Happy To Bleed For You

(Bpov)

I can't believe it!Did Willow really just yell at me for Faith?!Why is everyone goating over her like she's some great innocent
little girl?!Did they forget that she tried to kill them?...Or maybe they just forgave her...

I sigh dejectedly,I can't come to terms with what I'm feeling regarding Faith.I want so much to tear her apart and watch her in
pain and suffering for what she did to us,to me.And then again as I'm watching her breakdown right before me eyes,I want to be
the one to hold her and whisper comforting nothings into her ear,

What's wrong with me?Is it possible to hate someone and love someone so much at the same time?I don't know what's happening in
side my poor little brain right now...but jee whiz I hate it.My mind and memories keep telling me that Faith is bad,that she's
the reason I get on edge this way.But my heart keeps telling me that Faith has changed,that she's not the person she used to be,
that she deserves a second chance just like everyone else.But then again everyone else hadn't raped her friend,put a knife to her
almost sister,shot an arrow through her lover's chest,joined the world's current greatest evil at the time,and tried to kill her
while she was defenseless now had they? Ah semantics,they suck and I concure.

I guess it's just that noone's ever made me feel this way before.I'm scared,what if I trust her,what if I give her my heart just
to have her break it...again.Again? Well I guess it should be no biggie,I liked her the first time I saw her with out a doubt.
I just can't risk it...besides I've been nothing but a bitch ever since she first stepped foot back in SunnyDale.Heh I've gone so
far as to making Sammy beat me up...

Who is this Sammy person anyways?She just comes out of the blue all high and mighty and Faith friendly.I can tell she's alot more
than she's leading us to believe,but at least she's been honest and supportive so far,excluding the big SpongeBob shaped bruise
on my cheek,damn can the girl pack a punch...Am I jealous of her being with Faith?She's smooth,beautiful,funny,charming,witty,
basically everything Faith digs...and why am I talking to myself so much?

(Npov)

"Buffy?" Willow tried again for the thousandth time in the past two minutes,when Buffy spaced out she really spaced out.

"Huh?" Buffy jumped,being startled.

"Are you coming?" Willow asked.

Buffy noticed that Kennedy was perched on a dresser watching over Faith as she slept quietly,when did she fall asleep? And as for
Sammy,"Where's Sammy?"

Kennedy cleared her throat jerking her head towards the glass doors.Sammy was leaning on the rail,a look between pissed and
genuinely upset on her face. "I don't think you should talk to her right now." she advised.

"Why?"

"Um hello where were you just now Buffy?" Kennedy said sounding exhasperated.

"Out of this world." Buffy grinned sheepishly.

"Obviously." Kennedy snorted rolling her eyes at her. "I think Faith wants to talk to you."

Buffy's heart skipped around a total of nine beats before starting up again,she took in a shaky breath after realizing she had
been holding it in. "I don't want to talk to her." she said sounding a whole lot more bitter and angry than she had intend to. At
her words she heard Faith sigh shakily before sitting up on the bed and standing up to walk over to her side.

"Buffy,"she sounded defeated and broken,something that noone could associate with Faith and was a sure sign the indeed the world
was coming to an end. "I-"

"I don't want to hear it Faith." she cut her off,folding her hands in front of her chest and glaring at her. "I told you that if you ever tried to give me some flimsey apology I would beat you to death."

"Damnit!" Sammy shouted sounding very pissed off and storming into the room with detemination.She stomped her way to Buffy and
only stopped inches from her face. "Why do you keep acting like you're so big or something that everyone has to suck up to?!
What is your problem Buffy,really? You walk around acting like you're all sad and depressed dwelling on how ages ago someone
broke your heart and made you angry. Here Faith is trying to apologize and trying her hardest to kiss your ass and to make things
right between you two. But no,you have to be a bitch and you just won't let it go. I get the feeling that you like seeing Faith
brooding and suffering. If I was her I would have given up the second I walked in through that door. I didn't want to bring this
up but I guess I have to to make you see and get your head out of your ass. Willow here killed a man,and tried to end the entire
world at her dispostion,yet here she is wiping you like some kind of puppy in training. Angel has killed way more people than I
count on my hands and feet,yet there you were trying to kill a slayer for him. Spike,well hell,William The Bloody says it all. And yet again there you were romping in his grave with him...tell me Buffy,what's really your problem with Faith?"

