Helpless

Title: Helpless
Part: 6/6
Author: My Reality Girl aka Jessie
Pairing: W/S
Rating: NC17
Warning: Deals with rape
Disclaimer: Not mine never was - just borrowing them for a while!
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Note: This is A LOT different from what I normally write - if you think I didn’t pull it off let me know! - I set myself a challenge, the question was “why would Spike shave his head?” obviously inspired by James Marsters recent radical new look. I wanted to see if I could write one funny and one sad fic - with that question in mind. Here’s the sad one - anyone else want to give it a try?
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Part 6

Spike looked down at the young girl curled in his arms, her head resting so trustingly on his chest.

The night before had been a revelation for Spike - he hadn’t known he could feel such love and tenderness for another being, especially a mere mortal girl!. However, Willow had brought emotions out from him that he didn’t even know he possessed.

Love, caring, tenderness, compassion, understanding, gentleness - PICK A WORD - Spike had experienced them all in one short night.

Willow shifted slightly in her sleep, nuzzling closer to him, her warm breath tickling his chest.

< Who’d have thought a few months ago that this would happen - Red and Me together!. I always fancied her, always wanted her. Even when I was attacking her she made me hot, all that innocence and
Fire - fear and logic. Who would have thought that the ‘Big Bad’ would find logic girl so appealing! >

Spike glanced over at the clock on the nightstand - 7.40 am - smiling as hioughoughts drifting again.

< Fifteen minutes more Pet! >

Spike had decided around 4.30 am that if Willow wasn’t awake by 8am he’s wake her himself.

< Lonely - wanna play with my witch >

Images of Willow flashed through his mind as he lay holding her - the moment he’d opened her bedroom door and seen her waiting for him, the moment she ‘touched’ him for the first time - her hands so warm and unsure, her growing confidence as they’d made love.

Truth is told he had been terrified last night, not just of how Willow would react but how he himself would cope. He knew neither of them would ever truly heal but at least it seemed they wen thn the road to recovery and happiness.

< 7.44 DAMMIT! Willow wake up! >

Spike wiggled a little, hoping his movements would wake her.

< Nope! Not a murmur! >

As Spike let the minutes slip by he found himself just looking at her - her soft features, relaxed completely in sleep, smooth skin, slightly swollen lips, mussed hair and bright green eyes.

< BRIGHT GREEN EYES? HANG ON A BLOODY MINUTE! >

She was awake and had been for a couple of minutes. Spike had been so lost in memorising each of her features he hadn’t noticed she was watching him just as intently.

Studying his blue eyes, soft lips that had driven her crazy the night before and his perfect cheekbones, all angles and sharp lines.

“Hi” her voice was soft and shy as he grinned down at her, dipping his lips he captured her up turned mouth in a sensual kiss.

“Mornin’ Pet”

Willow stretched languidly - her arms rising over her head, causing her to give a small squeak as the sheet dipped beneath her bare breasts - grabbing the edge she tucked the material around herself and blushed prettily.

“Trust me Pet when it comes to your body you having nothing to be ashamed of - your beautiful. Everywhere!” he purred, watching fascinated as the colour rose again in her cheeks as Willow remembered just how MUCH of her he’d seen.

Spike snuggled her deeper into his arms, loving the feel of her warm skin against his own.

Willow sighed, “Last night was amazing,” she whispered into his neck “You were amazing”

Spike laughed softly “So were you Red, I couldn’t believe my eyes when I opened the door and you were standing there. I can’t believe you got Buff on on it too!” thinking back on how determined the slayer had been that he stay with her and not return to Willow - wouldn’t let him leave the tunnels! Even resorted to asking his ‘intentions’.

“Buffy wanted to know my intentions pet” he explained grinning a little at the memory, the Slayer had struck her defiant stance and demanded that he tell her about their ‘future plans’.

“Oh she did? What did you tell her?” her voice nervous of his answer.

“Told her to Sod Off! - funny thing is I don’t think it went down too well!”

“I wonder why!” the redhead laughed, imagining her friends reaction to that!

“None of her bloody business though is it? This is between us, no one else!. So did she help with your whole seduction scene?” a smile quirking his soft lips.

