Nocturnal Bravura
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BtVS AU/AR › Het - Male/Female › Buffy/Spike(William)
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
32
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3,674
Reviews:
17
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A Time To Weep
A Time To Weep
William shut the door to his room. All his friends had let, The Bit was safely tucked into her bed, his father retreated into his study to reflect the way he always did on this day and William, William was alone.
It was not a lonely time for him. It was his time to remember. He felt guilty for how he felt. It was a horrible time. But it was the last time he truly felt any peace. Back when they buried his mother. When he was first called. When everyone thought Spike was gone.
He tried not to long for those days but he did. Those few a precious months he got before the world began to spin out of control again...
FLASHBACK
______________________________________________________________
God’s Teeth he was tired. He had been out for a long time tonight. There were so many of them. Creatures of the night seemed to pop out of nowhere that night. Something was stirring. He could feel it. There were new rumors a New Master of The Hellmouth was being groomed. That it was powerful and feared but William had yet to see it.
17, he thought. He fought 17 new fledglings tonight. A few where difficult but nothing he could not handle.
He was relieved that he no longer had to hide who he was to Willow and Xander. One night a group of vamps tried to attack his friends when they were coming out of The Bronze. William had been there to stop it. Although they were confused and a little bewildered at first with the help of his father they accepted William’s role.
They even began to help when they could. He made them promise however never to tell Lizzie. She was still too fragile.
She had her good days and bad ones.
Sometimes she would be just like the girl he remembered. They would have there conversations yelling at each other from their windows nightly. Then some nights he would see her from his room, staring out the window like she was waiting for something, more to the point she was waiting for Spike.
Some nights he would find her asleep in his bed afraid to be alone. He would go downstairs and sleep on the couch. Other nights he would go over to her house and read to her so she could fall asleep. He knew Spike would want him to be there for her.
William took a shower and crawled into his bed. His body was sore his muscles ached. He began to fall asleep when he heard a tap on his window.
William smiled.
He walked over to the window and opened it reaching out for the person outside.
Lizzie stood there in her yummy sushi pajamas wringing her hands looking nervous.
William laughed and took her hand.
He pulled his covers back.
Lizzie smiled and jumped into his bed like a child.
William went over to the other side of the bed and got in.
“Sorry, I just got a little worried when you got home so late.” Lizzie explained.
William knew she worried about him. Like with Spike she never questioned where he went but sometimes when he came back too late she would panic.
William laid on his side and closed his eyes. They did this often shared his bed. Sometimes it was difficult for him to hide bulge in his sweat pants but he found ways to deal with it. Namely getting up and taking cold showers when he knew Lizzie was sound asleep.
“I know Pet.” He whispered.
William felt Lizzie take his arm and pull it around him.
He smiled.
“Just don’t hog the covers.” William teased.
“I do not hog the covers.” Lizzie pouted.
“Yes you do Luv. I wake up cold every time.” He argued.
“Stop being a baby.” Lizzie said snuggling into his bed.
William laughed.
His fatigue found him again before he knew it he was fast asleep.
Later that night Lizzie heard a voice in her head.
“It can’t be.” She thought.
She opened her eyes and saw William holding her one arm wrapped around her.
Slowly he turned from her.
“Lizzie.” She heard again.
“Lizzie, Come to me...”
Lizzie stood up and looked out the window. She saw nothing. She looked across the way to her room.
Again she heard it.
“Lizzie, please..come to me.” She heard.
Lizzie took one more look back at William. She climbed out the window and made her way down the trellis. She climbed up to her window and stepped into her room.
“No..” She whispered.
Spike turned and looked at his love.
Lizzie began to shake she closed her eyes.
“This isn’t real..this isn’t real.” She chanted.
Spike walked over to her and held her face in his hands.
“I’m real.” He whispered.
Lizzie felt tears coming out of her eyes. She kept her eyes closed and let out a sob when she touched Spike’s hand.
“You’re not dead.” She cried holding onto him tightly.
“Oh God you don’t know. You can’t know. I missed you so much.” Lizzie cried.
