Getting His Rocks Back

Summary: AU and everybody's human. Buffy and William are in a not so blissful marriage. Secrets come out in a most public place. Told in *first* person perspective. Songs are "Pass You By" and "Please Don't Go Away" by Boyz to Men. No, not a song fic. Just trying to stress the issues in a particular situation.

Disclaimer: Characters not mine- blah di blah... As you all may know, I do not, and never have owned "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" and all that is affiliated with it. I own my thoughts, computer, and the hands that type this up for me. I'm a poor college student, so please, don't sue.

I really didn't want to go. I thought it was just going to be another boring day at the supermarket. Especially since I was with my mother. Just another uneventful Saturday afternoon. Well, for me anyway.


* Don't ever stay with someone
That makes you cry.
You'll end up killing all the
Love you have inside.*


"Why do you keep avoiding my questions?" I heard the man ask. He was directly behind us in the checkout line.

"Stop it. People will hear you." The woman tried to whisper.

"Hear me? Hear me?! You think I actually give a fuck if they hear me? What? Am I embarrassing you now?"

"Shut up, Will. Now is not the time."

"It's never the time, is it? It's never time for me. Always him, isn't it. I'm not good enough, right? Why do you keep on punishing me?" He said in a pleading voice.

"Please, can we discuss this at home? Please?" I could almost feel her darting her head back and forth, looking at their pseudo audience, who were pretending to not watch at all. It felt too weird for me to just turn around. So I listened instead; intently.

"Home? What H I w I wasn't aware we had one. Doesn't a home consist of love, a family? Which we clearly lack."

"Look, I promise as soon as we- "

"No! I'm t of of this. I'm tired of you and your bullshit. How much can a man take? You belittle me endlessly in front of our friends and family. Do you even love me anymore?"

"Of course I do." She said in a slow, steady voice.

"Buu'reu're not in love with me, right? You're not in- God, I can't do this. If you can't forgive me, fine. Then leave me. End my torment. If you won't forgive me, then just leave me, alright? Just leave, cause at least then, the pain would be quicker. It would be easier."


* Don't have to
Stay with someone
That makes you cry. *


"No! You can't just give me an ultimatum in a fucking grocery store, for crissakes! You -

"What? What?! You actually have the stones to tell me what and what the hell I can't do? Sod this, and screw you!" I heard a small piece of metal drop on the floor. I figured he dropped a ring.

"Good bye, Buffy. I hope you and Liam work it out." He said somberly. I saw him walk away out of my peripheral vision.

"Don't go. Please." But only I heard her. Maybe someone else actually saw her lips move. Before he walked out of the door, he turned back and gave her a quick glance. His shockingly blue, soulful eyes were burdened with salt water.

I don't know what made me do it, but I felt compelled to turn around then. She seemed to stare at the floor for hours. Then she looked at me. She was a sad, sorry sight. Her large green eyes looked so bleak and hopeless. I bent down and picked up the gold band. I placed it in her hand and closed it.

"Go to him." I don't know why I said it, but she listened to me. She nodded as tears leaked from her now red eyes. Then she ran.


* You can find the
Love you need-
If you set your
Heart free. *

Buffy ran as fast as her legs would allow. She figured he couldn't have had that much of a head start on her, but she wanted to be sure. She didn't want to lose him.

She knew she was wrong. She knew she was hurting him, but she couldn't stop. That particular week she spent with Liam seemed like the longest week of her life. But she didn't intend to hurt Will; she just wanted him to see; to feel something. No, she was the one who wanted to feel. She was the one who wanted to feel. She was the one who felt dead inside, and she punished him for it. For his unnoticed pity, and his unconditional love. She felt she didn't deserve it.

*I don't want to
Let go of you.
I can't let this love
Slip away.
And I can't turn it around.
But don't leave me.*


She found him standing idly by their SUV, drawing invisible patterns on the driver side window.

"I was stupid, ya know. Forgot you had the keys." He said in a monotonous voice. He looked at her reflection in the window. He made a mental note of her tear stained cheeks, but refused to turn around and console her.

"I am so sorry. I'm so sorry baby. I still love you. I still need you." She said in a quivering voice. He felt the fury rise in him.

"Were you loving me while you fucked him? Were you needing me when he pounded his filthy cock into you?!" He finished yelling, all the while pounding his hand on the roof of the car. He took a deep breath in an attempt to compose himself. Buffy took a deep breath as well, attempting to muster up some courage, and walked closer to him. She gently placed her hands on his shoulders. He didn't flinch away, but his shoulders sagged considerably.

"Please don't leave me. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me." She then slowly turned him around, placing his wedding band in his left hand. His gaze, though sad and weary, was unwavering. He lifted his hand slowly and gently caressed her cheek. She nuzzled her face into his open warm palm.

"We can't start over, and I can't forget what you- what happened." She started nodding her head vigorously in an attempt to quell her tears as his rejection sunk in.

"I know. I - I unders-" He cut her off as he placed his index finger on her lips with a gentleness he reserved only for her.

"Shh. But I'm willing to try to work on it, to work on forgiving and to work on us, if you are."

*Please don't go
Away from me.
When you call my
Name, I reach out my
Hand to you- With my heart.
Please don't go
Away from me.
We can work it out.
Whatever it may be.*


A/N: Hmm... Do they work it out? Well no one will ever know unless you review. I started this last November (ouch! I know), and two chapters after this one, I couldn't come up with anything I felt was good enough as an ending. All I know is that it will be no more than five chapters if ever finished. But if no one reviews, I'll delete this fic as if I never posted it...