Xander's Fall

Chapter 4
The Bronze
November 27th 1998
10:30 p.m

Xander walked in to the Bronze and sat down at one of the tables, and pulled out a large flask and took a drink. He looked around at the people in the club, he frowned as he saw Willow and Oz sitting off by themselves. He missed Willow, he looked down at the table, shaking his head.

*No, Wills won’t want to be friends with me, I’m dirty. She needs friends that are good, and that are going somewhere.* thought Xander as he took another drink from his flask. At that time Buffy and Cordelia walked into the club and over to his table.

“Well, lookie here. If it isn’t Xander, the drunken junkie. I thought that you would have the manners to not show your face around good people.” said Buffy as she looked at Xander in disgust.

“Oh, if it isn’t the Vamp Layer, oh that’s right, it’s the Vampire Slayer, only you much rather sleep with them. I heard that you and Cordy here had started taking on more then just Vamps, so just how much for you, whore?” whispered Xander as he snared at them, so only they could hear him. Cordelia gasped at him then slapped him, as did Buffy.

“Is that the best you can come up with? I guess those drugs really are messing with your brain.” said Cordelia with a smirk on her face.

“Hey, at lest a still have more brains then the both of you combined.” said Xander with a smirk at them both, as he looked over at the guy’s that came with them. His hand started to shake as he looked at two of them, they had been at the party that night, they had…

*No, not thinking about that, not thinking about that.* Xander said to himself as he looked back at the girls.

“Hey Xander I’ve got a question for you. Are you really taking it up the ass from very guy that will have for drugs? Cause that’s what Cory over there said, he said that a friend of his told him.” said Buffy as she pointed to one of the guy’s that were standing behind the guy’s that were clearly the girl’s boyfriends. Xander swallowed and then looked at Buffy, then back at the guy that was her boyfriend.

“Hey, does your boyfriend know that you are a horrible fuck, cause Angelus told me that was the real reason that he was let lose. I mean if your so bad that you let lose Angelus, oh and he said that he had better sex with girls he had raped then you, I wonder what would happen if you fucked him. Oh I know, he would go gay, isn’t that what the boyfriend before him did.” said Xander with a sneer on his face, as Buffy gasped at what he had said.

“Hey Buffy, I think that your worth ten of him. I mean, you never have had sex with fifteen people, now have you.” said the guy standing next to Cory, as he smirked at Xander, as Xander started to look for someway to leave.

“Yeah David, isn’t that what the junkie here has done?” asked Cordy as she looked down her nose at him, with disgust on her face.

“Yeah, at Brad’s party. He was very good, very willing, weren’t you?” said Cory as he moved to right beside Xander, putting his hand on his crouch and rubbing his hand against Xander.

“Yeah, once he was wasted he was a lot of fun. Hey maybe next time we have a party you girls can come and try him out?” said David as he moved to Xander’s other side as he ran his hands in Xander’s hair. Xander started shaking as he pushed back and got up and ran from the club. He was about a block away from the club when he stopped running, then he turned as a car pulled up behind him. He turned as it stopped an people got out. It was David and Cory, they were on him before he could move, and then they had him in the car. They drove him to a house, and pushed him in as soon as they got there. There were four other guy’s at the house. Craig, Dylan and two other guy’s from the party, they were all naked. And soon so was Xander and David an Cory.

“So what going on guy’s?” asked Xander as he is pushed down on to the bed that was set up in the front room, Xander tried to get up but he was pushed back on to the bed.

“What do you think, we want to play, we never really got the chance to at the party.” said Craig as Dylan handed him a needle and vial.

“Uh, what’s that?” asked Xander with panic in his voice, as Craig loaded up the needle, while one of the other guy’s wrapped a rubber tubing around his forearm. Then Craig slipped it into Xander’s arm.

“It’s something to make you happy, a mix of X and Xanax.” said Craig as the drug started to take affect and he started getting tired. Xander was pushed on to all fours and Craig slicked up his hard cock and entered him quickly, he pulled half out then slammed back into him. He thrust into him at a fast pace, after a couple of thrust he reached under Xander an grabbed his hardened cock and started pumping him. Three pulls and they both came at the same time, he pulled out and was replaced by David.

“Oh, you were good, Xan.” said Craig as he set down and watched as David raped Xander. Xander just took it, he just stared at the bed. Over and over it went, one after another they went, for over three hours. Till they were finally finished, Xander curled into a ball as they drank and did drugs. Thirty minutes after they had stopped raping him, they heard cars pulling up.

“Hey, did one of you invited anyone?” asked Dylan as he looked up from were he was snorting coke. The others just shook their heads, they were about to get up when the door was kicked in, and the room suddenly filled with cops. Xander just watched as the others were arrested. One of the cops noticed him and moved over to him.

“Hey kid, get up, your all under arrest.” said the cop as he walked over to him, but Xander just stayed curled into a ball and stared off into space.

“Kid, are you ok?” asked the cop as he stopped close enough to see the condition that he was in.

“Hey, I think that we have a overdoes here.” said the cop, as he reached out to touch Xander. Xander tried to pull away from the touch, but then he just passed out.

