Memories

Title: Memories
Author: Spikewil
Site: http://home.wanadoo.nl/spikewil
E-mail: spikewil@wanadoo.nl
Pairing: S/X
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Spike and Xander are remembering their best moments.
Warning: Fisting.
Beta: many thanks ori ori and her patience. As I have asked, she has been very strict and I needed that in this story.

A/N 1: This story is based on a challenge I have given readers. I received 20 ideas. As said I have chosen five ideas to include in this story.

A/N 2: I’m mixing up seasons, because I wanted to write this story in the best way I can. In some cases I tweaked the idea a bit, but only for the story to go smooth. I hope I have succeeded.

A/N 3: Also the timeline of the memories are different from the season years.

A/N 4: Sometimes I use a few lines from the ideas, so don’t be surprised when you don’t read every part of the idea.

A/N 5: This story contains Mpreg and fisting. This story is also AU.

The five ideas of the readers (not in a specific order):

SeventhPack
What if Dru decided she just had to have a masked tea party or ball on that Halloween? Spike would have most likely gotten his and Dru's costume by killing someone with a look he liked. Spike, liking the irony, dressed Dru as the nun she always meant to be. Spike dressed as a hero of some sort and defends Xander and the Slayer instead of trying to eat them. How will Xan react to the new and improved Spike?


Dantika
I've always wanted to read a fic where someone figured out that Angel and Spike had some type of feelings for Xander, and decided to use Xander as revenge against them. Torture or whatever. Doesn't have to be graphic...but I did want to see Angel and Spike really involved in the healing process...both physically and emotionally and mentally....


Neila Leavitt
Yay! S/X are my favorite what about Spike reading Shakespeare to Xander perhaps from Othello, Hamlet, or Macbeth to try to cheer him up when he's stuck in bed


Asmodina17
I would very much like to see Spike as the pregnant one. I have very seldom seen a mpreg with this. I know only of one other with S/X pairing wherein it isn't Xander.
It would be lovely to see Xander getting all caring about Spike.


SofCthy
I would like for Xander and Spike to really give Angel a hard time about being a puppet (the episode would have been so much better if there had been more Spike in it.


Enough explaining, on to the story…

****2010*****


“Spike, what are you doing?” Xander asked, standing behind his very pregnant husband and holding him tightly, just days before Spike was due. Ever since Angel and Giles died saving Spike, the vampire sometimes was lost in thoughts, remembering the past.

“Remember when Buffy attacked you? Angel helped me,” Spike told Xander.

“I remember,” Xander answered, gently guiding the vampire to the couch.


*****Flashback, 2001****


“You think you’re going to be saved, Xander?” Buffy sneered at Xander who was hanging on the ceiling.

“Fuck you, Buffy. You don’t know shit about anything. You’re just jealous with the way Angel and Spike treat me,” Xander taunted Buffy. He knew of her jealousy on the way the vampires treated Xander.

Buffy swung her arm back and hit Xander in the stomach. Xander screamed at the pain she gave him and collapsed. If it wasn’t for the chains holding up, up, he would have fallen on the floor in heap of flesh. Buffy was cruel; she wanted him to suffer.

“You stole my vamps away from me!” Buffy yelled. Each word was met with a punch in the stomach, face or ribs. Xander couldn’t hold the pain in any lonand and fainted not noticing that both Spike and Angel had entered the building.

*****


“Sire, where is he?” Spike asked Angel hopefully.

Angel shook his head. They have been searching Sunnydale for any sign of Xander, but it was hopeless, the boy couldn’t be found. Until a group of fledges ran past, frequently looking back to see if someone was following them, neither vamp had any idea of where to look.”.

“Why are you running?” Angel asked a fledge after grabbing him.

The young vampire struggled to get free. “The slayer is nuts; she’s killing everything that’s in her sight. She’s even torturing her friend.”

Spike looked up at that statement and threatened to kill him if he didn’t tell them where she was. The fledge pointed to an abandoned house near the park. Everyone was warned not to go there, because of its history. The people told their children they would die if they ever entered that house; ghosts were haunting there. The vamps never thought of going there; it never crossed their minds.

Angel and Spike let the fledge go and headed towards the house. They entered and found a horrible smell of piss and blood. They followed the odor and walked into the basement. Spike saw Xander hanging from the ceiling, passed out and covered in blood.

