Spike's wish

Chapter 5

The Trials.

“Anything you want Spike. We’ll talk tomorrow.” Buffy replied.

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“Spike will you come home with me?” Buffy asked as they were leaving the Bronze.

“What about your mum Luv?” Spike asked

“She’s at home. So is Dawn. I want you to meet them.” Buffy said. “I Told them everything about you and I.”

“You told them I’m a vampire luv?” Spike asked incredulously

“Yeah, I did but it’s ok they’re cool with it. They already knew I was the Slayer. Mom understands. Plus with you now having a soul….. Well I still have to tell her that, Maybe everyone can hang out while you tell me and Giles about it so we won’t have to keep repeating it.” Buffy said.

“Sure luv, I’ve no problem with that.” Spike replied.

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“Mom? Dawn?” Buffy yelled walking in into the house with Spike.
They walked out of the kitchen “Guys, Spike’s here. He came back!” Buffy said.

“Nice to meet you Spike.” Joyce said holding out her hand, which Spike took and gently kissed the back of her hand “My pleasure” He said.

“Dawn” Spike said nodding at her. Dawn held out her hand too. Spike immediately took her hand and kissed it too.

“Nice to meet you Spike” Dawn giggled, her face going completely red.

They talked for a few minutes until Buffy yawned. “Well luv, looks like you are tired so I’ll be shoving off then.” Spike said.
“Don’t be silly Spike you can stay over, I …..Well I know how you two feel about each other, and I know how miserable Buffy was without you here.”

“Oh mom, you’re the best!” Buffy said jumping up to give her a hug.

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“Night luv” Spike said Kissing Buffy softly

“Night Spike” She said kissing him back.

Spike watched her sleep for awhile then drifted off himself.

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Spike awoke when Buffy shifted him to get out of bed. “Where you goin Buffy?” He asked.

“Gotta go to school, the gang will be here for supper then it’s talking time so rest up.” Buffy said kissing Spike good-bye

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When Spike heard Buffy leave he got out of bed to go and find Joyce. He found her in the kitchen. “Joyce can I talk to you for a minute?” Spike asked
“Sure Spike, what’s on your mind?”

“Well I was wonderin, I want to ask Buffy to be my wife. Would that be alright with you?”

“Yes Spike, I think that would make her very happy. I have never seen her as happy as she was this morning. Because you came back.”

“I already have a ring….”

“Can I see it?” Joyce asked

“Sure” Spike replied pulling a small old-fashioned ring box from his pocket.

“Oh Spike, she’ll love it!” Joyce exclaimed.

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“Hello?” Buffy called walking into the house.

“Upstairs” She heard Spike reply

Buffy walked into her room and found Spike sitting on her bed. “Have a seat love” Spike said Patting the bed beside himself.

Buffy sat down and Spike got down on one knee “Buffy, I love you. Body, mind spirit and soul, I would be honored if you would consider being my wife?” Spike asked.

“Yes Spike! Absolutely. I will be your wife.” Buffy said happy tears rolling down her cheeks.

Spike brushed them away and pulled out the ring box. He showed it to Bu “Oh “Oh god. It’s beautiful Spike.” Buffy breathed.

“It was my mother’s. I have held on to it all these years because I hoped one day to meet a woman who was worthy of wearin it. You are that woman Buffy. I got it engraved. You want me to put it on?”
Buffy was speechless and only nodded her head. Spike placed the ring on her finger with a shaking hand.

“What did you have engraved on it?” Buffy asked curious.
“It says Fated. With our initials.” Spike replied
“Where’s Mom and Dawn?” Buffy asked huskily

“Gone for another hour Pet.” Spike replied looking at the clock.

“Come here then.” She said pulling him up into her kiss.
Buffy removed his shirt and saw the handprint burned into his flesh, still not healed fully. “What’s that?” She asked
Spike shrugged “That’s how the demon put my soul back in love.”
They made love tenderly. After words they were laying in each other’s embrace, enjoying just being in each other’s arms. Spike, I have something to tell you.” Buffy said quietly

“What is it love?”

“I’m kinda scared to tell you….”

“Don’t ever be scared to tell me anything love…. Whatever it is”

“I’m pregnant!”
“WHAT? Who’s?”
“Yours”
“But that’s impossible!”
“I thought so too….until Giles went into full on research mode.” Buffy proceeded to tell him the whole story.

“Oh god so the Slayer I killed….”

“Spike that was a long time ago…. You didn’t know any better….”

“That’s why I couldn’t drink her blood….I tried, got a taste but it was like it was ….tainted.”

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When the gang arrived Buffy and Spike were cuddling on the couch.
“Hey Buffy, Spike.”

“The gang’s all here.” Buffy said untangling herself from Spike

“Everyone get comfortable. This is gonna be a long night.” Spike said preparing to launch into his story.

“I realized that even though Buffy was in love with me, and me with her, that wasn’t enough. I started checking around and found out about this demon who grants….requests if you can pass his trials…so I decided that I needed to do this for her. As I told Giles, I want to make Buffy’s life happy and with you lot not approving, well I could see how that would turn out. Also I wanted to be a man Buffy could be proud to love, not want to hide me away like some…..Whatever, let’s just say I had my reasons. Went all the way to Africa to find the bloke.”

