Helpless

Title: Helpless
Part: 5/?
Author: My Reality Girl aka Jessie
Pairing: W/S
Rating: NC17
Warning: Deals with rape
Disclaimer: Not mine never was - just borrowing them for a while!
Feedback: I live for it! Email me at myrealitygirl@yahoo.com
Note: This is A LOT different from what I normally write - if you think I didn’t’t pull it off let me know! - I set myself a challenge, the question was “why would Spike shave his head?” obviously inspired by James Marsters recent radical new look. I wanted to see if I could write one funny and one sad fic - with that question in mind. Here’s the sad one - anyone else want to give it a try?
Song - If your not the one - by Daniel Bedingfield ( if you’ve never heard this I seriously thing you should check it out!! - a perfect W/S song if ever I heard one)
Website: where all my fic lives! http://www.freewebs.com/myrealitygirl/

Part Five

“Wha..? Spi..? SEDUCE!!” Xander rambled , his eyes wide, his mouth opening and closing like a codfish.

“Uh huh” Willow’s voice was shy, her head lowered, her eyes flicked to Xander’s astounded expression.

“Um Will - SO not sure I’m the right guy to ask?”

“Why not! Your the only one of us in a steady relationship - Buffy’s single, I know she has the hots for that Riley guy but I really don’t see it working out. That leaves Giles, and he’s you know kinda old and I would die of embarrassment just TRYING to ask his advice!”
ay. ay. Not gonna argue with your reasoning there, but I’m hardly Mr-stud-u-like! I’ve had two girlfriends and a one nighter with Faith!” he grinned a little at the memory of that night.

< Score one for the Xand-man, bagged myself a slayer - so she tossed me out STRAIGHT after, still had a SLAYER! >

“So tell me how you and Cordy kept your relationship going. It was hardly based on mutual interests was it?” Leaning forward to listen.

Xander sighed and rubbed a hand across his face. Knowing that his best friend wasn’t going anywhere until he helped.

< I can’t believe I’m trying to fix things so Willow can get with the undead! >

“Well with me and Cordy it just kinda happened. Our first kiss was in Buffy’s basement of all places!”

“What brought it about? You had hated each other from Kindergarten!” a frown on her sweet features.

“Being mean - as usual. We were calling each names and then suddenly it was snog-o-rama! After that, we danced around each other for a while until we realised that maybe there was more than tawdry teen lust involved. You know the rest”

Willow nodded at the memory, knowing she’d played a part in ending their relationship wasn’t her proudest moment, although it wasn’t as if they’d planned any of it.

Spike had kidnapped them, she had thought she was going to die - she just wanted one moment of passion before she died.

All she’d bought about was guilt, pain and a gaping wound in Cordy’s mid-section.

< Funny to think about Spike causing all that? It seems like a lifetime ago >

Xander could see the guilt on Willow’s face and instantly felt ashamed - it wasn’t as if she’d been the only one there!

“Hey - it’s okay - me and Cordy never would have gone the distance anyway. Plus if we’d been together I wouldn’t have had that one nighter with Faith” he waggled his eyebrows as he said the dark haired slayers name - it had the desired effect and Willow laughed.

“Right - So how DID you and Faith hook up? - I know demons were involved again - but how did you end up in bed?”

“She told me to take my pants off and threw me on the bed!” his face quite serious at Willow’s startled expression.

Willow’s eyes went wide “OH! Very romantic - but now your with Anya. You seem happy enough”

Xander smiled at the mention of his girlfriend’s name “We are - but then it was hardly romance city with her. We went to the prom together remember?”

Willow nodded, frowning slightly as she waited for the rest.

“But then ‘Big Snake and ‘world in trouble’ made her run for the hills. When she came back she announced we had a ‘relationship’ - I didn’t think we did so she came over to ‘get me out of her system’ - and said the only way she could was by us having ‘sexual intercourse’ - HEY don’t laugh you know what she’s like! - Anyway as I was SAYING , I wasn’t so sure about that , until she took her clothes off! Told me it was ‘ridiculous to have interlocking bodies and not interlock’ - after that we just kind of stayed together. So there we go my feeble love life. Not very romantic was it?”

