claw marks down Spike’s back but he didn’t have it in him to care. He was on fire, his whole body ached and needed, and oh fuckin’ God, it was so good. Couldn’t breathe, breath was hitching embarrassingly but the vampire loved it, murmuring dirty and hot things into his ears until he was thrashing his head and his body locked up and oh god. Nothing ever felt so good. Surely, he was dead now because living through that? Not likely.

Then teeth buried deep in his throat and ow fuck, then wow… he didn’t remember that feeling so damn good, either. Each long pull from his neck went straight to his cock, making it hard again, pulse again, as his life slowly drained away. And it wasn’t scary, not like he’d thought. Maybe because he was coming again, so hard and fast that everything was spinning and light and faint… and then it faded dark and the last thing he felt was the cool burst within him that was Spike, coming deep inside, the last thing he tasted was the cool, thick iron-y taste of his lover’s blood, and the last thing he heard was a softly whispered, “Love ya so damn much, Alex. See you when ya wake up.”


Epilogue

“Any regrets?” He had felt Spike before he had entered the room and it made him smile, slightly, as he gazed out the window at the night.

“No. Forever with you? Everything I have ever wanted,” he answered his mate, his sire, as Spike pressed close behind him, wrapping his arms around him.

“Same here. Everything to me, Alex.”

He laughed, tilting his head backwards so he could see the blonde. “You always call me that, now. Are you afraid if you call me Xander, I’ll feel bad? Because I am Xander, Spike. As much as I am Alex.”

Pursing his lips, Spike leaned back and cocked his head. “Yeah, a bit, I don’t ever want you to feel like I regret you. I regret the death and the lost years, but I don’t regret Alex.”

“Mm, I know. S’ok, Spike. How bout Alexander?”

“Bit long to scream in bed, luv.”

“True.”

They laughed, and Alex turned away from the window to press his lips lightly to Spike’s. “Love you.”

“Love you, too, pet. Luv, Alex, Xander.”

“Dork.”

“Git.”

“Jerk.”

“Ponce.”

-End-