Forgive Me Father, For I Have Sinned

An exhausted and limpy Buffy crawled back through her window an hour or so before sunrise. Her and William had parted with sweet words and kisses to meet at their special place the following night. She only hoped she could wait that long. She already missed him. She changed into her nightgown and slipped into her bed hoping she could get a couple more hours of sleep before she had to be up for the day.

William almost skipped on his way back to his living quarters. Tonight had been the best night of his life. He quietly came into the house he shared with the other priests and crept into his bedroom. He undressed and threw his clothes in a pile on the floor, not noticing the blood stains from Buffy's loss of virginity that marred his shirt. He settled into his bed and drifted off to thoughts of his beautiful golden goddess.

Morning came too soon as Buffy dragged her tired and sore body out of bed. She bathed and dressed for the day. She checked her appearance in the mirror and tried to see if she looked different. She was afraid everyone would be able to tell she wasn't a virgin anymore. Sighing, she left her room and made her way to the cafeteria. She got her breakfast and saw Sister Willow and Sister Tara motion her over to their table.

"Good morning Sister Buffy!" Sister Willow said cheerily.
"Good morning" Buffy smiled.
Buffy ate her meal in silence as Willow and Tara chatted away. She finished and excused herself from the table. Just as she was leaving the cafeteria, the Mother Superior stopped her.
"Sister Buffy, may I have a word with you in my office?" she asked.
"Yes, Mother Superior" Buffy said softly swallowing the lump in her throat.
She walked with the Mother Superior across the campus to her offices. Her palms were sweating and she felt like she was having an anxiety attack.
'Oh my God. She knows. She knows. They know. Oh God. Oh God. Oh God.' Buffy tht. ht.

They finally reached the offices and went in. The Mother Superior took a seat behind her desk and motioned for Buffy to sit down in one of the chairs on the opposite side of the desk.
"Now Buffy, I want to tto yto you about the upcoming "Mini Olympic Day" we have here. It's tradition and the gym teachers and athletic coaches always organize it." Mother Superior began to drone on and on about the all day special event.
Buffy breathed an internal sigh of relief realizing that Mother Superior didn't know at all and she was not in trouble. Buffy finished listening and asked several questions and left with a promise that she would get with Father Charles and begin the planning stages of the event.

Buffy's morning went by excruciatingly slow but finally lunch time arrived. She took her lunch to the teacher's lounge expecting to find her William there but he wasn't. She began her lunch and soon Willow and Tara came in but no William. As her lunch hour came to a close she sadly left to go back to the gym. Was William alright? Was he avoiding her? Buffy's mind ran rampant with the possibilities for his absence.

Meanwhile, William was just waking up, having slept through his alarm.
"Father William! Father William. You must get up. Are you ill?" he heard Father Wesley's voice above him.
"What? Huh? Uhhh, no. I must've over slept. I'm terribly sorry." he said as he swung his legs around to the floor and stood up.
Father Wesley looked away embarrassed. William looked down and realized he was stark naked. Oops. He had been so tired when he got in that he had neglected to put anything on to sleep in.

He quickly grd a d a robe that was draped across the end of the bed and pulled it on.
"Sorry, Father Wesley....uhhh...was very hot last night..." he trailed off.
"Yes, well. Please wear at least some underclothing, Father William." he said.
"I will. Sorry Father." William blushed.
"You better get a move on. I had to sub for your morning classes but you should be able to make it for your afternoon ones if you get a move on." Father Wesley turned and left.
William looked at his clock. I missed lunch. Buffy probably is wondering where I am. He rushed through a shower and dressed and hurried to make it to his next class.

Buffy stood at the church entrance after her work day was over. She had worried herself sick all afternoon about William and decided she needed to go to confession. She took a deep breath and went inside. She made her way to the confessional booths and opening the door of the one open for session, she stepped inside and shut the door behind her.

"Forgive me Father for I have sinned. It has been two weeks since my last confession" Buffy said.
"What sins have you committed my child?" Father Wesley asked.
"I...I...I have had...carnal thoughts for someone I shouldn't have." Buffy said, not quite ready to reveal she had actually acted on those thoughts yet.
"Please go on child" Father Wesley said.
"I....he is...he is a priest, Father. I'm so sorry. I tried not to but he is so beautiful and I feel love towards him. Romantic love. What should I do?" Buffy asked.

