Wicked Ways

Chapter 10

"And then he leaned forward-"


"Eeek," Willow squealed, listening attentively as the girl in front of her finished her story.


"And kissed me goodnight…on the cheek," Buffy blurted and took a sip at her drink.


"Huh"? Willow sent Buffy a confused look. It was followed by a harsh glare when she took her time finishing her drink.


"I know Wills," Buffy put the glass on the table with a thud "It’s like I'd fallen to bizarro world…I mean we are talking about Spike here, right?"


"I guess he's trying to be a gentleman,"


"He's trying to drive me crazy," Buffy murmured


Willow couldn't help but laugh at her friend's expression


"What?" Buffy frowned.


"Nothing," Willow shook her head chuckling, taking a few moments to calm herself down.


"It's just-" she sighed “look at you Buffy… you're never pleased with anything, Spike's trying to do right by you. He’s trying to be someone you could trust…I thought that's what you wanted-"


"It is," Buffy cut through her friend's words "I just…I just wonder if it's not all an act…if he's not just after something-"


"What?" Willow looked at her skeptically "trying to get into your pants? Already been there, remember?"


"Right," Buffy gazed blankly into space


"Buffy…Spike has feelings for you, he wouldn't had gone through all this trouble for a second go-"


"What do you want Spike?"


"A second chance,"


"-It's time to get over the past and move forward…I'm sure Spike wants the same thing," Willow added


"…the only thing I can care about is you…I never felt this way about anyone,"


"Did you hear what I said Buffy?" Willow gazed at her friend who looked deep in thought.


"Loud and clear,"

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It was already late when Buffy walked into her dark apartment. Since Xander started running his pub, she’d gotten used to the dim lights and noises coming from the late night New-York street, keeping her company. During the day, she dedicated herself to her studies and her art, but in the evenings, she just liked to linger in her room, lie flat on her bed and stare at the shadows playing on the walls.


Buffy put her handbag down on the counter and went to her room while pulling her shirt over her head.


She yelped in surprise as she noticed a dark figure standing in the shadows


"What the hell?" Buffy breathed hard, her shirt still wrapped around her arms


"Sorry…didn't mean to startle you luv," Spike said and sat at the edge of her bed, looking relaxed more then ever.


"Jesus, Spike…are trying to kill me?" she said and covered her bare chest.


"No need to feel shy pet," Spike smirked and gazed at her fervently


"And he's back," Buffy muttered and put her shirt back on


Spike tilted his head and gazed at her like he was waiting for something


"What are you doing here?" Buffy asked calmly, surprised to see him again so soon


"We have a date,"


"What are you talking about?"


Spike got up and closed the gap between them "I said I'll come to see you,"


"When was that?" Buffy said quietly gazing into his eyes, wishing he wouldn't notice the effect his proximity had on her


Spike reached out his hand and played with a lock of Buffy's hair between his fingers


"I said goodnight," he talked huskily and watched her closely "and then I kissed you like that." Spike leaned and gave Buffy a peck on the check "and then I said I'll see you tomorrow kitten," he whispered in Buffy's ear.


"Oh," Buffy inhaled sharply, becoming intoxicated by his scent, a mixture of cigarettes and cologne, Spike's scent "I forgot,"


Spike turned to look at her again "Did you now?"


"Spike-" Buffy gazed down to the floor, avoiding his deep blue eyes


"You're tired," Spike said as if he was reading her mind


"Yeah actually," Buffy met his gaze


"Do you mind if I'll stay here for a while? Just to...talk," Spike was surprised by his own words.


"No," Buffy shook her head and took a step back, breaking the spell


"Just let me freshen up, I'll be right back," She walked past him to the bathroom next to her room.


Spike sighed and scanned the room. It was bigger then he remembered it, it had more space, no more girly stuff like the stuffed animals Buffy used to collect. The boy bands posters were replaced by Buffy's paintings, and there were lots of them just lying around on her nightstand and on the floor.


"How's art school?" Spike asked, still looking around.


"It's going really well," Buffy, answered behind the closed door "I didn't think I could get in without Dad’s strings...but guess what," she opened the door and walked back in


"People actually think I'm good at what I do," Buffy smiled at Spike who could not help but smile back warmly.


