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Mourning My Loss: Chapter 6
Mourning My Loss
By: Oracle Of Magic
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the BTVS characters, they are the property of Joss Whedon, and Mutant Enemy productions. No copyright infringement is intended. I am writing this story purely for enjoyment.
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Part 6
Somehow Buffy managed to get an appointment for that afternoon. How she did that I don’t want to know. I’m guessing it involved various threats. “Are you sure you don’t want me to come in with you?” she asked for the thousandth time.
“I’m sure,” I answer. “I’ll be ok, it’s just an appointment with the doctor, nothing I can’t handle.”
“Ok,” she nods her head reluctantly. “I’ll be back to pick you up in an hour.”
“Thanks,” I answer. The jeep pulls up in front of the office, and I get out. I watch Buffy drive off before heading into the office. I check in with the nurse before sitting down in one of the chairs.
I pick up a magazine and start to read, at least that’s what it appears to everyone else in the office. I just stare at the same page, never seeing the words. I just keep thinking of Tara. Finally the nurse walks out and calls my name.
Guess I’m next. I follow the nurse. She takes my temperature, blood pressure, and all that. Then hands me one of those little gowns to change into, and tells me the doctor will be with me soon. I change silently.
I sit on the table, staring off into space. When the door opens, it startles me. “Good afternoon, Miss Rosenberg,” the doctor greets me.
“Hi doctor,” I answer. He sits down on the stool and starts to ask for my symptoms. I answer all his questions without really thinking. He nods, marks things down in my chart, and finally tells me he needs to run some tests.
I agree, not like it matters, but Buffy’ll be mad if I don’t get this checked out. He quickly draws some blood. And for once, I don’t even feel the needle. “Alright, I should have the test results tomorrow, I’ll call you as soon as I get them,” he says. “Until then, just rest and take it easy.”
I shake his hand, and he walks out. I change back into my clothes, and head out to the office. Buffy’s waiting for me. I should have known she wouldn’t wait the full hour.
“So how’d it go?” she asks me.
“It went ok,” I answer. “Doctor told me to get plenty of rest, take it easy, and wait for the test results.” I smile, trying to show her I’ll be ok.
“Tests? What kind of tests?” she asks.
“I don’t know, some blood work,” I hedge. I feel so alone. Tara should be here with me, she always went with me to the doctor. A single tear slid down my cheek. But of course if she was here, I wouldn’t need to go to the doctor. So I’m really not making any sense. Ok I’m babbling, must stop that.
“Ok, then,” she said. “Well in that case, we’re going to get you home and into bed. We are going to follow the doctor’s orders to a T.” I just nod my agreement, trying to hold in the tears till we get home.
The ride home is pretty silent, I know Buffy wants to talk, but she can sense I just need to be quiet. We get home and Buffy immediately takes me up to my room and has me change into PJ’s. She tucks me in, and makes sure I’m comfy.
“There you go, all comfy,” she says, a small smile on her face. “Is there anything I can get you?”
“No, I’ll be ok,” I answer. “Just need to rest, like the doc said.”
“Ok then,” she said. “I’ll be back in a while to check on you. If you need anything, you give me a call.”
“Thanks Buffy,” I answer.
“Always Will, you’re my best friend,” she grins. “Now, get some sleep.” She gives me a quick hug before turning off the light and walking out.
I lay there, staring at the ceiling, I wish she hadn’t turned off the light. It’s so hard to be alone in the dark. I miss her so much, the hugs, the snuggling. Just knowing that she’s there. Even when I was on the computer and she was sleeping, I just felt better knowing she was in the room.
As I’m looking up at the ceiling, I remember the time Tara and I went star gazing. She didn’t know any of the constellations, instead, she made her own up. It was perfect, we were laying on a blanket, our heads resting together on a single pillow. Just enjoying the closeness and the night.
She had been so happy that night, so happy. I start to cry again. Lately that seems like all I do. I cry, I cry for the love I’ll never have. I cry for Tara.
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tbc...
So, whatcha think? I really value your opinions.
