Crash and Burn

Crash and Burn
By: Mistress Titania

Notice: These characters are not mine, they belong to Joss. I am just borrowing them to play with.

Ratings: FRM to FRAO

Pairings: Xander/Anya/Buffy, eventually Xander/Spike, Willow/Tara, others will be revealed later

Warnings: Graphic Descriptions of Xander torture, Domestic Abuse, Forced Prostitution, Non-Con, Eating Disorder, Slash(which will eventually get smutty), Language, mentions of past physical and sexual child abuse, Character Bashing (Anya, Buffy, Rogue, Jean Gray), AU after Season 7, OOC, Hurt/Comfort, that’s all I can think of right now

Spoilers: To be on the safe side I’ll say the whole series but with rewrites. Spike has his chip and soul but no craziness. Tara is still alive and Willow doesn’t become addicted to magic. They defeated the first without destroying the town or Spike. Oh, Anya is still alive, for the time being at least.*grins evilly* With X-Men I’m basing the characters off of the animated series that was on FOX in the ‘90s. I can’t remember what it was called other than “X-Men”.

Status: WiP, updated usually on Thursdays

Summary: Xander is an abusive relationship with Anya and Buffy. Spike has to help him recover. Eventually will be a crossover with X-Men.

Author’s Note: Things are really bad in the beginning but there will be a happy ending for Xander and Spike. All the wicked will be punished.

Thanks for all the wonderful reviews. That massive pleas for more is why this is being posted today instead of waiting until next week. Normally this story will be updated on Thursdays.

Not Beta’d yet. So many of you requested more right away the Beta’d version should be up in a couple of days. But for those who have a problem reading unbeta'd stories check back in a couple of days.
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I often but song at the ends of the chapter so that if you don’t want read them you can skip them easily. However, this time I feel these two songs really help set the mood for the story. The first song would be Spike’s song and where I got the title from. The second song is one I think fits Xander, although I did cut out a few verses of the song. Both songs are written and preformed by Darren Hayes & Daniel Jones, also known as Savage Garden. These songs are from there Affirmation album if anyone is interested in finding the songs.


When you fell all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It’s hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can’t take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I’ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If need to crash and burn then crash and burn
You’re not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You’re caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When the hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can’t face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I’ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If need to crash and burn then crash and burn
You’re not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
and when it’s over you’ll breath again
You’ll breathe again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I’ll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If need to crash and burn then crash and burn
You’re not alone

-Crash and Burn



Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write
Another lonely highway in the black of night
But there’s hope in the darkness
You know your going to make it

Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Silent fortress built to last
Wonder how I ever made it
-Two Beds and a Coffee Machine

Chapter One: Blind No More

bold italic = research Willow finds(true information by Michael G. Conner, Psy.D; www.crisiscounseling.com; revised March 29, 2004)

Willow spent all night alternating between researching on the computer and sobbing into Tara’s shoulder. The more she read the more she became distraught and the more distraught she became the more she forced herself to read. ‘In 100 domestic violence situations approximately 40 cases involved violence by women against men. That means roughly 300,000 to 400,000 men are treated violently by their wife or girlfriend(each year in United States).’ Willow was sure she need some type of punishment for having been so blind for so very long to her best friend’s trouble. She was taking notes and printing page after page of information. Willow was surprised at how much information she was finding. Instead of making her happy though it made her even sadder to know why there was so much information and how it came about. “The impact of domestic violence is less apparent and less likely to come to the attention of other when men are abused. For example, it is assumed that a man with a bruise or black eye was in a fight with another man or was injured on the job or playing contact sports.” Or in Xander’s case that they had a fight with vampire, Willow thought to herself. glanced over her shoulder and gave Tara a small smile before turning back to the computer. Goddess, wasn’t she lucky to have found Tara. Once this was over she was going to give Tara the ring that was in her bedroom at Buffy’s house. It was time they make their relationship official even if the law would recognize them. But one situation at a time.

Tara managed a return smile to Willow before she was facing the computer again. Tara sat on a near by couch watching her lover tear herself apart. The facts there were finding out made them feel even worse that they didn’t notice for so long. “Many abused men believe it is their fault or feel they deserve the treatment they receive. They assume blame for events that other people would not. They feel responsible and have an unrealistic belief that they can and should do something that will make things better.” There was not much she could do to make this situation better other than support Willow with lots of hugs and kisses and start researching spells. Tara decided to make so more tea knowing it was going to be a very long night. She might as well make some double chocolate cookies while she was at. They could all use some chocolate. She wanted to make sure that the one of the house clocks got set to London time that way they knew when it was safe to call Giles. No one was sure which of them would tell Giles what was going, it was going to hurt him no matter who told.

