So Many Tears

Title: So Many Tears 8

Rating: NC-17

Author: Justchibme\rbme

Pairing: If you don’t know by now, B/F

Endorse: Characters and show belong to JW and ME and whoever else. The story is mine.

Archive: Oooh yeah would love for someone to archive, just ask me first so I know, and attach my name of course.

Feedback: If I don’t get feedback I don’t write, ok well maybe I will but it’ll take me longer. xtrekangel@yahoo.com

Notes: hope you like this next installment it’s a little piece I just worked up, yet another 1am project. I know there are some who don’t like it, but what can I say I’m going to write it anyway. I’m just writing what comes to me, not like I can really control it. Enjoy. : >



Buffy stumbled down the street cursing under her breath. She needed Faith and the girl just runs away.

‘Hey love where you going?’ Spike walked up next to her, and caught her as she fell.

‘You know Spikey, I hate Faith, she’s always running away.’ Her words slurred.

‘Ok love I think you better go home.’ Buffy stopped walking and looked at Spike.

‘Spike, kiss me.’

‘Ummm I think you’re drunk Slayer.’

‘Come on Spike you know you wanna. Jus a little one.’

‘Yeah and psycho slayer will have my heart ripped out.’

‘She wont know.’ Buffy leaned forward, and Spike frowned at her. ‘It’s ok I wont tell.’ She said and leaned in closer pressing her body against his. Spike couldn’t take the temptation any longer and pulled her hard against him and shoved his tongue into her mouth, after a few seconds Buffy pulled away and she looked a little more sober as she gazed into his eyes.

‘What’s wrong pet thought you wanted a kiss.’

‘You’re not Faith.’ She said before turning and walking off. Spike looked after her and spit on the ground in disgust, and wiped the back of his hand across his mouth.

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‘Willow what’s going on with Buffy?’ Dawn walked into the living room where the scoobies had gathered, with the exception of their leader. They all looked at each other before the redhead approached the young girl.

‘Dawn, Buffy needs our help.’

‘I know, has she even come out of her room the last two days?’

‘I’ve heard her in the middle of the night.’ Kennedy said.

‘She locks her door so we can’t come in. I could open it easily if I wanted but I don’t think it’s going to help any.’ Willow said.

‘So what do you suggest we do, leave her up there to rot and die?’

‘She’s not going to rot and die. But I think I know who she needs right now.’

‘You don’t mean Faith do you?’ Xander said in disgust.

‘Isn’t she the reason for this whole mess?’ Dawn asked. Willow sighed.

‘That’s exactly why she needs to be the one. They have to work things out. Buffy can’t go on like this, she’s the slayer she has responsibilities.’

‘How are we going to find her?’ Kennedy asked stepping up next to Willow.

‘A simple locating spell shouldn’t be hard.’ Willow set about getting her things and they all gathered around as she began to do her task.

‘Can I say I don’t like this idea?’ Xander spoke up.

‘Shhhhh!’ Both Kennedy and Dawn shushed him.

‘What?’

‘Well it shouldn’t be hard to find her.’ Willow spoke up and they all looked at her. ‘She’s outside.’

‘Huh?’ Xander looked confused. The witch stood up and walked towards the front door and opened it.

‘Faith, I know you’re out there don’t make me get all magiky.’

‘What’s up can’t a girl take a walk?’ Faith said stepping out of the shadows.

‘Right a walk, and I’m a magical leprechaun.’ Xander spoke up sarcastically.

‘How bout I kick your leprechaun ass.’ Faith came closer.

‘If you’re both done with your posturing…………’ Willow paused looking at them, then turned to Faith. ‘You need to fix what happened between you and Buffy.’

‘Look Red, I don’t think there’s anything to be done. I love her and all I can do is wait for the day when she’s ready to believe that.’

‘If you wait any longer she wont be around to believe anything.’

‘What are you talking about?’

‘What are stupid *and* blind?’ Xander yelled.

‘Faith you know something’s wrong, and now you need to fix it.’ The brunette went quiet for a moment.

‘Alright, but you guys should leave and stay somewhere else. This isn’t going to be easy.’ Xander started to protest, as well as Dawn but Willow silenced them.

‘You better fix this Faith.’ She said walking past the brunette.

‘I will.’ Faith watched them leave and turned and went into the house. Breathing in deeply she began to walk up the stairs. Slowly she made her way to Buffy’s door and knocked softly on it.

‘Who is it?’ The muffled voice of the blond sounded haggard.

‘Faith.’ Silence.

‘What, did you get tired of stalking me?’

‘Look B just let me in we need to talk.’

‘Why do you want to talk now?’

‘Come on B open up.’ Silence. ‘Buffy open the door.’ Silence. Faith growled in frustration. ‘Ok fuck this shit.’ Faith lifted her foot and kicked the door open. Darkness greeted her and she tried to get her eyes to adjust. ‘B where ya at?’

‘What do you want?’ Faith searched for the source of the voice as her eyes adjusted to the darkness. A faint moonlight shone in through the window. She could see the form of the blond next to the bed on the floor.

‘Buffy. Shit! Ow, what the fuck!’ Faith stumbled as she tripped over something. ‘Put a light on will ya!’ A small light flicked on, it was a lamp on Buffy’s nightstand. Faith looked around in shock. Various things had been thrown around the room, and Buffy sat curled in a blanket, her hair disheveled, and an empty bottle of beer next to her. ‘B.’ She said quietly trying to get over the run down look the slayer had aquired.

