I remember you

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Buffy took his hand and let him lead her towards the bed. He sat on the edge and pulled her into his lap. “I just don’t bloody understand how this could be happening…I am supposed to be with Dru…we sere supposed to spend eternity together…but after that first night I saw you dancing inside that club…my un-life hasn’t been the same…”

“Spike…I… we want honesty right?” At his nod she continued. “I have a confession to make…”
She felt his arms stiffen. “If you bloody well tell me this is all some big joke you’d better shove one of your pointy sticks through my un-beating heart cause I swear I will kill you.” Spike growled.

“It’s not…Spike…this thing between us…it means more to me than anything I’ve ever felt before…I just…I don’t know if you know what I did…you’re acting like you don’t…and then…you say something… and…and I think you do know…but I need to know for sure if you do. Know. Did…did Dru ever claim you?” She asked glancing up at his face.

His jaw clenched and he closed his eyes, trying to rein in the painful emotions he had felt since he understood what claiming was, and knew that Dru would never claim him, never let him claim her either. The hurt and rejection, over one hundred years together and she still hadn’t. She never would have.

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“I don’t understand Dru…this would tie us together for eternity…You heard Angelus…it would mean you were my mate… mine for as long as I wasn’t dust…”

“I can not have it…do you think I don’t see? The stars whisper secrets my beautiful boy, and they tell me…I know what will happen…” She turned from him. ‘It’s not meant to be me.’

He saw her slight frame shaking, wracked with tears. Thinking it was one of her crazy ramblings William let it go. “It’s okay baby…maybe one day…”

“No. You are not to ask me this again. I am weak William…so very weak…I can’t bare to deny…Miss Edith was laughing…crying…telling me…” Sobbing she pulled him closer. “You are in my heart…my mind…my body… please let that be enough…”

Disappointed William dropped his gaze from her penetrating stare. “Anything for you my Dark Princess.” He whispered, trying to let the dejection pass. ‘Not good enough for her either. I’m such a ponce. She probably thinks I’m not monster enough for her. Well I’ll show her I am. Show them all.’

William picked up a railway Spike laying on the side of the road. “I’ll be home in a while luv. You run along with Angelus and Darla. Got a few things to do…” He smirked, pushing his distress aside and made his way towards the homes that housed the men who had made fun of his poet’s heart. ‘I’ll show all those buggers.’

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“No…she wouldn’t let me…why are you bringing this up now?” He snarled.

“I’m sorry…it’s just…part of the reason you’ve been so…” She swallowed the lump in her throat. “I claimed you…that night…the first night we met…I used my knife to cut you…and I…” She felt tears wanting to fall, and when Spike dumped her on the floor and stood to pace the room she couldn’t hold it in any longer, gut-wrenching sobs escaped her, causing her to gasp for air. Hiding her hands in her face she waited for his response as she cried.

“What the bloody hell is wrong with you?” He growled viciously. “No bloody wonder I’ve been chasing you and seriously contemplating leaving Dru for you. I knew it couldn’t be because I wanted it. I don’t. You’re making it happen…making me fall for you.”

She felt broken when he slammed out of the room in search of Dru.

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She crawled in her window and got into bed. She couldn’t stay at the hotel with all of the reminders of him there. So lost in her emotions she didn’t even notice the dark brooding figure that followed her home. She didn’t notice as he silently slipped into her room and shocked her twice with the cattle prod he was carrying.

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Spike felt a shock go through him and ignored it, thinking it was just his anger, not realizing it was his mate and she was in trouble. He could’t find Dru.

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Joyce stopped outside Buffy’s door. She tapped softly. Not hearing a sound she opened the door. Buffy lay on her bed, turned towards the door, her blankets were on the floor beside her bed. Picking them up Joyce placed them on top of her sleeping daughter.

‘She’s so warm.’ Joyce placed a hand against her forehead. Frowning she headed downstairs to write Buffy a note and call herself a taxi. ‘I’ll just call the school when I land.’

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“That was close wasn’t it?” Angel murmured to himself. He picked her up and carried her to the window. Holding tight to her unconscious form he leapt gracefully to the ground and made off with his prize.

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She felt like crap. Absolute crap. Her eyes hurt, and for some reason she couldn’t move her arms. ‘NO!!! Oh god no. It couldn’t be…but he knows I love him why would he…’ And then she felt it. Not Spike. She opened her eyes, they flashed dangerously as she stared at the vampire before her. Her anger turned quickly to shock as she took in the sight behind him.
Pictures of her adorned the wall, the entire wall. None of it had been there the last time she had been in his apartment.

