Spike's wish
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BtVS AU/AR › Het - Male/Female › Buffy/Spike(William)
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
13
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3,843
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4
Recommended:
1
Currently Reading:
6
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Revealing Spike's secret
Chapter 4
Revealing Spike’s secret
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“Do what Spike?” Buffy asked with dread filling her heart.
“No” She screamed as she woke up. Buffy started crying. “Just a dream? It felt so real……” She said to herself, as Joyce rushed into her room.
“You ok Buffy? What happened?” Joyce asked
“Sorry mom didn’t mean to scare you. I just had a dream that Spike was back and… he obviously isn’t. I just miss him so much.” Buffy said as tears started rolling down her face.
“Shhh honey, It’ll be ok. If it’s meant to be he will be back.” Joyce soothed Buffy’s fears.
Soon she was asleep. Buffy slept the rest of the night peacefully.
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“Giles?” Buffy called as she walked into the library.
“Oh Buffy, nice to see you so bright and early, I don’t usually see you until after lunch. So what has happened then?” Giles questioned.
“Well… I do have something on my mind…but I don’t think you’re gonna like it.” Buffy sighed “I’m pregnant.”
“Oh Buffy! We can find a good home or I suppose you could get an abortion?” Giles said furiously polishing his glasses.
“Um…no! I am gonna keep this baby Giles.”
“What? Buffy how could you possibly?”
“It’s Spike’s” Buffy interrupted
“But! That’s impossible Spike’s a”
“Vampire? Sterile? Not here? Yeah I know but Giles this could be my only chance…I don’t want to give up on that.”
“But Buffy you are still in high school!”
“Yeah for another two months Giles then I graduate….Giles how did this happen?” She questioned. “Not the sex part, the vampire part. I just don’t understand?”
“Well I will hit the books, you run along to class and come back after school ok? I should have something by then.” Giles said.
“Ok. See you later.”
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After school Buffy walked into the library with Willow, whom by now knew all there was to tell.
“Buffy, you will not believe what I have found on your condition, it seems there was another Slayer who had a child fathered by a vampire, Yes here it is, Nikki Wood. In 1973, she gave birth to a son, His name is Robin, and there are other instances of slayers having children though no others I have found became pregnant by vampires. They were all very young when they got pregnant. And most died very young, Except Nikki. It is extraordinary. She and this vampire Claude were very much in love. Alas there is not a happy ending. Nikki was killed for a few moments, but brought back to life.”
“How did she die?” Buffy asked
“She had drowned. Anyhow it seems there was another Slayer called, and She ended up killing Claude. She did not know Nikki and Claude were in love. I need to do more research on this Buffy I will call you ok?” Giles asked
“Yes of course Giles.”
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“Hey Willy”
“Slayer, how are you today?” Willy asked nervously.
“I’m looking for Spike you haven’t seen him have you?” Buffy questioned
“No sorry to say I haven’t”
“Ok well thanks.” She said as she left. Buffy trudged home sadly. She didn’t see the beautiful girl following her.
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“Mom? I’m home.”
“Hi Buffy, something came for you today, it’s by the phone.” Joyce shouted from the kitchen.
Buffy picked up the letter and her heart started pounding furiously in her chest. She looked at the writing on the envelope, it was written in old-fashioned Victorian handwriting. Although it looked shaky, like someone who was greatly upset or hurt had written it. Quickly she checked the postmark. Africa? AFRICA? Buffy tore open the letter and pulled out the sheet of paper that was carefully folded inside.
The writing on the inside was a lot shakier than the address part of the envelope. She started reading. Buffy, sorry I couldn’t get back as quick as I promised, couldn’t be helped. I am still dealing with a few things. I will be home soon. I love you. Yours always Spike.
Buffy put the letter back into the envelope. She went upstairs and Called Willow to let her know.
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“Hello” Giles said as he picked up the phone
“Giles, it’s me.”
“Buffy? I have been trying to reach you for over an hour!” Giles scolded
“Sorry I was talking to Willow. Spike sent me a letter. He is in Africa Giles! What the hell is he doing there when I need him here with me?” She asked sadly.
“I don’t know Buffy. You love him that much?” Giles questioned
“Yes Giles I do.” Buffy replied
“Well I was trying to reach you because I have more news. As I have already told you Nikki and Claude were very much in love, So when the new Slayer dusted him, Nikki was very depressed. She wanted to die. She needed it. She couldn’t live anymore without him. Her son was a constant reminder to her of what she had lost. So when she was out one night she ran in to Spike, and he was her most formidable opponent. She let him kill her.”
