So Many Tears

Title: So Many Tears 9

Rating: NC-17

Author: Justchicky2bme

Pairing: If you don’t know by now, B/F

Disclaimer: Characters and show belong to JW and ME and whoever else. The story is mine.

Archive: Oooh yeah would love for someone to archive, just ask me first so I know, and attach my name of course.

Feedback: If I don’t get feedback I don’t write, ok well maybe I will but it’ll take me longer. xtrekangel@yahoo.com

Notes: My limited experience with smut of the fake or real kind(which is none) doesn’t give me much to work with so please let me know what you think.



Faith opened her eyes slowly, adjusting to the pale sunlight streaming down on her. She reached up pushing blond hair off of her face and lifted her head. She was entangled in the legs of the blond slayer and the sheets on the floor. Buffy was half lying on top of her, her head next to the brunettes, soft breathing sounds emanating from her parched lips. Faith carefully tried to dislodge herself from her girlfriend, moving very slowly, trying not to wake the girl. After what seemed like forever Faith stood up and stretched, letting out a small yawn. She padded over to the closet and grabbed some fresh clothes for herself and made her way to the bathroom, closing the door quietly behind her. She ed ted the water on in the shower and stepped in. The hot water washed over her body and she closed her eyes. Of course she would have loved to have woken Buffy up and taken their usual morning shower together, but she decided the girl needed more sleep. Faith was more than a little worried by the blond’s quick descent into alcoholism and depression, and it was eating away at her knowing she was the catalyst. Faith reached down and grabbed her girlfriend’s vanilla body wash. She squirted a little on her hand and began to rub it across her body. Her hand ran across her stomach first, rubbing back and forth slowly to build a lather. Then she moved up to her breasts, first her left one then her right, slowly rubbing across them and over her nipples that hardened under her touch. She wished she was doing this to Buffy, and tried to picture it.

‘Faith?’ Buffy’s voice calling out softly stirred Faith from her thoughts. She quickly washed the remaining soap from her body and stepped out of the shower and dressed. The she turned to the tub and turned the water on. After pouring a bottle of scented bubble crap that the blond always used, she got up and opened the door. Buffy was sitting on the bed rubbing her eyes tiredly, a blanket wrapped around her body consuming her. She looked up and gazed at Faith, her eyes piercing through hers.

‘Hey baby, how you feeling?’ Faith walked over and stood between the blonds legs, her hand tangling with her golden hair.

‘Ok.’ She said quietly then yawned.

‘Well you look like crap.’ Faith smiled down at her. Buffy leaned forward and wrapped her arms around the brunette, resting her cheek on the brunettes stomach.

‘Thanks for telling me, you’re too sweet.’

‘Aww come on B, you’re still beautiful even if you do look like crap.’

‘I don’t think that’s possible.’ The blond mumbled.

‘You go take a bath and relax.’

‘What about you?’

‘I ady ady took a shower.’

‘Ok.’ There was a slight hint of disappointment in the blonds voice.

‘Come on B lets go.’ Faith pulled the older girl up and walked her to the bathroom. She pulled the blanket off her and helped her into the tub which was almost full of water now. She reached out and turned the water off. ‘Now you relax and I’ll be back.’ Faith leaned down and kissed Buffy softly on the lips before getting up and closing the door behind her. The blond watched her go wishing she had stayed or joined her. Buffy sighed and relaxed back against the tub and closed her eyes letting the hot water soak into her.

Faith looked around her and shook her head. After a few moments of assessing the situation she set about her task of cleaning up the room. She gathered all of the clothes and sheets and blanket that had been thrown around and walked downstairs to put them in the washer. Faith had never been much on doing the laundry but she knew how to do the job when it needed to be done. After getting that started she went back up the stairs and began to pick up the various bottles of liquor that had accumulated. It was apparently a lot worse than she had originally thought. She should have at least told Willow when she first saw Buffy drunk, but of course then there had been another problem to deal with. Faith threw away all of the trash and went to the closet and grabbed some fresh sheets to put on the bed. After she had finished all of her tasks she looked at her work and grinned. ‘Not bad.’ She said to herself. Faith laid out some fresh clothes for her girlfriend and went back downstairs. She’d have to get Xander to fix the door, though she wasn’t sure if any of them would be too pleased with her methods of entry. There was a knock at the door. Faith walked over and opened it.