When Xander woke up he knew that he was in the hospital, he looked up as the curtain around his bed was moved. A doctor walked up to him along with a nurse.

“Ah, Mr. Harris, so nice that your awake now.” said the doctor as he started checking him out, Xander just sat there, not making a noise.

“Now, you have been out a few hours, all the drugs that were in your system have been purged, and you have been given medicine to prevent any sexually transmitted diseases, AIDs and HIV. Now you shouldn’t have sex for a couple of days, maybe a week. An you know you really shouldn’t be sell your self for drugs.” said the doctor as he finished working on Xander, then turned to leave.

“What, I don’t. I don’t sell myself for drugs, and if that is what those guy’s are saying then…they are lying, I have never sold myself. They…th…ey…they raped me.” said Xander shaking with anger at them, and shame at what had happened to him. The doctor just looked at Xander then walked off, the nurse just looked down at him, with disgust written all over her face.

*I didn’t do anything wrong, I’m the one that was raped.* thought Xander as he curled into a ball on the bed, as he laid down, he was shaking too badly to sit upright.

“Oh please, you’re a man, men don’t get raped. Now you just be quiet and wait for your parents get here, they should be here any moment.” said the nurse and then she turned away from him an walked away. A couple of minutes later his father walked into the ER, and stalked over to him, he sneered at Xander.

“Get up, you little bastard. I had to take off of work to come and get you.” said his father as he grabbed Xander and jerked him up off of the bed.

“Hey, dad.” said Xander as his father dragged him out of the hospital and to the car, once in the car he started yelling at him, as they sped away from the hospital.

“Do you have any ideal what time it is boy?” yelled his father, Xander just shook his head as he slumped in his seat hugging himself.

“It’s five o’clock in the morning.” yelled his father as they sped home.

“Do you know what the police had to say to me when I got there? Do you boy? They asked me if I knew that my son was selling himself for drugs, to MEN. Do you know how embarrassing that was for me, to find out from the cops that my son is a fagged.” screamed his father as they pulled up to the house. Xander got out as quickly as he could, but he was still feeling disoriented. He got to the front door, when his father grabbed the back of his shirt, and pushed him inside the house. Once in the house, he pushed Xander on to the couch. He stood over him as he screamed at him.

“I’m not selling myself.” was all that Xander said, as he father started pacing in front of him the length of the front room. His father whirled around and glared at Xander.

“Is that all that you have to say for yourself, that you’re not selling your self. What about the fact that you were found wasted in the house of a drug dealer, and had other men’s cum up your ass? Huh, what about that Alexander?” screamed his father as he picked Xander up by his shirt front and slammed him up against the wall.

“That’s true, but I didn’t go there on my own. They made me go, they caught me outside of the Bronze.” said Xander as he looked down at the floor, his father looked at him with disgust. Then he let go of him real quick and Xander didn’t have time to move as a fist came at his head. His father punched him in the head, then when Xander was about to fall to the floor he grabbed him and started slamming him against the wall.

“You let some punks rape you, god how can you be my son. A real man doesn’t let himself be raped; only women get raped, and men are the one that do it. God, your doing drugs and you get raped, your nothing but a waste of space and air.” said his father as he stopped slamming him into the wall and let him slide down the wall. He kicked him a few times then he walked into the kitchen and grabbed a beer, as Xander’s mother came down from their bedroom. She just looked at Xander as if he was something foul. Xander curled into a ball and tried to block out their voices.

“Tony, what did he do?” yelled his mother as she also went into the kitchen, Xander heard as a glass was taken out of the cabinets and of something being poured.

*Oh goody, sounds like mommy is hitting the liquor. Won’t she be nice.* thought Xander as he started to shake. He was so tired, and he hurt, oh how he hurt.

“That little bastard in there has been doing drugs, Jessica and get this, last night he was raped.” said Tony as they walked back into the front room.

“You’re joking. I knew that I should have gotten rid of him as soon as I had him.” said Jessica as she walked over to Xander, she just looked down at him then she kicked him.

“Yeah, you should have.” said Tony as he kicked Xander a couple of more times.

“Alexander, get out of our sight, the sight of you is making me sick.” said Jessica as she and Tony walked over to the couch and sat down to drink. Xander just nodded as he slowly got to his feet and stumbled up to his room. Xander started taking off his cloths the minute that he got in his room. He went into his bathroom, turning on the shower as hot as he could handle it. He grabbed a dagger that he had hidden in his bathroom and he started making swallow cuts on his arms, crying as he did. After he had done about twenty he stopped and started washing and Xander scrubbed till he was red. He shakily got out of the shower and grabbed a towel; he dried off then took care of the cuts, and then grabbed some cloths. He sat down on his bed and looked around his room; he saw the picture of him, Jesse and Willow, taken the summer before Buffy had arrived. He got up and picked it up and carried it back to his bed.

*God Jesse, how did it get so messed up? Your dead, me and Willow aren’t talking, like she would want to anyways. I’m turning in to my father, only worse. I’m so messed up Jesse.* thought Xander as he hugged to picture to his chest, as tears ran down his face, rocking back and forth. Xander looks down at the cuts on his arms they weren’t even bleeding any more; he traced a couple of them with his figure.

