So Many Tears
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-Buffy the Vampire Slayer › FemmeSlash - Female/Female › Buffy/Faith
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
12
Views:
3,353
Reviews:
6
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
2
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Title: So many tears 5
Rating: NC-17
Author: justchicky2Bme
Pairing: B/F it’s not possible for me to write any other.
Summary: Buffy and Faith are together, but with love comes pain. I don’t know where the story is set just put it somewhere in there.
Endorse: The show and characters belong to J.W. and M.E. The story however is mine, so if you would like to archive please let me know, my name must be attached.
Feedback: I love feedback, pretty much anything except for really mean stuff.
Notes: Thank you everybody for the feedback. I'm feeling not so good again but this time I'm trying to work through it. Hope ya'll enjoy.
Faith went into a fighting stance as Wood came at her. She blocked a kick and ducked a swipe of the sword as Xander joined in.
‘Stop!’ Buffy yelled pulling the sword out of Xander’s hands and pulling him back. Faith looked over at the blond a second and was caught by Woods fist in her jaw. Her head swung to one side and he kicked her in the ribs. Faith recovered and aimed a kick for his crotch. The man went down in a heap, pain exploding on his face. Faith smirked down at him. Buffy looked at Xander. ‘Take him home.’
‘But Buffy….’
‘This is my problem.’
‘How can you defend her after what she’s done?’ He tried pulling Wood to his feet.
‘Because I love her.’
‘So you’re going to keep letting her walk all over you?’ Wood said between gritted teeth.
‘Get him taken care of.’ She said to Xander. He wrapped Wood’s arm around his shoulder.
‘You deserve better.’ Wood said before they turned and shuffled off into the darkness. Buffy stared after them her back still to Faith. The silence hung in the air thickly.
‘He’s right.’ Faith’s voice echoed in the night. Buffy turned.
‘What?’
‘You deserve so much better than me.’
‘I never wanted anyone else. You were always good enough for me.’
‘I’m not fucking good enough for you Buffy, I never was.’
‘What now you’re getting self righteous?’
‘I’m just telling you the truth.’
‘That would be a first.’ Her eyes glowed less coldly now as she looked at the brunette. ‘Why did this have to happen?’
‘I’m sorry that it did.’ Faith moved up to her girlfriend and put a hand on either side of her head. ‘But it did, and it’s my fault. I think I know what I have to do now.’ Buffy looked at her, eyes red and swelled with tears.
‘How is that going to solve anything?’
‘I don’t know.’
‘I love you so much Faith.’ Now Faith let a few tears fall.
‘I love you more than life. Please believe that.’ She looked down into the blondes eyes. Leaning down she brushed her lips against Buffy’s briefly then rested her forehead on the smaller girls. ‘I never wanted to hurt you.’
‘Then stop.’
‘I’m sorry.’ Faith leaned down and kissed Buffy’s lips softly till the blonde responded and kissed back, parting her lips to let Faith in. The brunette poured every drop of love and passion into the kiss and Buffy could feel it. After a few moments her lips felt the rush of the cold night air and when she opened her eyes Faith was gone.
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I’ve done it I’ve blown it again
Gone and lost my one true friend
If I can’t stop it it’s gonna end
I’ve done it, I’ve blown it again
Daniel Bedingfield – Blown it Again
Buffy walked into the house her head hung low.
‘Buffy?’ Willow voice broke her out of her thoughts. Looking up she saw everyone gathered in the living room.
‘She’s gone.’ Everyone looked at each other.
‘What do you mean?’ Xander asked.
‘She’s gone.’ Buffy said again. ‘Did you take care of Wood?’
‘Yeah but he may never have children.’ Anya elbowed him in the ribs.
‘He’s lucky, she held back.’ Buffy said looking off into the distance.
‘She’s lucky we didn’t kill her.’
‘Xander we only kill demons and vamps, and other creepy things.’ Willow said from the couch.
‘She doesn’t deserve to die.’ Buffy cut in.
‘After what she did to you, I can’t believe you still love her.’
‘You should talk.’ Anya grumbled.
‘You can’t just stop loving someone.’ Buffy’s voice became angry. ‘I’m tired.’ She sighed, and looked at Willow. ‘Will can I talk to you.’
“Of course Buffy.’ She got up quickly glancing at everyone as she followed Buffy up the stairs.
‘Do you think she’s coming back?’ Willow asked when they had gotten to Buffy’s room.
‘I don’t know.’ Buffy hesitated as she walked into the room. Faith was everywhere, a constant reminder. She gulped and sat down on the unmade bed. ‘I need your help with these dreams I’ve been having. They’re of Faith and………’ She closed her eyes and sighed. ‘Can you make them go away.’
‘I’ll see what I can do.’ She sat down next to the blond and hugged her.
‘Thanks.’
‘No thanks needed, that’s what I’m here for.’ Willow smiled at her. ‘You look tired, you should probably get some sleep. Can’t save the world with a tired slayer.’ Buffy gave her a small smile. ‘And tomorrow we’ll see about you’re dreams.’ Buffy nodded as Willow got up and walked out of the room.