‘What do you want.’ She gave Wood a look of annoyance. He glared back at her and his jaw clenched.

‘Where’s Buffy, I wanted to see how she was doing.’

‘Like it’s any of your goddamned business.’ She scowled at him.

‘Where is she?’

‘She’s fine, I’m taking care of her, now you can go before I kick your ass.’

‘You call what you do taking care of her.’ He growled. ‘Tell her I came by.’

‘Yeah I’ll do that.’ She slammed the door on his face and turned to the kitchen. Faith poured herself a glass of juice and started a pot of coffee. No doubt the Scooby gang would be back soon, they probably didn’t even sleep last night. Sure enough after a few minutes they came walking in through the back door.

‘Hey Red.’ Faith said not looking up from the comic book set in front of her.

‘How’d things go?’ Willow asked. The others walke and and gathered around.

‘Well about as good as can be expected.’ Xander was stuffing doughnuts in his mouth, powder fell from his mouth.

‘So where is the Buffster?’ He asked.

‘I’m right here.’ Everyone turned to see the blond standing in the entry way. Her hair pulled back in a tight pony tail. She was wearing the clothes Faith had left out for her, a black turtle neck and khaki pants. Faith knew her girlfriend well enough to know what she’d want to wear. Buffy gave them all a smile. ‘You leave enough for everyone?’ She asked Xander, walking over to the box and looking in. Buffy grabbed one then looked up to see everyone staring at her. ‘I’m fine I really am.’ Faith knew better than that, and she didn’t believe the blond, but didn’t say anything. Dawn smiled and walked over and hugged her sister enthusiastically. ‘Look I’m sorry guys, I know I haven’t been exactly the happiest person, but…… I’m sorry.’

‘As long as you’re ok all is forgiven and forgotten.’ Xander said. Faith watched as the group hugged her all at once. She smiled a little at the sight. After they had dispersed from their happy moment Faith looked at Xander.

‘Hey Xan man you’re gonna need to fix Buffy’s door, I had a little trouble opening it.’ Buffy looked down a moment and nibbled at her doughnut. Xander looked at Faith, she could still see the anger in his eyes.

‘No problem I’ll just go get my tools.’ They all sat and talked awhile, like they used to always do on Saturday mornings. There was a sense of normalcy to the room and their lives at that moment. But their lives aren’t normal. Buffy had sat herself down next to Faith, and the brunette had wrapped her arm around the girls waist. She realized how much Buffy needed her. Faith had always known that the blond was essential to her life, but never thought that Buffy needed her just as badly. The blonds hand went up under the back of Faith’s shirt and rested on her back.

‘So it’s the weekend, what are you gonna do today Red?’ Faith asked after awhile. Kennedy and Willow looked at each other a moment.

‘Well ummm…. ‘ The witch began.

‘We’re gonna go catch up on some sleep.’ Kennedy said getting up and pulling Willow away. The witch followed looking back at them with a slight blush and a smile. Faith just grinned as she watched them leave.

‘I don’t think they’ll be sleeping for awhile.’ Faith said turning to Buffy. The blond looked at her with a gleam in her eyes. Faith knew that look well.

‘I think we should catch up on some sleep too.’ Buffy said looking at Faith with a sly smile.

‘I dunno B, I mean after everything…..’ Buffy put a finger up to Faith’s lips.

‘Come on.’ Buffy said pulling her up from the chair.

‘But what about the door?’