*I broke my promise to you, I’m sorry. But I just couldn’t take it anymore, it hurt too much. Oh god it hurts too much. I’m sorry Jesse, I’m not strong enough.* thought Xander as he went in to his bathroom and got the dagger out once more, he sat down with his back to bathtub. He sucked in his breath then let it out again, and then he sucked it in and cut his right wrist deep as he let out his breath.

“Oh god, oh god that hurt.” said Xander as he watched it bleed, he looked up as the door to the bathroom was thrown open, he father was standing there with a beer bottle in his hand.

“What the hell are you doing boy?” yelled his father as he looked down at Xander with a look of disgust on his face.

“You trying to kill yourself?! Give me that knife; no son of mine is going to commit suicide.” screamed Tony as he rushed to Xander and grabbed for the dagger only for Xander to stand up and move, but Tony grabbed the hand that Xander was holding the dagger in.

“Give me that knife boy, and I might not beat the shit out of you for this stunt.” said Tony as they struggled for the dagger, then Xander tripped forward, stabbing Tony in the stomach. Tony looked down at the dagger then at Xander, he turned and stagger out of the room, Xander fell to the floor and pushed himself into a corner.

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Tony stumbled downstairs before he clasped at the bottom of the stairs. Jessica saw him and rushed over to him.

“Tony, what happened?” said Jessica as she took off her shirt and pulled out the dagger, then folded her shirt and pressed it to the wound.

“That little bastard, he was trying to commit suicide. We fought for the knife, he stabbed me.” said Tony as Jessica grabbed the phone and dialed 911.

“Yes, my name is Jessica Harris; my husband has been stabbed in the stomach by our son. We live at 1264 Walnut Drive, please send an ambulance.” said Jessica.

“Don’t worry Tony the ambulance is on its way.” said Jessica as she kept pressure on the wound. After what seemed like hours but was only three minutes the ambulance got there along with the police.

“Ma’am, were here to help. Can you tell me how long it has been since he was stabbed?” asked one of the two EMT’s as he took over from her, getting to work on Tony.

“Uh, about four minutes.” said Jessica as she watched them work on Tony. One of the cops came over to her then.

“Mrs. Harris, you told the operator that your son had stabbed your husband? Do you know where he would have gone?” asked the cop as he took out his note pad and started writing.

“He’s still upstairs in his room.” said Jessica as they started to move Tony. The cop looked over at his partner at that.

“Ok, thank you ma’am.” said the cop as him and his partner started up the stairs with their guns drawn, they found Xander’s room by following the blood trail. They went in and found Xander still in the bathroom, sitting against the wall rock back and forth.

“I sorry didn’t mean it, I sorry didn’t mean it, I sorry didn’t mean it.” Xander was whispering over and over again. The cops looked at each other and just shook their heads at each other.

“Mr. Harris, please stand up. You’re under arrest for attempted murder of your father.” said one of the cops, as he walked over to Xander while his partner kept his gun trained on Xander. Xander just kept rocking and whispering, he didn’t seem to notice the cops in the room with him at all. The first cop grabbed Xander by the arm and hauled him to his feet then he turned him around and started to handcuff him. He grabbed Xander’s right wrist and felt a sticky fluid on Xander.

“What the… oh my god. Greg, grab a towel, this kid has slashed his wrist.” said the first cop as he turned Xander around and led him to the toilet, and sat him down. Greg handed him the towel then called for one of the EMT’s to get to the kid’s room.

“Hey, kid, what happened?” asked the first cop as he wrapped the towel around Xander’s wrist. Xander just looked at the cop, then down at his wrist.

“It hurts.” was all that Xander said.

“Your wrist, it hurts?” asked the cop as he looked first at Xander then at his partner then back again.

“It hurts.” said Xander as he shook his head, then the EMT’s were rushing into the room. They unwrapped the towel and went about stopping the bleeding, and got him ready to take to the hospital. It was a very short ride to the hospital. They rushed Xander and his dad into the ER, two doctor rushed over to them, the first one taking Xander. The doctor tried to talk to Xander but he was still out of it and not really talking.

“Mr. Harris, why did you try to kill yourself?” asks the doctor as he starts looking at the cut on his wrist.

“It hurts.” was all that Xander said, in a tiny voice.

“Right, it hurts, we know that. But why did you try to kill yourself?” asks the doctor.

“It hurts.” said Xander once more, as a nurse comes over.

“Doctor, I don’t think that he is talking about his wrist. Mr. Harris, what hurts?” asked the nurse as the doctor turns to fill out some paperwork.

“It hurts.” Xander said once more. The doctor and the nurse just looked at each other.

“Ok, we need to get him up to surgery; I think that we can prevent any permanent damage. Oh, and get Psych down here, he will need to be placed under a seventy-two hour watch.” said the doctor as the started moving Xander, as the nurse started moving. Xander was taken up to surgery, they were able to prevent any permanent damage just like the doctor had said, after that he was moved to the Psych ward and held for the seventy-two hours, Xander was released afterwards.