Dawn sat on pillow on the floor near Willow’s feet reading everything that came out of the printer. That goodness Buffy was so eager to go on this date that she didn’t try and invite herself along to this girls night. But then if Dawn really thought about it, Buffy hadn’t been to a girls night in a very long time. She hadn’t even done anything sisterly with Dawn in a very long time. Buffy choose to leave her in Willow and Tara’s care whenever possible. Tonight that was fine, they didn’t need Buffy in their way. Dawn wanted to cry with everything she was reading. “Women who are abusive toward men usually have unrealistic expectations and make unrealistic demands of men. These women will typically experience repeated episodes of depression, anxiety, frustration and irritability which they attribute to a man’s behavior.” How could they have all been so blind? Oh, poor Spike, this going to kill him if he doesn’t already know. In away Dawn was closer to Spike than anyone else in the world. They told each other everything. Their hopes, their dreams, their fears, and their crushes. If only he had spoke up sooner maybe they wouldn’t be in this situation. No, that wasn’t fair of her to think. This was no Spike’s fault. There was only one person who’s fault this was.

The Bitch, aka Anya!

Once they had a good amount of information the three young women sat around the kitchen table. They took turns reading and taking notes. Next came the planning stage. After through all kinds of wild ideas out there, most of which were illegal, they decided on a tentative plan. A call to Giles on speaker phone had the plan smoothed out and finalized. Their plan would go into effect tomorrow night. They couldn’t risk waiting for Giles to arrive from London. Finally around five in the morning the girl went to bed. Dawn slept with Willow and Tara for comfort.

Tomorrow night they would put their plan into action and save Xander.

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Chapter Two: The First Step

Spike’s PoV-

I looked at the clock for the twentieth time since I go to the Magic Shop. Xander was showing up again. Anya arrived without him saying that he was walking to Magic Box in hopes of losing weight. That doesn’t sound like my Xanpet at all. I can’t believe his so called friends are paying attention. I know something is wrong and has been wrong for a while now. I know Anya is behind it too. Xander has stopped making jokes, stopped eating junk food, stopped watching TV, stopped playing video games, stopped playing pool, stopped laughing, stopped smiling, stopped wearing his signature clothing, and sold his comic book collection. Basically he has stopped being his normal self. I have smelt nothing but pain and misery on him. I don’t like that smell on my Xanpet. While it is true a couple months ago Xander put on some weigh that is no longer the case. He now looks like a strong wind would knock him down. I saw him take off his shirt while working on moving things for Giles and I could make out every bone in his body. It looked like he had even lost muscle growth. Plus with my vampric eyes I could make out lots of little scars all over his body, fresh scars.

I know Anya maybe human but she is still thinking like a demon. I can’t believe his friends forget that she was a demon who hated men. Yet, they remind me I’m a vampire every chance they get. If I could just get this chip removed I would show her a thing or two about how to treat my Xander.

Oi, I really have to stop thinking about him as my Xander. He’s not my Xander and probably will never be my Xander. I notice Tara watching me and then glancing at Anya. After a few moments Tara motions for me to go the training room. I act like I’m going out for a smoke and slip into the training room.
Willow arrives a few moments later.

“Alright, Red what did you want to see me for?”

