This Place and Time

Xander was completely shocked, his mind went into overdrive. Angel was kissing him and it made his body go rigid. But then he let himself be drawn into the kiss and parted his lips. Angel thrust his tongue into the welcoming mouth exploring every inch.

Xander gave himself over completely. Shutting his eyes he put his left hand into Angel's hair, urging him to continue. He began to kiss back and was lost in the passion of his and Angel's first kiss. It was amazing and he just wanted to be lost forever and become one with it.

It was Angel who broke the kiss, leaving Xander panting on the concrete. Xander was happy that Angel decided to break the kiss. If the vampire hadn't he would most likely have had let the kiss suffocate him.

Never did he think in a million years that he would’ve kissed Angel. If he was going to be honest with himself he would have to agree he never even imagined he would be kissing another man. Not to mention the fact that he * really * like it.

"Wow," he muttered. It was lame and cliché, but he couldn't think straight. His eyes remained shut for what seemed to be forever.
Thinking Angel was going to take the first move again he didn't want to open his eyes. When they kissed he had gone somewhere that made him feel truly safe. No worries, no problems, no Hellmouth, and no demons. Just him and Angel.

However Angel never made the next move. When he opened his eyes he noticed Angel looked aggravated.

"Angel, what's wrong?"

Angel had immediately took his hand away from his cheek and stood up. He began to pace while Xander got up and wiped dirt from his cloths. It was then that Xander noticed they were on the sidewalk and that anybody could have walked by and caught them. He began to blush profusely.

His attention turned to Angel who was still pacing up and down the sidewalk. Maybe he regretted it, Xander thought. Xander was also thinking that he should probably regret it as well. But he refused, he couldn't. It felt right to him. Whatever it was about Angel it made him want more. Knowing him, being in his company, everything. Then he came to the realization that he * wanted * Angel. Everything Angel offered – safety, passion, friendship – he wanted it all and wanted to return it back and make Angel feel the same things. But did Angel even want him?

From the looks of things he would have to say no. Angel did not want him. Something broke inside him and he wanted to run. Rejection would be too much right now and he needed to get away.

He lowered his head and decided he should talk. Break all ties with Angel and never mention it again.

"Angel I'm... I'm, sorry. I didn't mean to... I just need to go." He turned around and was about to run when he was grabbed from behind. His body was spun 180 degrees and he was met with another passionate kiss.

Angel thrust his tongue in and Xander lost his balance as his legs buckled. Angel put a hand behind his back to hold him steady, at the same time he put his other hand behind Xander's head and forced his tongue deeper. Before Xander had a chance to kiss him back Angel pulled away.

Holding his position Angel leaned his forehead unto Xander's. "Don't go. Listen. I.. I don't know what this is. I don't know what's going on Xander. What is this?" Xander was about to answer but Angel kept talking. "All I know is I want it and it scares me.........You know I thought Buffy was it for me. But I... I don't know. I want this, whatever * this * is."

Xander had no idea that Angel felt this way. When had this attempt at friendship become something more than that? When had it become attraction? He didn't know but he knew he wanted it. He wanted Angel and he wanted this. But there was so much running through his head he couldn't think straight.

"What do you want me to say?"

"That you want this too. Just please tell me. If you don't I can go and we can forget about it. But if you do you have to say something now. * Please *." Angel's eyes were pleading for an answer. Instead of answering his question Xander decided to kiss him. It was the first kiss that he initiated and it felt good. He pressed his lips to Angel's and was welcomed in. They slowly melded together and Xander lost himself. Soon he had to pull away for breath and he was saddened by the loss. Their foreheads still resting together Angel decided to speak.

"Xander I just need to hear it. Do you?"

"Goddamn Angel are you always so angst. Yes okay? Yes I fucking want you alright? You're the only damn thing I've been able to think about since that night we stayed up for hours and talked. That is * ALL *, just you."