“Oh god…..” Buffy said
“I also have talked to her watcher and found out how this pregnancy of yours is….has happened. Did…. Are you and Spike claimed to each other?” He asked
“Yes Giles. We are.” Buffy answered truthfully
“Well every time you reaffirm you’re claim Spike becomes more…..Alive and you become harder to kill yourself. It makes you both stronger, and also allows Spike to …. Impregnate you.” Giles stated.
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Giles was sitting at his desk in the library writing all of this new information down in his journal. All of a sudden the phone in the library rang. “Hello?”
“Watcher?” Spike croaked
“Spike is that you?”
“Yeah mate. I’m at the factory. I am starving. Just got back. Can’t let Buffy see me like this. Could you bring me some Blood?”
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Giles arrived at Spike’s factory in less than ten minutes
Spike gratefully takes the Blood Giles offered and drank four bags right away. “Spike where have you been? Buffy has been worried sick about you!” Giles said
“Had to go. To get my spark, to be whole. To be a man.” Spike said “With a soul am I good enough in you’re eyes?”
“What?”
“Buffy always thought I was good enough, It was you lot who didn’t. I want to make her life easier and happier.”
“You got cursed?” Giles asked incredulously “Spike you idiot! Do you know how upset”-
“You stupid Git. I saw what being cursed did to Angelus, First hand. I would never eat a bloody gypsy.”
“Then how?” Giles asked trying to understand.
“Had to fight for it. But I won. Sought it out and went through trials and won it.” Spike said.
“But …. Spike why?”
“Because I love her that bloody much Rupert. N’I couldn’t stand the thought of her bein hurt cause you wouldn’t accept me. I wanted to ask you n’ Joyce for Buffy’s hand, you are the closest thing to a father she has after all. Couldn’t very well do that with you lot tellin us I‘m an evil soulless monster all the time now could I?” Spike questioned
“Have you talked to her yet?”
“No. Couldn’t….didn’t want her seeing me like this.”
****++++****
The next day at school Spike called Giles at the library again.
“Watcher? Thanks ever so for the blood. I am all better now and up to seeing my love. I want to make it special for her, first time she sees me in so long, could you get her to go to the Bronze tonight? They’re having amateur singing night and I want to sing to her.”
“How am I going to get her there? She won’t go anywhere!”
“Tell her you are singing.”
****++++****
“No Giles I don’t want to go out tonight.” Buffy flatly refused.
“Well Buffy, I will be singing tonight.”
“You? Really? I’m there.” Buffy said, “I’ve got to go get ready.”
“Willow and Xander will pick you up at eight ok?”
“Sure”
****++++****
Buffy, Willow and Xander walked into the Bronze and spotted Giles right away. He was sitting at one of the front row tables.
“Giles I am so excited you are singing tonight!” Buffy said as she took her seat.
“Yes quite.” Giles replied.
Just then the lights dimmed. A hush came over the crowd as a guy walked on to the darkened stage. “Our first performer wanted to sing a song to the love of his life.
As the first strains of his voice reached out to her Buffy recognized his voice.
It’s been awhile, since I could hold my head up high.
It’s been awhile, since I first saw you.
It’s been awhile, Since I could stand up on my own two feet again.
It’s been a while since I could call you
But everything I can’t remember, as fucked up at it all may seem.
The consequences that I’ve rendered.
I’ve stretched myself beyond my means.
It’s been awhile, since I could say I wasn’t addicted.
It’s been awhile, since I could say I loved myself as well.
But all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you.
It’s been awhile, since I could look at myself straight.
It’s been awhile, since I said I’m sorry.
It’s been awhile, since I’ve seen the way candles light your face.
But I can still remember just the way you taste.
It’s been awhile.
As Spike finished his song he headed straight Buffy, He picked her up as the thunderous applause roared around them, and kissed her. “Buffy, I missed you so much.”
“Spike I’ve missed you too.” Buffy felt tears of joy prickling her eyes.
“Spike has a soul now Buffy” Giles said
“What?” Buffy asks as Spike nuzzled into her neck.
“He went to search it out. It seems he wanted to be accepted as your… well as yours so badly he went about it the only way he knew how….”Giles trailed off.
“Why Spike? And how?” Buffy questioned
“S’a story for another night love, I’ll tell you all about it. I’ll even let the watcher record it for posterity. I just want to hold you ok?”
