Lost Without You

Timeline: Set post "Chosen"
Rating: NC-17 for language and the naughtiness that will go on *smirks*
Pairing: B/F
Disclaimer: These characters don't belong to me, they belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy
and all them
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[Buffy's POV]

*Mmm so warm, feels nice * I open my eyes a little and try to adjust
to the darkness of the bus. I realize someone is holding me and I look
over to see who it is.

Faith.

I jump a little, just out of reaction. But she mumbles in her sleep and
holds onto me tighter. *Okay, don't panic, its just Faith... just Faith?
There's no such thing as 'just Faith'! This girl is... and I'm... and what if
she wakes up? Talk about awkward! * I try to ignore that I'm wrapped
up in my once enemy's tight embrace and look around the bus.

Most everyone is sleeping. The potentials, or more accurately slayers-
in-training, since they're now slayers although still need training
desperately, are sleeping all over each other. Andrew's sleeping on
Xander and he's looking out the window, probably thinking about
Anya. Willows curled up sleeping in Kennedy's arms and she's
looking at me? *Why is she smirking at me* I blush, I don't know
why, and look away. Kennedy chuckles a little, and I try not to notice.
I lay my head back down on Faith's shoulder. *God she smells good. I
mean, wait... huh?* I blush again, I shouldn't be thinking something
like that, I hate Faith! No, that's a lie. I don't hate her anymore, but
we're not exactly the best of friends either. *What do I feel about
Faith?*

I jerked out of my thoughts as I feel her stir. *Oh no, what do I do?* I
decide on pretending I'm asleep. No harm in that, right? She shifts a
little and then wakes up. I can feel her looking at me, I always can tell
when she is. I try to even out my breathing even though my heart is
racing a mile a minute. I know she knows I'm not asleep.

"B?" She gently nudges me.

"Mmhmm?" I mumble. Okay, so I'm still going to pretend I'm just
waking up because I'm stubborn like that.

"Um, just checking to see if you were awake," she said kind of
awkwardly. She makes no move to remove me however and I smile.

"Oh okay." I don't move either and we just lay against each other in
nce.nce. I know I really shouldn't be doing this, we aren't nearly as
close as we should be for us to be laying all over each other like this,
but I'm just so comfortable. And comfortable is a hard thing to find on
a bus full of people.

"Um, B?"

"Yeah?"

She swallows, "Uh, are you comfortable with this?"

*Play dumb* "With what?" I look at her innocently.

"This." She motioned with her hand, indicating us and our position.
*Wow that's really considerate to ask. And now that I think about it,
the old Faith would have never let me sleep in her arms. I guess she
really has changed a lot.*

"Yeah, why?"

She shrugged a little, "I don't know. I guess, just after all we've been
threw you wouldn't want me to do this. But it was just like instinct I
guess."

"What do you mean?" I'm a little confused.

"I think you were having a nightmare so I held you and you stopped
shaking and stuff. I meant to let you go but I guess I fell asleep..."
She looked out the window, away from me.

"You don't have to hold me if you don't want to cause I'm fine now and
all..." I trail off. I'm actually really disappointed and a little hurt, I
don't know why. I was just comfortable I guess.

"No, I do want to!" She looked at me and paused, clearly not wanting
to say that. She cleared her throat, "I mean, I'm just comfortable this
way. That good with you?"

"Yeah," I smile. "That's good with me."

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[Faith's POV]

*Way to go Faithy, you almost blew it. She'll never like you so why are
you bothering?* But I don't move atay tay quiet and look around the
bus and I find Kennedy's eyes staring at me. I mouth, "What?" and
she makes kissy faces at me and B, thank god Buffy didn't see her. I
give her the finger and she laughs a little, but then turns back to
Willow.

Kennedy knows how I feel about Buffy, and it bothers the hell out of
me. Before we defeated the First, I was sitting on the couch in B's
living room, watching TV. The potentials were downstairs and Buffy
and the rest were upstairs. I didn't figure bothering them. Then
Kennedy comes downstairs and sits next to me.

"What?" I say, a little irritated.

"So tell me about how you're in love with Buffy," she says simply.

"Huh?" Yeah, I figured playing dumb would work.

"You know what I'm talking about. So how long have you wanted her?"
She looked at me inquiringly.

I sigh in defeat, "Since the first day I met her." Then I get defensive,
because that's just me, "But if you tell her or anyone I will personally
kick your ass."

She held out her hands in a white flag, "Hey I was just wondering. No
need to get snippy. So you know she loves you too, right?"

I roll my eyes, "Yeah, sure."

"Are you telling me you haven't noticed? Wow your denser than I
thought."

I glare at her, "Watch it K."

"Do you see the way she looks at you? The way she always tries to
find an excuse to be near you, even though most of the time it's to
bitch? Come on Faith, open your eyes. But you have realized she
pretends she hates you, right?"

" Pretty good ass pretending then. Fooled me." *This girls insane*

"Wow Faith, start to take notice of these things." She puts her feet on
the coffee table and looks at me.

" Look, Buffy's as straight as they come. She's like the poster girl for
straight chicks." *Which sucks. God this girl knows nothing about
Buffy. Not that I do anyway though *

"She's like the poster girl for chicks in the closet. Its so funny how she
pretends to like guys while looking at all these girls asses and shit. I've
seen her check out your rack a couple of times too," she raised an
eyebrow.

"Your insane." I turn my attention back to the TV.

" Hey, well, I'm just trying to help here. But if you don't want it..." She
got up and left, and I let her go. I don't believe her, B could never love
someone like me.

"Faith?" Buffy shook me out of my flashback.

I turn to her, "Yeah, B?"

"Where are you gonna go? After all this I mean. Like, we were thinking
of going to either Cleveland or Boston, because there's hellmouths in
both places."

"Well, actually I was thinking Boston, its home and all. I didn't know
there was a hellmouth there, but I guess it makes sense. Weird shit
goes on in that city. What about you? Cleveland or Boston?" *Please
say Boston*

"I was thinking Boston too," she smiles at me, and I smile back. "I'll
have to check with the rest of the gang when they wake up. I mean,
it's like what? 2am or something like that? So I guess we make with
the sleeping, and then the planning. Sound good?" She snuggled up
more in my arms.

"Yeah, sounds good. Night B." I lay my head against the window and
wrap my arms around her tighter.

"Night Faith."

((Should I continue?))