He was embarrassed for having to say it. But once it came out and was known he felt a lot better. Angel had been the only thing on his mind, he needed to tell someone. Apparently the one he needed to tell was Angel.

Angel smiled and gave him a small kiss on the lips. "Thank you." Xander smiled back and they stood there for minutes just taking it all in.

"What now," asked Xander.

"Come home with me?" Angel said in a whisper.

Xander pulled his head back and stared at Angel – looking shocked and surprised. He hadn't expected this to move so fast. Angel wanted him yes, but was he completely ready for this. For all of it, for all of Angel? He knew the answer the moment he thought the question. Yes.

"OK." He nodded. Angel smiled and grabbed his hand as they ran toward the mansion.

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When they got to the mansion they rushed toward the bedroom. They never parted as they kissed each other every step of the way. Angel was all over Xander and Xander the same with Angel.

The first things to go were their socks and shoes. When they were in the bedroom Angel tossed them both on the bed, he lay firmly pressed a top the Xander’s smaller body. The vampire laved kisses up and down the Xander’s neck which elicited soft moans from the boy.

Xander gasped when Angel had removed his shirt. He stared intently at the lean muscled body. The dark haired vampire was very nicely built - well defined abs and pecks, long strong arms, and soft pale skin. Xander thought he was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.

'All for me', he thought as he reached up to touch Angel. But his wrists were caught by Angel's large hands and forced above his head - pinned to the mattress. Angel kissed his lips and thrust his tongue into Xander's mouth. It caused Xander to moan loudly into Angel's mouth as they both became aware of how painfully hard they were. Without thought they began to thrust against one another - his and Angel's erections rubbing together as they kissed.

Angel removed his hands from Xander's wrists and took the shirt from the boy as quickly as possible. Before Xander had time to think Angel was back on him and kissing his neck as he grabbed his wrists and pinned them once again to the mattress. Angel kissed him hard and with more passion than Xander ever realized the vampire possessed. They were moaning loudly as their erections began to rock frantically against each other through their pants.

Angel kissed his way down Xander's neck, making his way along his chest. Lips slowly made their way toward one of the round brown nipples and he kissed around the nub, teasing Xander best he could.

Xander gasped and moaned as Angel took the nub into his mouth and swirled his tongue over it. He never realized his nipples were so sensitive and Angel was now twirling his tongue over them with a rough circular motion - while at the same time slightly biting down. Xander didn't know if he'd hold out any longer. This was bliss and all Angel was doing was playing with his nipples.

Angel moved from the nub and kissed his way across his chest to the other one. Xander was writhing and arching his back as Angel continued the work he started on his other nipple. Angel found his target and began swirling his tongue until it reached hardness. Then without warning he bit down hard. Xander felt jolts of excitement all throughout his body - his back arched off the bed to the point were he thought he'd be bent in half.

"Angel," Xander moaned as be tried to control himself. He needed to move, to touch. But Angel still had his hands pinned over his head.

With a slight gasp Angel parted from Xander's abused nub and started kissing his way down the boy’s body. Xander was thrusting up into against Angel looking for some type of friction to help him release all his built up desire. He thought he'd get it when Angel removed his hands from his wrists. However Angel moved his hands down and quickly held his pelvis firmly to the mattress. Xander began to pant and moan loudly trying to fight Angel's hold as he thrust his hips up with as much force as he could. Being a vampire Angel was much stronger and held him down. This caused Xander to whimper and he started clawing at the sheets.

"Shh. Calm down. I got you," Angel whispered. Xander took a long deep breath and tried to slow down. Soon he was under control and Angel started his way down again. A tongue was trust into Xander's navel and swirled around, causing him to gasp. He was praying for Angel to give him some release. This was the slowest torture he could imagine. Then Angel's mouth began to lower again.

Angel rubbed his face against the bulge in the jeans. He began to slowly unbutton them when he noticed Xander had tensed up. Angel looked up and saw Xander had shut his eyes. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing," Xander said softly.