Willow laughed outright at her friend’s puppy dog expression.

“You had two girls throw themselves at you and your COMPLAINING! - only you Xand, only you!”

Willow moved from her chair and sat next to him on the couch - feeling the distance would make her next words harder to utter.

“What I mean Xand is….Well - Damn - what do you find sexually arousing? - I mean would you like to be seduced?” biting her lip she waited for the answers - but the boy didn’t get to say anything.

A loud “EEEK!” came from the stairs - the friends turned and saw a wide eyes Anya standing there “I knew it! Your at it again! Keep your paws off my Xander!” the ex-demon cried, stomping down the stairs towards them.

Willow rolled her eyes “Hello - have Spike now!” - she turned to Xander for support but he was grinning at his girlfriend - when she got close enough he reached out and tugged her into his lap, placing a finger against her lips he stared into her angry eyes and whispered.

“We’re not up to anything Anya. Willow needs some adv ice about snagging Spike”

Anya took a moment to digest the information - then mumbling around Xander’s finger she muttered.

“Xander move your finger, it smells of fruit rollups! - Thank you - now Willow you need advice on how to ‘snag’ Spike? I thought you already had him! Xander told me all about the hot and heavy kiss he witnessed”

Willow nodded, a blush creeping up her cheeks as she whispered “I know we do - with the kissing. But nothing else!”

“You’ve been together a while now though! Is it that you don’t find him desirable - sexually?”

“Of course I do! I’m not blind Anya!”

“Of course - stupid question really. He is rather drool some isn’t he? - Oh stop pouting Xander and go and get me an Willow some beverages, this could take a while”

Xander did as he was told - shooting Willow an apologetic look as he left her with the formidable Anya.

“Okay - you want him, he wants you - what’s the problem?” Anya demanded.

Willow didn’t know how to answer - looking everywhere but at Anya she whispered “I’ve never…”

“Your not a virgin Willow - I can sense these things.” The ex-demon was curious as to why Willow ducked her head and looked suddenly so sad - then an awful thought struck her and she asked softly.

“Willow - you’ve never made love but you NOT a virgin. Oh NO! I’m not going to say the word it is too awful to think of that happening to you. I now understand why Xander has always been so protective of you. He knows doesn’t he? - Yes of course he knows he’s your best friend - but I feel that Buffy doesn’t - right we can work though this okay”

Willow nodded - her eyes filled with tears at the girls no nonsense approach to life - and she was still so new to it too.

“Willow - your leaking! I mean crying. Please stop because I have an odd feeling in my chest, which I think, could be compassion. Right, now. How to seduce a vampire”

Willow suddenly hugged a very surprised Anya.

“You’re a good friend - and a great girlfriend to Xander. I thought I should tell you that, seeing as it doesn’t get mentioned enough”

Xander came back at that moment and saw the girls hugging - he smiled then frowned.

“Hey! No starting without me!”

Anya pulled back and patted the seat next to her - Xander grinned and lifting her he sat with her in his lap “That’s better, we may need your input on this Xander” Anya explained.

Frowning he asked “Why - not like I wanna a learn how to seduce Spike!”

“Honey you’re a man remember - we need your perspective on this. Now a vampire’s main ’thing’ in the seduction stakes - pardon the pun - is biting”

Willow’s eyes went wide and she gulped “biting?”

Xander looked at his girlfriend and asked seriously “Just how do you know so much about this?”

She did at least have the courtesy to blush before she told him “Well I did run with Dracula for a hundred years or so - he was very informative”

“Enough information! - back to Willow” Xander said quickly - trying to get the images of Anya and Dracula out of his mind.