‘What do you want?’ Buffy asked again, a hint of anger in her voice.

‘What’s happened to you?’

“You happened to me.’ The blond stated matter of factly.

‘I’m sorry.’

‘Aren’t you always.’

‘B I never wanted any of this to happen.’

‘So when it does you run away?’ Buffy’s jaw clenched.

‘I didn’t runaway.’

‘Then what the fuck do you call it?’ She spat out the words like poison.

‘I thought it would be better this way. I didn’t want to hurt you anymore.’

‘As much as I hated you I needed you, and you left me.’ Faith moved closer the blond and crouched down in front of her.

‘Look at what you’re doing to yourself B.’

‘What do you care?’

‘I love you, I’ll say that a million times if you’ll just believe me.’ She looked down at the older girl. ‘You need to get a hold of yourself B, you’re the slayer. All the scoobies are counting on you.’

‘They do fine without me.’

‘And what about Dawn, how many times are you gonna let her down?’ Buffy didn’t respond. They were quiet a moment. ‘Did Red take care of your dreams?’

‘Yes.’ Faith moved and sat back against the wall, staring at the blond.

‘Why ya drinking B, you know that shit doesn’t take care of the problem, it just makes it worse.’

‘I don’t know, things disappeared for awhile.’

‘But they come back and they come back worse.’ Faith sighed. ‘What can I do?’

‘I don’t know, I don’t know anything anymore.’ Buffy hung her head low. ‘I’ve lost it.’

‘Lost what?’

‘Everything.’

‘No B, I’ve lost everything, you just got caught up in my mess and lost sight of things for a little.’

‘Do you love me Faith?’

‘God yes.’

‘Can we make it through this?’

‘I think we can.’

‘Please don’t runaway again.’

“I promise I won’t, if you promise you won’t drink anymore.’ Buffy looked at her.

‘I promise.’ She said quietly, and they sat there in silence for a few hours. Neither moved or said a word. Faith just looked at Buffyt tht the blond would not look up, she was lost in her thoughts. Finally Buffy spoke in a voice barely above a whisper. ‘Hold me please.’ Without hesitation Faith got up and sat down behind the blond and wrapped her arms around the older girl. Buffy smelled of alcohol and other mixed things, but she still had the smell of Buffy. The blond relaxed and leaned back into the brunette, she pulled Faith’s hands into her own, and turned her head to kiss the younger girl. It was a soft kiss that lasted a few minutes before they broke apart and the brunette kissed down Buffy’s neck and her tongue flicked out across the blonds ear. Her hands pulled away from Buffy’s and traveled down the girls thighs, then up across the inside of them. Buffy moaned in response and turned her body around so she could get better access to the brunette’s lips. She allowed Faith’s tongue in to dual with hers. The younger girl could taste the beer Buffy had consumed. Faith moved and pushed Buffy back to the ground, and hovered over her. She took the blonds bottom lip into her mouth and sucked as she pulled away. Faith looked down at her girlfriend and smiled at her, and for the first time Buffy smiled back at her, though somewhat of a sad smile. Faith pulled off her shirt and leaned down running her hands up Buffy’s side slowly, pushing her shirt up as she went. When the brunette got her girlfriends shirt off she slid down the girls body and pulled off her pants and panties. As she moved back up Buffy’s body, her hands slid up her legs and she kissed the inside of the blonds thighs. Faith moved to Buffys stomach and dipped her tongue into the slayers naval.

‘God.’ Buffy moaned as her hands moved up her girlfriends back, and Faith licked her way up to the area between Buffy’s breast, leaving goose bumps in her wake. The brunettes hands slid up and squeezed the blond’s breast before Faith reached over and her lips encompassed one of Buffy’s hard nipples. The blond moaned and arched farther into Faith’s mouth. The brunettes tongue rolled around the nipple as her teeth grasped it and pulled it lightly. Buffy’s other nipple needed the same attention and Faith moved to it, her tongue flicking out barely touching it.

‘Please.’ Buffy moaned as she pushed her hips against the dark slayer. Faith kissed her way down the blonds flat stomach, her skin tasted somewhat of salt and Buffy. She moved down and wrapped the older girls legs around her, and took Buffy’s clit in her mouth and sucked. Buffy groaned loudly, her hips bucking up into the brunettes face. Faith ran her tongue up and down the length her, lapping up Buffy’s juices. ‘God…..Faith…please.’ Buffy groaned as she drove her hips up against the brunette. Faith thrust her tongue inside the girl. Buffy repeated Faith’s name as she drove her tongue in and out. The brunette grabbed onto Buffy’s butt and pulled her harder against her mouth, her tongue going as deep as she could get it, and hard. Faith’s nose hit Buffy’s clit with each thrust. Buffy cried out, and the brunette could feel her girlfriend was close. Faith removed her tongue and thrust three fingers deep and hard into the girl, over and over. Her body moving behind each thrust, her breasts rubbing against Buffy’s. The blond screamed out Faith’s name as she went over the edge, her body tensing. Faith held her close to her body and kissed Buffy’s neck.

“I love you Buffy.’ She whispered.



TBC not over yet, ok if ya’ll don’t like this one tell me and maybe I’ll rewrite it.