Nusac

A/N Song in this one is Lillian by +44. http://youtube.com/watch?v=zSEitDRtmj8

Chapter 41
Faith’s POV

My eyes open slowly as I feel Namine get out of bed. My body objects to the cold as I throw off the covers and step out of the bed.

Sneaking up behind her I snake my arms around Nam’s waist, she leans back into the embrace as I enjoy the body heat she is giving off, taking the chill out of my body.

“Come back to bed.” I say into her ear quietly.

I can hear her smile as she exhales.

“It’s cold.” I say trying to pull her back towards the bed.

“Then get dressed.” She says turning and giving me a kiss on the forehead.

I groan in response to her statement before smiling at her actions. After some more coaxing I do finally get dressed and walk up the stairs to grab some food more than anything.

“Hey Dawn.” I say sitting down at the table and pouring myself a bowl of cereal.

As usual I get no response. Luckily for me Buffy chooses that moment to come into the room and break the tension… yeah right.

“Dawnie, since school is still out you can come to the magic box and help us research.” She says as she makes her way over to the coffee machine.

Dawn huffs a response. “Oh come on B, girl gets a couple days off school to chill and you got her workin’?”

And for my trouble… “That is no concern of yours Faith.” Snapidy snap, Buffy summers winner of the crab award.

“Whatever.” I reply as I finish off my cereal. I as feel Buffys eyes bore into the back of my head. What the hell is that bitches problem! It’s not like I outed her big secret.

“Come on Dawn, go get dressed.” Buffy orders before leaving the room.

“I hate walking in on that.” Willow murmurs to Tara as she walks past me.

Turning my head to look at her I go to respond in a rather Buffy like manner before I realise that Red hasn’t actually said anything bad about me or Nam since the whole realisation about magic thing. “You guys need some help researching?” I ask.

Willow looks kinda dumbstruck, yeah I am being nice. “Yeah, if you don’t mind, it might help.” She says in an uncertain voice.

I don’t have to justify myself to her. “Well what the hell else am I gonna do?” I said don’t have to not that I wouldn’t.

“Cool, well we’re leaving now so come on over when you’re ready.” She replies before leaving with Tara out the door.

After pouring myself a large glass of orange juice and downing it in one I go for a shower then get dressed. I find Nam and Pike watching TV in the living room.

“You guys coming?” I ask grabbing my coat off the hook.

Pike looks at me then the TV. “Why not? It’s all Oprah and Springer.” A minute or two later we are out of the door, walking to the magic box.

“Hey Pike.” Xander greets from the large book laden table. Him and Pike do get along rather well. Maybe Pike is my Xander?

“Okay G-man where do ya want me?” I ask turning to Giles.

Giles tears his eyes away from the book he was reading, pulls his glasses down his nose and gestures to a pile of books. “We haven’t started on those yet.”

I nod and go pick up a book. “Any Latin?” Nam asks quietly. I look through the pile and pull out one mother of a hardback. I hand it to her so she takes it and sits down.

“Any comics?” Pike asks me with a smirk. I pick up the book on the top of the pile and leaf through it. I hand it over, open to a page with a rather disgusting picture of some demon eating the fresh intestines of a virgin.

“This one has pictures.” I say smiling sweetly.

“Yay, Fun.” Pike replies before finding a chair of his own.

I look through the books still on offer. The one with the white cover looks nice, I take the book over to the table and set it down before seating myself.

Although I don’t often read I find myself getting engrossed in this book, leaning back on my chair I rest my feet on the table leaning the open book in my lap.

“Do we have anything yet, any hints on what to be looking for?” I ask before I start to read again.

“Musical causing demons.” Buffy snaps at me. Well duh?

“Anything else?” I ask everyone.

Buffy huffs, slams her book down on the table and stand up all in one swift movement. “If we knew anything else then I would have found this thing and killed it by now!”

This time I cant help but retaliate. I copy her movements, slamming my book down and standing up. “What the hell is your problem?”

“You’re my effing problem, you come back to town as if nothing happened. Has your stupid brain forgot you tried to kill everyone in this room?”