“Anything you want Spike. We’ll talk tomorrow.” Buffy replied.
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To be continued
Revealing Spike’s secret
****++++****
“Do what Spike?” Buffy asked with dread filling her heart.
“No” She screamed as she woke up. Buffy started crying. “Just a dream? It felt so real……” She said to herself, as Joyce rushed into her room.
“You ok Buffy? What happened?” Joyce asked
“Sorry mom didn’t mean to scare you. I just had a dream that Spike was back and… he obviously isn’t. I just miss him so much.” Buffy said as tears started rolling down her face.
“Shhh honey, It’ll be ok. If it’s meant to be he will be back.” Joyce soothed Buffy’s fears.
Soon she was asleep. Buffy slept the rest of the night peacefully.
****++++****
“Giles?” Buffy called as she walked into the library.
“Oh Buffy, nice to see you so bright and early, I don’t usually see you until after lunch. So what has happened then?” Giles questioned.
“Well… I do have something on my mind…but I don’t think you’re gonna like it.” Buffy sighed “I’m pregnant.”
“Oh Buffy! We can find a good home or I suppose you could get an abortion?” Giles said furiously polishing his glasses.
“Um…no! I am gonna keep this baby Giles.”
“What? Buffy how could you possibly?”
“It’s Spike’s” Buffy interrupted
“But! That’s impossible Spike’s a”
“Vampire? Sterile? Not here? Yeah I know but Giles this could be my only chance…I don’t want to give up on that.”
“But Buffy you are still in high school!”
“Yeah for another two months Giles then I graduate….Giles how did this happen?” She questioned. “Not the sex part, the vampire part. I just don’t understand?”
“Well I will hit the books, you run along to class and come back after school ok? I should have something by then.” Giles said.
“Ok. See you later.”
****++++****
After school Buffy walked into the library with Willow, whom by now knew all there was to tell.
“Buffy, you will not believe what I have found on your condition, it seems there was another Slayer who had a child fathered by a vampire, Yes here it is, Nikki Wood. In 1973, she gave birth to a son, His name is Robin, and there are other instances of slayers having children though no others I have found became pregnant by vampires. They were all very young when they got pregnant. And most died very young, Except Nikki. It is extraordinary. She and this vampire Claude were very much in love. Alas there is not a happy ending. Nikki was killed for a few moments, but brought back to life.”
“How did she die?” Buffy asked
“She had drowned. Anyhow it seems there was another Slayer called, and She ended up killing Claude. She did not know Nikki and Claude were in love. I need to do more research on this Buffy I will call you ok?” Giles asked
“Yes of course Giles.”
****++++****
“Hey Willy”
“Slayer, how are you today?” Willy asked nervously.
“I’m looking for Spike you haven’t seen him have you?” Buffy questioned
“No sorry to say I haven’t”
“Ok well thanks.” She said as she left. Buffy trudged home sadly. She didn’t see the beautiful girl following her.
****++++****
“Mom? I’m home.”
“Hi Buffy, something came for you today, it’s by the phone.” Joyce shouted from the kitchen.
Buffy picked up the letter and her heart started pounding furiously in her chest. She looked at the writing on the envelope, it was written in old-fashioned Victorian handwriting. Although it looked shaky, like someone who was greatly upset or hurt had written it. Quickly she checked the postmark. Africa? AFRICA? Buffy tore open the letter and pulled out the sheet of paper that was carefully folded inside.
The writing on the inside was a lot shakier than the address part of the envelope. She started reading. Buffy, sorry I couldn’t get back as quick as I promised, couldn’t be helped. I am still dealing with a few things. I will be home soon. I love you. Yours always Spike.
Buffy put the letter back into the envelope. She went upstairs and Called Willow to let her know.
****++++****
“Hello” Giles said as he picked up the phone
“Giles, it’s me.”
“Buffy? I have been trying to reach you for over an hour!” Giles scolded
“Sorry I was talking to Willow. Spike sent me a letter. He is in Africa Giles! What the hell is he doing there when I need him here with me?” She asked sadly.
“I don’t know Buffy. You love him that much?” Giles questioned
“Yes Giles I do.” Buffy replied
“Well I was trying to reach you because I have more news. As I have already told you Nikki and Claude were very much in love, So when the new Slayer dusted him, Nikki was very depressed. She wanted to die. She needed it. She couldn’t live anymore without him. Her son was a constant reminder to her of what she had lost. So when she was out one night she ran in to Spike, and he was her most formidable opponent. She let him kill her.”