Angel saw Spike getting emotional and let the young vampire walk towards Xander. The boy woke up and his eyes lit up when he spotted Angel and Spike. “Spike?” Xander asked weakly, not believing the vamp he fell in love with was standing before him.

“Yeah, Pet. It’s me,” Spike said softly, cleaning the boy’s face with his tongue. He couldn’t stop his demon from coming out at the sight of that much blood. He stopped licking when Xander’s face was clean. That’s when Angel noticed how many bruises the boy had on his face.

“Xander, where is she?” Angel asked, not wanting to scare the boy by saying Buffy’s name.

“I don’t know. I must have fainted before she left,” Xander croaked, his voice hoarse after screaming so much.

Spike reached up and broke the chains, letting the boy fall into his arms. He swooped Xander up and was about to walk away when Buffy walked back into the basement.

“Where do you think you’re going with him?” Buffy asked sarcastically.

“Buffy, why are you doing this?” Angel asked, still not understanding why his former girlfriend was doing this.

“You don’t know? You two are mine,” Buffy said viciously. She walked towards Spike and Xander and tried to grab Xander.

Spike dodged her and ran to Angel who was still stunned with Buffy’s answer. “We don’t belong to anyone!” Angel said angrily, grabbing her by the arm preventing her from hurting Xander.

“Spike, take Xander to the hospital and call his friends. After that, call the police and send them to this house,” Angel instructed Spike. For once, Spike didn’t argue and ran away with his precious burden.

Angel grabbed a loose chain, he already made up his mind that Buffy couldn’t stay alive or free. Something needed to be done.

*****


Spike ran to the Sunnydale hospital and entered the building. Several doctors and nurses ran towards him when they saw the bloodied boy. They took Xander from his hands and told Spike to sit in the waiting room until they had news on Xander’s condition. Spike went to the payphone and called Giles.

“Hello?” Giles answered gruffly.

“Watcher? Get your butt in here and bring the Whelp’s friends. I’m at the Sunnydale hospital,” Spike ranted. “You don’t have to try to reach Buffy, she isn’t home,” he added and hung up.

He sat down and waited for Angel to come back. He started praying that Angel would be all right; Xander would survive this and Willow won’t kill him for getting her friend hurt.

Giles drove towards the hospital after the disturbing phone call from Spike. He had picked up the children minus Buffy. Entering the hospital, he spotted Spike soon enough and was shocked by the way the vampire was sitting in a corner.

Spike was curled into a ball; tear tracks on his face and a haunted look in his eyes. “Spike, what’s wrong?” he asked the vampire and was shocked when the vampire looked up and jumped into his arms.

Ever since Angel brought the two vampires, Spike and Dru into theidst,dst, the family had gotten bigger; unfortunately, Buffy’s ego got bigger too. She demanded that the vampires help her and no one else. Giles, despite Buffy’s possessiveness, had started to see Spike and Dru as his own children with the way they acted; he even had an argument with Angel who didn’t want to loose his Childer to the Watcher. He smiled at that memory.

He held Spike in his arms and waited for the doctor to come back with some news, when he realized Angel wasn’t here.

“Spike, where’s Angel?” Giles asked softly.

Spike closed his eyes, realizing he had forgotten to call the police and jumped out of Giles’ arms to phone the police station. He then turned back to Giles, this time sitting next to him. He was done being a poof.

Willow was scared; she didn’t want to lose her best friend. Her instinct told her that Buffy did this. They had no idea why Buffy acted like a bitch. It happened when they accepted Spike and Dru into the family. The girl would pay for this. At that momenngelngel entered the hospital, limping slightly.

Spike stood up and before he could say anything, Angel embraced him. “She’s gone,” Angel said to Spike, making sure the others heard him as well.

“Did you kill her?” Spike muttered softly for the others not to hear. It wouldn’t do Angel any good if the doctors and the nurses heard the question.

Angel nodded his head and Spike collapsed crying. He couldn’t hold it anymore. He had been scared the whole way to the hospital.

The doctor came in and looked at the small family gathered in the waiting room. “Mr. William Harris-Bradford?” the doctor asked.

“Yes, that’s me. Is my husband okay?” Spike asked.

Everyone managed to cover their surprised faces at hearing the name called, but listened carefully the the doctor had to say.