"Sure you are pet," Spike closed the gap between them and just noticed she’d changed her jeans for tiny shorts, he couldn't take his eyes off them, even if he wanted to.


"They'll make me do sketches with nude models in no time," Buffy grinned


"Need a volunteer?" Spike gazed up at her with a cocky smirk.


"Ha-ah," Buffy sneered, "I wouldn't mind…but I don't you to scare people off,"


"You think I have something that would scare people?" with a leer, Spike put his hands in his pockets, tightening his jeans around his crotch.


Buffy rolled her eyes and walked by him, to take her hairbrush from the nightstand.


"Painting you will be a pain, you can't hold still for a minute," Buffy said and gazed at mirror in front of her.


"You can always draw from memory," Spike chuckled and added "like you did before,"


He regretted the words as soon as they left his mouth Buffy froze and glared at him through the mirror in front of her


"Oh bugger," Spike muttered under his breath as Buffy turned to face him


"You saw the portrait?" Buffy asked, shocked


"Just a glimpse," Spike blurted not meeting her gaze.


"You mean like…'oops I accidentally opened Buffy's drawer and went through her stuff' glimpse?"


"Well…yeah," Spike gazed at her blankly


"I can't believe you!" Buffy said harshly


"I'm sorry alright…I was curious,"


"That's why you acted stunned when I came into the room," Buffy mumbled remembering all that had happened since that moment.


"Buffy," Spike came closer "luv, I'm sorry…it was bloody stupid of me, I didn't think, I never think, you know that,"


"Is this is why you changed your attitude towards me?" Buffy looked at his eyes.


"Partly yeah," Spike admitted, "it's not what makes me want you. It just cast a new light on a few things,"


"Like what?" Buffy muttered less angrily


"Like how bloody amazing you are," Spike smiled


Buffy gazed down at her hands, taking a moment to think.


"Forgive me?" Spike asked sheepishly


When you put it that way…Buffy looked up at him "don't do it again,"


Spike nodded


"I mean it Spike," Buffy said with a warning tone "I don't like it when people invade my privacy, not even silly stunts like switching Christmas presents under the tree," she glared at him dead in the eye


A slow grin spread across Spike's face "That was bloody hilarious!"


Buffy slapped his chest when he chuckled


"Xander still thinks I bought him that dildo!" she said blushing

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"You're homophobic!" Anya crossed her arms and sat up straight on her bed gazing at the man lying next to her.


"Am not,"


"Fine…you're a lesbian-phobic…which by the way makes it worse in my book,"


"Alright… I'll bite," Xander inhaled sharply "how is that worse?" He sat up as well and glared at her.


"Men are supposed to be turned on when watching two women make out-"


"Not when one of those women are your best friend!---then you're a pervert,"


"Fine whatever…you know what Xander, if you'll keep brushing me off with these lame excuses-"


"I'm not baby…I told you I'm just tired," Xander opened his arms to her and let her rest her head on his chest.


"I know you are," Anya sighed "but you better wake up in 15 minutes for another round…I’m still up for more after the last one and we agreed on at least 3-"
The sound of Xander’s snore cut through Anya's rambling, Anya looked up at him and rested her head back on chest, closing her eyes smiling.

---

Buffy felt her back hit the mattress and broke away from Spike's lips.


"I thought you were here to talk," she said panting as he nuzzled her neck


"And you believed me?" she felt him smiling against her skin


Buffy grabbed a handful of his curled hair and made him look at her "You are not getting away with this by distracting me," she smiled at him playfully


"Watch me," Spike smirked right before capturing her lips again.


"Ummm," Buffy moaned into his mouth, then rolling on the bed so she would be lying on top of him


"Xander could be here in any minute," Buffy said sitting on his lap, breathing heavily.


"I don't bloody care," Spike sat up and cupped her breasts, while nibbling her neck


"Oh god Spike," Buffy arched her back when Spike grabbed her rear and pushed his pelvis against hers, letting his desire be known.