“Why Africa?” Giles asked

“Not a lot of demon’s nor people are willin to travel that far I’suppose. I found him in a cave after about two days of searchin for him. He asked me why I wanted my soul; asked me if I thought it would make me worthy of Buffy. Told him no that our love for each other and our belief in each other was what made me worthy. The soul was just…..It would make things easier for us. Said I had to pass his trials and then he would see. First one was a bloke who had fire for hands, defeated him pretty easy; I am an excellent fighter after all. Second one though, I had to fight scarabs, don’t know if you lot know what they are? They’re like big beetles that eat flesh, running through my brain, under my skin, up my nose ‘twas gross really, but I defeated them. Third trial, that was a difficult one.” Spike swallowed hard before continuing, “I’ve done things, in my past, things that I am not proud of, not really excited about telling you lot.”

“Spike no one is judging you, I think if they know everything they will understand what it means when you say you love me. What it means for you to have fallen in love with me.” Buffy said.

“I know luv, that’s why I agreed to tell them.” Spike continued. “The third one, there was a door, I had no idea what was beyond that door, only that I had to face it, I tried the door and it was locked. I pounded on the door. All of a sudden there was a stand with a bowl on it to my right. I looked into the bowl and it was filled with water, at the bottom there was a key. The top of the bowl, it was surrounded by crosses. I reached my hand in and my flesh started to smoke and fell away from the bone. But I grabbed the sodden key and pulled my hand out. All that was left was mostly bloody bone. Took a little while to recover and then I stuck the key into the lock. Door opened with a loud bang.” Spike swallowed hard. Buffy went to get him a drink of water, giving him a chance to rest his voice.
“Spike did you know it was holy water before you stuck your hand in?” Giles asked.
“Well I wasn’t sure, but it didn’t matter. I just had to do it.”

Buffy returned with the water. “Thanks luv.” Spike said taking a few gulps. He then continued “I took a step into the room and the door slammed behind me I heard a voice I would recognize anywhere. “Spike my boy come and see what a delicious treat I have for you.” it was Angelus. You are dead. Dust.
“Yeah that is true but you never tried to stop me before….come a little closer and see.” He said to me. That’s when I heard the whimpering, saw two girls we had killed before. We had gotten drunk and Angelus was always a mean drunk. I can still see their tear stained cheeks. You see both girls, we…did things to them, things I don’t think I need to go into details about here I’ll just say they were not willing. But at the time. When we really did…what we did. Their fear and struggles made it all the more exciting. He reminded me of that. He reminded me how intoxicating it could be. To hurt and torture, He and I we did some awful things. It was easy to do then. Didn’t care about anything 'cept Dru. Loved her and took care of her for over a hundred years. Till she threatened to eat Buffy. Then I staked her right and proper. I felt all of the old feelings, while Angelus was asking me to join him. The burning desire to … repeat the mistakes I had made, I could smell the fear coming off the girls. I could taste it in the air. By this time I had not eaten in eight days. I was starving; I could smell their blood calling to me. I wanted it. I wanted their blood to make me whole again. I was in so much pain and so hungry. I felt my demon emerge. I couldn’t have helped it even if I wanted to….walked towards them. I untied them both. Told ‘em to run and took on Angelus. He was furious. He asked me why I let them go. Told him I was no longer the pillock he knew. Told him I had changed. He asked why. Told him I found out I really wanted Buffy, as my mate, my wife, my life, couldn’t do anything to disappoint her. He told me demons couldn’t change. Told him, to late for that cause I had started changing the moment I met Buffy. He said he tried to change too and look where that got him. Dusted for trying to…well you all know what he did. I told him that even though he was forced to change by getting cursed he still made the choice to do what he did. He could have fought against his nature but he chose not to. He asked me how I knew I would never … hurt Buffy. Told him I make choices all the time. I will always choose what is the right thing even if I don’t like it. That is what I learned from Buffy, the love of my entire existence. All of a sudden he changed. Into the demon who placed the trials before me. “Well, well you did much better than I had anticipated, he told me. “I will grant you your soul. He then slammed his hand halfway into my chest. I felt it. I felt my soul return, it hurt and burned. Never felt anything like it. I breathed a sigh of relief. Then I was off on my way home. Took longer than I had anticipated, I was weak and half-starved. Got a little help along the way from a few kind strangers and now I am back.” Spike finished with a weary sigh.

Buffy put her arms around Spike “Thank you, for loving me that much. You are everything I have ever wanted. You are my champion.” Buffy said quietly

“That is quite a tale.” Giles stated.

They were all speechless from Spike’s tale. Suddenly Buffy spoke up. “Spike asked me to marry him earlier today. And of course I said yes.” Buffy looked at spike nervously “And we are gonna…I’m pregnant.”
“What?” Xander shouted
“I thought that was impossible?” Willow asked
“I’m gonna be an Auntie?” Dawn squealed.
“Congratulations Buffy and Spike” Joyce said beaming “I’m gonna be a grandma?”
Giles just sat and took it all in smiling at his Slayer and her Vampire.

“Well you see I did do some research and…” Giles explained all of the details he had found to the assembled group.

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“I am looking for a Mr. Giles” a gorgeous woman with a Jamaican accent said as she entered the library.
“I am Mr. Giles” He said walking towards her.
“I’m Kendra….the Vampire Slayer….”

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To be continued…….