Father Wesley swallowed. He had recognized Buffy's voice. A nun in love with a priest. Wait...there are only so many priests here. Who could she be speaking of?
"Father...are you there?" Buffy said pulling him from his thoughts.
"Yes, my child. Have you....acted on these thoughts?" he questioned her.
"Nnnoooo" Buffy lied. I'm already going to hell, what's another lie she thought.
"Is he aware of your feelings?" he asked.
"I'm trying to make him aware now" Buffy answered.

Father Wesley interpreted that statement completely the wrong way. Oh dear Lord. Sister Buffy loves me. She has romantic feelings for me. Oh dear. What do I tell her?
"Ummm...say five hail Mary's and pray to God for guidance...uhh...I have to go. Bless you my child." Father Wesley exited his side of the confessional hurriedly and almost ran to the churches back offices.

Buffy sat there with a confused look on her face over Father Wesley's behavior. She exited the confessional herself and ran smack dab into William's chest.
"Buffy!" William exclaimed.
"William!" Buffy said back.
"Was that Father Wesley I just saw scurrying out of here?" William inquired.
"Yes, I believe so. He is a....strange man" Buffy commented.
"Oh...he's just a little stuffy around the collar" William grinned at his bad pun.

Buffy rolled her eyes.
"Where have you been all day? I was worried." Buffy admitted.
"I over slept. Someone kept me up all night." he informed her.
Buffy blushed. "Well, I was up on time! I waited for you at lunch and you didn't come. I thought maybe you didn't want to see me again."
"Buffy! Why would you think that? I'll always want to see you. Didn't last night mean anything to you? I love you." William told her.
"Yes, of course it did! That's why I was worried. I love you too." she replied.
"Then you should trust me for Christ sake" William raised his voice slightly.
"William! Calm down. We are in the house of the Lord!" Buffy motioned her hand around to the church that they stood in.
"Sorry, luv." William made a move to pull her into his arms and Buffy jumped back out of his reach.

"William. We can't. Someone might see us." Buffy said.
"Oh right. Sorry. Lost myself for a minute there" he smiled shyly at her.
I need to go. I'll see you tonight." Buffy told him.
"O.K. luv. I'll be there. Same time, same place." he replied.
She took one last look at him and turned and left the church.

William walked to the back to go in search of Father Wesley.
"Father Wesley?" William called out as he came into the office.
"Over here, William" he replied from his seat near the window which he was staring out of watching Buffy walk away down the foot path.
"How can I help you?" Wesley asked turning his attention to William.
"Oh nothing really. I was just in the neighborhood and thought I'd stop by." William grinned.
"You are too funny for your own good, William" Wesley replied.
"What are you up to?" William took a seat next to Wesley.
"NOTHING! I mean...just sitting...thinking....praying." Wesley flushed hotly.
William raised an eyebrow wondering what on earth was up with the senior priest.
"William...can I ask you a question?" Wesley said.
"Of course" William replied.
"Ummm...er...hypothetically speaking...if you found out that a girl...a woman...umm..a Sister had developed feelings for you...how would you go about handling that?" Wesley stumbled all over his words.

William's face paled. He knows about Buffy! He is trying to get me to out myself. What do I do? William's mind frantically ran wild though he did his best to not show it and decided to play along with Wesley's hypothetical games.
"Well...ummm....do you know for certain she has feelings? What kind of feelings?" William asked.
"You know....FEELINGS and yes, she told me...er hypothetically speaking of course." Wesley blushed.
"Oh...ummm....what did you tell her back?" William asked.
"I panicked. I told her to say hail Mary's and pray for guidance then left and oh crap, I take it the entire hypothetical cover is blown now, eh?" Wesley answered.
"Yeah, it is. So...who has these 'feelings' for you?" William said entirely confused now. He wasn't talking about his Buffy if his hypothetical woman was actually real.

