Being Partial

Title: Being Partial.

Disclaimer: Pure fiction...don’t own anything, Don’t mean to offend anyone...just exercising my rights to imagine.

Hey all, this is just a lil sumfen I came up with....now here’s the thing there’s no actual POV to this...it can either be Faith or Buffy...you decide and tell me bout it. ‘Obsidian Moonlight’ will get a new chapter soon...I’m just tweakin it some more...It’s just a lot...A LOT...longer than the other chapters that’s why...So anyway hope ya enjoy this lil thing...it’s nothing special...just random babbling.

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If you were in love what would you do when the one you love constantly breaks your heart?

Answer is simple.

Never give up on them. As much as it pains you, the fact that when the pain leaves, all that’s left is the contented feeling of happiness that she provides. Because despite the inflicted pain that she causes, she also provides you with irreplaceable joy. Although sometimes the hurt outnumbers the times of laughter shared, is it not worth having those moments for the ones of bliss? Ask yourself that. I sure as hell do.

Statistically for every happy moment there are 5 others filled with heartache.
Why would anyone want to endure such things?

Easy, Love.

The four letter word is self explanatory and renowned. It holds so much meaning and is what most people spend a life time looking out for. It drives you insane, up the wall in frustration and invokes so many emotions that it sets ablaze apart of yourself that you never knew you had. A part of your soul tears away everytime your heart aches for the person you pine for, and when the love is returned they say you have fulfilled your hearts desire and your soul feels whole. Believe in that? You should. Does it not pain you everytime the one you love says or does something to hurt you? It may not be intentional but never-the-less the heart still breaks.

My heart still breaks.

Does it not feel like something is being torn apart when they are on the verge of leaving you? An absence you never knew you could have or feel till you’ve experienced it. Can you say that your world doesn’t shatter when the day comes that she doesn’t return your feelings anymore?

When your heart is being ripped apart by your other half, ask if it was truly meant to be, and why is it that she can cause you this sting when she’s supposed to love you, cherish you, protect you...

Simply the fact that because you love her you’re in a position where she can hurt you, is she therefore automatically granted permission to exploit such privileges?

Love is Pain. It’s the small division between hate and love that makes having and feeling it so invigorating.

It’s never the fact that she doesn’t love you; it’s just that she probably loves you with everything she can give you. They say people love eachother and that there are levels...so if the love I have for her is higher than the love she has for me does that mean that my love means less to her?

Funny thing about this emotion, it’s a strong word that can be used in many different contexts. Never a dull moment when your in the throes of its contradicting painful ecstasy.

But I’ll endure it...the torture is worth it. She’s worth it.

So every time she breaks your heart time will see that it mends and there will lay her imprint and your newfound wisdom and experience.

But lying here alone...Love is bullshit with out her. No amount of experience can set me free.

Only she can.