I remember you

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Spike led her to the door of the hotel room silently. He swept her up into his arms and gazed into her eyes. “You ready?” He asked.

“Always.” She sighed softly and rested her head against his shoulder.

“I want you to close your eyes…” He said softly, kissing each eyelid when she complied.
She felt him push the door open and step over the threshold. She heard the door shut behind them. The room smelled amazing. A smile lit her face, though she kept her eyes tightly shut.

Spike set her down on the edge of the bed. “No peekin’ now.” He whispered kissing the top of her head. She nodded to show she had heard him.

She listened to him move about the room. She heard the familiar flick of his Zippo and grinned when she smelled the wax from the now burning candles.

“I heard this song the other day…it…it made me think of you…of us…” He said softly taking her hand and pulling her to her feet. “Open your eyes luv…dance with me…” Buffy glanced around the room and gasped in delight. Spike had placed candles everywhere. the bed was adorned with all kinds of flower petals.

“Oh my god Spike! It’s beautiful.” She said softly glancing at him with unshed tears in her eyes.

“Didn’t know what kind of flower you like…so I got a bunch of different ones.” He shrugged. “Wanted to make this special Buffy. It should have been special your first time…”

“It was Spike. It was you.” She said softly.

Spike gave her a shy smile and pulled her over to the radio he had set up. He pushed play on the CD player. Taking her in his arms as the song started he pulled her up against him. Their bodies moved together as if they were one.

It's been awhile
Since I could
Hold my head up high
And It's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And It's been awhile
Since I could stand
on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

“I’m so sorry that I hurt you Buffy...I didn’t want to…while I was away from you…I missed you so much…I just needed to be sure…” He kissed her softly.

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I stretched myself beyond my means

“I was wrong…so wrong when I said I wasn’t sure about you…and when I said I wasn’t sure my feelings were real… nothing feels right but being with you luv…nothing feels right without you by my side…I was a stubborn fool not to realize it before…but when you had that gun in your hand and you were raising it…” He trailed off as his eyes glistened over. He captured her mouth in another tender kiss.

And It's been awhile
Since I can say
That I wasn't addicted and
It's been awhile
Since I can say
I love myself as well and
It's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
and it's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

“Buffy I want to be with you…please give me the chance to prove to you that I can be the man you already believe me to be…the man you deserve to have hold you every night…I want to be that man…” Her hand came up and caressed the side of his face.

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

“Nothing feels as real…as right, nothing has ever made me want to be a better man but you do Buffy, you do. I know that now…I’m meant to be with you…sometimes I look at you and I feel like you’ve been in my heart for longer than I could possibly know…I feel like you’ve wrapped yourself around me and won’t ever let me go…that doesn’t terrify me as much as it once did. It’s almost like you’ve always been mine…that I was just waiting for you…and I’ve only now realized it.”

And it's been awhile
Since I could
Look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been a while
Since I've seen the way
that candles light your face
And it's been a while
But I can still remember just the way you taste

“I love you. I love you so much…” Spike murmured softly. He picked her up and carried her over to the bed. “If you decide you’re gonna give me another chance…after how I’ve hurt you…I’ll never leave your side…I’ll do what ever it takes to have you…to be yours…I’m your willing slave Buffy.”

And everything I can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
To be,
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been a while
Since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

Buffy felt her heart swell with pride. “I know you can be a good man. I’ve always known…”

“Can I make love to you Buffy?” He asked trailing kisses over her jaw.

Buffy moaned in pleasure. “Yes. Yes Spike…that’s what you’ve been doing since the moment I saw you outside my room…you’ve been loving me. I’m ready…I’m so ready for you…nothing is ever gonna come between us…no misunderstandings…no threats…no caring about what anyone thinks…I’m yours and you are mine…forever…” She finished undoing the buttons on his shirt and pushed it off of his shoulders.

“You make me fee so…whole…I’ve never felt this way…” Spike murmured leaning over her and kissing her softly. Buffy arched up into him, wanting as much contact with his body as she could get.

Spike pushed his denim-clad cock against her heated center. Buffy wrapped her legs around him. “Off…” She tugged at his jeans. Spike pulled back and undid his jeans, watching her parted thighs fall to the bed, still covered in her yummy sushi pajamas She gazed up at him with lust filled eyes. “I need you Spike…I need you inside of me…”

Spike growled and pulled his jeans off. His cock sprang free of the constricting material. Buffy reached for him.

“Uh uh…you need to get undressed first…I want to make love to you and not have to stop to take off your PJ’s…”

Buffy looked up at him shyly before removing her clothing.

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“Can I have one too?” She asked bouncing up and down, clapping her hands. “I haven’t had one since I was human…the only one of our line who hasn’t felt one warring with my demon…”

“Uh…I…”

“She’s with me. She’s fighting with me, She’s really trying to be a white hat, and we’ve claimed each other. I think it would be good for her…” Angel said softly.

“O…Okay…I just…I wasn’t prepared to do two of them…I need another Orbs of Thesulah …”

“I can get you anything you need.” Angel said softly. “I just have to make a phone call and have it delivered…”

Jenny nodded. “I’ll wait.”

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It felt different than it ever had before when Spike slid into her wet heat. She cried out in pleasure, stroking his back gently as he hovered above her and thrust slowly. “I love you…” She whispered.

“I love you too…Buffy…I love you so much…” Spike couldn’t take it anymore. He pressed his weight down onto her warm pliant body. “Need to feel you…need to feel all of you…” He whispered.

“Spike…oh…Spike…I…” She felt whole as he rocked against her, rubbing her in all the right places. Spike like no one else knew how to make her body sing and her spirit come alive.