“Oh god…..” Buffy said
“I also have talked to her watcher and found out how this pregnancy of yours is….has happened. Did…. Are you and Spike claimed to each other?” He asked
“Yes Giles. We are.” Buffy answered truthfully
“Well every time you reaffirm you’re claim Spike becomes more…..Alive and you become harder to kill yourself. It makes you both stronger, and also allows Spike to …. Impregnate you.” Giles stated.
****++++****
Giles was sitting at his desk in the library writing all of this new information down in his journal. All of a sudden the phone in the library rang. “Hello?”
“Watcher?” Spike croaked
“Spike is that you?”
“Yeah mate. I’m at the factory. I am starving. Just got back. Can’t let Buffy see me like this. Could you bring me some Blood?”
****++++****
Giles arrived at Spike’s factory in less than ten minutes
Spike gratefully takes the Blood Giles offered and drank four bags right away. “Spike where have you been? Buffy has been worried sick about you!” Giles said
“Had to go. To get my spark, to be whole. To be a man.” Spike said “With a soul am I good enough in you’re eyes?”
“What?”
“Buffy always thought I was good enough, It was you lot who didn’t. I want to make her life easier and happier.”
“You got cursed?” Giles asked incredulously “Spike you idiot! Do you know how upset”-
“You stupid Git. I saw what being cursed did to Angelus, First hand. I would never eat a bloody gypsy.”
“Then how?” Giles asked trying to understand.
“Had to fight for it. But I won. Sought it out and went through trials and won it.” Spike said.
“But …. Spike why?”
“Because I love her that bloody much Rupert. N’I couldn’t stand the thought of her bein hurt cause you wouldn’t accept me. I wanted to ask you n’ Joyce for Buffy’s hand, you are the closest thing to a father she has after all. Couldn’t very well do that with you lot tellin us I‘m an evil soulless monster all the time now could I?” Spike questioned
“Have you talked to her yet?”
“No. Couldn’t….didn’t want her seeing me like this.”
****++++****
The next day at school Spike called Giles at the library again.
“Watcher? Thanks ever so for the blood. I am all better now and up to seeing my love. I want to make it special for her, first time she sees me in so long, could you get her to go to the Bronze tonight? They’re having amateur singing night and I want to sing to her.”
“How am I going to get her there? She won’t go anywhere!”
“Tell her you are singing.”
****++++****
“No Giles I don’t want to go out tonight.” Buffy flatly refused.
“Well Buffy, I will be singing tonight.”
“You? Really? I’m there.” Buffy said, “I’ve got to go get ready.”
“Willow and Xander will pick you up at eight ok?”
“Sure”
****++++****
Buffy, Willow and Xander walked into the Bronze and spotted Giles right away. He was sitting at one of the front row tables.
“Giles I am so excited you are singing tonight!” Buffy said as she took her seat.
“Yes quite.” Giles replied.
Just then the lights dimmed. A hush came over the crowd as a guy walked on to the darkened stage. “Our first performer wanted to sing a song to the love of his life.
As the first strains of his voice reached out to her Buffy recognized his voice.
It’s been awhile, since I could hold my head up high.
It’s been awhile, since I first saw you.
It’s been awhile, Since I could stand up on my own two feet again.
It’s been a while since I could call you
But everything I can’t remember, as fucked up at it all may seem.
The consequences that I’ve rendered.
I’ve stretched myself beyond my means.
It’s been awhile, since I could say I wasn’t addicted.
It’s been awhile, since I could say I loved myself as well.
But all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you.
It’s been awhile, since I could look at myself straight.
It’s been awhile, since I said I’m sorry.
It’s been awhile, since I’ve seen the way candles light your face.
But I can still remember just the way you taste.
It’s been awhile.
As Spike finished his song he headed straight Buffy, He picked her up as the thunderous applause roared around them, and kissed her. “Buffy, I missed you so much.”
“Spike I’ve missed you too.” Buffy felt tears of joy prickling her eyes.
“Spike has a soul now Buffy” Giles said
“What?” Buffy asks as Spike nuzzled into her neck.
“He went to search it out. It seems he wanted to be accepted as your… well as yours so badly he went about it the only way he knew how….”Giles trailed off.
“Why Spike? And how?” Buffy questioned
“S’a story for another night love, I’ll tell you all about it. I’ll even let the watcher record it for posterity. I just want to hold you ok?”
“Anything you want Spike. We’ll talk tomorrow.” Buffy replied.
****++++****
To be continued