Quantum Xander II: In Wake of the Curse

Part 60

When Xander woke the next morning, Angel wasn’t in the bed. He carefully extracted himself from the tangle of bodies without waking his mates and made his way to the kitchen. He found Angel - wearing only his slacks - making coffee.

“I’m sorry, Xander. Did I wake you?”

“No. How come you’re up?”

“Sorta used to keeping human hours - Cordelia insists that I do the office stuff during the day.”

“Ah.”

They were silent for a few minutes, both watching the steady drip-drip of the coffee until Xander finally broke the silence.

“Angel? Can I ask you something?”

“Of course.”

“What’s going on with you and Buffy? I thought you and Cordy…”

Angel looked uncomfortable for a moment and then sighed softly.

“She slept with my son. I know that she was being influenced, but that doesn’t change what happened. Besides that fact, Conner loves her. He’s my child; I won’t be the reason that she hurts him. I can’t hurt him that way; he’s already lost so much because of me, I can’t take Cordelia too.”

“But if she doesn’t love him…”

“She doesn’t. But I won’t be the reason she ends it with him.”

“I get that, but what about Buffy? I mean you guys were kissing.”

“You saw that?”

“We all did.”

“She was just saying hello.”

“Most people don’t say hello with their tongues.”

Angel gave Xander a pointed look and the man realized what he just said.

“Never mind. Not what I meant. So, what now? With Buffy I mean.

“Buffy and I… I love her; I will always love her, but she isn’t ready. She needs to live, to grow, to… finish baking.”

Xander blinked.

“Baking?”

Angel smiled sheepishly.

“There was a cookie-dough analogy; I didn’t really understand it myself at first. She said she wasn’t ready to be eaten.”

Angel grinned and Xander did as well.

“I have time to wait for her; when she decides she’s ready, if I’m the one she wants, I’ll be there. Otherwise, well, I’ve been alone for the better part of a century. I’ll survive.”

Xander had a sudden pang of sympathy for the vampire right then. Being in love with someone like Buffy couldn’t be easy. She would always have to put her duty before her personal feelings; it made Xander glad that Buffy had never returned his boyhood affections.

“Hey, you have us. You don’t have to be alone.”

Xander said that in all seriousness. He was surprised to hear his statement confirmed by his lovers. He hadn’t realized they were awake.

“Hey, did we wake you?”

“Nah, love. Smelled the coffee.”

The brunet kissed Xander on the cheek on his way to the kitchen. He grabbed two mugs out of the cupboard and passed them to the blond Spike who had followed him into the kitchen before grabbing another two out of the cupboard for Angel and Xander.

The vampires drank the blood that the dark-haired Spike had prepared for them before refilling their mugs with coffee. Xander just sipped at his own overly-sweetened beverage and watched them as they interacted. It was amazing how easily they all seemed to get on with one another. He wondered where the angst, sorrow, and anger from the night before had gone. Then again, they were vampires; maybe it was just easier for them to accept change and move on.

“You’re brooding again, love.”

The blond whispered in his ear before nipping the lobe softly and then kissing it better.

“Gonna give Peaches here a run for his title of Brood Master, you are.”

“Sorry, Spike. Just thinking.”

“About what, love?”

“How easy this all is. Shouldn’t it be harder?”

Spike chuckled and turned Xander around so he could look at him.

“It’s simple, pet. I love you. Spike loves you. You love us, yeah?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, it’s the same thing with Angel. He’s our sire. We love him, he loves us. Not the same as it is with us, but it is love. You are part of us now, a full-fledged member of the line of Aurelius; we’re all family here, Xander. That’s why it’s so easy. Family forgives you. Family loves you, protects you, and fights for you. Family drifts away sometimes, but it always comes back to you. Always.”

“Always?”

“Yeah, you’ll never be alone again either. No matter what happens with The First. None of us will be alone again; we’re all family now.”

Xander smiled and kissed his mate soundly. He didn’t want to think about The First or the battle ahead of them. He knew that they wouldn’t all make it out alive, that some of them would be lost. He just hoped to God that his little family - scoobies included - would survive it.

“Let’s take this to bed, love. I want to feel you inside me.”

Xander nodded and began walking his mate back toward the bedroom, his lips never leaving the vampire’s for even a moment. Angel and the other Spike exchanged a look and then silently followed behind them.

Spike and Xander had torn off their clothes and were already sprawled across the bed. Xander had the blond pinned beneath him and was pistoning two slick fingers in and out of him. The blond was panting, begging his mate to hurry.

Angel and the other Spike wasted no time in removing their own clothes and joining the couple on the bed. The elder of the two newcomers took up the discarded tube of lubricant and began preparing Xander thoroughly. The human continued to stretch and tease his mate while moaning and pushing back onto Angel’s fingers. Finally, the blond vampire could take no more.

“Xander, if you don’t shag me now, I’m going to go shag myself.”

Xander giggled at the silliness of that statement but then decided to take pity on his mate and removed his fingers and pushed his cock inside of him. He felt Angel move behind him and held still while he was filled as well. He looked over at the dark-haired Spike who was slowly stroking himself and watching the three men on the bed. Xander grinned and beckoned him closer.

Spike allowed Xander to move him into position and then smiled. He was sitting astride his double’s face while Xander was sucking him off. It wasn’t the easiest of positions, or the best blowjob he’d ever had, considering Xander was being fucked by Angel and fucking Spike at the same time. But it was getting more interesting by the minute, especially when he felt the tip of his doppelganger’s tongue flick over his hole.

“Fucking yes! Oh hell, do that again.”

Angel was slamming himself into Xander; which made Xander slam into the vampire beneath him. It also made Xander moan a lot - something that felt incredibly good on Spike’s shaft as he sucked him. The blond vampire was rimming him with abandon and he couldn’t remember when he’d ever felt this good. Having someone who knew exactly how to touch you was amazing.

Xander couldn’t hold back any longer. Having all three vampires taking their pleasure from his body was such a turn-on. He wondered if he looked as hot as he felt at that moment. His passionate cries were muffled by the cock in his mouth, but still loud enough that had he still had neighbors, they would be wondering what the hell was going on in his bedroom.

Xander’s climax triggered Angel’s and he stiffened suddenly, his eyes bleeding yellow as he howled and emptied himself into the warm channel that surrounded him. The blond Spike was next to let go; he, too, changed to game face as his orgasm ripped through him, turning his head and burying his fangs into the other Spike’s thigh, which, of course sent him over the edge as well.

Soon enough, the four men lay sprawled in a tangle of limbs on the messy bed. Xander could barely keep his eyes open; he was sated and exhausted. His mates curled up on his chest and Angel spooned behind the blond Spike. He wished that it could always be this simple, that they weren’t facing the possible end of the world. He kissed the top of each vampire’s head - even Angel’s - and drifted off to sleep.