< Damn him! Mast… DRACULA gets all the chicks! >

“As I was saying - if it was a one off thing they would normally enthral, bite, shag and then feed. Kind of their equivalent to a one-night stand. But seeing as you and Spike are in a relationship he wouldn’t bite to feed, just to claim” Anya explained to the wide-eyed teens.

“Claim?” Xander asked, almost afraid to of fear of what else she might reveal.

“Yes - normally the top of the breast or in some cases the thigh - hardly ever the neck - they only do that if they are worried you’ll stray. It does depend on the vamp really and how possessive and confident in your affection he is”

“BREAST! EWW and OWW - I’m really not sure about this anymore!” the red head was getting more worried by the moment.

She looked at Anya and explained “I want to seduce him Anya - you know soft lighting, music, bubble bath, maybe a meal! - this is getting a lot more involved and complicated than I thought”

Anya thought for a moment then grinned “If you want simple - why not just jump his undead bones!”

Xander shook his head “It won’t work - Willows um kinda shy”

His eyes telling his friend that he wouldn’t tell his friends secret - ever.

“She kind of knows Xander - she figured it out”

Anya nodded “Yes. I am very astute. Now we need a way where your not threatened but still get the big orgasms! - Time to put our heads together I think. If this is a one time thing you’ll have to let him know - for some vampires when and if they claim a mate can take eons, with Spike I think he would have to really love the person he was going to do it too”

“I understand - I want him forever. Think that will be committed enough?”

Anya nodded and began thinking over what Spike and Willow would enjoy.

For the next three hours Willow, Anya and Xander plotted, planned and connived the perfect way for Willow and Spike to be together - in a way that wouldn’t involve Willow tying him up ( Anya’s idea) or knocking him out first ( Xander’s), just a nice sweet seduction scene that they would both enjoy and not be threatened by.

Which is why Spike found himself two days later slamming into Willows house, almost howling in fury!

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Willow heard the front door open - and took a deep breath.

< It’s now or never Willow , You can do this. Just remember what Anya told you and enjoy >

“Red? You home pet?” Spike shouted form the hallway.

“Upstairs - could you come up here for a moment!” Willow called back.

Taking a deep breath again as she heard his heavy boots thud up the stairs - she could hear him grumbling all the while.

“Bloody stupid Slayer! Kept me out for nearly THREE hours - told her there was no such thing a s a vampire army - but does she believe me NO! - THREE HOURS IN A BLOODY COLD TUNNEL! I could have been here with …..You?”

The last word was whispered as he opened the door of Willows room and caught sight of the scene before him.

Candles littered every surface, soft music played in the background - the soft scent of jasmine tickled his senses, but it was the shy girl standing before him that made his long dead heart jump.

“Willow?” he asked - not sure if the girl before him was real or not - she looked so beautiful. An ethereal light seemed to shine from within her.

Her glorious red hair fell in soft curls around her pixie face, bright green eyes made up with a light hand, soft lips with the barest smudge of gloss.

Her outfit was courtesy of Anya (as was the new hair do’) a pair of short green satin boxers that hit at mid thigh and a lace up top. The ribbons had been a nightmare to get straight. Spaghetti straps showed off her creamy skin to the vamp’s astonished gaze.

“Hi Spike” her voice low and slightly breathless - anticipation dancing in her stomach as she saw the fire flash in his eyes at her ‘new look’.

Spike ked ked a few times - his brain telling his that this was happening, it wasn’t one of his more vivid erotic dreams.

“Are you gonna come in?” Willow asked softly.

< Please come in Spike - don’t make me think I’m wrong about this - wrong about us >

Nodding dumbly he crossed to her, dropping his duster as he did, standing before her in suddenly too tight jeans,

< Well they weren’t a minute ago - BLIMEY she’s gorgeous - always knew she was pretty but WOW >

And his, every present, black t-shirt.

Grinning suddenly he pulled his shirt over his head, dropping it at his feet - revealing his pale washboard stomach to her startled gaze.

“Spike?”