‘We’re not going upstairs.’ The blond said huskily lea her her to the basement door. Well if Buffy was willing then Faith was not one to argue. She picked the blond up in her arms and took them down to the basement, making sure to lock the door behind them. Buffy looked a little surprised by Faith’s sudden willingness, but that was quickly replaced by the lust in her eyes as she reached up and sucked on Faith’s neck. The brunette laid Buffy down on the bed Spike had used. She pulled the blonds shirt off slowly, stopping to capture a nipple in her mouth. Her hands traveled up Buffy’s ribs, grazing her breasts and up her arms pulling them back above her head. Faith fastened the blonds hands in the shackles they had used for the vampire. The she reached down and pulled off the girls shoes, then her pants and panties. Faith stepped and looked at Buffy. The older slayer sat, arms behind her head, legs slightly bent and crossed over at the ankles. Her heart began to beat faster, pounding against her chest.

She could feel Buffy’s eyes piercing into her own. The older girl pouted a little.

‘Are you just going to stand there?’ Faith looked over Buffy’s body again and tore her own clothes off in a frenzy. Her hands traveled up and down every inch of her girlfriend. Although she had already memorized every detail of Buffy’s body, she always yearned for her like they’d never even touched. They moved up across the inside of her thigh and Faith leaned in and sucked on the blonds clit.

‘Uhhh….God… Faith..’ She moaned. Faith was tempted to stay and partake of Buffy’s sweet juices, but forced herself away.

She made Buffy turn, and the blond faced the wall on her knees, her hands splayed against the cold surface. Faith ran her hands slowly up the girls butt and began placing kisses on each cheek. Buffy groaned in response. The brunettes hands went around to the front of the girl, traveling up her taught stomach and up to her breasts, which she squeezed. She leaned over, her breasts against Buffy’s back as she sucked on her ear, then neck, letting her teeth graze the blonds skin. Faith ground her hips into the back of the girl, and one hand moved down the blonds stomach till she found where the gwas was wet, practically dripping with desire.

‘Mmmmmmm Faith.’ Buffy groaned. Faith drove two fingers in hard and the blond cried out, her body arching. The blond turned her head and Faith captured her lips, forcing her tongue into the blonds mouth. Her tongue explored every crevice and battled with Buffy’s. She continued to drive her fingers in and out herd, moving her body against her girlfriends, grinding her hips into her back. Buffy moaned into Faith’s mouth, and the brunette flicked her thumb out hitting the blonds clit. Faith groaned into Buffy’s neck as she thrust over and over. Faith thrust in three fingers hard and fast as she felt Buffy’s muscle began to clench, then the girl came screaming over the edge. Faith held her up as she trembled and waited for Buffy to regain her senses. After a few moments she helped Buffy to turn back over into a sitting position.

‘Please Faith I want to touch you so bad.’ Her girlfriend pleaded.

‘Not yet baby.’ She whispered in the blonds ear. Her lips found their way to Buffy’s and they became engulfed in a passionate kiss. They broke away gasping for breath. Faith bent her head and began to lick the salty sweat from Buffy’s body, beginning with her neck, down across her clavicle, between her breasts and down her stomach. Buffy shivered at the contact. Then Faith moved back up to the blonds breasts which seemed to be calling to her. She took a nipple in her mouth and bit down and pulled, though not enough the hurt the girl. Buffy cried out and arched herself up pushing into Faith’s mouth.

‘Aughhh, fuck Faith.’ She moaned and the brunette smirked, her mouth still around the blonds hardened nipple. ‘Please Faith…… I want to taste you.’ Faith looked up at the blonde who looked at her with such love and lost she gave in. Getting up she found the keys and undid the shackles. Buffy practically attacked the brunette with kisses. Faith pulled her away and made her lay down, then she got over the girl, her butt facing Buffy’s face. Grabbing the blondes thighs she dove down and began to lick the length of the blond. Buffy groaned and grabbed for the brunette, she became even wetter at the sight of her dripping girlfriend. She tried to pull Faith more against her and she went straight for the brunettes clit biting down as she sucked. Faith groaned into Buffd thd the girl groaned her name. The blond thrust her tongue into the brunette, her tongue moving around a little in a circle before she removed it and thrust it back in. Faith in turn did the same and soon both girls were thrusting and sucking tasting each other. They came at the same time each crying out the others name. Faith managed to turn herself around and half laid on top of the blond who wrapped her arms around the brunette, and they fell asleep holding each other.



TBC