The Shy Librarian

Chapter 7

“Buffy what’s wrong?” asked Willow as they walked down the corridor towards the lunch hall.

“Why would anything be wrong Willow,” Buffy replied, pasting a false smile on her lips.

“You were awful quiet in math…”

“Apart from the fact that we’re not supposed to talk in class?” asked Buffy arching an eyebrow.

“Buffy…”

“Look I have to go do something, maybe I‘ll catch you later,” said Buffy as she walked away.

Willow stared after her friend, starting slightly as Xander bounded up to her.

“So where’s Buffy off too in such a hurry?” asked Xander.

“Beats me, come on,” said Willow as she took Xander’s arm and they continued on their way to the lunch hall.

“Shouldn’t we go after her?” asked Xander.

“Something tells me that she doesn’t want us to,” said Willow.

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Buffy slowly made her way across the sports field. It was deserted except for one lone figure sitting on the bleachers. She sighed, half hoping that he wouldn’t have bothered to turn up. As she got closer to Angel, she could see an almost smug smile on his face. He hadn’t doubted that she would show for a moment. It made her wish that she had been late, as she would have enjoyed seeing him squirm.

“Buffy…so glad that you could take the time out of your busy cock sucking schedule to join me, but you always did give good head,” he drawled insultingly.

Buffy turned around and began to walk away. Angel quickly got up from his seat to follow her, realising that he had gone too far.

“Sorry that was uncalled for,” he apologised. “It was just…awkward for me seeing you with your lips wrapped around another guy’s dick,”

“Maybe you shouldn’t have watched. Did it get you off?” she asked in disgust. “Besides I had to witness something almost identical a few short weeks ago myself,”

“Point taken,” he sighed.

Angel led her back over to the platform, Buffy reluctantly sat down and Angel joined her.

“Just what do you want Angel? We are over. I thought you respected me at least enough to leave me alone. Looks like I was wrong about that…and a lot of other things,” she said sadly.

“Buffy, I’ve wronged you, I won’t deny that. I am the worst kind of coward for what I did to you, but I had my reasons…”

“There’s no reason that justifies what you did. You destroyed my life Angel,”

He flushed guiltily at her words.

“If for one moment Harmony had known what she had really walked in on, I would be out of the team and out of the school. You know I am after that Football scholarship at Stanford. Riley is going there…Snyder thinks I will walk the tryouts. There is a scout coming to watch me play next week Buffy. Do you know what this means? How long and hard I have worked for this?” he pleaded.

“Yeah, I know and more than most,” she sighed

At least that much was true, Angel was the original kid from the wrong side of the tracks. Where as Riley was the spoilt little rich boy who always got just what he wanted…including her man. He couldn’t have got her man if her man hadn’t wanted to be gotten, she reminded herself bitterly.

“But what’s it got to do with me?” asked Buffy.

“I want you to be my prom date,” he said.

“You have got to be fucking kidding,”

“You never used to have such a dirty mouth on you Buffy,”

“What are you, my mom? Sorry if you don’t like the new me…no scratch that, the real me, but I have had a lot to deal with these past few weeks,” she said bitterly, close to tears.

“Come to prom with me Buffy, I don’t want our relationship to go out on a sour note. You loved me once,” he reminded her.

“More fool me. Why don’t you ask your boy toy to be your date? I am sure Riley would look good in a prom dress,” she said sarcastically.

“Please?” he pleaded “Do this for me and I promise that I will go up on stage on prom night and confess everything. Snyder won’t be able to do a thing about my scholarship by then and you will get your life back as well as your reputation. Look on it as my attempt to make amends,”

Buffy looked away, confused beyond words.

“I can’t give you answer now Angel…I need time to think,” said Buffy.

“It’s nearly another two weeks till prom, but I must have your answer soon,” he pressed.

“If you really want an answer right now, you wouldn’t much like it,” she said resentfully.

“Okay, that will have to do for now,”

“Tell me one thing Angel,” she asked.

“What,”

“Do you love him?” asked Buffy.

“ Riley? Yes…I do. It’s like I have found the missing part of my soul,” he replied.

Buffy sucked in a breath. As Angel’s words washedr her her, William’s face came to her mind. She realised with perfect clarity that they were the exact words that she had been searching for when she looked at William. Tears sprang to Buffy’s eyes as she looked at Angel.

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William sat in the lunch hall, a picture of misery if anyone had troubled himself or herself to notice. He watched Buffy’s friends seated several tables away from him. As the time passed by, it became obvious that Buffy wasn’t going to join them. He sighed as he gave up all pretence of actually having any interest in the meal in front of him. He picked up his plate, walked over to the trash, scraped the remainder of his lunch into it, and exited the lunch hall.

He entered the library, the sun shone in through the windows brightening up the usually gloomy interior. William walked up the steps to the upper level of the library, rested his head on the warm glass, and closed his eyes. So, she had gone to meet Angel after all. How on earth could he even begin to compete with her last love? Angel was tall dark and athletic and everything he wasn’t. He opened his eyes and looked across the sports field, standing up straight as he saw the unmistakable figure of Buffy, sitting on the bleachers with Angel…

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Buffy let the tears fall down her cheeks, part joy and part sadness as she realised that she had finally let Angel go in her heart. A heart so full of William that there was no place for any other.

Unthinkingly Angel put his arms around her as she sobbed, letting out all the hurt of the past few weeks, maybe even years…

“Shhhh, there now. I am so sorry that I hurt you,” he apologised.

Buffy looked up at him and smiled through her tears.

“I’m not crying for you Angel, well maybe a little…you made me realise something that’s all,”

“The new guy? You love him?” asked Angel perceptively.