“Little bit over dressed. You look beautiful Pet” his fingers cupping jaw jaw, he kissed her softly.

“Thank you - um hold on a moment would you?” She asked, stepping out of his light embrace she turned to the C.D player and after pushing a few buttons a soft beat filled the air.

< Got to do this right - okay candles, CHECK - music, Check - extremely hot and half-naked vampire, EEP! And CHECK >

As the first few lines of the song was sung Spike bowed a little and asked “Dance with me?”

Willow nodded, stepping into his arms once more she sighed - the words and heavy beat washing through her.

{ If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't it, it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms.}


As the songs began to bleed in to each other Spike pulled back and looked down at the young girl in his arms - a slight smile on his face as he asked a question that had been buzzing around his brain.

“Did Buffy know about all this?”

Willow nodded, then moaned as his head dipped capturing her lips, his tongue sweeping inside elicited a moan of pleasure from the young witch.

“Remind me to thank the Slayer” he grinned.

Spike groaned at the noises Willow was making, feeling himself harden at her eager response to him.

Willow pressed herself harder against Spike - a feeling she had never experienced before began to seep up her spine, as she pressed against Spike she felt ‘something’ nudge her in the tummy, her eyes flew open as she realised just what it was she was feeling against her.

< Oh My GOD! - He’s…. okay…..WOW he feels kinda big! >

Spike ran his hands lightly down her back - the satin cool and slick beneath his touch - his hands dropped to her bum, pulling her even closer.

Willow leant back and looked up at him shyly - her eyes dipped to where their bodies were touching and she smiled a little, her eyes darting back to his as he said softly “Think we’re ready for this Pet?”

Spike’s voice was hesitant as his own fears crashed in on him. What if he couldn’t do this? Oh he wanted too - make no mistake about that, and physically he was fine.

It was his mind, his memories.

He tried not to let Willow know how badly the attack had left him - but inside his head it was as if he was still crying in the darkness.

Truth to be told he didn’t feel very masculine any more.

He’d let four - count them FOUR - men attack and violate him in the most heinous way possible - and he hadn’t had any means of escape.

He’d tried - he’d clawed and screamed, kicked and shouted - but no one heard, no one came.

No one had saved him.

Looking down at the young girl in his arms he realised with a start - SHE HAD!

He had instinctively run to the one person who would help.

She’d taken him in, cleaned him up, and held him through his nightmares, even though in doing so she had reawakened her own long buried memories.

He wished that someone, anyone, had done that for her had been there for her.

She’d been alone - scared.

A vision of her huddled dazed and in pain in the bathtub rose before him. Her small hands holding a gun, made him feel sick - she could so easily have turned that on herself, in her fragile and abused ridden state of mind.

Willow had killed his attackers - sent their demonic hides screaming in the very bowels of hell.

Willow’s attacker still walked the streets, he may still even see her, pass her on the street everyday and know he was the her ‘first’ know he’d taken her in fear and the barstard had enjoyed it!

Willow would never have justice, never have any vindication for the crime committed againsr - r - but now she stood before him offering only love - and Spike was scared.

Willow’s eyes grew sad - sad that she’d been wrong.

Spike was looking at her with such pity and compassion that her heart ached.

< He doesn’t want me. Should have known. Damaged goods. Got to get away, let him know I understand - he loves me I know that but he’ll never be able ee pee past what happened. > Her mind screamed. All coherent thoughts had fled, leaving only hate and self-loathing behind.

< He pity’s me! Poor Willow so desperate for love she’ll throw herself at the first guy who she thinks understands >

“Willow?” Spike’s worried voice trickled through her sub-conscious.

She looked up at him and heard him moan.

She didn’t know it, but her face was a picture of doubt, despair and rejection.

< YOU DAMN IDIOT! SHE THINKS YOU DON’T WANT HER! > Spike looked around the room noting how much time and effort she’d taken so everything was perfect - how she looked SO perfect.

Spike didn’t know how to reassure her - so he told her the only words that came to mind.