"No…you need to go," Buffy pushed him back by the shoulders and pleaded "please,"
She needed time to catch her breath. Things were happening too fast and she’d promised herself not to be with him again until she was sure


"Not going anywhere sweetheart," Spike pushed her onto the bed and crawled on top of her.


"Wait," Buffy gasped and shivered as Spike trailed kisses down her chest with an opened mouth, she wanted to protest, but felt lost under his touch.


"Need you so much," Spike blurted and caught Buffy's lips again with blunt teeth, kissing her wildly.


Suddenly Buffy jerked her face away with a frown. Spike froze


"What is it?" he gazed down at her and noticed her eyes glittering


"You're hurting me," Buffy murmured with a trembling lip, avoiding his gaze,


"I'm so-"


Spike came to rest his forehead against Buffy's, but she turned her head away.


"I'm sorry," he whispered in her ear and paused, thinking what to say next, how to make her understand "I just want you so bloody much…I can't even see straight,"
He closed his eyes and hoped to god he didn't ruin everything.


Buffy turned to look at him coldly "Get off me," she muttered and Spike complied quickly by sitting straight.


Noticing her relaxing as the weight of his body was lifted; Spike couldn’t help but think he screwed up for good this time. He looked down, cursing himself for being such a wanker,

Still trapped between Spike's legs, Buffy sat up and glared at the man before her, emotions clearly playing over face. Her heart ached when she noticed how ashamed he was.


A moment passed and Buffy rested her hand on Spike's chest. He glanced at her in surprise. She almost felt dazed by the intensity of his stare, one full of awe. She’d never thought any man would look at her that way, most of all Spike… and now she knew, he owned that look.


Her hand traveled down to the hem of his shirt, and snaked under it, to get access to the buttons of his jeans.


"What are you doing?" Spike asked with a strangled voice


"Shut up," Buffy attacked his mouth while tugging on the buttons.



"Buffy," it was Spike's turn to gasp when she lifted his t-shirt and started kissing down his chest, unbuttoning him when she tongued his navel



Buffy took him out of his pants and then gazed up at him, her eyes widening.


"I’ve never done this so I could use some pointers,"

ohgodohgodohgod was all Spike could think about. The sight of Buffy between his legs alone, could bring him to his knees


And now her big green eyes were gazing at him


And she was cupping his balls.


Jesus


"Buffy," his hand brushed a lock of hair from her face "you don't have to do this," Spike hissed in a breath and tried to gain a little bit self control.


"I want to," Buffy said softly and before Spike could say another word she reached and took him in her mouth.


"That's disgusting,"


"What…oral sex?"


"You and yes,"


"You mean you haven't-"


"No and I never will,"


Spike was dazzled by Buffy's touch but couldn't help thinking of the conversation they had not so long ago.


"When you are in love with someone as deeply as you claimed you've been, you want to give him everything…every pleasure…especially that,"


"I will never love somebody that much,"


Spike looked down at Buffy and closed his eyes at the sight of her. It was almost too much…


"Buffy stop," he barely got the words out and immediately regretted them


"Did I do something wrong?" Buffy gazed up at him innocently.


Bloody hell Spike thought watching her licking her lips, like a child, that was caught eating candy.


"No luv," Spike held her shoulders and helped her sit up.

"What is it?" Buffy asked bewildered


I love you too "I want to be inside you," Spike murmured and kissed her passionately, and pushed her back onto the mattress.


"Is this okay?" Spike broke the kiss and asked to make sure


"Oh yes," Buffy said panting and resumed the kiss.


Spike didn't know what caused Buffy to open up to him that way again. But he thanked his lucky stars that he was given the chance to show her what his feeling were all about. Even if he couldn’t put them into words yet, when he’d finally removed all of her clothes he took a long look at her, admiring her naked form


"Spike?" Buffy said blushing under his intense stare


"I don't have one," Spike remembered they needed to use protection.


"We don't need it…I'm on a pill," Buffy answered looking a bit shy.


"Oh,” Did she make sure because of me? The answer only made Spike want Buffy more.


"Spike these long pauses are really starting to freak me out, would you just snap out of it and fuck me?"