“And you’re so innocent, my stupid brain happens to remember you being much more successful at killing your friends.” I shoot back.

“You were never my friend.”

I laugh out loud. “So it’s okay to stab people, as long as they aren’t your friends?”

“You deserved it!” Buffy shouts at me. The whole room takes in a gasp of surprise. I feel as if I have been punched in the stomach, all the air has been knocked out of me.

“Buffy!” Tara, Willow, Xander and even Giles chastise her.

“What the hell?” Buffy says to the room. “Right yeah, poor little murdering Faith, forgive her Buffy!” She pauses. “All you guys are retards, do you not remember who she is?” Buffy asks pointing at me. I still haven’t moved.

The room is silent except for the music. I look around at the room trying to figure out who is going to be singing. I see everyone else looking around in a similar way. My head drops as realisation strikes.

The instrumental seems to take an age, but finally the words come, flowing out of my mouth gently at first.

“The place I used to live made me feel like a tourist, I couldn’t co exist with the cold and suspicious,” I say motioning around the room to the scoobies, my hand finally rests pointing at Buffy.

“When the last remaining light, was starting to filter, it seemed the perfect time, to step into the future.” I hardly get to take a breath as the drumbeat kicks in and the tempo shifts up a gear.


”Your heart is a grave to be perfectly honest,” I walk closer to Buffy as I sing, taking slow, long strides. “Your mouth’s a smoking gun,” Stepping right up to her I sing, my face inches from hers, my brown eyes looking into green pools.

“And you smiled while you twisted a knife in my stomach ‘til everything is gone,” I sing with venom in my voice as I make the action of twisting a knife in her stomach.

”Take all you can from me,” My head is still close to hers.

”I’ve got weak constitution, I’m lead so easily, so easily.” As the last two words leave my mouth I step back from the blonde.

The next verse kicks in as I very slowly walk away from Buffy. “I left it all behind, in the dead of last winter, I left it all behind, but the question still lingers,”

Standing between Namine and Pike I look over at the scoobies. ”So long forgotten friends, no you don’t know the difference, between love and submission, and I’m not that obedient.

I run towards Buffy, she doesn’t move just backs away slowly until the backs of her knees hit her chair, she falls down sitting on it. I bring my leg up so my right foot is resting on the chair between Buffys legs, I lean in and sing right in her face again. ”Your heart is a grave to be perfectly honest, your mouth’s a smoking gun,”

“And you smiled while you twisted a knife in my stomach ‘til everything is gone,” As I spit out the work ‘smiled’ I push the chair with all my might, it slides across the floor at great speed before crashing and breaking against the wall with Buffy still in it.

I find my arms splay out as I turn once on the spot. ”Take all you can from me, I’ve got weak constitution, I’m lead so easily, so easily.”

I walk around the room as another instrumental kicks in. I watch as Buffy gets up off the floor and dusts herself off, I expect her to come at me but she doesn’t. She stares at me, we circle each other from a distance.

Namine comes to stand by me, my arm rests around her shoulder, and she rests her head on me. ”And she’s trying to sleep it off with her head on my shoulder,” I sing motioning down at her with a small nod of the head.

“And I’m trying to keep it out, of my thoughts when I hold her.” Again mine and Buffys eyes lock as I sing that line.

Before I know what is happening Pike has joined in. I start to sing the line. “Take all you can from me…” Pike starts singing another line as I sing the word ‘you’.

Pike sings. “And she’s trying to sleep it off with her head on her shoulder…”

I wait for Pike to finish his line before I sing another. ”I’m lead so, easily” As I sing the word ‘so’ Pike again overlaps me.

“And she’s trying to keep it out, of her thoughts when she holds her.” I see Pike stand back again; I assume this means he is finished joining in.


“Your heart is a grave to be perfectly honest, your mouth’s a smoking gun, and you smiled while you twisted a knife in my stomach ‘til everything is gone, take all you can from me, I’ve got weak constitution, I’m lead so easily, so easily.” The last chorus comes out of me. Me and Buffy are still circling each other slowly as I sing, both two sets of eyes locked in hate.