“I love you” - simple, real and true.

Leaning down he captured her lips in a searing kiss - Willow moaned, trying to pull him closer - afraid he’d leave.

Her lips parted and Spike thrust his tongue inside, exploring her mouth, teeth and tongue gently.

Willow pulled away while she still had rational thought and gazed up at him her tone suddenly serious.

“I love you too, but I understand if this isn’t what you really want from me. My past kinda took certain things away - I wished and wanted so much that the first time I ‘made love’ it was WITH the person I loved. I wish I was …. Was….” her voice disappeared, and pulling away she sat on the edge of the bed - her eyes sad as she looked at the floor.

“Pure for you” the words - spoken so softly nearly didn’t reach his ears - but when they did he never knew they could cause such emotion within him.

He was at her side in a moment “You are the most pure, sweet, honest, gorgeous and sexy person I know - Willow look at me? I love you, all of you. I think that since I found out what you went through I’ve loved you even more - It showed me how strong you were, how much of a survivor you ARE”

Willow smiled “So you do want this?”

“Oh god YES” his eyes travelling over her sweet form.

Smiling she stole a kiss - sweet and innocent until her growing passion took over - kneeling up on the bed she tugged Spike so he faced her - kissing him again and again.

Sending up a silent prayer to the goddess of strength she ran her nails lightly down his bare back.

She felt Spike shudder - his hands moved to her butt, pulling her against his aroused state - he heard her purr low in her throat and smiled against her lips.

Pulling away he took in her flushed face and lust filled eyes.

Raising suddenly shaking fingers he went to pull gently at the ribbons running down the front of her top - he kept his eyes on her and waited for her to nod of agreement before going any further.

Willow bit her lip and nodded - looking down she watched his pale hands carefully untie each ribbon.

When they hung loose and undone he slid his cool skin against her own - her back arched in to his palm, moaning softly as his thumbs stoke slowly across each taut nipple.

The feel of her soft skin against his almost unmanned Spike - she felt like feathers, soft and silky.

He drew in an unneeded breath as she bowed towards him - his hands now completely filled by her flesh, looking down he marvelled at the paleness of her skin - creamy white against his unnatural pallor.

“Willow” he moaned as her own hands covered his - holding him too her.

“Can I taste you Love?” he whispered, her eyes opened and she nodded - thoughts flying through her mind at the expression of need she saw in his crystalline gaze.

Spike bent and slowly, so slowly , he brushed his lips across her heated skin.

Willow made a small cry of need at the contact - wanting more, needing more - she laced her fingers behind his head and drew him closer to her.

Spike nibbled and lapped at her skin - avoiding the swollen bud for the moment, until he could wait no more - drawing it into his mouth Willow cried out. Holding him tighter and whimpering at the gentleness of his movements.

“Spike!” she moaned - her body shaking as she felt him nip and suckle at her breast, his hand teasing the other.

Pulling him back to her mouth her lips clashed with his, her body on fire as his hands drew the silky material away.

Spike smiled “You taste like honey” he whispered, pulling her gently so they lay side by side - his hands moving over her - leaving no part of her body untouched, apart from the place where she burned the most.

“Spike?”

“Yes Sweetheart?”

“I wanna see you - all of you” amazed that she’d said the words aloud a blush crept slowly over her skin.

“Okay” he laughed - loving the way her body had reddened from her words.

Standing quickly he almost tore the denim from his body - standing naked by the bed for a moment he watched her watch him - her eyes travelling over his face, chest and then down, down to where his desire for her was most evident.

Holding out a hand Willow waited as his large fingers closed around hers and he joined her again, burying her head in his shoulder she whispered “Your very pretty”

Spike growled “Pretty! Hey ‘Big Bad’ here Pet! Not meant to call me pretty”

Willow giggled “Sorry - but you are - all of you is” her hands slow at first then building in confidence began a slow tortuous journey over his skin.

“Your not cold - kinda tepid?”