Spike shook his head smiling, that's my girl


"Gonna shag your little brains out," he brushed his lips against hers softly


"Promises, promises," Buffy smiled against his lips and wrapped her legs around him.


When they were finally joined, there was no doubt in Buffy's mind, best not to think things through. All that arguing and verbal battles made no difference, at the end the promises were forgotten. All that mattered was feeling her lover in her arms, making love to her. Even if he didn't know it, Spike was making love to her and nothing made her happier.

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The morning light, breaking through the window woke up Xander from the most peaceful sleep he had in ages


"Morning honey," Anya walked in with two cups of coffee in her hands


"What time it is?" Xander blinked sitting up in the bed.


"Eleven," Anya smiled and put Xander's cup on the night stand next to him.


"Oh shit—Buffy," Xander muttered and ran a hand through his hair.


"She’s a big girl, I'm sure she could mange a night without her big brother watching her," Anya sat next to him and sipped her coffee


"I know that An…but I should have at least called her or something, tell her I'm here,"


"Believe me she wouldn't mind," Anya grinned


"What's that look...you know something don't you?"


"She's with Spike," Anya got up from bed


"And you know that…how?"


"He told me he was going to see her,"


"Great," Xander got up from bed, searching for his pants "how come Spike's sharing with you all of a sudden?' Xander grumbled


"Jealous honey?" Anya winked at him and went to look at herself at the mirror.


Xander shrugged and pulled up his pants


"Oh-my-god," Anya turned to look at him


"Anya, please not again with your crazy theories-"


"No," Anya cut in waving her hand and Xander glared at her, waiting for an explanation


"I just can't believe how obsessed you are with this. Just tell me Xander, what is about Spike that it bothers you so much?"


Xander sighed and grabbed his t-shirt from the floor


"I know you all think I'm blind," he said gazing down at his shirt "but I'm not," he added as Anya opened her mouth to say something.

"Buffy is in love with Spike…she probably has been since they first met. I should know. I was there-"


Anya crossed her arms and stared at him.


"But Spike never knows what he wants. Spike is the type of guy that just stumbles through life without taking any responsibility-"


"And Buffy is a responsibility?" Anya asked confused.


"Buffy needs someone stable…someone who would take care of her," Xander met Anya's gaze "She never had that," Xander muttered under his breath and put on his shirt.

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"Morning luv," Spike nuzzled Buffy's neck when he felt her waking up


Buffy turned to look at him "You're here," she smiled slightly


"Where else would I be?" Spike asked as he smoothed the hair from her face


"It's just the last time-"


Spike silenced her with a soft kiss


"Umm," Buffy licked her lips and gazed up at him with a bright smile.


Spike's eyes darkened with lust as he watched her "Buffy I-"


"What time is it?" Buffy cut trough his words and glanced at the watch on her nightstand.


"Oh it's late," she said and pulled away from him, getting up.


Spike sighed and got up as well


"I'm sorry," Buffy said as looked at his frowning face” I have classes today and I have some things to do before I-"


"That's alright," Spike smiled leaned to kiss her briefly



They got dressed in silence and met each other by the door



"Maybe I could meet you at Alex's place. I'll buy some groceries and then I'll stop by so we could have breakfast together?" Buffy turned to Spike looking hopeful


"Sure kitten," Spike cupped her face and kissed her in reassurance.


"Have nothing better to do anyway," he smiled as they walked out

---

The grocery store was empty. Buffy went through the shelves looking for an orange juice she liked, when a familiar giggle at the other side of the aisle came to her ears.


"Kim you slut…I'll tell you everything when I come over to the salon," she heard Harmony talking on her cell. When she looked closely through the groceries on the shelf, she noticed her standing near the beauty section


Figures


"fine!…I'll tell you now…it was fuckin' awesome okay…Spike was so turned on when he saw me naked in his bed that he couldn't take his hands from me," she giggled.


Buffy froze and could help but listen to rest of the convection.


"…and where were you two nights ago…watching reruns of friends?" harmony teased


Buffy bit her lip, her mind working overtime.


"I dunno Kim...we've done it so many times, I think I broke poor Spikey,"


Buffy heard Harmony laughing again and decided it was time to go to the register.

tbc