So Many Tears

Title: So many tears 6

Rating: NC-17

Author: justchicky2Bme

Pairing: B/F it’s not possible for me to write any other.

Summary: Buffy and Faith are together, but with love comes pain. I don’t know where the story is set just put it somewhere in there.

Endorse: The show and characters belong to J.W. and M.E. The story however is mine, so if you would like to archive please let me know, my name must be attached.

Feedback: I love feedback, pretty much anything except for really mean stuff.

Notes: I know it’s short, I’m sorry, but you know it’s like 1 am right now and I’m supposed to be sleeping I wasn’t even gonna write anything this weekend, but hey when I gotta write I gotta write. Hope you like, fingers are crossed. Oh and I don’t have a beta so sorry for any grammar mistakes and what have you.



‘Come on Buffy, it will be fun.’ Willow pleaded.

‘Yeah and there aren’t any apocalypses or anything right now.’ Dawn said.

‘You’re not going.’ Buffy told her, and the smile faded from her sisters lips.

‘So is she coming?’ Kennedy asked walking into the kitchen.

‘Yes.’ Willow said.

‘I don’t know.’ Buffy looked at her friend.

‘Come on Buffy you should go out.’ Dawn’s smile had come back.

‘And who’s going to watch you.’

‘Umm Buffy I don’t need a babysitter thank you.’

‘You know you want to.’ Kennedy said smiling as she wrapped her arm around Willow. Buffy sighed.

‘Ok, but I don’t know how long I’ll stay.’

‘Yay.’ Dawn cheered. Buffy glanced at her sister and rolled her eyes.

‘Let’s go already.’ Kennedy turned pulling her girlfriend with her.

‘No boys and no parties.’ Buffy pointed at Dawn.

‘Don’t worry about me.’ She looked at Buffy a moment. ‘I’m glad you’re going out.’

‘Yeah me too.’ Buffy smiled at her sister and gave her a hug.

‘Come on already!’ Kennedy yelled.

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Buffy stared at the beer in front of her. Part of her wanted to drink it, and then drink another one, and maybe another one. Part of her knew that would be a bad idea right now. Lights flashed around the room, some flashing to booming bass that made the floors vibrate. She looked off across the dance floor at Kennedy and Willow dancing together. They looked happy and immersed in each other. She was happy that Willow could find it in herself to love again, Tara’s death and the whole evil thing had made things very hard on her friend. But to see the redhead smile and kiss the brunette also made Buffy a little sad. She had figured, maybe somewhat naively, that she would be with Faith forever.

‘Hey Buffy you gonna dance or what?’ She looked up seeing the brunette and redhead standing before her.

‘How bout, or what.’

‘How bout you get your butt up and dance.’ Willow grinned at her. Buffy gave her a little smile and decided that one dance would be good enough to get the girls of her back. She followed them out to the floor, and soon became swallowed up in the mass of gyrating bodies. Buffy closed her eyes and moved her hips and body to the beat. Hands rested on her hips as a guy moved in behind her, pushing up against her and moving with her swaying hips. He ran his rough hands along her arms as she lifted them up above her head, and he ran them down along her ribs till they rested on her hips again. The song changed to a slower beat and she felt his hand leave her body. But she continued to move and felt another set of hands rest on her hips. The blonde gasped in surprise, but didn’t turn around.

She knew these hands well, the way they caressed her body. Leaning back she pressed herself against her new dancing partner. She moved her hands back resting on her partner’s hips and they moved together. The hands traveled up across Buffy’s stomach and up across her breast and down again. Buffy groaned and pressed her self back harder. She finally got the courage up to turn around, but the hands wouldn’t let her. They continued to move through song after song, Buffy had no understanding of time, just the movement of their bodies against each other. A hand reached up and moved Buffy’s hair off one side of her neck and soft lips kissed her neck up and down. The blonde closed her eyes and let her head fall back. After a few minutes the lips were gone, and so too were the hands and the body, and Buffy was left standing in the middle of the dance floor alone. She turned around in circles looking, but did not see the person who’d left her again. Buffy made her way back to the table where Kennedy and Willow were sitting and talking.

‘Where ya been?’ Kennedy asked.

‘Dancing.’

‘For nearly three hours straight?’ Willow asked.

‘I guess.’ Buffy was looking down at the beer she had left sitting there earlier.

‘And here I thought you’d want to leave after about thirty minutes.’ Willow smiled at her.

‘How about one last dance?’ The brunette looked over at her girlfriend and they both got up and left. Buffy reached out and grabbed the cup, holding it in her hand. After a minute of staring at it she lifted it to her lips and gulped it down and put it back on the table. She took one last look out at the dance floor and walked over to the bar.



‘Buffy I think it’s time to go home.’ The blonde looked up at her friend.

‘One more drink.’

‘No I think you’ve had enough.’

‘Does she always drink this much?’ Kennedy asked quietly.

‘This isn’t like her at all.’

‘Hello, right here.’ Buffy said raising her hand.

‘We need to get her home.’ Willow said, a concerned look on her face.

‘Yeah. You think it’s because……..’ Kennedy trailed off not wanting to actually say Faith’s name.

‘I think so.’

‘Hellooo, still here.’ Buffy looked at them.

‘This isn’t good.’ Willow said.

‘You’re telling me, I hope she’s not a mean drunk, I mean with her slayer strength and all.’

‘Well I’m gonna get another drink.’ Buffy stood up.

‘No we’re going home.’ Willow grabbed for her but Buffy shrugged her off. The redhead looked at her girlfriend. ‘We’re going to need some help.’



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‘Hey pet steady there.’ Spike made an annoyed face. ‘Why’d you let her go and get drunk if you couldn’t handle her.’

‘It’s not like we can exactly do anything about it.’ Kennedy said trying to hold Buffy up from the other side.

‘And it’s not like she gets drunk a lot either.’ Willow said opening the front door. They dragged the blonde up the stairs to her room. Willow opened her door and her eyes went a little wide. She hadn’t actually been in Buffy’s room for a few days.

‘She do a little redecorating?’ Spike said glancing around. The sheets and blankets were on the floor, as well as a few a Faith’s clothes. With the help of Kennedy they got her to the bed and laid her down. ‘Looks like you’ve got a problem on your hand.’ They all looked down at the unconscious blond.



Buffy woke feeling an intense headache. The sun still hadn’t risen yet. She took a moment to get her bearings and she realized she was on her bed. She rolled herself over and off of the bed and curled up onto the blanket that lay on the floor next to it. Wrapping the blanket around her head she began to cry. She hated what Faith had made her become, she’d become weak and vulnerable now. Buffy listened to the hollow sound of her breathing. She was torn apart by the hate and love she felt, and it was hard to choose which one she felt more.



TBC