“Thought I was hot stuff Red” he groaned as her small hand travelled down his chest .

“Oh you defiantly that too” her voice low as she shyly touched his length - causing him to jump slightly at the contact - suddenly her hand was gone and she was looking at him with surprised eyes.

“I hurt you?”

“In the BEST way - I liked it” he reassured, taking her hand in his own he guided her back to him again.

Willow’s fingers grew bolder as she slid her fingers across his satiny skin - the contrast amazed her - soft yet hard, silky but iron at the core.

“Wow” she smiled as she saw his eyes roll back from her light caresses.

“Took the words out of my mouth Pet”

Willow caressed him for a few long moments until Spike touched her hands - stopping her exploration.

“Keep that up Pet and the moment will have come and gone” his voice tight with need.
Willow frowned, then realising what he meant burst into peals of giggles. Falling back along side him on the bed - her laughter died in her throat though as Spike propped himself up to look at her, his eyes heated with desire.
“Can I see you Willow?”
Willow bit her lip and went to stand only for Spike to shake his head - “Let me”
Crawling to the end of the bed he ran his hands up her legs - his fingers slipping under the silk on her thighs.
Catching Willows eye he saw her nod, taking care not to frighten her , he slowly pulled her boxers down and away - leaving her gloriously naked to his gaze.
Spike grinned at her suddenly and cocked his head in a thoughtful kind of way.
“Spike?” her voice low - breathless at his look.
“Just wondering if you’ll taste as good everywhere?”
Willow’s eyes went wide at his words “You want to….?”
Nodding “Uh huh - only if you want me to though pet”
“Okay” her answer a breathy sigh as she felt his lips begin to plant feather light kisses up her legs - crawling towards her he parted his thighs gently, not missing an inch of her skin on his quest for gold.

Willow told herself to relax as he came nearer and nearer to his ultimate destination.
“Ready Willow?” the use of her name at that moment wasn’t missed by her - letting her know he wanted no-one else.
“Think so”

Spike smiled at how low her voice had become, desire clouding her brain. He could smell her arousal - it hung thick and sweet in the air - could see her gleaming before him, and knowing he had to go slow - ran a solitary finger along her slit.

Willow sighed at the contact - the feeling of him touching her ‘THERE’ was heavenly.

< OH GODDESS! NICE! MORE THAN NICE! >
Completely against her control her hips bucked up - dipping a little deeper , Spike couldn’t help the smile that spread across his face as he heard her say his name on a moan.

Swiftly setting a rhythm of soft kisses and swirling touches Willow soon lay panting beneath him.
“Spike!” she cried - her hands gripping the sheet for purchase.

“Yes Pet?” - kissing around her mound - never making contact until she asked.

“Please! I need… I need..!”

“Yes? - say the words Willow” he breathed against her skin.’

“You!”

“Here I come pet - gotta see if taste as sweet as you look” and with that his tongue replaced his finger for the swipe along her slit. Spike was in heaven, her flavour exploding in his mouth as her cries echoed in his ears.

“Oh - OH!”

Lapping between her folds Spike knew= she was nearly at the edge of reason.

Two of his long fingers slid inside her, pumping her body slowly - she was tight and Spike wanted her to feel no discomfort when it came for her to take him inside.

As he latched on to her clit a third finger joined the others, sensations flooding her senses as her back bowed at the intrusion and first sign of orgasm.

Careful not to dislodge his fingers, Spike replaced his tongue with his thumb - keeping firm pressure against her swollen nub, building momentum, he moved up her body to watch her face as she ‘came’ for the first time.

His fingers becoming more frenzied, his thumb rubbing her from side-to-side - pushing her ever nearer to delirium.

Willows eyes snapped open and saw him watching her “Spike! Oh - MY - GOD! Oh Spike I don’t know what to do!” she moaned, her hips moving like pistons against his clever hand.