Willow shook her head and looking up in to his questioning eyes whispered.

“Anya”

“ANYA!?”

“And Xander helped too!” she put in hurriedly, biting her lip as he frowned.

“So you asked Chubbs and Demon girl’s advice?”

“Uh - huh. Was that okay? I mean I didn’t really know how to start ….. And I wanted it to be perfect”

Spike smiled and kissed her softy “It was perfect - just trying to wrap my brains around Anya knowing anything about romance - I’m surprised leather and chains weren’t involved!”

Willow laughed - relieved that he wasn’t mad that their intimate moments had been planned with his once mortal enemies!

“Xander talked her out of that scenario - think she’s got a few new ideas now for him though!”

Spike roared with laughter - hugging her tight as he did - he couldn’t help but laugh as he thought of the ‘odd couple’ and all the ‘nasty’ things that Anya no doubt had planned for Xapper!

“You don’t mind I asked their advice?” her voice small as she looked at him - worry in her eyes.

“How could I mind!!! I came home from an awful day to find the girl I love waiting for me! Wearing satin and lace and letting me make love to her for the first time! It was the best night of my unlife - and I’ve had some sweet ones” his hand stroking her bare back, lower, lower until he caressed her butt softly - pulling her to him softly, showing her how aroused he was just by laying at her side.

“OH!” her eyes flicked to his and read the passion she saw clearly in his blue depths.

“Wanna see if we can make it a DAY to remember Pet?” he whispered, his lips mere centimetres from her own.

Willow nodded shyly, her mouth closing the distance and opening under his - he heard her moan as his hands roamed the soft curves of her body.

Her own small hands - so hesitant at first - grew bolder with each stroke against his smooth flesh - making him growl in pleasure in response to her eager ministrations.

Willow suddenly felt strong, lithe fingers part her folds and slip inside - her head fell back exposing her creamy throat to his lips and tongue.

His fingers were soon drenched in her pleasure - making him want to howl with pride over how responsive to him she was.

Knowing he could wait no longer he rolled on his back, bring Willow with him and settling her over his thighs.

The Redheads eyes opened slowly, seemingly drugged on his kisses - looking down in to his grinning face she whispered a little confused “Spike?”

“Wanna see you pet - need to” his voice rough with need, moving her body slightly lower he positioned himself, his eyes on hers as she nodded and rose to her knee’s, feeling him nudge at her she lowered her self on to him slowly.

Watching in wonder as Spike clenched his jaw and his eyes rolled back - pure pleasure washing over his passion-filled face.

< Wow!!! Different deeper! - OH? OH GOD- NICE!! >

Spike prised his eyes open as he heard her gasp, gazing up at the girl above him. She looked amazing, like a warrior goddess - her green eyes fixed on his as she bit her lower lip - all the while riding him slowly, his hands on her hips guiding her movements.

Spike couldn’t help it - he growled long and loud at the vision above him, such beauty a vampire has no right to possess captcapture, but he had and he was thrilled at his prize - his fire goddess.

Willow smiled down at him when she heard his growl, loving the way it vibrated through his chest and touched her deep inside. Leaning down, her hips never ceasing their age old movement - until her mouth opened in a surprised ’O’ as her sensitive bundle of nerves ground against Spike pelvic bone.

“Oh WOW” she breathed as she captured Spikes lips - rocking against him as firecrackers went off in her brain - dragging her tongue along the roof of his mouth she felt him shudder at the sweet friction it wrought within him, eliciting a cry of pure satisfaction at her awareness of his pleasures as well as her own.

< Thank god I’m already dead! I COULDN’T HANDLE THIS ALIVE!! >

Spike battled with his demon, trying to push him back but he was too aroused - too aware of her tight muscles closing around him in a sweet vice like grip - effectively cutting off all thought from above the waist.

Suddenly he felt his demon win and his face shifted - revealing his true form.

It was at that moment that Willow eased back down to drown in his blue eyes, only to pause for a moment when she encountered amber instead.

