Changes

The next day Willow was sitting miserably in her house. She was so confused at the moment that she actually felt like throwing up. Last night had been amazing and she had never even thought that kissing a girl could be that amazing. She had just thought she was going through the whole stage where all teens are confused but last night had instead of making her surer of herself had made it worse. Buffy was mind blowing and she sighed ion frustration almost pulling her hair out.

“Why can’t I get her out of my head?!” Willow groaned to herself.
“Who you talking about?”
Willow jumped when she heard the voice behind her and glared daggers at Xander who was standing by her open window which he had been using to visit her since they were 6.

“Jeesh Xand creep much.” Willow grumbled.
“Who were you talking about?” Xander persisted eagerly walking up to Willow and sitting down on the little stool next to her.
“No one.” Willow lied turning so she wouldn’t have to look him in the face.
Xander knew she was lying and his face lit up knowing exactly who she was thinking of.
“Buffy right?” Xander smirked knowingly almost falling off his stool in laughter at the shocked look Willow cats him.
“How do you…I mean no!” Willow stumbled her face a bright red.
“Come on Will…im your best buddy remember. I thought you could tell me everything.” Xander said in a hurt voice.

How come Buffy tells me straight away but Willow hides!

Willow sighed heavily and stared out the window trying to gather her thoughts.
“I'm scared you’ll go all spazzy.” Willow spoke so quietly he barely heard her but he smiled when he finally made out her words. He grabbed her hand and smiled at her encouragingly.

“I promise I won’t spaz out.” He grinned.
Willow didn’t reply straight away and Xander was about to repeat his words when she finally decided to speak.
“I think im kind of gay.”
The room fell into silence and Xander nodded slowly. He still couldn’t believe it. After Buffy had told him the other day he had started to see some signs but for it to be out in the open a dead fact that his best friend was actually gay…well it was mind numbing to say the least.

Willow looked at his face for a reaction and saw the weird look on Xanders face and immediately took it badly.
“You think im disgusting.” Willow almost cried burying her face in her hands and feeling the tears fall down her face.
“NO! God no Will! I would never think that! You’re like my little sister you could never disgust me Will…im just a little overwhelmed at the moment. Not that I didn’t see this coming.” Xander chuckled slightly a she pulled his best friend close to him and hugged her tightly.

“What do you mean you saw this coming?!” Willow gasped pulling back and looking at Xander shocked.
Xander looked suddenly sheepish and just stared down at her carpet.
“Xander tell me?!” Willow cried out slapping his arm lightly.

Oh shit. If I tell her what Buffy told me Buffy will kill me if I don’t tell her then…I’ll have to face Willow’s resolve face.

“Buffy’s a lesbian.” Xander blurted out.
Willow stared at him for a few seconds her mouth in a perfect o shape.
“She kinda told me at lunch on Friday…you know when I tried to ask her out. Anyway she sort of implied she was interested in you.” Xander mumbled.
“No…no way! Buffy cant be gay. She told me herself last night that she’d had sex with guys. Plus hello! Me! Why would a girl like Buffy be interested in me!?” Willow shook her head in complete denial.
“One just because she’s gay doesn’t mean she hadn’t had relationships with guys before and why wouldn’t she be interested in you Will. Your one of the greatest people I know.” Xander smiled at his friend and saw the confusion written all over her face. He hugged her one last time before disappearing down the side of her house. Leaving her with her thoughts.

Buffy’s gay…

Willow sat right where Xander left her for the longest time doing nothing but thinking.

Oh my god. What should I do? Does she really like me? Jesus I just realised myself that im not straight I can’t just jump into a relationship can I?! Oh god I can’t tell anyone in school! But Buffy’s so amazing.

Willow slammed her head into her desk groaning at all the jumbled thoughts that were torturing her poor brain.

For once why don’t you just follow your instincts and do what you want!

The last thought brought a smile to Willows face and she straightened up and stared at her reflection in the mirror. A slow smile taking over her face.

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“Hey Xander!” Buffy grinned in greeting but her smile quickly faded when he saw the panicked and guilty look on Xanders face as she approached.
“What?” Buffy asked suspiciously.
She saw his throat clench as he gulped and she followed him as he gestured to an empty class room.

“Okay don’t be mad okay?” Xander tried desperately.
“Mad about what?” Buffy asked starting to worry herself.
“IkindatoldWIllowYouweregayandintersetdinher.” Xander rushed out and put as much space between him and Buffy as possible.
She blinked slowly taking in the rushed sentence before her face paled and she shook her head in disbelief.

“Why the hell did you do that?!” Buffy cried out sadly.
She had decided just last night to give up in her crush on Willow and had given into the fact that the red head was off limits and now this!
“I'm sorry she was just really weirded out and it slipped out.” Xander said apologetically.

“She’s not gunna be friends with me now is she.” Buffy said softly. Xander saw the tears welling in Buffy’s eyes and kicked himself for being such an ass. He stepped forwards and wrapped the tiny girl up in a warm hug. They stayed like that for a few minutes and Buffy buried her face into his chest.
“Has she come to school yet?” Buffy asked sadly.
“No.” Xander frowned a little. Willow always got to school before him and he too worried about whether the red head was trying to avoid Buffy.

No she wouldn’t do that! She seemed as if she liked her last night.

Buffy didn’t respond and instead turned on her heel and went to class.
Half way through second lesson. Buffy was slumped in her English seat scribbling on a piece of paper when the door swung open and a slow rumbled of chattering rose form the class. Buffy was too depressed to pay attention really but it was so unusual to hear any sort of disturbance from this class that she glanced up to see what was wrong and her jaw dropped at the sight before her.

Willow stood at the front of the…at least Buffy could tell it was Willow. No one else seemed to have recognised the girl however. She still had the same awkward look about her and she still had the dazzling green eyes and pixie face but no one had paid enough attention to her as Buffy had so only he had recognised the striking girl ahead of her.
She was wearing tight blue jeans and a pair of strappy green heals matched with a pretty emerald green sweater that hung off one shoulder. Her hair seemed to have had some darker red highlights put in and she had had it cut so it hung barely below her jaw and it flicked out at the edges. All in all Willow Rosenberg looked hot.

“May I help you?” Mr Pritchard asked looking at the new student with a warm smile.
“Urm no thanks. Sorry im late sir.” Willow spoke quietly her eyes firmly on the floor.
The teacher gasped and he stared at Willow in disbelief.

“Miss Rosenberg?” He gasped out causing the rest of the class to also gawk at the new and improved Willow. She didn’t meet anyone’s eyes but she did seek out one person. As soon as her eyes clashed with the beautiful hazel at the back of the room a soft smile appeared on her face and she walked straight to the empty seat next to Buffy and sat down not paying attention to the looks everyone from the class were still giving her.
After another five minutes Mr Pritchard had composed himself and he had the class’s rapt attention once again. Willow frowned and fiddled with her nails casting confused looks at the blonde next to her who still hadn’t spoken a word to her.

Why hasn’t she even spoken to me!

Willow scribbled a quick note one a piece of paper and flicked it at Buffy’s desk. Buffy looked shocked for a second but quickly opened and read the message.

So what do you think?

Buffy smiled slightly and scribbled a response on the back before throwing it back to her.

You look hotter than hell.

Willow grinned as she read the note and glanced at Buffy seeing the blonde smiling at her with a suggestive look on her face she let out a little squeak and blushed bright red causing Buffy to smile even wider.