"It's the new nun, Sister Buffy!" Wesley responded horrified at the situation.
"WHAT?" William stood.
"I know. It was quite a shock to me too when she told me. I've been a priest awhile and have handled many difficult situations but something like this has never happened to me before. I have no idea how to handle her...er it." Wesley confessed.
William was frantic. Buffy told Wesley she had feelings for him? What the? Was she playing him? Was she making her rounds through all the priests? What was going on?
"William...hello? Are you still with me?" Wesley waved his hand in front of his face.
"Huh? Umm..yes...sorry...I'm just...wow...shocked. Umm...I have to go...it's my turn to cook dinner tonight. I'll see you at the house later. Bye" William left abruptly much to Wesley's dismay who still didn't have an answer as to what to do about Buffy.

William stomped to the priests house getting angrier by the step. How could she do this to him? He thought she loved him. Was it all just a game to her? He was willing to give up everything for her and she was running around behind his back with Wesley. God only k who who else. Probably Charles too. They were always so friendly with each other and he had already had his suspicions before. William let his doubts and insecurity take hold of him and by the time he reached his house, he already had his plan to confront Buffy that night when they met again. Rationality and reason had been thrown out the window in favor of his bad temper and jealousy.

He absently made dinner and soon Wesley and Charles had joined him for their meal. He scowled at both other men throughout dinner. He ate quickly and excused himself. An hour later, Charles and Wesley both knocked on his door.
"Yes?" he said as he opened the door a few inches.
"William, we wanted to talk to you for a moment" Wesley said.
"About?" William questioned.
"We both noticed you seemed in a rather foul mood tonight at dinner and I was just starting the laundry and I..." Charles began.
"Charles found blood all over your clothing from last night. He said he found it on your floor when he made his rounds to pick up our dirty laundry when he got home today." Wesley piped in.
"Blood?" William's eyes widened in surprise briefly then he remembered...it was Buffy's blood.
"Yes, I'm quite sure it's blood. Did something happen last night?" Charles pried.
"Ummm...yeah...I was out running...you know...and I fell and scraped myself all up. I'm fine though." William lied.
"Ohhh...O.K. well that explains everything. You have a nice night now." Wesley pulled the door closed and began walking away. Charles followed him.

"He is lying Wesley." Charles said.
"What?" Wesley turned to look at Charles.
"If he fell, why wasn't there any dirt or grass stains..something on his clothes? There was just blood. Only blood! I'm telling you, he is hiding something. Should know better than to trust a Brit, priest or not." Charles walked away.
"Hey, I'M a Brit! What do you mean by that?" Wesley hurried after him.

Buffy snuck out her window again and walked to the chapel. She was giddy and excited to see William again. She couldn't help but anticipate the events that would surely come later that night. She got to the chapel and went inside.
"William" she called out as she walked to the back room. She found him there sitting on the edge of the bed, a sole candle lit giving off a small soft glow.
"There you are. I missed you so much" Buffy threw herself into his arms.
William stiffened and pushed Buffy away.
"William? What's wrong?" Buffy asked.
"You tell me" William said coldly.
"Umm...I don't know..." Buffy began.
"Shut up you silly girl. Take your clothes off." William stood and began removing his own.

Buffy watched him in confusion but did as he told her and began to remove her habit.
"Leave the wimple on. I want to fuck you with it on" William said crudely.
"William? I don't understand. Have I done something?" Buffy's chin trembled and her eyes began to water.
"Remember what you said about being punished last night, Buffy? Remember what I told you?" William grabbed her by the shoulders.
"Yessss" Buffy quivered under his touch.
"You need to be punished don't you, Buffy?" William asked her.

Buffy was a tad bit scared but also highly aroused. She finally decided this must be a game. A sex game he was playing with her, she blushed as she thought that but her lips moved and she said, "Yes...I'm so bad. I've been such a bad girl, William" she thought she was playing along.

Little did she realize that William was not playing a game. He was dead serious about punishing her for what he thought she had done or was doing. With both confused about the other's actions and behavior they began something that was going to get quickly out of hand.

"Didn't I tell you to take your clothes off?" William said sharply.
"Yes....I'm sorry..." Buffy began to remove the remainder of her clothing.
"You will be sorry by the time I get through with you" William said as he pushed her down onto the bed.

Continued in Chapter 6- Punishment