Spike growled in pleasure. “Make me yours Buffy…” He begged. His demon surged forward and he opened his neck with his sharpened nails. Buffy’s mouth latched on to the wound and she took a few deep pulls of his rich blood.

“Mine.” She whispered against his blood soaked flesh.

“Yours.” He whispered back. Buffy turned her head to the side slightly in invitation. Spike licked her neck, nibbling gently with blunt teeth against his mark. He could feel the need welling up within her. “I love you…” He whispered before sinking his fangs into the mark he placed upon her golden flesh.

“Ohhhhh Spiiiiiike…” She screamed as wave after wave of pleasure coarsed through her body.

Spike felt her slick walls gripping his shaft tightly. “I love you…” she moaned writhing beneath him.
She turned her head back towards him, he leaned down and captured her blood covered lips with his.

He felt his sac tightening, tasting his blood mingling with hers, tasting her mouth, he thrust deeply and let himself go, deep inside her womb.

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“Jenny! You’re back.” Giles grinned and leaned in for a kiss. “How did it go?” He asked.

“It…it was really strange, I saw Angel, told him about the curse…and then Drusilla asked if she could have a soul too…”

“Drusilla? Spike’s ex?” Giles asked incredulously. “Why would she do that?”

“I…I don’t know…but Angel seemed to think it was a good idea…so I went ahead with it…”

FLASHBACK

He held her tightly as her soul entered her body. “Are you okay?” He asked after ten minutes had passed without her speaking.

“I’m fine Angel.” She said softly turning to face him. “It wasn’t your fault. Not really. I was young, and my mum was crazy religious. When she told me my visions were the devils work I believed her, because she was my mother…”

“Dru…are you…”

“I already told you I’m fine…Angel when you were there…when you turned me…I became a monster, but it was because I didn’t have my soul to anchor me. I was weak, and I let you mould me into what you wanted. We were both very different then. Just as we are different now.”

“Dru…I…”

“Shhhh…no feeling guilty. I’ll be alright now. My soul is much stronger…I understand…more than I ever did before…”

END FLASHBACK

“So instead of making her guilty…”

“She’s sane now Rupert…” She’s…completely sane…”

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“Tell me again why I’m helping you do this?” Spike grumbled kissing the back of her neck and cupping her breasts in his palms. He was standing behind her pressed up against her back.

“I told you…I had a slayer dream…I don’t want to have to deal with this later when we could be…doing other things.” She grinned and rubbed her ass suggestively against his hardened length. “Remember my mom’s still out of town for a couple of days so we’re staying at my house...”

“I gotta get us a place luv…we can’t keep stayin’ at the hotel and you sneaking off at sunrise when your mum’s in town.” Spike nuzzled into her neck. “I love it when she goes out of town and we can fall asleep together and wake up together.”

“I do too Spike…it’s just…you have no idea. I’m her little girl…I’m only sixteen…I forget that sometimes…” She said softly leaning back against him. “I can’t wait until we can be together all the time…”

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“Hey, maybe you can have Spike help you find the Gorches.” Willow suggested. They were sitting around the library, discussing the pair. Buffy already knew all about them, and knew what she had to do, but had to pretend like she didn’t. She wasn’t ready to tell them the truth about where she was from. ‘I don’t know if I ever will tell them.’

”Yes! Yes, yes, that's not a bad idea. Strength in numbers.” Giles nodded, polishing his glasses.

”Oh, right. I see a lotta hunting getting done in that scenario.” Xander rolled his eyes.

”Please. Like Spike and I are just helpless slaves to passion. Grow up!” Buffy replied, glaring at him.

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“We have to do this now?” Spike grumbled.

“I told you I could handle it.” Buffy grinned at him. “Besides Mister big bad…if we take car of this now, then the Gorches will be easy…the easier it is to kill them…the longer we have to…” Trailing off she led him down past the boiler room.

“Oi! Bloody hell what is that?” Spike growled when he caught sight of the demon they were to fight.

“That’s what we’re here for…watch out it has some nasty tentacles…” Buffy grimaced as one came towards her. She sliced it cleanly off the mother bezoar. She roared in pain. Wrapping another tentacle around Buffy’s ankle she pulled Buffy towards the pit.

Spike let out an enraged growl and lunged. He threw his sword right into the Bezoar’s eye. Slime shot up out of the pit, covering them both.

“Gross Spike.” She grumbled standing up and wrapping her slime covered arms around him.

“Come on then, let’s go to your house and shower…” he purred. “I think you should be grateful that I saved your pretty arse slayer.” Spike tilted his head and smirked at her.

“Oh thank you. My hero.” Buffy squealed perkily. “How can I ever repay you for getting me all covered in slime?”

“Alright, alright…let’s go get cleaned up…”

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“Oh god…Oh Spike…yeah…harder…” She screamed. She was pushed up against the wall of the shower, warm water sluicing down her body, Spike was buried deep inside her, thrusting deeper and deeper.

His hand snaked down between their bodies, rubbing her clit. “Oh….Spike…Oh yes….”

“I love you Buffy…” He murmured against her hair as he exploded inside of her. Buffy’ slick walls clenched around him as she hurled off the edge into bliss.

They were toweling each other off and sharing a tender kiss when they heard the soft knock on the bathroom door. Buffy glanced at Spike with wide frightened eyes.

She wrapped her towel around herself with shaking hands, checked to make sure Spike was covered and went to the door. She placed her palm flat against it. “Who is it?” She called out timidly.

“Who were you expecting?” Came the reply.

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Song used It’s been awhile by Staind.

TBC… Please let me know if you’re still with me on this one…