“Spike, I know you are worried about Xander. Your not the only one. I know it looks like we don’t care but we really do. Willow, Dawn, and myself can see the major changes in Xander’s behavior. But none of us are allowed to talk to Xander without Anya being at his side. She is afraid he’ll cheat on her. Today was also another clue. There is no way Xander needs to walk across town after working all day. And he has no weight to lose anymore! I know you’ve seen how skinny he has become. But the problem is I know if I ask Xander he’ll just lie to me. I can’t get really pin Anya down without proof ever since she became buddy/buddy with Buffy. So, Tara and I devised this spell that will start when Xander shows up. It will make it so that no one in the Magic Box can lie or leave until the spell is lifted. If, this goes the way I figured I want you to take Xander and get out of town for a while. Here,” Willow thrusts something into my hand. “is a key to a hotel room in Las Vegas. I have paid for it on the credit card my folk got me. It is rented for a month and we can always make it longer. The place is called an extended stay lodges and it is few blocks from the Strip. The one your staying at was just finished being built last month. They have a stove, microwave, and refrigerator in the room. You will have a supply of human blood delivered to you weekly. I called Giles in London for help. He was the one to get in contact with the blood supplier and double check the spell. He is going to try to get to either Sunnydale or Las Vegas as soon as possible. If, for some unlikely reason we are all getting upset over nothing your still welcomed to use the room for a month. I know you are in love with Xander. And I’m sorry I didn’t push him harder in high school to admit he was gay but I was to busy fighting my own gayness. Come on, let’s get out there and wait for Xander.”

I just follow meekly behind Red to stunned to really say much. I guess need to take Red, Glenda, and the Watcher of my to kill list. Dawnie was never on it of course. I settle back in my chair and stair at the door. Finally I see Xander approach the shop. It takes everything in me to not go to game face. Even across the street I can see the bruises on his face, the limp of his left leg and that his right arm is in a sling. He moves like his whole body is also bruised but I can’t tell because of the long sleeves and long pants. Finally, he enters the shop. As the door shuts behind him there is a flash of light indicating the spells have taken effect.

As soon as the flash is gone I rush over to Xander and help him sit down on the couch. I notice Anya giving Xander the evil eye.

“Xander, you idiot. Where is my mocha with soy milk and extra sprinkles? Are you so useless that you can’t remember a simple drink order? No wonder you lose all those jobs.”

“Anya, you know very well I lost those jobs because I was unable to go to work due you hitting me the night before.” When the words leave Xander’s mouth I can see is whole body shake with fear. Anya starts stalking towards with her hand out to slap him. Willow quickly raises her hand and chants softly. Rope appears from thin air and ties Anya to a chair.

“Willow what are you doing? Anya was just going to slap him for telling a…” Whatever Buffy wanted to say was replaced with truth thanks to the spell. “for telling the reasons he lost jobs. He was supposed to keep it a secret. His a loser and would have lost those jobs anyway.” Willow quickly chants softly again. This time Buffy is tied to a chair but with a gag in her mouth.

“Willow, I thought they couldn’t lie? She just called Xander loser and he is not a loser!” Dawn was glaring at her sister.

“I guess the spell only works on things that are concrete in truth. After all truth can be a tricky thing. Anyway, since Buffy believes it so strongly that makes it true for her. It’s a good thing I made this potion just in case the spell had a loophole. This is a truth potion and they can only speak when answering a question and then they can only answer the real truth not what they believe is true,” Tara explained.

Willow quickly gave a dose to Anya after forcing her mouth open and repeated the process with Buffy. She stopped in front of Xander. I sat down next to him but was afraid to touch, I didn’t want to cause him more pain. For a few moments Xander just sat still in shock but now he is slowly rocking back after pulling his knees to his chest. I could tell that hurt to do but he didn’t seem to be conscious of the pain.

“Xander, I know your scared but I need to give you some medicine that will help with it. Can you open your mouth?” Willow asks him softly. Xander opens his mouth and sticks out his tongue without any other signs that he was aware of his surroundings. Willow motions for me to move over to where Tara and Dawn are.

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General PoV-

“Okay, Xander’s potion is a little different. From what I read I had a feeling his reaction would be like this. So, his potion contains a special calming draught that will help him discuss the truth without worrying about the long term effects. I do have an antidote ready. Along with a sleeping potion for the car trip to Las Vegas. Now who do you think we should question first?” Tara asked. It was obvious she was the more knowledgeable one when it comes to potions. That was part of the reason Willow and her made such a good team, what one had as a weakness the other had as a strength.

“I think we should talk to Xander first. That way once we are done then Spike can be on the road to Las Vegas with him before we untie the girls.” Was Dawn’s smart answer.

They all nod and move in a circle around Xander; with Spike and Willow on either side of him. Spike slowly puts an arm around Xander. After a moment Xander snuggle against Spike. He looks to the witches. It was obvious the potion was working because his eyes were dilated and glazed over, along with his muscles being relaxed.