"You want to know what my problem is?" Buffy asked looking at Faith with regret,she couldn't say the truth and what she was bout
to say would undoubtedly tear Faith down and drive her so far away from her side where she truly wanted her,"my problem is her in
general." She said breiefly,no need to rub extra salt in a bleeding wound. The look on Faith's face was heart breaking,it was
unbareable,it felt as if someone were repeatedly stabbing her heart.

Sammy stood still,shell shocked that Buffy had just come clean out and said it like it was no big deal."I-"

"Sam shut up." Faith ordered,to Buffy she said, "Buffy I'm sorry that you feel that way...but I guess it's your place to do what
ever the hell you want...so as soon as this is all settled I'm gone and you won't have to worry about seeing me again." Faith
finished and wiped the tears from her face...she was through trying to suck up and she was through being the weak one for Buffy.
She felt her resolve drop out of her and her stoic little self began resurfacing to them top until she was left standing with her
award winning nastly little smirk. "I"m going to the Bronze." And with that she picked up her clothes and headed for the bathroom
next to them.

Buffy felt her soul crush but it had to be better this way. Her eyes followed Sammy trying to talk to Faith. "Why don't you fuck
off?!" Faith shouted angrily through the door.

Sammy's face fell.She nodded her head and trudged to the little bag on the drawer where Kennedy sat where her belongings were. She quickly grabbed her bag and started for the door. Before leaving however she leaned over and whispered into Buffy's ear.
"You have no idea what you just did."she said sadly before marching out of the room. Seconds later Faith reappeared from the
bathroom waeing her trademark leather pants,black skin tight muscle shirt and her jean jacket. Her brown wavy hair bouncing with
every step she took.

"I'll see you later." she said sounding as emotional as a wall.




"Hey give me a Jack Daniel's straight up." Faith said to the cute bartender,watching very interested as he bent over to retrieve the bottle from the bottom shelf. She smirked lustfully at him,watching him smile back in turn.

"It's on me babe. I'm Scott."

"I'm horny." Faith laughed at Scott,the dude was blushing which was really hot,too bad he was a vampire. "Hey Scott what do you
say you and I go for a little smoke in the ally right quick?"

"I say do you want JD to come along?"

"Heh. Yeah,him and Jose." she referred to the bottle on display.

Scott grinned at her,his green eyes shining,"I'll be out in ten."

Faith turned around in her stool getting to her feet and taking the bottle of Jack Daniel's in her hand,"Jack and I will wait for
you outside."

"You got it babe."

Faith laughed to herself,taking a huge swig from the bottle as she made her way through the sea of bodies that littered the whole
club floor as they danced to Rob Zombie's Living Dead Girl,a personal favorite of her own. She reached the back door and pushed it open feeling a busrt of cool air wash over her hot sweating body. The door closed shut as she leaned against the wall,making
sure that she had a stake tucked into her sleeve before Scott came outside.

(Fpov)
Well here I am again,in the back of some dark ally waiting for smoe guy that's a vamp to come outside and show me a good time. I
hate it how Buffy can get under my skin so easily with just a few simple words. But I guess when those words are true they're
supposed to hurt as bad as they do. What about Sammy? Why did I say that to her,she was just being a good friend,maybe she was
trying to be something more than that. But why shold she,she's a smart beautiful girl who has everything going for her,why should
see like some twenty year old ex convict slash murder? But I feel bad,she looked so sad when I said those words,like the hope of
the world has just commited suicide or something.

"Hey babe,brought Jose." Scott smirked immediately bringing his body flush to mine. He took in a hearty amount of liqiour before
diving into my neck and trailing his tongue lazily down my throat. Stupid vampires always going directly for the throat. But I
didn't mind right now because the drink and him were taking the pain away and just leaving pure raw desire and I couldn't argue
that he was very good with his tongue.

He moved away finishing off the bottle then hastly unzipping his pants and starting for my belt. His big hamds fumbled with my
buckle while he nimbbled on my earlobe. I heard the zip and quickly felt my pants drop to me knees while Scott postioned himself
in front of me.