“Xander has five broken ribs, he had internal bleeding, but we have managed to stop the bleeding, many bruises that won’t leave anytime soon and a concussion,” the doctor explained.

“Can we see him?” Spike asked emotionally. Hntednted to see Xander as soon as possible.

“You can visit when he’s settled in his room. I will let someone notify you,” the doctor reassured the stricken husband.


******End Flashback*******


“The moment you could visit me, I knew he had killed her,” Xander whispered in Spike’s ear.

“Do you miss her?” Spike asked in a small voice.

“I miss the girl who became our friend the first time,” Xander replied.

“Okay, enough crying, let’s go to bed. It’s my turn tad aad a bedtime story,” Spike said cheerfully.

“As long as it ain’t those theatre guys, it’se bye by me,” Xander said.

“There’s nothing wrong with Shakespeare and Hamlet!” Spike stated.

“I heard enough of those when I was in the hospital,” Xander replied.

******Flashback, 2001******


“I want a bedtime story!” Xander announced to Spike and Angel.

Both vampires guarded the boy with their life. Spike was feeling more than friendship for the boy and Angel saw the young man as one of his Childer. Giles and Angel became very good friends after Angel had killed Buffy, because both saw Willow, Spike, Dru, Xander and Oz as their children.

“I’ll decide what the bedtime story will be,” Spike commented.

“Why? What are you going to choose?” Xander asked suspiciously.

“No, I won’t tell you. You’ll just have to wait and see,” Spike replied. He stood up and grabb boo book from his backpack. During the examinations, he had to wait in the hall, so he had brought a book with him, so he wouldn’t get bored.

Spike sat on the bed, opened the book and started to read.

“That you were once unkind befriends me now,
And for that sorrow which I then did feel
Needs must I under my transgression bow,
Unless my nerves were brass or hammer'd steel.
For if you were by my unkindness shaken
As I by yours, you've pass'd a hell of time,
And I, a tyrant, have no leisure taken
To weigh how once I suffered in your crime.
O, that our night of woe might have remember'd
My deepest sense, how hard true sorrow hits,
And soon to you, as you to me, then tender'd
The humble slave which wounded bosoms fits!
But that your trespass now becomes a fee;
Mine ransoms yours, and yours must ransom me.”

Xander was looking at Spike as he had grown a second head. “Xa, ar, are you okay?” Angel asked, smiling at the stunned expression.

“What did he just say?” Xander asked.

“Xander, you did take literature class, didn’t you?” Giles asked.

“Yeah, but I...” Xander muttered.

“Then listen to your bedtime story!” Angel replied, hearing the muttering.

Giles and Angel left the room and leaving the two men alone. Spike was about to continue when Xander pulled the vampire on his lap. “I want to do something fun,” Xander uttered.

Spwas was shocked; the Whelp was kissing him. “Xander, what are you doing?” he asked.

“Uh…kissing you!” Xander stated, but stopped when he saw the bashful look on Spike’s face.
“I’m going to fast?”

Spike nodded, sat back on his chair again and picked up his book and continued reading. Xander looked at the vampire and grinned. He decided he could wait until Spike was ready.

******End Flashback******


After Xander placed his husband on the couch, he sat behind him massaging his lower back. Spike was having pains in every place in his body. When he saw the doctor a week ago, he had announced that the baby had to come out the natural way and that there wasn’t anything he could do to help the expansion pains Spike was feeling. They both missed Angel and Giles, their fathers. The two men had protected the couple with their life.

“Remember Halloween?” Xander asked, smiling at the memory. They had shared their second kiss and a blowjob that night, even though they weren’t actually themselves.

******Flashback, 2004******


“Dru, I don’t want a masked tea party!” Spike announced when Dru told everyone of her plans.

“Well, I think it’s a great idea. We can go trick and treating and after that have the tea party. I’m going to search the shops for a cool outfit,” Xander said enthusiastically.

Spike kept his mouth shut when the boy he loved said that. “But I pick the outfits for us, Dru!” Spike exclaimed. He wanted to see what Xander would come up with for an outfit.

“Fine,” Dru agreed, already happy they were going along with it.

***Halloween’s night***


Willow stood in the living room as a ghost, Xander was dressed as soldier, as as a nun and Spike was dressed as a fighter.