“It will also effect his inhibitions some. That was just a side effect that I couldn’t prevent.” Tara said with a sad smile at how perfect the picture would be if Xander was so badly hurt. “Now remember to ask the questions one at a time and keep them simple.” Tara stands up and turns the video camera she brought with on.

“Xander, pet, how come you walked to Magic Box today?” Dawn asked Xander while inside smiling at the picture he made with Spike’s arm around him.

“Because I didn’t wash, fold, and put away all of Anya’s clothes before the time limit she set for me. I was still working on all the laundry that Buffy had ordered me to do,” Xander said in a quiet voice. Almost as one they turn and glare at Buffy and Anya. The two girls just glared back unable to speak but still struggling to get free of their bonds. Tara decided to ask the next question after making sure Xander couldn’t see either Buffy or Anya.

“How did you get the split lip last week?” Xander had told them at the time that he tripped at the construction site. Yet, Tara could sense there was something more sinister connected.

“A costumer was upset with the service I provided.”

“Someone at the construction site hit you?”

“No, at my other job.”

“What other job?” The four of them looked at each and shrugged. None of them had heard of Xander getting a second job.

“My nighttime job. I’m a prostitute, Anya and Buffy need more money that I can make with my dumb daytime job.”

Dawn leans into Tara’s shoulder crying softly. She couldn’t believe the depravity that Anya and her sister are capable of. Tara wraps arm around Dawn and strokes her back soothingly. Willow managed to voice the next question.

“How long have you been a prostitute?” But in Willow’s mind she was thinking ‘how long have we been blind’.

“I’ve been working on and off ever since Joyce died because Buffy needed money. Since I have no special power the least I can do is contribute financially. Around three months ago was when Anya and Buffy needed me to start being a prostitute nightly. That was also had me widen my costumer base, I only did vanilla sex with women before then. Now I have sex with men both Anal and Oral. I also allow will cooperate with fetishes, bondage, Sadism and Masochistic play. They have even made a movie star out of me, along with a internet pay site. I was in a movie called ‘My First Leather Gangbang’ which I took over 50 different men in two hours. That video has been really popular because I am screaming in pain through most of it and begging for them to stop, especially when they start fisting me up to the elbow. Most of prostitution nights are filmed for the website. I’m not sure how much money it makes. I know that is costs $24.95 each month to join and there are over 5,000 subscribers a month.” Xander smiled like it was good thing. (For those who are wondering that is a profit of $124,750 dollars a month which Xander doesn’t see a dime of.)

Dawn runs out of the room and vomits. Willow quickly follows her and vomits along side her. Spike is fighting with his demon not to go into gameface. He also has a strong desire to ripe out Buffy and Anya’s spines. Tara clenches her fist in anger, cursing softly under her breath which is something she never does. Tara longs to start looking for all kinds of torture spells to perform on the bitches. Hmm, now there’s an idea; turn them into actual bitches and have them fixed. Tara could see them both as yappy spoiled little poodles(sorry to those who like poodles). Willow comes back in a few minutes later after having told Dawn to go lay down in the office and skip the rest of the interview. She then nods to Spike to ask a question.

“Xander, how did you get the wounds that you have today? And where is the bleeding?” Spike can spell a small amount of continuous fresh blood.

“I got the slap to the face when I started crying about having to allow a demon friend of Anya’s to have sex with me. I was still sore from the night before and this demon has a giant penis, the last time I was bleeding for a month. I should know better than to question the wisdom of my mistresses. I am just a pathetic, weak, nothing of a man. I should be grateful that speak to me and let me please them. My left leg is limping because my hip was dislocated during a movie. It made extra money because Buffy put my hip back in the socket on video without giving me anything for the pain. My arm is in the sling because I was helping Buffy distress. She says it is not as relaxing hitting stuffed punching bag as it is hitting real person. She told me I was even better Spike because I showed pain so much more easily.”

Willow, Tara, and Spike couldn’t believe that Buffy was abusing her slayer strength on Xander. Poor Xander, all he ever wanted was for Buffy to pay attention and need him. He got that unfortunately.

“Do you ever get to enjoy sex?” With the blank look she recovered, Tara clarified her statement. “Do you ever get to orgasm?” Both Willow and Tara blushed slightly at the words.

“Men do not deserve to have pleasure in sex. We have abused women for to many years. We did not let women enjoy sex. Now it is men’s turn to suffer. Men are weaker than women anyway. We are worthless except for giving women pleasure or making money.” Xander repeated the statement in way which indicated that he was forced to memorize such beliefs.