Leaning down he kissed her soundly and whispering into her drugged eyes he pleaded “Come for me Willow”

The words had barely past his lips when she came, her body jerking, her hips bucking trying to continue the feeling forever - her head thrashing on the pillow, making her hair move like liquid flame.

Holding her small shaking frame tight, Spike felt the little aftershocks course though her - his fingers hadn’t left their home but now they were coated in her essence. Moving them idly he waited until her mind returned to him.

Green eyes opened lazily - pure happiness spreading across her face.

“WOW!”

“Like that Red?”

“GOD YES!” her voice little more than a sigh.

“Think your ready for some more?” he asked, kissing her slowly - knowing that she could taste herself on his lips, enjoying her little gasp as she realised what the new taste was.

Willow smiled and pretending to t abo about his offer got a very sour look.

“Think I could stand it” then squeaked as he flipped her on her side - her eyes quizzical as he grinned “Stand it? - trust me pet gonna make you feel SO good”

“Oh” then frowning as he guided her leg over his, cupping his hand behind her bended knee - Willow raised her eyebrows at the odd position.

“Don’t want you feel smothered pet - trapped ya know. This way we can go real slow - wanna be real slow with you Red” moving a hand between their bodies he touched her lightly.

“OH!” Willows head fell back as she realised what he meant - her body responding to his gentle touch, sparking flames in her stomach.

When he was sure she was ready, he took his length in his hand - stoking her sweetness over him he guided his throbbing shaft home.

Willow’s eyes snapped open as he entered her slowly, he was thicker than his fingers had been, longer too. Shifting slightly she hooked her leg behind his butt giving him deeper access - a low growl emitting from as he slid in.

They both paused - savouring the moment.

Rocking gently he started an agonisingly slow pace - Willow unsure of what to do undulated her hips, freezing as he moaned as if in pain - she grinned happily as she heard him whisper “Do it AGAIN!”

Together they moved as one - both of them lost in the sensations the other was creating. All previous sexual encounters fleeing from their minds - replaced with a sense of passion and love rather than possession and fear.

Willow ran her small hands over his back, her fingers erasing any memories of other, larger hands had made. Her hands moved and caressed his butt - digging gently in to the firm globes of flesh - Spike almost whimpered with pleasure - the feelings she was creating was so different than the ‘other’ hands that had grabbed and tortured him.

Spike mind was soon on more pressing matters, he could feel his balls tightening, a sweet pressure building at the base of his spine as ‘HIS’ Red rocked harder against him. Knowing he was on the brink he slipped a hand between them pushing her over the edge.

He heard her cry as her body tightened almost painfully around him, thrusting into her once more he almost howled as he came - his demon roaring for him to claim her but Spike pushed it away, fighting to not let his demon show and in turn scare the girl.

Willow’s body seemed to be on a loop of feelings, the pleasure of her orgasm coupled with the delight she felt at the joy on Spike’s face as he felt release with her, the feel of his body against hers - cooling her heated flesh.

A long time later - when Willow was sure her bones had formed again - she looked over at Spike’s peaceful features “Thank you”

“For what pet?” he frowned - fighting sleep.

“For making me feel loved - completely”

“Right back at ya Red - mind if I stay where I am?” rocking his hips so she knew what he was referring to - he was still buried deep inside her, and even in a semi-flaccid state Willow moaned at the sensation.

“OH - uh huh like you there, feels all…. Sexy” blushing as he rocked again, watching her as she moaned again.

“Always wanna sleep like this” Spike purred, running a hand through her tangled curls.

“Always?” her voice a little breathless.

“Yup - I’m not going anywhere. You?”

“Not going anywhere without you.” her eyes fluttered closed “Love you Spike”

“Love you too Red - sweet dreams and I’ll wake you up in a real sweet way in the morning”

Willow never heard his softly spoken words, she was already sound asleep - leaving a very happy and newly horny vampire to wait out the night, Warm inside her tight body - thinking of the many ways he could wake up his girl in the morning, a sexy smile on his face as he too finally drifted into slumber.

TBC