“Yeah, I do, thanks Angel,” she said as she kissed his lips briefly before running from the field.

“Call me about the prom?” he shouted out to her retreating form.

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William could have almost cried himself at that moment, as he saw Angel take Buffy into his arms and hold her for what seemed like hours to him. The final knife to his heart was the swift kiss that he saw Buffy place on Angel’s lips… lips that had only a few short hours ago been enclosed around his cock…his own lips… he smashed his hand down on the window ledge in angry hurt and frustration.

Were women really such faithless creatures? He wished that he had more experience in these matters. Maybe he was getting in a lather about nothing. He almost regretted his hasty declaration of love. At that moment, he felt like she had taken his heart and trampled all over it.

They still had their date tonight. He would give her a chance to mention it then…surely if there was nothing to hide then she would tell him about her meeting with Angel, wouldn’t she?

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Buffy waited on the corner of Revello drive. Safe in the knowledge that her mom thought she was off to spend a night at the Bronze with her friends Willow and Xander. She checked her watch again before sitting on a wall while she waited for William to show. He pulled up in his uncle’s rusty Citroen at exactly at 8pm. Buffy leapt up off the wall, a big smile on her face as she got in the car and leaned over to kiss him.

“I like a guy who’s on time,” she grinned.

“My mother taught me never to keep a lady waiting,” he drawled.

Buffy frowned at his sarcastic tone of voice, but dismissed it sure that she was imagining things.

“So where are we going?” she asked eagerly.

“I thought a movie. It’s dark, no one will notice us in there,” he suggested.

“True, people are usually too busy doing other things to see anyone else around them,” she grinned.

William wondered if she had ever done those “other things” there with Angel. He pushed the thoughts away as they were the ones that led to madness. So he wasn’t Buffy’s first, but he would make sure she was his last. He couldn’t bear the thought of another man holding her…fucking her, as he so badly wanted to do.

“You look good William,” said Buffy as she eyed his black jeans and midnight blue shirt.

Little did she know that they were handouts from his roommate at college in an attempt to update his wardrobe.

“Thanks, you look good too,” he replied. He meant it. He felt like he could eat her all up in her tight little red strapless top and short black skirt.

Something seemed wrong to Buffy, if she didn’t know better she would say that he was angry with her. She looked over at the set expression on his face.

“Is there anything wrong William?” she asked.

“Why don’t you tell me?” he asked meaningfully.

“I don’t get what you mean,” she said in confusion.

“Where were you at lunch?” he asked.

“I didn’t know we were supposed to meet. I was tying up loose ends,” she replied defensively.

“And would those loose ends involve being in Angel’s arms and kissing him?” asked William angrily.

“You were spying on me?” she demanded, heartsick at all these guys who felt they had the right to watch her personal movements.

“Didn’t need to spy, you were all over him on the sports field for everyone to see,” he snapped.

Buffy flushed angrily.

“Pull over!” she demanded.

“We’ re nearly there. I can’t let you out we are in the middle of nowhere. It might not be safe,” he replied.

“Pull over dammit or I will get out of this car whether it’s moving or not,”

William pulled up sharply at the side of the kerb, and Buffy opened the door and got out of the car, closely followed by William. He caught a hold of her arm.

“Buffy…”

“What do you want me to tell you William? That he fucked me long and hard? It would be funny if it wasn’t so…rid,”

Buffy was cut off by the punishing demand of William’s lips as they ground into hers. He pushed her back against the hood of the car, forcing her to lie back. He covered her body with his own, she instinctively parted her legs so that he lay between them.

His hands roamed under her top, as he stroked her nipples to painful hardness. William lifted her top and his lips closed around one of the buds, sucking it into his mouth. Buffy couldn’t help the little moan that escaped her lips as he moved on to the other breast.

“If any one is going to get a long hard fucking then it’s you. No more games Buffy. You crave cock? Then you are gonna get it,” he said as he reached between their bodies and tore off her panties and threw them away.

“William…no…not like this,” Buffy groaned, aroused almost against her will.

She heard the scrape of his belt buckle as he undid his jeans. He got himself out, Buffy could feel the head of his swollen cock begging entrance to her slick channel as he begain to thrust forward, but she was afraid. Afraid that if she let him take her like this and he discovered the truth, that he would never be able to live with himself.

“I’m a virgin,” she panted.

William reared back in shock. His face was white in the moonlight.

“Oh, fuck,” he groaned, closing his eyes at the sight of her sprawled on the hood of the car. He tucked himself away, full of self-loathing.

Buffy pulled down her skirt with shaky hands. Eying her torn underwear, she decided to leave it where William had thrown it. William was hunched over his shoulders were trembling. Buffy put out a hand to touch him and he reared away as if she had burned him.

“I’d better take you home,” he said quietly, unable to meet her gaze.

“Okay,” she replied miserably.

The car journey home was taken in absolute silence. Buffy let a tear trickle down her face. She looked out the window, unwilling to let him see her cry.

The car came to a stop at the bottom of her drive and Buffy started to get out of the car.

“Buffy,”

“Yes?”

“I think it best if you don’t come by the library anymore. It’s obvious I can’t be trusted around you. I am truly sorry for what I did this evening,” he said.

“William, there’s no need…I wanted you too, just not like that. Not in anger and doubt,”

“It doesn’t matter anymore,” he replied as she got out of the car and he drove off.

“Yes it does William. It matters because I love you,” she said softly as she watched the car disappear around the corner.

TBC

A/N Thanks for everyone for reading so far. If I have got any thing wrong about the US education system please forgive i.e. Stanford, but I try my best :)