“Don’t be scared” he begged, cursing himself - then relaxed as he felt her trace the edge of his brow ridges with a soft fingertip - leaning forward she kissed his brow and whispered “ Why would I be scared of you? I love you - all of you” kissing her way down his face until she found his lips and slipped her soft tongue inside, deliberately nicking her flesh so a steady stream of blood flowed into his mouth.

Spike’s eyes widened at the sensation of blood, human blood - POWERFUL, WITCHES, HUMAN BLOOD, he sucked the wound lightly, feeling her whimper in delight as she felt him feed from her.

< Minx>

A wave of naughtiness seemed to fill him - flipping her quickly she found herself looking up at him.

< Red what’s to play? Let’s play! >

Grinning at her he purred “Ello’ gorgeous”

“Back at ya sexy” she laughed - arching in to him, burying him deep, nimble legs wrapped high around his back and thrust up - trying to hurry him.

< Close so close! Come on SPIKE!!! Want you baby , need you > her mind screamed.

Spike shook his head “Wait” he growled.

Willow pouted at his words and Spike quickly sucked the pursed lip in to his mouth, making her squirm in delight “Spike!”

“Yeah - Pet “he panted, her body trying to swallow him whole!

“Hurry - please”

Willow moaned as he simply bent and captured a dusky nipple between blunt teeth and nipped lightly, his clever tongue making her to a quivering wreck of need.

“Please Spike!”

Spike smiled at the need he heard, at the passion her voice held as she said his name.

“Do you love me Red?”

Willow blinked in surprise “You know I do - I love you!” she moaned as he thrust a little deeper, she watched in fascination as his features shifted to ‘game’ face again.

“Will you be mine Willow? Always?”

Understanding now she wrapped her habehibehind his head and told him honestly “Until the moment I cease to exist - make me yours Spike!” guiding his head to her breast he shook lightly out of her touch.

“Not there - don’t need anyone to have to be able to see it. As long as we both know your claimed that’s enough”

Willow frowned then as realisation set in she saw him grin “You mean…..” her eyes flicking down towards the juncture of her thighs.

Spike nodded, hissing as he slid from her - Willow closed her eyes on the feeling, savouring it like water to a dying man.

“Ready darlin’?”

Willow nodded - shifting as she felt his tongue slither up her thigh, lapping at the apex - making her thrash and moan “Spike!”

A heartbeat later she felt a sharp pinprick of pain as his fangs sank easily in to the supple flesh at the inside of her thigh - she could feel him drawing her blood from her system, her body seemed to go lax at that steady sucking she was feeling through her satiny skin.

Spike was in heaven ( or a close as he was ever gonna get) her blood and scent overpowering his senses as he drank deep - her life-force washing across his tongue bathing his throat with her sweetness - slipping his teeth from her sensitive flesh he lapped at the puncture marks for a moment.

Willow’s breathing was ragged as she felt him slip from her skin - her mind was whirling - that was the most erotic moment of her young life! Feeling him feed from her, his moans as he had - showing her how much he loved her, loved her blood.

Then his tongue was inside her, causing her to buck and moan against his face - his nose bumping her clit in to spasms.

As she was coming down from another high octane moment he was inside her again, his cock filling her more and more with each thrust - pushing her higher, wanting more, her legs wrapped tight around him as he pounded into her - his demon screaming for him to consume her, to take the girl further than ever before.

Willow could take no more - hitting the hard edge of reality she snapped back, crying out her lovers name as she felt herself fall, feeling Spike’s release - cool and wet splash deep inside - he followed her into oblivion - her name tearing from his lips.

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A long time later, when Willow could form a coherent thought she looked at Spike, his features peaceful - like a sleeping lion, relaxed but ready to pounce.

“Spike?”

“Umm Pet?”

“What was it like?” her voice shy at asking such a question.

“What luv? Tasting you? Making you mine?” his eyes dancing as he saw her blush and nod slowly.

“You taste like heat - hot, consuming, nearly burned me up Luv - when I claimed you I never thought I’d be as affected as I was - I love you, you know that - but now it’s like you…make me whole? Complete? Understand?” Willow nodded and told “I felt the same”

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Spike and Willow were together always after that - months past until one day Willow saw on the news that a man had raped a young girl in Waverly Park - almost five years to the day of her attack.