Blessed Be,
Sarah
By: Oracle Of Magic
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the BTVS characters, they are the property of Joss Whedon, and Mutant Enemy productions. No copyright infringement is intended. I am writing this story purely for enjoyment.
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Part 6
Somehow Buffy managed to get an appointment for that afternoon. How she did that I don’t want to know. I’m guessing it involved various threats. “Are you sure you don’t want me to come in with you?” she asked for the thousandth time.
“I’m sure,” I answer. “I’ll be ok, it’s just an appointment with the doctor, nothing I can’t handle.”
“Ok,” she nods her head reluctantly. “I’ll be back to pick you up in an hour.”
“Thanks,” I answer. The jeep pulls up in front of the office, and I get out. I watch Buffy drive off before heading into the office. I check in with the nurse before sitting down in one of the chairs.
I pick up a magazine and start to read, at least that’s what it appears to everyone else in the office. I just stare at the same page, never seeing the words. I just keep thinking of Tara. Finally the nurse walks out and calls my name.
Guess I’m next. I follow the nurse. She takes my temperature, blood pressure, and all that. Then hands me one of those little gowns to change into, and tells me the doctor will be with me soon. I change silently.
I sit on the table, staring off into space. When the door opens, it startles me. “Good afternoon, Miss Rosenberg,” the doctor greets me.
“Hi doctor,” I answer. He sits down on the stool and starts to ask for my symptoms. I answer all his questions without really thinking. He nods, marks things down in my chart, and finally tells me he needs to run some tests.
I agree, not like it matters, but Buffy’ll be mad if I don’t get this checked out. He quickly draws some blood. And for once, I don’t even feel the needle. “Alright, I should have the test results tomorrow, I’ll call you as soon as I get them,” he says. “Until then, just rest and take it easy.”
I shake his hand, and he walks out. I change back into my clothes, and head out to the office. Buffy’s waiting for me. I should have known she wouldn’t wait the full hour.
“So how’d it go?” she asks me.
“It went ok,” I answer. “Doctor told me to get plenty of rest, take it easy, and wait for the test results.” I smile, trying to show her I’ll be ok.
“Tests? What kind of tests?” she asks.
“I don’t know, some blood work,” I hedge. I feel so alone. Tara should be here with me, she always went with me to the doctor. A single tear slid down my cheek. But of course if she was here, I wouldn’t need to go to the doctor. So I’m really not making any sense. Ok I’m babbling, must stop that.
“Ok, then,” she said. “Well in that case, we’re going to get you home and into bed. We are going to follow the doctor’s orders to a T.” I just nod my agreement, trying to hold in the tears till we get home.
The ride home is pretty silent, I know Buffy wants to talk, but she can sense I just need to be quiet. We get home and Buffy immediately takes me up to my room and has me change into PJ’s. She tucks me in, and makes sure I’m comfy.
“There you go, all comfy,” she says, a small smile on her face. “Is there anything I can get you?”
“No, I’ll be ok,” I answer. “Just need to rest, like the doc said.”
“Ok then,” she said. “I’ll be back in a while to check on you. If you need anything, you give me a call.”
“Thanks Buffy,” I answer.
“Always Will, you’re my best friend,” she grins. “Now, get some sleep.” She gives me a quick hug before turning off the light and walking out.
I lay there, staring at the ceiling, I wish she hadn’t turned off the light. It’s so hard to be alone in the dark. I miss her so much, the hugs, the snuggling. Just knowing that she’s there. Even when I was on the computer and she was sleeping, I just felt better knowing she was in the room.
As I’m looking up at the ceiling, I remember the time Tara and I went star gazing. She didn’t know any of the constellations, instead, she made her own up. It was perfect, we were laying on a blanket, our heads resting together on a single pillow. Just enjoying the closeness and the night.
She had been so happy that night, so happy. I start to cry again. Lately that seems like all I do. I cry, I cry for the love I’ll never have. I cry for Tara.
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tbc...
So, whatcha think? I really value your opinions.
Blessed Be,
Sarah