He had taken her pale blue cashmere sweater, she saw it sitting on top of the desk against the wall, he had drawings of her, drawings he had obviously done. Her blood ran cold as Angels’ eyes roamed her body.

“Morning Buffy…I thought you were gonna sleep the day away…” She rattled the chains that held her.

“Angel let me down.”

“No.” He took a few steps closer. “Not until you admit…that you love me…I know you have at least some tiny feeling for me…you wouldn’t have kissed me and wanted to be with me so badly if you didn’t. I just don’t know why you went to him instead.”

Buffy rolled her eyes and glared at him. “You really think this is the way to go about getting me back? You are an idiot Angel. I don’t want anything to do with you anymore.”

“Just...give me something...a crumb...the barest smidgen...tell me ... maybe, someday, there's a chance.” He begged.

Buffy tilted her head back, inviting him closer. Her voice was low, he leaned in, anticipating her confession. “Angel ... the only chance you had with me was when I was unconscious.” Buffy grinned. It felt soooo good to say that to him.

Angel growled, raising his fist.

“Bad dog…” Dru walked in and placed a restraining arm on the suddenly vamped Angel. “Daddy…this isn’t right…she doesn’t love you anymore…and Grand-mum is gone…we only have each other left.” Dru purred softly. She struck, fangs embedding in his throat. Taking a few pulls of powerful sire’s blood she looked into his eyes. “Mine.” She growled softly, snapping her teeth at him.

Angel drew back and glanced at Buffy, seeing nothing but anger and contempt in her eyes he turned back to his childe. He cupped her cheek and leaned in. Sinking his fangs into her cool flesh he swallowed her blood. He pulled back and looked into her eyes. “Mine.” He whispered softly, tears in his eyes all the while.

She pushed him away slightly and walked over to Buffy. “Take care of him…I know he loves you…don’t let him go down there…don’t let it happen again?” She asked, tears clinging to her lashes.

“I love him too…” Buffy said softly.

Dru smiled. “I know…I think that he was meant for you…when I found him I saw you then, floating in his brain…even then he waited for you…” Dru smiled sadly. “I always knew…tried to make it different and it didn’t work…maybe you can…”

Dru went back to Angel and got the keys to the shackles that held the blonde slayer. Returning to her side she unlocked the cuffs. “We are leaving Daddy and I…please take care of him…”

“I will…” Buffy whispered, tears falling slowly from her eyes. “Thank you Dru…”

“It’s all for him…it always has been.”

Buffy nodded, now knowing exactly what she meant.

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Spike let out a howl of rage when he felt his connection with Dru break. ‘Nooooo Baby you were all I had left.’ He knew she wasn’t dust, just that she was claimed by someone other than him.

He felt Buffy’s anger and contempt; ignoring it he turned down the alley and continued walking.
He spotted a tasty morsel leaving through the back door of the club with two guys. ‘Just what I need to take my mind off of the little blonde I can’t seem to get out of my head, and the fact that Dru is lost to me now. Grinning he listened to their conversation.

“Alright. Which one's Dwayne and which one's Dell?” She asked leaning towards the tattoo-adorned man. “Don't tell me. Dell's the one with the tattoos. You guys weren't lyin' about havin' a Cadillac, were you? 'Cause I'm crazy about a Cad. Just the feel of the leather makes me wanna... Where'd you go? What's going on? Where are you guys? Not funny!” She glanced around nervously. “Who are you?” She asked spotting Spike leaning against the alley wall.

”Who do you want me to be?” He purred seductively.

“Did you see...”

”...those two losers who thought they were good enough for you?” Spike snorted.

“What happened to 'em?”

“They got sleepy.”

”Huh?”

”And you got something a whole lot better.” Spike put his arm around her and led her from the alley.

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He sat beside her and watched the confusion on her face as she slowly opened her yellow eyes and
blinked. “Wha?”

“Eat something…” He murmured soothingly, bringing her mouth to his neck.

Her fangs slid into his pale flesh and she let out a moan of satisfaction. He could smell her arousal, but it did nothing for him.

She reached for the zipper on his pants and he swatted her hand away. Sheila pulled back and licked her lips. “You are mi…”

Spike backhanded her before she finished speaking. “Don’t even think it. Don’t belong to you and I never will.” He stood and paced the room.

