Xander's Rewards

***this is going to be the explination on how Xander ended up the way he is and where is hope yall enjoy it.***


"Talking"
'thinking'

Chapter Six: What really happened

Xander sighs as he shoves his hands in to his jean pockets after storming out of the Magic Box for the third time that week. They had all started fighting again over him. Spike had started it when Xander had automatically gotten up to retrieve the drinks everyone wanted. It ended with him storming out and Spike and Buffy both through a wall. None of them understood what was happening except for Giles probably.

He stops in a cafe run by a nice demon that catered to all sorts of things. He enjoyed the little woman's company almost as much as he enjoyed Dawn's. They spoke about everything and nothing at the same time. He get's a mocha dumping insanely amounts of surgar in to it before drinking and getting lost in his thoughts.

The urge to just tear things apart was growing and he knew it was only a matter of time before he snapped. Spike was becoming more demanding as his boyfriend, the two of them having hooked up after dumping Anya at the alter. The relationship started off like most of his, nice. Then after finally giving in and having sex with the vampire it went horrible. He could get use to the ropes and the cuffs but when Spike wanted to hurt him just cause he was pissed he couldn't take it.

Sighing he finishes his drink before leaving and heading to Spike's crypt to talk to him. The annoying voices in the back of his head are oddly quiet as he gets closer to the crypt but he doesn't think about it. Not until he opens the door and looks at Spike stretched out on the floor with Buffy on top of them. Their clothes are thrown everywhere and several things are broken.

Spike and Buffy just stare at him as he stares back. Buffy is blushing like mad and trying to speak but looks more like a gaping fish and Spike just looks horrified. For a moment Xander felt like yelling and crying until an uneasy darkness settles down. Now he understood why Spike rarely slept with him anymore and why he wanted to hurt him. The vampire needed his blood boiling and Buffy could do that for him.

Without a word he closes the crypt door and walks away. Heading deep in to the cemetary and then to the woods knowing it's a stupid idea. He comes across a clearing and finally let's go of his emotions, sobbing brokenly in to his hands and dropping down in to the grass.

"That really is a sad sight," a deep voice comments.

Xander looks up, red eyes and tear streaked but not caring. He rubs at his eyes as he studies the man standing in front of him. He has black hair pulled in to a ponytail that reaches his elbows and crimson color eyes. He's wearing a black satin shirt, black jeans, boots and a worn out trench coat.

"Go away," Xander growls.

"Ooh I'm shaking now," the man smirks digging cigarettes out of his pocket. "Finally had enough yet or would you like some more?"

"Enough of what?" Xander asks standing slowly.

"This," the man comments waving his arms. "Of being hurt, dumped, whatever the hell you want to call it."

"Who the hell are you?" he demands.

"No one," the man replies. "I just look after interesting people and I find you interesting Mr. Harris."

Xander stares at him blankly as the man lights a cigarette and walks up to him, the grass burning under his boots as he moves before growing back. He stops at arms length from Xander and just smirks around his cigarette.

"That really isn't an answer," Xander points out.

"Of course not," he says. "But it's mine. Now are you done with the pity feast?"

Xander growls softly and the man laughs while flicking his cigarette but away.

"What the hell do you want?" he sighs growing tired of this.

He wanted a hard drink and to bury himself in his bed and never leave it. The man's eyes glow slightly and he grabs him by the front of his shirt pulling him closer to him.

"I have a little deal for you," he says. Xander just nods watching him warily and easily noticing the sharp teeth. "I know someone who could use someone at his side. Someone like you. I'll take away all the pain you're feeling and you'll join him."

"Yeah right," he mumbles.

"Believe me I will," the man says. Xander just sighs and looks away from him. "I'll take that as a yes."

"I'm just tired of being hurt," he sighs. "I thought I loved Anya but it didn't work and I thought I loved Spike but he betrayed me for Buffy."

"Yes, such a sad life you've led," the man replies releasing him. "Demons want you and once they have you they throw you away. But I can make sure you're not thrown away this time."

Xander snorts and the man reaches forward to run his fingers along his jaw. Xander looks at him blankly just tired of everything.

"Fine," Xander replies. "What's the worse that could happen?"

"The man could kill you," he chuckles. "But I doubt he will."

Xander shrugs use to death threats and death just lurking behind a shadowed corner. The man suddenly shoves his hand in to his chest and he stares down at it wondering why it didn't hurt or there's wasn't any blood.

"Just go to sleep pet," he orders. "When you wake up you'll be alright."

Xander just sighs leaning forward to rest against the man. Feeling his limps become heavy and his eye lids drop. Suddenly the hyena is screaming in his head along with the soldier. Both seeming to fight for dominence in his mind. For a while that's all he hears until finding himself laying in soft grass that smells sweet.

Sitting up slowly he looks around noticing that he's still in the forest but his shoes are missing.

'Just where am I?' he thinks.

"Just remember," the man's voice says drifting on the wind. "You're Xander and that's it. No more pain kid, promise."

Xander just looks around confused as the large spiked cats move out of the trees to surround him. Xander doesn't know why he feels safe with them but he does. Sighing he lays back down falling a sleep with a few of the large cats laying with him.

tbc....


yeah okay there's the reason he's all animal Xander. Kinda stupid I know but it works out. Hopefully I'll be able to think of a really good ending for this and you'll know if he wants to go back or not.