Buffy stood up and walked over to the door, and slid down till she sat with her back against the door, her knees hugged against her chest. She could hear the conversation Willow was having with Kennedy. Everyone was worried, a lot had happened to her, they weren’t sure if she could handle it. Of course Willow insisted she could, they had been through worse, everything will be ok. She could hear them retreat to their room. Buffy stared at the unmade bed in front of her. A thousand images and words drifted towards her. She was beginning to drown in the memories of Faith. With a growl of anger and frustration, the blond slayer stood up and walked over to the bed and looked down at it. Buffy could smell her, she could smell both of them. Her hands reached dand and felt the cool fabric, and she closed her eyes, seeing Faith’s deeds performed in her mind. With a howl of rage her fingers grabbed the sheets and ripped them off of the bed, sending them flying back across the room. The bed still reeked of the brunette, Buffy now both hated and loved the scent. She calmed and picked a pillow up off the ground and brought it up to her nose. Breathing in deeply she remembered the good memories she held, trying to force the poisonous images of Faith and the other girls out of her mind. Walking over to the corner of the room she sat, pillow hugged tightly to her chest. The moonlight drifted across the room, and shrouded her in darkness.
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No ones here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
Evenescence – whisper
She watched as the blonde strode down the sidewalk, a little ahead of the group. The three were talking excitedly about something. But they weren’t why she was here. In the sunlight the blond looked like an absolute goddess. Her blond hair flowed behind her in the breeze. She wore a light blue shirt and khaki capris, showing off every curve of her body. Dark sunglasses hid her eyes, hiding all her secrets. She opened the door to the magic shop and allowed her friends in, and hesitated a brief second looking back over her shoulder before walking in.
Faith had walked away from her hoping that the blond could move on. But she herself could not stay away for more than two days before she turned to stalking her former lover. In the past she would have moved on to the next lay without much thought, well usually without any thought at all. But she always acted different with Buffy, the blond had always brought out that hidden little soft side of her. It was getting harder and harder not to walk up to the blond and take her in her arms and carry her away, but she knew it wasn’t time yet. Faith had fucked up royally. Pulling out a cigarette she lit it and took a long drag. Buffy had made them stop when they had gotten together, she said it would kill her. Faith told her she was more likely to be killed but a huge knarly demon than a few cigarettes. Of course then Buffy had made her an offer she couldn’t refuse. So she quite, didn’t even sneak a few when her girlfriend wasn’t around. Well maybe a couple at first. Faith looked down at the cigarette in her hand and flicked it to the ground. She sighed, sat down in her little hiding place and waited for when the blond would come out.
TBC
Rating: NC-17
Author: justchicky2Bme
Pairing: B/F it’s not possible for me to write any other.
Summary: Buffy and Faith are together, but with love comes pain. I don’t know where the story is set just put it somewhere in there.
Endorse: The show and characters belong to J.W. and M.E. The story however is mine, so if you would like to archive please let me know, my name must be attached.
Feedback: I love feedback, pretty much anything except for really mean stuff.
Notes: Thank you everybody for the feedback. I'm feeling not so good again but this time I'm trying to work through it. Hope ya'll enjoy.
Faith went into a fighting stance as Wood came at her. She blocked a kick and ducked a swipe of the sword as Xander joined in.
‘Stop!’ Buffy yelled pulling the sword out of Xander’s hands and pulling him back. Faith looked over at the blond a second and was caught by Woods fist in her jaw. Her head swung to one side and he kicked her in the ribs. Faith recovered and aimed a kick for his crotch. The man went down in a heap, pain exploding on his face. Faith smirked down at him. Buffy looked at Xander. ‘Take him home.’
‘But Buffy….’
‘This is my problem.’
‘How can you defend her after what she’s done?’ He tried pulling Wood to his feet.
‘Because I love her.’
‘So you’re going to keep letting her walk all over you?’ Wood said between gritted teeth.
‘Get him taken care of.’ She said to Xander. He wrapped Wood’s arm around his shoulder.
‘You deserve better.’ Wood said before they turned and shuffled off into the darkness. Buffy stared after them her back still to Faith. The silence hung in the air thickly.
‘He’s right.’ Faith’s voice echoed in the night. Buffy turned.
‘What?’
‘You deserve so much better than me.’
‘I never wanted anyone else. You were always good enough for me.’
‘I’m not fucking good enough for you Buffy, I never was.’
‘What now you’re getting self righteous?’
‘I’m just telling you the truth.’
‘That would be a first.’ Her eyes glowed less coldly now as she looked at the brunette. ‘Why did this have to happen?’
‘I’m sorry that it did.’ Faith moved up to her girlfriend and put a hand on either side of her head. ‘But it did, and it’s my fault. I think I know what I have to do now.’ Buffy looked at her, eyes red and swelled with tears.
‘How is that going to solve anything?’
‘I don’t know.’
‘I love you so much Faith.’ Now Faith let a few tears fall.