Spike began to cry as well.
He touched her face and kissed her lips.
Spike looked in Lizzie eyes.
Lizzie felt herself enter a haze.
“Lizzie, you will forget I was here every time I leave. You will only remember I have come to see you when I am before your eyes again. You will go on thinking I am dead every time I leave your window. ” Spike said looking into her eyes.
“Do you understand?” Spike commanded.
Lizzie nodded.
“I will forget you were here every time you leave. I will only remember you are here every time I see you before my eyes again.” She repeated her voice sounding automated.
Spike kissed her again breaking her trance.
Lizzie looked up at him. For the first time in months she was happy. She threw her arms around him.
Spike laughed and swung her around.
They kissed passionately.
“Where have you been?” Lizzie asked.
“It’s not important Luv.” He whispered.
“I thought you were dead. I was so lost.” Lizzie cried
Spike kissed her softly and whispered in her ear.
“Though lovers be lost love shall not; And death shall have no dominion.”
Spike sat down on her bed pulling her into his lap. Lizzie sat down laughing.
“I think I missed this most of all being in your arms.
Spike kissed her shoulder.
“Who are you?” He teased.
Lizzie laughed.
“I’m Perfect Princess Buffy and you are my humble slave...”
FLASHBACK ENDS
__________________________________________________________________
He had found out later from Spike that he would come to her at night. Try to ease her pain. He always said he was trying to help her heal. William argued with him all the time.
FLASHBACK
_______________________________________________________
“What you did just made her worse she was healing just fine!” William spat.
“Really that so then tell me why it happened!” Spike would yell.
“Don’t you dare blame this ALL on me.” Spike would say.
“Not after what you did.”
____________________________________________________________
William gasped raising his head for the his desk. Again his face was drenched in sweat. He opened his door and walked into Dawn’s room and looked at the sleeping girl. She trusted him with her life. He kept his secrets. He betrayed her time and time again. The things he knew about the sister she adored. The thing he had done. William left the room and walked back into his room. He closed the door and sunk to the ground weeping.
“I’m sorry Dawnie.” He whispered.
“I wish I could take it back.....”
William shut the door to his room. All his friends had let, The Bit was safely tucked into her bed, his father retreated into his study to reflect the way he always did on this day and William, William was alone.
It was not a lonely time for him. It was his time to remember. He felt guilty for how he felt. It was a horrible time. But it was the last time he truly felt any peace. Back when they buried his mother. When he was first called. When everyone thought Spike was gone.
He tried not to long for those days but he did. Those few a precious months he got before the world began to spin out of control again...
FLASHBACK
______________________________________________________________
God’s Teeth he was tired. He had been out for a long time tonight. There were so many of them. Creatures of the night seemed to pop out of nowhere that night. Something was stirring. He could feel it. There were new rumors a New Master of The Hellmouth was being groomed. That it was powerful and feared but William had yet to see it.
17, he thought. He fought 17 new fledglings tonight. A few where difficult but nothing he could not handle.
He was relieved that he no longer had to hide who he was to Willow and Xander. One night a group of vamps tried to attack his friends when they were coming out of The Bronze. William had been there to stop it. Although they were confused and a little bewildered at first with the help of his father they accepted William’s role.
They even began to help when they could. He made them promise however never to tell Lizzie. She was still too fragile.
She had her good days and bad ones.
Sometimes she would be just like the girl he remembered. They would have there conversations yelling at each other from their windows nightly. Then some nights he would see her from his room, staring out the window like she was waiting for something, more to the point she was waiting for Spike.
Some nights he would find her asleep in his bed afraid to be alone. He would go downstairs and sleep on the couch. Other nights he would go over to her house and read to her so she could fall asleep. He knew Spike would want him to be there for her.
William took a shower and crawled into his bed. His body was sore his muscles ached. He began to fall asleep when he heard a tap on his window.
William smiled.
He walked over to the window and opened it reaching out for the person outside.
Lizzie stood there in her yummy sushi pajamas wringing her hands looking nervous.
William laughed and took her hand.