“But I thought you…”

“What loved you? He snorted. “Sheila I love syphilis more than I even like you. You were just convenient.” He growled viciously. Being the evil vampire that he was he didn’t give a second thought to the tears he saw falling. “Clean this place up.” She growled kicking the pizza box he saw lying on the floor.

“My…my mom will be home in the morning…she works nights…” She sniffled.

“That so? Let’s get out of here then.” He growled pulling her to her feet. He dragged her to the factory he used to share with Dru, without stopping to think why he didn’t take her to the hotel room he’d shared with Buffy.

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“Mr. Giles…” She called walking into the library, bag clutched tightly in her hand.

“Yes…” He asked coming out from the stacks, a little surprised to see a young Jamaican girl standing there. “Can I help you? Do you need some books for class?” Giles glanced at her bag. ‘I don’t remember anything about a transfer from Jamaica.’

“I’m Kendra. De Vampire slayer.” She said softly. “My watcher sent me here…he said ya needed me…”

“Oh dear lord.” Giles murmured sitting at the table and polishing his glasses. “But…but I have a slayer.”

“Nonsense! Dere is but one, and I am she.” Kendra said vehemently.
Giles rested his head in his hands. “So. You were sent here?”

”Yes, by my Watcher…Mr. Zabuto.”
Giles cleared his throat. “Your Watcher is, i-is Sam Zabuto, you say?”

”Yes, sir.”

”We've never met, but he, he's, he's very well-respected. There's obviously some, some misunderstanding here…my slayer is not dead.” Giles shook his head.

“Hey!” Willow called out entering the library.
“Where is she?” Xander asked pulling Cordy into the library behind him.
“Identify yourself!” Kendra crouched into her fight stance.

“These are Buffy’s friends…Buffy is my slayer who I might add again is very much alive.”

”Friends of a slayer?” Kendra asked thoroughly confused. “I don't understand.”

“Uh-uh, Kendra, uh, there are a-a-a few people, uh, ci-civilians if you like, who, who know Buffy's identity. Willow, Xander, Cordilla, a-a- and they also, um, spend time together, uh, socially.”

”And you allow dis, sir?” Kendra asked condescendingly.

”Well, uh...”

”But de Slayer must work in secret for security.”

”Of course, uh, but, uh, with Buffy, however, it-it's, um, some flexibility is required.”

”Why?”

”W-what's goin' on?” Willow asked nervously.

”Apparently there's been a really big mix-up. Uh, it seems somehow that, uh, another Slayer has been sent to Sunnydale.”

”Is that even possible? I mean, two Slayers at the same time?” Willow asked confused.

”Not to my knowledge. Um, th-the new Slayer is only called after the previous Slayer has died. Uh... Oh, good Lord! She was dead.”

”But she was only gone for a minute.” Xander piped up. “I saved her…”

”Clearly it doesn't matter how long she was gone. She was physically dead! Thus causing the activation of the, the next Slayer.”

”She died?”

”Just a little.” Xander murmured.

”She drowned, but she was revived.” Giles said pinching the bridge of his nose between his thumb and finger.

”So there really are two of them?” Willow asked excitedly.

”It would seem so. This is completely unprecedented! I'm quite flummoxed.” Giles murmured.

“Ok, I’m all with the wiggins over the new slayer and all but…Buffy. Where is she?” Xander sat at the table, pulling his girlfriend into his lap.

“She won’t be in school today, her mother called from her trip, Principal Snyder just informed me she was ill.” Giles murmured, noticing the bandage on Cordy’s neck his eyes zeroed in. “What happened?”

“It was bleach wonder. He bit her and then apologized. APPOLIGISED! And left her…didn’t try to finish her off…that’s why I wanted to talk to Buffy…”

Giles snorted. “I am sure you must be mistaken…vampire’s do not feel remorse…”

“I was there Giles…he looked into my eyes and said he was sorry…I could see it in his eyes.” Cordy said softly. “I…Giles I should have been dead…he…he had me…his fangs were in my neck…and he just let me go…”

Stunned Giles sat at the table and removed his glasses. He didn’t speak until he had them polished to a brilliant shine.

Kendra stayed eerily quiet, listening to the talk of a remorseful vampire with thinly disguised disgust.

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Buffy let herself into the house. She was starved so she let herself into the kitchen. She noticed the note right away, it being taped to the fridge and all.

