Xander's Diary
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-Buffy the Vampire Slayer › Slash - Male/Male › Spike(William)/Xander
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
8
Views:
4,619
Reviews:
15
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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Entry 8
Thanks so very much to my beta Joolz!
You make this readable!
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YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
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Xander’s Diary
Entry 8
Dear Spike,
I am sorry to waste all the blood.
I know you are angry.
BUT:
Now, after more than 7 years with you
I don’t want to wait anymore.
The mating slowed down my ageing process
but now I feel it’s time.
Only a year or two
and I will look like your older brother,
not like your consort anymore.
So I decided it was time.
In all the years
our mating anniversary was something cherished
and you were never late
and I know you won’t be late tonight.
So this is the right way.
You don’t live with William the Bloody for so long
without learning one or two things about
blood, pain and death.
We discussed this so often
and you were always against
me helping us
to reach our goal:
forever.
It’s your choice,
turn me or let me die.
Don’t you dare to “save” me.
You know I want this,
want you,
with my heart,
my soul,
my body,
forever.
If you don’t turn me,
it’s okay
but let me die.
I couldn’t live with the knowledge
that you denied me forever,
couldn’t live with the lie
we lived for more than the last seven years.
If I die tonight,
there is just one thing I regret:
You knew,
and, after the mating, even felt,
how much I love you.
But I never said it out loud.
I wish I could tell you now.
I love you Spike,
forever
either way it will end.
Xan