She had been distraught when the victims sketch of her attacker came on the TV screen - it was the same man, grey straggly hair, same height, weight, everything - even the tattoo that Willow remembered so clearly, she should do, it had flashed in her dreams so many times.

A dove on the inside of his wrist, she’d seen it when he’d held the knife to her throat.

When Spike had returned she had pored out the news to him, her anger and shame at not coming forward made her feel like this girl’s plight was herlt -lt - she could have stopped it if she’d only spoken up - now another girl would have the same fears and nightmares as she - unless he was caught.

Spike had told her not to worry - this time the bastard wasn’t getting away with it, not if he had anything to do with it.

Calling Angel he told him his plan, what he’d need - and with Willows permission - why.

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Angel arrived in record time - striding into Willows house, his features set as he hugged her tightly - Spike growled at seeing his sire holding her.

“Down boy” he muttered - stepping back he looked into Willow’s face and for the first time understood the sadness that seemed to be deeply buried in her eyes.

“He loves you doesn’t he?” Angel asked softly.

Willow nodded “I love him too”

“Angel - let’s get this done huh? Burning moonlight” Spike snapped - then pulling Willow into his arms he kissed her gently.

“I called Xander, he’s gonna stay here while we’re gone - it could take till daybreak so don’t worry - this will be over soon”

Willow nodded then clutching Spike’s arm she whispered “Don’t kill him”

“WHAT? - I thought?” he shook his head in wonder at her words - then listening as she spoke he slowly understood.

“If he dies that girl will never know he’s gone. I know what it’s like Spike, to walk along the street and not be sure if one of the guys walking towards you is him - she needs closure on this, we both do”

“You’ll get it - come on Sire time to go” Angel just nodded and followed his boy from the house, passing Xander on the way - Angel marvelled over the close relationship the two men seemed
To have - brought together by one little redhead.

“Look after her Xand - I’m trusting you”

“Always look after my Will - now go - do what you have to, and Spike?”

“What?”

“Get in a good punch for me” Xander’s eyes were cold as he spoke, Spike understood and smiling slightly, nodded.

“Just for you Xand - might even let Angelus get a couple of slaps in -what ya think?” Spike grinned, his old evil leer covering his face as he looked at the older vampire.

Angel smiled too - the sight chilling Xander to the bone - Angelus seemed to be right at the surface of Angel’ personality, just begging to come out and play “Think I could talk him in to a spot of violence childe” Angel quipped as they set off.

Xander shuddered as he realised that he had just heard the voice of Angelus and William the Bloody for the first time in years.

Watching the two vampires walk away he thanked the lord he wasn’t the one in their sights tonight - even if they didn’t kill the bastard who had hurt Willow - he would be seriously fucked up, both body and mind.

Xander grinned at the thought - Angelus loved playing with people’s minds whereas Spike just liked the violence - looked like both of them would be having fun tonight.

< I almost feel sorry for what you’ve got to come you evil son of a bitch - almost > Xander thought before going in search of his friend and keeping her heartily entertained for the remainder of the evening.

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Willow waited out the night on tenterhooks - Xander had made her laugh and played silly games, but her mind was still on Spike and what may be happening.

When he had made the suggestion that he and Angel find the attacker she had been overjoyed, but now she was scared for both men - her attacker was obviously unstable, there was no telling what he might do.

< What he knows what they are and he kills them? - what will I do? - oh Goddess bring Spike and Angel back safely >

It was almost Dawn and they hadn’t returned yet, Xander lay snoozing on the couch after finally crashing out from exhaustion of playing every board game invented - or so it seemed.

Willow paced the room - walking from the ow tow to the clock - her eyes darting over each.

< Where are they? >

Suddenly the front door was flung open and Spike and Angel bundled inside - laughing like idiots.

“Damn childe it’s been a while since I felt the sun on my heels like that - swore I heard myself frying!” Angel laughed pulling Spike to his feet.

Spike turned and seeing Willow scooped her into his arms “It’s done pet - no boogie man in your head at night okay” Willow nodded - tears in her eyes as she saw the cuts and scraps on his face.

“He hurt you?”