Buffy

I noticed how warm you were this morning so I called you in sick to school. Please rest today. I don’t know if you remembered that I was going out of town for a week, but I had to, for the Gallery. I’ll be home in a week and two days. I love you, money is in the usual spot. My hotel number is by the phone. Please be good while I’m gone.
Love mom.

Sighing she taped the note back to the fridge. She went over to the phone and sure enough there was her mother’s hotel number, written in red ink. She noticed the light on the answering machine blinking.

She pushed play and listened.

“Buffy…it’s Giles…something’s happened…I don’t want to tell you over the phone…I don’t want to worry you…please contact me as soon as possible. Your mother called the school to say you .would be home ill today, so if I haven’t heard from you by the time school lets out I will head over and check on you…Alright then goodbye.”

She sighed and picked up the phone. She dialed the library and waited for Giles to pick up.

“Hello?”

“Hey Giles. What’s the what?” She asked.

“I don’t know how to tell you this…I…”

“Just tell me watcher o’ mine.”

“Well it seems a few things have happened…first there was a new slayer called…”
‘Kendra. Oh god Kendra is here.’ Buffy smiled. “Cause I died?” She asked.

“Yes…she was sent here…by her watcher…”

“Can I meet her?” Buffy asked, surprising the old man.

“You are taking this awfully calmly.”

“Yeah well…what’s the sense in wiggin’ if I can’t change it right?” She asked.

“Yes quite…well Xander and Cordilla stopped by…it seems she was attacked last night…”

“Oh my god! Is she okay? I mean obviously she is if she was there right? Please tell me she’s okay and what attacked her so I can kill it…”

“I…you may want to re-think that…I think we should come over there after school if you are up to visitors…”

“Uh…yeah…I’m fine…slayer healing and all that…”

“Alright…well than we shall be over a little after three.”

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Buffy was seriously wigged. Not only had Spike attacked Cordy, but he had let her go and apologized. this was still evil soulless chipless Spike…and Kendra…she was still the same. At least this time she didn’t get a hold of Angel.

Buffy asked Giles to keep Kendra at his place for a few days, until she spoke to Spike to find out why he let Cordy go, she didn’t want him staked by accident. Giles agreed, saying he would like to talk to Spike himself, and add his findings to his watchers journal.

That was one of the reasons she was so pissed. Two days. She hadn’t seen or heard from him in two days. He was changing weather he wanted to or not, and he was staying away from her. She knew he just needed time to adjust. She was willing to give him that if he didn’t kill anyone.

As she approached the next cemetery she felt him. Spike. She sensed another presence and approached cautiously.

“Slayer… so nice of you to join me an’ my girl.” Spike turned and wrapped his arm around Shelia’s shoulder. “We were out lookin’ for a tasty snack…”

Buffy grinned. “Trying to make me jealous?” She batted her eyelashes at him.

“Why would I want you to be jealous pet? Just tryin to introduce you to my new girl.” Spike leaned over Sheila and kissed her softly. Sheila whimpered when he broke the kiss and turned back to Buffy.

Buffy shocked him by laughing. laughing! She took a few steps closer to him. “Spike…no matter what you think you can’t replace me. She could never be anything to you. She couldn’t make you feel what I can…” She leaned a little closer to him.

Spike’s fists were curled tightly into fists at his sides, he was clenching his jaw with supreme concentration, trying desperately not to grab Buffy and pull her against him. He inhaled her scent. ‘I don’t want her. I don’t’ He kept repeating it to himself, hoping that if he thought it enough it would be true.

Sheila let out an indignant growl of jealousy and lunged for Buffy, who was inches from her sire. Buffy backhanded her, sending her flying into a tombstone.

Buffy swept Spike’s feet from under him, and straddled his waist, pressing her stake lightly against his chest. “I know you’re upset with me, angry even…”

“You know nothing little girl.” He growled trying to buck her off. Suddenly he stilled. He ripped his shirt down the middle. “You know what? Do it. Bloody just do it.”

”What?” Buffy squeaked.

”End ... my ... torment. Seeing you, every day, everywhere I go, every time I turn around. Take me ... out of a world ... that has you in it!” He growled to punctuate his anger. “Just kill me!”

Suddenly the stake was gone from her hand, flying unerringly into Sheila’s un-beating heart. She had gotten up and started towards Buffy and when the slayer felt her approach, without taking her eyes from Spike she let her stake fly. Spike sighed as she turned to dust before his eyes.

“Come on. We need to talk.” She said getting up from him and offering him her hand. “I’ll make you some Cocoa…I think we even have some of those little marshmallows.”

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