“Spike, who are you?” Xander asked curiously, seeing the vampire in leather pants.

“I’m John Keller, I fight Kumite, save girlies, kill bad guys and such,” Spike defended himself.

“Right, well, let’s go trick and treating,” Xander said, dragging Spike with him.

“I can’t believe Xander is going trick and treating; he’s almost 18 years old,” Giles said, leaning back against Angel. They had become a couple soon after Xander’s incident with Buffy. Since the girl was dead, they could act on their mutual attractions.

****

The group wandered the streets when they all felt magic coursing through their bodies. They stood still and watched each other.

“Who are you?” everyone but Willow asked.

“My name is John Keller,” Spike introduced himself.

“I’m….uh…Alex Harris,” Xander replied, after searching his pockets and peeking on his drivers’ license.

Before the rest could be introduced, demons ran towards them; Spike didn’t think for one second and jumped in front of Xander and killed the demon instantly. He went to help the others and within sec, th, the demons were dead and the group still stood in the same spot not knowing what to do.

“Guys, don’t you remember me?” Willow suggested.

“No!” several voices answered.

“Let’s get you to the home of my friends. I will explain there,” Willow suggested and guided the group towards Giles’ apartment.

****

“Guys, you’re already back?” Angel asked.

“You know us?” Dru asked sanely.

Giles walked towards the group after hearing the question. “What happened? What’s the last thing you remember?”

“Do come in!” Angel said, letting the young people go inside.

Dru went to sit on one of the chairs in the corner. All she was seeing was indecent clothing.

Spike and Xander sat on the couch. Somehow they couldn’t stop staring. They felt a connection between each other.

Willow explained how they were standing in the middle of the town when magic flowed through them. The rest of their group didn’t know what had happened. Because Willow was just dressed as a ghost she still knew exactly who she was.

“Who are you, young lady?” Angel asked Dru.

“My name is Drusilla and I’m looking for the monastery,” Dru answered the question.

Giles and Angel looked at the two young men and saw them kissing. Giles coughed to interrupt them.

“Who might you be?” Giles asked Xander.

“I’m Alex Harris and this is…” Xander introduced himself and tried to introduce Spike as well but he didn’t know his name.

“I’m John Keller,” Spike said.

“Why don’t you all stay here and we will figure out what happened,” Angel stated, walking towards the kitchen to get them something to drink.

****

It didn’t take long to find out that Ethan was behind all this. Willow showed Giles where the shop was.

Giles came back quickly after Ethan reversed everything. Spike and Xander were sitting far away from each other, giving each other looks and smilesles les looked at them and knew something happened for them to sit this way.

***15 minutes earlier****


Alex pressed Spike against the bathroom door and kissed the other man deeply. Spike was brave to protect , bu, but when it came to kissing, he became bashful.

Xander’s hands stroked Spike’s arms, back and finally placed his hands on the curved ass. He squeezed and smiled when Spike yelped. He continued kissing the other man while removing him from his jeans.

Spike closed his eyes when Xander kneeled in front of him and took his cock in his mouth. He gasped when the man started sucking him. He felt ashamed when he came fast. That’s when they both returned to their old selves. Spike quickly pulled up his pants and almost ran from the bathroom.

Xander licked his lips and smiled. He finally tasted Spike, but he needed to stay patient if they wanted to repeat that.

***Present****


Giles watched everyone change and come back to sit in the living room while talking about their experiences.

“Angel, could I talk to you?” Spike asked, walking to the kitchen without a glance at Xander.

“Spike, what’s wrong?” Angel asked concerned.

“Um…Xander did something…and…I liked it,” Spike stuttered.

“What did he do?” Angel questioned his boy.

“He sucked my cock,” Spike whispered.

“What do you want to ask me about?” Angel askeriouriously, wondering where this conversation was going.

“Does it hurt?” Spike asked in a small voice.

Angel knew instantly what Spike was talking about. “At first, but if your lover is gentle he can make it very pleasant for you,” Angel answered, watching with fascination how Spike blushed bright red.

“Oh!” Spike replied, he opened the kitchen door a bit and watched Xander communicating with everyone else. The boy looked up to see Spike watching him and became horny when he saw Spike smirking at him, not like the bashful vampire like he was earlier.


****End flashback****