“Nah Pet - I let him hit me, then Angelus I mean Angel here waded in as the concerned friend and turned it in to a bar brawl - He’s locked up Red” kissing her softly he took her sobs into him - he didn’t want this girl to feel any more pain.

“Ahem” Angel coughed - breaking the pair apart.

Willow smiled “Thank you”

“That’s okay - seems you been helping out my childe here”

Willow’s eyes went wide and she looked at Spike - his eyes on her as he whispered “Told him, told him what you did for me. What your still doing for me”

“I love you”

“Love you right back Red” his lips settling over hers again - it was at that moment that Xander rolled
over on the couch - only to end up in a heap on the floor.

“What the…” he shrieked - then spotting the men he stood slowly “So?”

“Done” Angel told him, a little surprised to see the tears collect in Xander’s eyes.

“Where is he now?”

“A cell - a friend of mine from L.A called in a favour - told then she had reason to believe that a suspect wanted in the rape of a minor would be in a bar fight tonight. Worked like clockwork”

Willow nodded - then frowned “How did you find him? I mean how did you know who he was? The police had no leads, anything?”

Spike sat and pulling her into his lap whispered “Seems me and the ‘big man here’ still have a few connections in town - demons don’t like rapist’s pet,t’s t’s even too nasty for them. Therefore, when we put the word out about who we were looking for the news spread. Wasn’t long before we got word back on the guy we were looking for - names Clifford Ford - ex-con who ain’t been out of prison long. Back to his old tricks it seems. Clem told me he had seen the guy at a bar - left the rest to Angelus, he always did like a good brawl”

Angel smiled at the comment “been a while though - wasn’t that hard to set up the fight. Knew the cops would be called and then asked Kate to give the nod that the rapist would be among the wounded”

Willow nodded finally understanding “thank you so much - you have no idea how much this means to me” a sob catching her off guard as a feeling of peace settled in her stomach.

“No more - he’s gone right, and if what I hear about people like HIM in prison, he ain’t gonna last long” Spike voice was soft, pleading almost.

Willow nodded “I know - just wish I knew you guys sooner - could have prevented someone else getting hurt”

“We can’t save them all Willow - I wish I could but things don’t work that way. At least that girl won’t go through the terror of knowing he loose - he’s caught, held, and if I have my way not getting out again” Willow looked up at Angel and smiled “thanks”

“Well it’s getting late - or early - or WHATEVER I’m outta here! See you guys later and thanks for what you did” Xander told them, standing he kissed Willow on the cheek - shook both vamps hand and then left, the door closing softly as he did so.

“I’m gonna turn in now too - I gotta drive back tonight - sleep sweet child, Willow” and with that Angel descended in to Spike’s basement/apartment.

“You ready for some shut eye Pet?”

“Yeah - didn’t want to sleep until you were home. I missed you and was worried for you, but it’s over now?”

“All over - no more monsters, except me, no more thinking he’s still walking around because I’m fairly sure he won’t be walking for a while if what I segelugelus do was right” a grin spread over his face letting her know he wasn’t joking and that the urge to kill Clifford Ford had been a strong one - an urge both he and Angel had fought and beaten but the man was battered within an inch of his life - and more importantly he knew why, knew that this wasn’t some freak accident but retribution for past deeds - payment for his past crimes and that the two men had taken FULL repayment.

Willow nodded understanding what he told her “We’re okay then? We beat each others demons?” laying her head against him as he stood with her in his arms and carried her to bed.

“It’s over darlin’ - we beat them and for once I think we won. Wanna know something Red? Felt right fighting for a reason instead of for my life. Think Angel could use some help in LA - you game?”

Willow smiled as he lay her gently on the bed “A change of scenery might be just what we need - yeah I’m game”

Spike lay beside her and pulled her into his arms “Tell peaches later - think he could use some help - and anyway not like the Slayer doesn’t have enough help here is it?”

“Buffy will be fine - she knows I wanna help people, doesn’t matter if that’s here or LA right?”

“Right - go to sleep now sweetheart we’ll sort out the rest of out lives tomorrow - now I wanna hold you and dream”

“Okay - night Spike”

Curling around him Willow fell in to the first dreamless sleep in almost five years.

THE END