The Missing Scenes
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-Buffy the Vampire Slayer › Het - Male/Female › Buffy/Spike(William)
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
14
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2,972
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7
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Ch. 9
Ch. 9
Buffy lay on her bed staring up at the ceiling. Why did she even care? In fact, why wasn't she disgusted with herself? She slept with Spike! Not just slept with him, but practically attacked him at the Bronze! She couldn't even blame it on a spell. What was wrong with her?
A tear rolled down her cheek and she closed her eyes. Trying to empty her mind and get back the numb feeling that had been enveloping her ever since she was pulled back. She was exhausted, but couldn't relax enough to sleep.
Why was Spike the only one who could make her feel anything? It just wasn't fair. He was a monster. He was evil. He was Spike!
// Argh! He doesn't love me! He can't! //
She thought back over the past 48 hours. She groaned into her pillow. She remembered Spike's speech after he realized he was a vampire.
Redemption.
Was it even possible? // What am I thinking? He doesn't even have a soul. // But he did help them fight, even when we didn't even know who we were. Wouldn't he have gone back to being evil, if he didn't remember he had a chip? At least after he realized he was one of them?
// What's wrong with me? Spike is evil. Spike is bad. Period. //
There was a knock on the door, and before she could answer Dawn entered. She took a seat next to Buffy and sighed.
"What's up Umad? Why aren't you in bed?"
"Ha ha. Where have you been? I was waiting up for you." Dawn crossed her legs to sit indian style next to her sister.
"You know. Out saving the world." Sarcasm evident in her voice.
Dawn didn't know what to say. Didn't know how to make Buffy's pain go away. Ever since they found out they had pulled her out of heaven, Dawn wasn't sure how to act around her.
"Uhm. Buffy. Do you want to talk about it? I know I'm just your stupid fake kid sister, but if you wanted..."
"Dawn! That's not true. You're as real as anyone. Realer." She laid her hand on top of Dawn's in reassurance.
"Now go to bed!" Buffy shooed Dawn out the door. "Thanks for the offer, but I don't need to talk. I just need to sleep."
Dawn heard a click as the door shut. Buffy had locked her door again. She chided herself for making Buffy comfort her rather than the other way around. She just couldn't seem to get it right. She headed off to bed with those last thoughts.
***
Spike was out walking the streets of Sunnydale. He was looking for his first tasty morsel in what felt like forever. He spied a young woman turning into an alley and he followed.
The girl screamed when she saw Spike's game face. He could smell her fear and it excited him.
"That's right. You should be scared. I'm the Big Bad!" He reached for her and she froze. Pushing her hair aside he gained a clear view of her neck. As he leaned in to scrape her skin with his teeth he whispered, "Don't worry luv. This won't take long. It's been awhile since I've had a decent meal."
He licked the salty sweat from her neck before going in for the kill. As his teeth broke skin she screamed. And so did he.
Spike fell to the floor in agony. // Bloody Hell?! //
By the time the headache subsided, the girl was gone. "Just as well. I'm obviously still neutered!"
As he walked back to his crypt, Spike replayed the argument in his head. What was different? Why hadn't the chip gone off?
Suddenly realization hit. Buffy was different. Buffy came back different.
// I can hurt her. Just like she hurt me. // Without meaning to his steps turned toward Revello Drive. He continued to explore the possibilities as he came closer to her house.
He found himself in front of the Summer's home. All the lights were out. He began to climb up the tree to her window. He scrambled onto the roof and pulled himself up so that he could peek in.
Buffy lay on top of her blankets with her eyes closed. Her breathing steady she looked as if she were asleep.
Spike lifted the window intent on entering quietly. But as he poked his head in through the opening, Buffy's eyes flew open and her head snapped to the side. Their eyes met.
"What are you doing here?!"
Buffy lay on her bed staring up at the ceiling. Why did she even care? In fact, why wasn't she disgusted with herself? She slept with Spike! Not just slept with him, but practically attacked him at the Bronze! She couldn't even blame it on a spell. What was wrong with her?
A tear rolled down her cheek and she closed her eyes. Trying to empty her mind and get back the numb feeling that had been enveloping her ever since she was pulled back. She was exhausted, but couldn't relax enough to sleep.
Why was Spike the only one who could make her feel anything? It just wasn't fair. He was a monster. He was evil. He was Spike!
// Argh! He doesn't love me! He can't! //
She thought back over the past 48 hours. She groaned into her pillow. She remembered Spike's speech after he realized he was a vampire.
Redemption.
Was it even possible? // What am I thinking? He doesn't even have a soul. // But he did help them fight, even when we didn't even know who we were. Wouldn't he have gone back to being evil, if he didn't remember he had a chip? At least after he realized he was one of them?
// What's wrong with me? Spike is evil. Spike is bad. Period. //
There was a knock on the door, and before she could answer Dawn entered. She took a seat next to Buffy and sighed.
"What's up Umad? Why aren't you in bed?"
"Ha ha. Where have you been? I was waiting up for you." Dawn crossed her legs to sit indian style next to her sister.
"You know. Out saving the world." Sarcasm evident in her voice.
Dawn didn't know what to say. Didn't know how to make Buffy's pain go away. Ever since they found out they had pulled her out of heaven, Dawn wasn't sure how to act around her.
"Uhm. Buffy. Do you want to talk about it? I know I'm just your stupid fake kid sister, but if you wanted..."
"Dawn! That's not true. You're as real as anyone. Realer." She laid her hand on top of Dawn's in reassurance.
"Now go to bed!" Buffy shooed Dawn out the door. "Thanks for the offer, but I don't need to talk. I just need to sleep."
Dawn heard a click as the door shut. Buffy had locked her door again. She chided herself for making Buffy comfort her rather than the other way around. She just couldn't seem to get it right. She headed off to bed with those last thoughts.
***
Spike was out walking the streets of Sunnydale. He was looking for his first tasty morsel in what felt like forever. He spied a young woman turning into an alley and he followed.
The girl screamed when she saw Spike's game face. He could smell her fear and it excited him.
"That's right. You should be scared. I'm the Big Bad!" He reached for her and she froze. Pushing her hair aside he gained a clear view of her neck. As he leaned in to scrape her skin with his teeth he whispered, "Don't worry luv. This won't take long. It's been awhile since I've had a decent meal."
He licked the salty sweat from her neck before going in for the kill. As his teeth broke skin she screamed. And so did he.
Spike fell to the floor in agony. // Bloody Hell?! //
By the time the headache subsided, the girl was gone. "Just as well. I'm obviously still neutered!"
As he walked back to his crypt, Spike replayed the argument in his head. What was different? Why hadn't the chip gone off?
Suddenly realization hit. Buffy was different. Buffy came back different.
// I can hurt her. Just like she hurt me. // Without meaning to his steps turned toward Revello Drive. He continued to explore the possibilities as he came closer to her house.
He found himself in front of the Summer's home. All the lights were out. He began to climb up the tree to her window. He scrambled onto the roof and pulled himself up so that he could peek in.
Buffy lay on top of her blankets with her eyes closed. Her breathing steady she looked as if she were asleep.
Spike lifted the window intent on entering quietly. But as he poked his head in through the opening, Buffy's eyes flew open and her head snapped to the side. Their eyes met.
"What are you doing here?!"