‘I love you more than life. Please believe that.’ She looked down into the blondes eyes. Leaning down she brushed her lips against Buffy’s briefly then rested her forehead on the smaller girls. ‘I never wanted to hurt you.’
‘Then stop.’
‘I’m sorry.’ Faith leaned down and kissed Buffy’s lips softly till the blonde responded and kissed back, parting her lips to let Faith in. The brunette poured every drop of love and passion into the kiss and Buffy could feel it. After a few moments her lips felt the rush of the cold night air and when she opened her eyes Faith was gone.
********************
I’ve done it I’ve blown it again
Gone and lost my one true friend
If I can’t stop it it’s gonna end
I’ve done it, I’ve blown it again
Daniel Bedingfield – Blown it Again
Buffy walked into the house her head hung low.
‘Buffy?’ Willow voice broke her out of her thoughts. Looking up she saw everyone gathered in the living room.
‘She’s gone.’ Everyone looked at each other.
‘What do you mean?’ Xander asked.
‘She’s gone.’ Buffy said again. ‘Did you take care of Wood?’
‘Yeah but he may never have children.’ Anya elbowed him in the ribs.
‘He’s lucky, she held back.’ Buffy said looking off into the distance.
‘She’s lucky we didn’t kill her.’
‘Xander we only kill demons and vamps, and other creepy things.’ Willow said from the couch.
‘She doesn’t deserve to die.’ Buffy cut in.
‘After what she did to you, I can’t believe you still love her.’
‘You should talk.’ Anya grumbled.
‘You can’t just stop loving someone.’ Buffy’s voice became angry. ‘I’m tired.’ She sighed, and looked at Willow. ‘Will can I talk to you.’
“Of course Buffy.’ She got up quickly glancing at everyone as she followed Buffy up the stairs.
‘Do you think she’s coming back?’ Willow asked when they had gotten to Buffy’s room.
‘I don’t know.’ Buffy hesitated as she walked into the room. Faith was everywhere, a constant reminder. She gulped and sat down on the unmade bed. ‘I need your help with these dreams I’ve been having. They’re of Faith and………’ She closed her eyes and sighed. ‘Can you make them go away.’
‘I’ll see what I can do.’ She sat down next to the blond and hugged her.
‘Thanks.’
‘No thanks needed, that’s what I’m here for.’ Willow smiled at her. ‘You look tired, you should probably get some sleep. Can’t save the world with a tired slayer.’ Buffy gave her a small smile. ‘And tomorrow we’ll see about you’re dreams.’ Buffy nodded as Willow got up and walked out of the room.
Buffy stood up and walked over to the door, and slid down till she sat with her back against the door, her knees hugged against her chest. She could hear the conversation Willow was having with Kennedy. Everyone was worried, a lot had happened to her, they weren’t sure if she could handle it. Of course Willow insisted she could, they had been through worse, everything will be ok. She could hear them retreat to their room. Buffy stared at the unmade bed in front of her. A thousand images and words drifted towards her. She was beginning to drown in the memories of Faith. With a growl of anger and frustration, the blond slayer stood up and walked over to the bed and looked down at it. Buffy could smell her, she could smell both of them. Her hands reached dand and felt the cool fabric, and she closed her eyes, seeing Faith’s deeds performed in her mind. With a howl of rage her fingers grabbed the sheets and ripped them off of the bed, sending them flying back across the room. The bed still reeked of the brunette, Buffy now both hated and loved the scent. She calmed and picked a pillow up off the ground and brought it up to her nose. Breathing in deeply she remembered the good memories she held, trying to force the poisonous images of Faith and the other girls out of her mind. Walking over to the corner of the room she sat, pillow hugged tightly to her chest. The moonlight drifted across the room, and shrouded her in darkness.
********************
No ones here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
Evenescence – whisper
She watched as the blonde strode down the sidewalk, a little ahead of the group. The three were talking excitedly about something. But they weren’t why she was here. In the sunlight the blond looked like an absolute goddess. Her blond hair flowed behind her in the breeze. She wore a light blue shirt and khaki capris, showing off every curve of her body. Dark sunglasses hid her eyes, hiding all her secrets. She opened the door to the magic shop and allowed her friends in, and hesitated a brief second looking back over her shoulder before walking in.
Faith had walked away from her hoping that the blond could move on. But she herself could not stay away for more than two days before she turned to stalking her former lover. In the past she would have moved on to the next lay without much thought, well usually without any thought at all. But she always acted different with Buffy, the blond had always brought out that hidden little soft side of her. It was getting harder and harder not to walk up to the blond and take her in her arms and carry her away, but she knew it wasn’t time yet. Faith had fucked up royally. Pulling out a cigarette she lit it and took a long drag. Buffy had made them stop when they had gotten together, she said it would kill her. Faith told her she was more likely to be killed but a huge knarly demon than a few cigarettes. Of course then Buffy had made her an offer she couldn’t refuse. So she quite, didn’t even sneak a few when her girlfriend wasn’t around. Well maybe a couple at first. Faith looked down at the cigarette in her hand and flicked it to the ground. She sighed, sat down in her little hiding place and waited for when the blond would come out.
TBC