“Xander why do you stay with them? Don’t you know your not at fault?”

“Silly Willow, of course I’m at fault. I’m a bad boy. Mommy always used to say that to me. I was only a good boy when I gave Mommy pleasure down there. Xander was good at making Mommy happy down there. But Xander was stupid and did not do his chores properly. That meant poor Mommy had to waste her time punishing Xander. It was okay though, Mommy was just making sure Xander didn’t become like his fairy Daddy. But Mommy said it was okay to have Sex with men if I made money and I didn’t enjoy it. As long as it hurt me then it means I’m not a bad boy. Mommy likes Buffy and Anya. She says they are good at keep her dumb Xander inline. Mommy even did a video with Xander for the website.” Xander’s voice had changed into that of a small child. Xander pulled away from Spike starting to rock back and forth again but this time he was sucking his thumb.

“Willow, enough. Please don’t ask him anymore questions. He has been tortured worse than we thought. Please just give him the sleeping potion and I want to get the hell out of this town with him. But we won’t be going to Las Vegas because Buffy and Anya heard us talking. I won’t tell you where we are going for a couple of weeks until Xander is more stable.” Spike was looking at Xander sadly. The boy reminded him of all years with his Dark Princess. All though Spike could hope that Xander’s mind wasn’t shattered yet.

Willow nodded and quickly slipped the potion into Xander’s mouth. Within moments he was sound asleep. As much as Willow didn’t like the idea of not knowing where Xander was it was better that way. She didn’t want Anya, Buffy, or his mother finding him before he was ready to face them. Willow knew in her heart of hearts that he might never be ready to face him. She leaned down and placed a kiss on his forehead. She realized that this might be the last time she ever sees Xander in this lifetime. Closing her eyes Willow chanted softly transporting the stuffed frog Xander gave her in the third grade. He had one it for her at the town carnival and said it would scare all the bad frogs away. Willow gently slipped Mr.Froggy into Xander’s arms.

“Spike, make sure he takes good care of Mr.Froggy until I see him again.” Willow stroked Xander’s hair one last time before looking at Spike. He could see that she understood Xander may never return to Sunnydale or see the people associated with the town again.

“Don’t worry Red, I’m sure he’ll take real good care of it. And I’ll take real good care of him. I know he’ll love the place we are going too. It is a wonderful place to recover and find oneself again.” Spike gave Willow a quick hug before stepping back near Xander. Tara came in a few moments later with a large blanket, a bag of healing potions, a bag of first aide supplies, and keys to a vehicle.

“Here are the keeps to a special RV I had outfitted for you. I wasn’t sure if you would want to stay in Las Vegas the whole time but if your not going there then it is even more perfect. Also see this button on the key chain. I did a bit of fancy magic but when you press it the RV will shrink to the size of small toy car. Don’t worry there is a safety spell to prevent it from shrinking with people inside. These bag contains healing and pain relief potions and this bag contains first aide supplies.” Tara holds up each bag so that Spike can tell the difference. The purple bag is the potions and the dark green bag is the first aide supplies. “And finally I thought you might want to take this quilt I made to wrap Xander in. It will remind him of the good things from home, what few there are. The fabric for the patches comes from clothing of Willow, Dawn, Giles, Oz, Jesse, Joyce, myself and you, Spike. There is also a spell to protect the quilt from fading, staining or ripping.” She hand the quilt off.

Spike leans down and carefully wraps Xander up in it. As he walks over to the door he stops. Turning he spits on Anya and Buffy. Tara, Willow, and Dawn carry supplies out to the RV. Very gently Spike lays Xander down on the bed in the back. He then goes out and helps load the RV. Soon, the it is loaded with potions, first aide supplies, enough blood for three weeks, food(both easy to digest food and Xander’s favorites), clothes, blankets, pillows, movies, cds. Willow also presents Spike with a special laptop. It is loaded with wireless internet and untraceable email program, along with GPS equipment, and a map program. Dawn shows Spike that there is a satellite dish on the roof which they bought a service for. Spike quickly hugs all three women before hopping into the driver’s seat. With one last wave Spike drives out of Sunnydale. And for once he is not in the mood to run over the Sunnydale welcome sign.

End Chapter Two

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