He pulled his covers back.
Lizzie smiled and jumped into his bed like a child.
William went over to the other side of the bed and got in.
“Sorry, I just got a little worried when you got home so late.” Lizzie explained.
William knew she worried about him. Like with Spike she never questioned where he went but sometimes when he came back too late she would panic.
William laid on his side and closed his eyes. They did this often shared his bed. Sometimes it was difficult for him to hide bulge in his sweat pants but he found ways to deal with it. Namely getting up and taking cold showers when he knew Lizzie was sound asleep.
“I know Pet.” He whispered.
William felt Lizzie take his arm and pull it around him.
He smiled.
“Just don’t hog the covers.” William teased.
“I do not hog the covers.” Lizzie pouted.
“Yes you do Luv. I wake up cold every time.” He argued.
“Stop being a baby.” Lizzie said snuggling into his bed.
William laughed.
His fatigue found him again before he knew it he was fast asleep.
Later that night Lizzie heard a voice in her head.
“It can’t be.” She thought.
She opened her eyes and saw William holding her one arm wrapped around her.
Slowly he turned from her.
“Lizzie.” She heard again.
“Lizzie, Come to me...”
Lizzie stood up and looked out the window. She saw nothing. She looked across the way to her room.
Again she heard it.
“Lizzie, please..come to me.” She heard.
Lizzie took one more look back at William. She climbed out the window and made her way down the trellis. She climbed up to her window and stepped into her room.
“No..” She whispered.
Spike turned and looked at his love.
Lizzie began to shake she closed her eyes.
“This isn’t real..this isn’t real.” She chanted.
Spike walked over to her and held her face in his hands.
“I’m real.” He whispered.
Lizzie felt tears coming out of her eyes. She kept her eyes closed and let out a sob when she touched Spike’s hand.
“You’re not dead.” She cried holding onto him tightly.
“Oh God you don’t know. You can’t know. I missed you so much.” Lizzie cried.
Spike began to cry as well.
He touched her face and kissed her lips.
Spike looked in Lizzie eyes.
Lizzie felt herself enter a haze.
“Lizzie, you will forget I was here every time I leave. You will only remember I have come to see you when I am before your eyes again. You will go on thinking I am dead every time I leave your window. ” Spike said looking into her eyes.
“Do you understand?” Spike commanded.
Lizzie nodded.
“I will forget you were here every time you leave. I will only remember you are here every time I see you before my eyes again.” She repeated her voice sounding automated.
Spike kissed her again breaking her trance.
Lizzie looked up at him. For the first time in months she was happy. She threw her arms around him.
Spike laughed and swung her around.
They kissed passionately.
“Where have you been?” Lizzie asked.
“It’s not important Luv.” He whispered.
“I thought you were dead. I was so lost.” Lizzie cried
Spike kissed her softly and whispered in her ear.
“Though lovers be lost love shall not; And death shall have no dominion.”
Spike sat down on her bed pulling her into his lap. Lizzie sat down laughing.
“I think I missed this most of all being in your arms.
Spike kissed her shoulder.
“Who are you?” He teased.
Lizzie laughed.
“I’m Perfect Princess Buffy and you are my humble slave...”
FLASHBACK ENDS
__________________________________________________________________
He had found out later from Spike that he would come to her at night. Try to ease her pain. He always said he was trying to help her heal. William argued with him all the time.
FLASHBACK
_______________________________________________________
“What you did just made her worse she was healing just fine!” William spat.
“Really that so then tell me why it happened!” Spike would yell.
“Don’t you dare blame this ALL on me.” Spike would say.
“Not after what you did.”
____________________________________________________________
William gasped raising his head for the his desk. Again his face was drenched in sweat. He opened his door and walked into Dawn’s room and looked at the sleeping girl. She trusted him with her life. He kept his secrets. He betrayed her time and time again. The things he knew about the sister she adored. The thing he had done. William left the room and walked back into his room. He closed the door and sunk to the ground weeping.
“I’m sorry Dawnie.” He whispered.
“I wish I could take it back.....”