Who I am...

This chapter is seen from the point of view of the Younger Faith, now, as opposed to the original Faith.
Disclaimer in first chapter.
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She suddenly came back to herself, her vision cleared, and standing next to the odd woman that had stolen her slay from her. If nothing else, this had to be the most fucked up dream she'd ever had. The woman looked almost exactly like her, just older, with longer hair. She knew things, beyond what anyone else would know. Now, they stood in a dark alley, and sounds of an excited fight carried to her ears. "Fuck…"

That was her voice, coming out of the older woman, in a tone that she never used. Fear and pain. "What?"

"I… have to relive them to show you…" The shame in the older woman's voice actually scared Faith, and she wondered what exactly could be so horrible. She'd managed to come back to the past to change the future, so maybe it could be terrible. Then, she saw herself and that blonde, Buffy probably, come running through the alley, fighting off vampires left and right. They worked as a team so well, and each wore a feral, beautiful smile. She envied that Faith, and her heart fluttered slightly at the sight of the blonde. She was rather shocked when the older woman stopped her from approaching any closer, especially when a human got in their path, emerging from behind something. Her other self, the one they watched, was too deeply in the heart of the hunt, and was already throwing him against a dumpster, pulling out a stake. The blonde shouted a panicked "Faith, no!"

She stared in shock as the version of herself that they watched removed her stake from the now dead human body, no dust… no vampire. And, and she didn't even pause or panic. She just stared, then grabbed the blonde and said that they had to go.

"That's the deputy mayor." A husky voice said next to her, and she only just then remembered the woman with her. "Allan Finch. He was coming to us, B and I, to warn us about something. I got B home, and came back and dumped him in the water. They still found the body, but I tried to convince everyone, especially our Watchers, that B was the one that did it. It was one of the biggest mistakes I've made… but not the biggest."

"I…" she started to say in response, but then everything went dark again, and they were in a diner. "What the hell?"

"B lost a Watcher too, yanno. And not even to someone like Kakistos. A master vamp, yes, but no one all that special. Lothos, as G-man about that one sometime, when B's not around." Faith chuckled softly. "She hates talking about it. The vamp staked Merrick with his own damned stake, right in front of her. That's part of why seeing me kill Allan was so bad for her."

"What happened?" Faith croaked out, still shocked. The woman looked at her curiously. "After I… what happened after I killed him?"

"Well, I was in a panic. The idiot Watcher that they sent to take care of B and I, he overheard G-man and Buffy talking about it, and about how to help me. The council… they're idiots. He was just like them too. He called in the goons, and tried to take me away… so I defected. I joined the bad guy. The big bad. I tried to end the world with him. I killed more people. I tried to kill Buffy." The woman, her older self, could barely speak about it, staring at the waitress that they were supposed to be watching. When she looked over, she realized that it was the blonde again. "When you got to Sunnydale, she'd just barely gotten back. B ran away, lived on her own in New York for a while, went to hell, all sorts of shit. She had to send her lover to hell. Got kicked out because her mom didn't want her to be the Slayer. The cops thought that she'd killed Kendra, our predecessor. She went through a shitload. No matter what we've been through, she can't match the family shit, but she's been through a lot too. When she got back to Sunnyhell, her friends, her mom, didn't trust her, she was kinda alone. Zombies attacked her house. They didn't want to let her back into school. She barely got back in by the time we'd gotten there."

Buffy was being yelled at by her manager, and they didn't even have to move to go along with her, watching her walk along… watching her save some girl. It sped through things, letting them see her tiny apartment. They even saw her time down in hell, and the fight to get out.

"She's saved the world twice already. She'll do it again, several times." The woman said in her ear just as everything went black again. They were in the motel room next. Laying on the bed was Faith, and standing, looking around was a prudish blonde woman, talking about the Spartan Greeks. "Now this bitch I hate."

"Why?"

"Gwendolyn post. She's after this magic glove thing. Convinced us that she was still a real Watcher, and here to look after me. Had me fooled into trusting her. Turned me against B, everyone against B, and there was a big fight. She tried to kill us all. If it weren't for Buffy, and Angel, she would have. It was a bit before B and I made up after that. Time flashed by from this scene to when Faith and Buffy fought, and Ms. Post trying to strike them all down with the glove, mocking Faith for trusting her. Once again the woman had to restrain Faith, the watching Faith, from jumping in.

Their vision blackened again, to Christmas, with Faith at the Summers residence, and watching Buffy run off to help Angel. "Angel, you'll learn, is her lover, or he was. A vampire with a soul. He's not evil. Fuck, he's helped them, and me, so much. No, he's not evil. When he has his soul, he really an Angel, just in a demon's body. He's being tormented, tortured. She left us there to protect her mom, keep the woman company. He's supposed to be in hell right now, but he comes back. Support B in that, yanno? Support her. The others won't believe he's good again when they find out, and she'll need it. When… when he has sex, and lives a moment of true happiness, the curse that gives him a soul is lifted, and he becomes evil again. Last year, for you anyway, that happened. They did, he lost it, and he's worse than Kakistos when he's evil. It's feast or famine with that guy, pure evil or pure good. That's what tortured her so much last year. He did a number on all of them, so everyone, all of her friends, they all hate him. Don't. He knows that he doesn't belong with her, or he will. He'll leave, to make his own redemption, and she'll move on, slowly. Just, trust her, and know that he is good."

"Anything else?" Faith growled at the woman, when they ended up in her own motel room again, and there was nothing to see.

"The mayor is evil. Don't attack Ms. Post right off the bat, get Giles to call the Council and find out that she's defected. No killing humans." The woman leaned against the wall, wishing for a cigarette most likely, and frowned. "Trust B, and don't ever betray her. She'll need you more than you'll ever know in time. Keep the necklace with you. It'll trigger knowledge, a memory that I have for you in it, if something comes up that would lead you to being what I became. Oh, and twinkie…"

She looked up, from staring at the pendant, only to realize that the woman was fading from sight. "What?"

"Have faith in her… and in yourself." And then, the woman had completely faded into nothing, a sad smile on her face, and Faith was alone in the motel room.

TBC

Okay, so the older Faith is gone now, and it's up to the teenage Faith to correct the wrongs that could be done in the not-so-distant future.
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