Angel kissed slowly down the line of hair that began at his navel and disappeared into his jeans. Xander still hadn't loosened up so he began to speak. "I know that isn't true. Tell me what's wrong," he looked up again and noticed Xander had his eyes still tightly shut." Look at me," he demanded.

Xander opened his eyes slowly and looked into Angel's. " I've....I've..." he lowered his voice to a faint whisper. "I've never done this before." He dropped his gaze and blushed a bright shade of red.

Angel smiled at him, "I wasn't expecting you to have had much experience with men Xander. Just calm down let me take it from here."

Xander's voice raised a bit and he turned away to stare at the wall. "No you don't understand. I've never done * this * before. I've never had se.." He didn't get the words out as Angel jumped on top of him and met his lips in another passionate kiss. Angel thrust his tongue inside and tried to calm his nerves. Xander reached up and pulled him closer.

They kissed for several minutes only parting to let Xander catch his breath. When they both became unbearably hard Angel put his hand in between their bodies and began to unzip Xander's pants.

Xander began to tense up again. So Angel grabbed his chin and forced him to look at his face. He stroked the boy's cheek slowly to calm him.

"I got you. Just trust me," he said in a low whisper.

Xander stared into his eyes and he felt a sting in his heart. He wanted to tell Angel that he could never, not trust him. That Angel had everything, his life, his soul, his everything. But he couldn't find the words.

Slowly he nodded and gasped when he felt Angel's cool hand reach into his jeans and wrap itself around his erection. Angel took his erection fully out of the jeans and used his other hand to take the pants the rest of the way off - throwing them to the floor.

Xander was completely naked and he was feeling so vulnerable. He needed more, but he didn't know what of. So he put his hands behind Angel's head and grabbed at the thick brown hair before yanking Angel's head down and pushing their lips together. This earned him a loud moan and Angel took his hand away from the boy's erection. Xander tried to wrap his legs around Angel's waist and pull him closer, but Angel simply held him down. Xander looked between their bodies he noticed Angel was taking off his pants.

With ease Angel pulled his leather pants off and threw them to the floor. Not once breaking contact with Xander.

When Xander first saw Angel's erection his eyes widened. It was so * big *. He began to deep slow breaths as he wondered what Angel was possibly going to do with it. Then Angel grabbed both their erections in one hand while taking Xander's two wrists in the other and forcing them above his head.

Immediately Xander knew what Angel was thinking and he began to thrust into his fist, rubbing their erections together. Both began to chant each other's names as they thrust into the tight channel of Angel's hand. It was heaven and all Xander could think about was Angel. He wanted it to be this way forever, just him and * his * Angel.

Momentum built up and he couldn't hold out much longer. He thrust fast – his body arching off the bed trying to find sweet release.

"ANGEL," he screamed as his orgasm ripped through him spilling between their bodies and unto their chests. Angel soon followed and collapsed on Xander with his head nestled on his shoulder. Both of their spent passions lay between them.
Xander felt content. It was so much for him to take in. This was everything, this was where he felt right, where all his problems went away and all that remained was paradise.
He noticed a shift on the bed and he wrapped himself around Angel, not willing to lose contact.

Legs came up and hooked around the vampire’s lower back. Arms wrapped tightly around his neck - he couldn't move. Xander was holding on as if his life depended on it.

Angel smiled into the shoulder. Xander was his now. But he couldn't move much with the death grip Xander had on him. But he was too tired to argue so he continued with what he was doing and rolled onto his side trying not to crush Xander.

Xander picked up on what Angel was doing and slowly unwrapping himself. However he still clung to the vampire and tried to find a comfortable position. Eventually he found one - sprawled across Angel with his leg around the vampire’s waist, while his arm and head lay on top Angel's broad chest. It was weird that Angel was cool and didn't have a heart beat. But he didn't care because tonight he would sleep where he felt the safest, with * his * Angel.