The Boarder

Chapter 7

Buffy's cheeks stung from the tears, but she didn't wipe them off. The moans had finally stopped. You gave him what he wanted, she thought. Angel wouldn't have been happy being stuck with her. He's in love with someone else, and so is William.

She slowly pushed open the bedroom door and walked down the hallway. Numbly, she ran her hand down the cold door to the empty nursery. This was where William comforted her the other day. He didn't love her, though. Nobody could.

Walking into the room, she looked at the toys on the dresser with a pain in her heart. There were a few china dolls with glass heads that Buffy bought on a whim one day. Angel had laughed, saying that they might only have boys. Buffy had replied that they would just have to keep having children until they had a girl. She placed a hand on her barren womb. Except that they weren't going to have any children.

A rush of anger consumed her. Buffy threw one of the dolls across the room where it shattered. Why couldn't she bear children? Why was she being punished this way? The dam broke, and all the anger she had held in came gushing out. She threw toys, blankets, books, and anything else she could reach. Crossing over to the cradle, she knocked it over. She glanced down at the belly that betrayed her.

"Why?" She cried and hit herself. Again and again she pounded into her belly.

A pair of strong hands stopped her own. "Buffy, no." Angel pulled her into his arms.

William was watching her with a concerned look. He and Angel were both naked, and it only reminded her of her own unloved state. Overcome as sobs tore through her body, Buffy was vaguely aware that William had walked over and was rubbing her back.

"Please don't hurt yourself," Angel pleaded.

"Angel loves you," William murmured. "He isn't going to stop if you never have children."

Angel froze. "Buffy, is that why you're upset?"

Buffy glanced at Angel and nodded. "I'm incomplete. I'm.." She broke off crying again.

"Let's get you out of this room. It's freezing in here." Buffy numbly allowed Angel to pick her up and take her to the hallway. William rubbed her arms, warming them. Angel had her pressed against him.

They entered Angel and Buffy's bedroom and closed the door behind them. William threw another log in the fireplace. Angel made Buffy lie on the bed and suddenly bent down to kiss her. His kiss was desperate, with a longing that was never satisfied. She realized that he was crying. Her heart lurched.

"Why did you think I would leave you?" Angel asked through tears.

"You and William love each other. I.." She turned to face away from him.

Angel gently pulled her chin around so that she could see his eyes. "I still love you. I love you more and more each day. William didn't change that. I think you understand how it's possible to love two people at the same time."

Buffy knew it was possible. She loved Angel as much as she always had, and William didn't change that despite her growing feelings for him. "But, there's something wrong with me. I don't think I'll be able to give you children."

Angel closed his eyes and laughed softly. "I don't think William's going to bear my children any time soon."

The irrationality of the situation hit her and she smiled a little. To put it simply she was afraid that Angel was going to leave her because she couldn't have children for someone else who couldn't. She held Angel close as he laid down next to her. She found comfort in Angel's arms, but she needed both of them. Gently pushing herself away from Angel, she saw that William was standing sadly by the door.

"Don't go." She held out a hand towards William while clutching Angel with the other. "Hold me?"

William glanced at Angel and then climbed onto the bed, laying his head on the crook of her arm. His hand lightly traveled up and down her side over the fabric of her nightgown. With both of them holding her, Buffy felt almost content.

"Sometimes I blame myself for my mother's death. There wasn't anything I could do, but I still have nightmares." William traced Buffy's nose with his finger. "You have to learn to let go of things that aren't under your control, or it will eat you up inside."

Buffy nodded. She understood that, as she did the same thing when her own mother died.

Angel pushed himself up until he was sitting and looking down at the two of them. Slowly, he reached out, taking William's hand and placed it on her breast. William froze. Confused, Buffy looked from William's own perplexed expression to Angel.

Angel didn't say anything. He began a trail of kisses from her neck, down her arm, and stopped at her belly. Gathering up her nightgown, he exposed her lower half to the cold air. Angel lightly kissed the bruises that Buffy had given herself. She hadn't paid attention to the soreness of her belly until she felt the soothing touch of Angel's lips.

Buffy felt the beginnings of desire. Angel's hands were running up and down the outside of her hips while he kissed her stomach. When they moved to the inside of her thighs, she moaned. William hadn't moved and gaped at Angel. When Angel lowered his head to the juncture of her thighs, she heard William gasp.

The familiar sensation was building up again. This time, however, a different thrill went through her - the thrill of being watched. William's hand squeezed her breast. He was staring at Angel and obviously aroused.

Buffy wanted to feel both of them. Reaching down, she grasped William's hardened length and slowly stroked him. He turned to her with widened eyes. Angel stopped, smiled, and then continued what he was doing. Wanting to feel William's hands on her bare skin, she started to pull up her gown with her other hand. William quickly helped her until the gown was tossed to the floor. His warm hands touched everywhere on her sensitive skin. It was almost too much, there were hands everywhere. She had never been touched this much at the same time. She continued to stroke William as she built towards her peak. With a cry, she toppled over it.

Angel crawled up Buffy's body and began to kiss everywhere William had touched. His own aroused state was poking her in her thigh. She opened her mouth, because she needed to kiss someone. Angel immediately answered, tongue probing. Her hands clasped Angel's shoulders, digging into his firm muscles. He shifted, filling her, and she wasn't aware of anything except the sensation. Her next climax was sudden, and she screamed as Angel began to shake with his own release.

Angel rolled over to lay on her other side. William was watching them with darkened eyes, and Buffy realized that she had stopped touching him. Her heartbeat increased as she reached out again and touched him. William suddenly bent down and pressed his mouth over hers. His demanding tongue was swift and coaxed Buffy's out. His other kisses had not been like this, but she liked this side of him. He pulled away and glanced at Angel. Buffy briefly wondered if he kissed Angel like that. Her thoughts were interrupted as William covered her body with his and continued to kiss her in earnest.

She shifted her hips so that she was in more contact with William. The bed moved as Angel put his arm around them. As William began to thrust into her, a warm feeling of love spread through her entire being. She was being held by one man she loved while making love to the other.

A hand, that she realized was Angel's, grasped her leg and pulled it upward until it draped over William's arm.

"Oh," William gasped at the new position.

Buffy grabbed his face and reached up to kiss him again. William increased his speed and increased the pleasure Buffy felt.

He pulled away from her kiss and stared down at her. "You feel so..I love the way you feel. I love you. God, I love you so much."

He loved her. They both did, and her heart swelled with joy. "I love you. I love you, both." She gasped as she climaxed a third time. She heard William cry out as she squeezed around him.

As the two of them slowly came down from their high, Angel cried out. His eyes fixed on them with an intense stare, Angel finished stroking his own need. He smiled and bent over to nuzzle her ear. William kissed to top of her head and settled his head next to hers. Angel pulled the covers over the three of them and settled next to Buffy. When Buffy fell asleep, she was smiling.

TBC