It was scary how quickly things could change,one mintue I was trying my hardest to set everything staright and trying to fix the
problems I had created,willing to do anything to get the forgiveness I so desperately wanted and craved,willing to do anything
for a second chance. Here I am now,in some dark ally complete alone again about to get fucked by a vampire because I had a little
too much to drink and because Buffy said a few words to me. Why did I care so much what Buffy thought? It's not like she was going to save me from some sick impending doom,she why am I trying so hard to earn her approval...could it be that maybe I love
her?

But that's crazy because I've never loved anyone in my entire life. All my life has been nothing but a roller coaster ride for my
own amusement,after all my motto was get some get gone. All my life I had run away or turned away from everything and everyone. I
never faced anything because I didn't have to,because I could just run. I'm good at running...and fucking things up. But I was
also good at being stubborn and right that showed when I finally overcame the darkness. I had begged Angel to kill me but he did
not. I turned myself in and served some time in jail and while in their I pondered and reflected about everything.

I thought I had built up enough self esteem to come back here and finish the job,but I was obviously wrong because all Buffy had
to do to tear me down was say a few words. I had built everything up to this moment just to have her tear it down so easily.....
I guess maybe I do love her.

"Stop." I say to Scott before he plunges into me. His eyes go wild with anger and hate and he presses my body against the wall a
little harder.

"Come on baby I haven't even gotten started."

"And you're not going to." Buffy;s voice cuts across the ally making him whirl in a frenzy as he tries to button his pants. Guess
I was right because his face turns into the ulgy animalistic form of the vampire and snarls at me.

"You're a slayer."

"Hooray for you smart one." I roll my eyes at him and quickly snap my head up to catch him on the nose which makes him stumble
back in surprise. I quickly tie my pants and remove the stake from my jacket. "Now say good night."

"Goodnight." he laughs before completely disappearing out of thin air. I look around and see nothing but Buffy standing by the
dumpster putting her stake away and smiling at me? Maybe I'm seeing things,I guess Jd and Jose are not a good combination.

"Hey Faith...can I talk to you?" Buffy ask me slowly creeping closer to me.

"Sure," I say finishing the bottle of Jack Daniel's and fetching a ciggerate from my jacket pocket.

"I don't know how to say this to you...but I'm just going to say it...you decide whatever when I'm done okay?"

I can hear the edge to her voice and it makes me drop my cigg,but I don't make a move and just watch Buffy fidget and shift her
balance from one foot to the other.

"Lets try to finish off the first without jumping out to each other's necks. I mean Willow was right no use having more enemies
than nessicary especially not now. But don't think that we're good,because we're far from it and I don't forgive you the in the
slightest bit. I believe you deserve eveything and anything that comes your way and more but I'll put it aside because we have
bigger problems right now." she said coldy and without emotion,each word even and each one stabbing the knife into my gut just a
little bit more.

"Okay." I simply shrug and start heading back into the Bronze wanting to forget the fact that Buffy thought I was nothing but a
waste of space and the biggest filth and vile thing on the world.

"What about Sammy?"

"What about her?" I say flatly trying to hide the fact that I'm actually really worried about her all of a sudden for some weird
unexplainable reason.

Buffy shrugs at me but I can see the she's just a little concerned as well "Well it's not like she knows this place and can just
go crash anywhere like the rest of us."

"You're worried about Sammy B?" I can't hide the bitterness in my voice.

Buffy laughs something unsweet,"Right not with the bruise she gave me." she stares at her feet like their the most interesting
thing on the world, "Well I guess I'll see you at the house."

"Yeah."

I watch her leave waiting until I'm sure she can't see me. I turn away from the Bronze and head in the direction of the cementary
where I'm pretty sure she'll be. Had I known before that I wouldn't see her until after the first was destroyed I wouldn't have
let her go at all...I wouldn't have pushed her away.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Author's Note: Hey people. Okay check it,The rest of the story is going to takeplace after the Season 7 episode Chosen but SunnyD didn't get destroyed and Buffy didn't give her powers to all the potentials and she still hates Faith...or at least it seems that way. All the potentials have left and it's just the original Scooby gang plus Dawn,Kennedy,Faith,and Sammy who will be returning...or will she? Dun,dun,dunnnnnn. Carry on.