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Part 4 - Nightmares
Title: Solid Ground – Part 4 - Nightmares
Author: Xanfan
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: eventually, X/A
Summary: SLASH - Xander is assaulted by his secret boyfriend and needs to get out of Sunnydale to heal. He and Tara go to L.A. to recover from their screwed up lives.
Spoilers: Up through most of season six of BtVS, goes AU at end of Entropy. Through season 4 of Angel, Okay, just pretty much anything from all seasons of both shows is fair game.
Warnings: SLASH M/M, violence, description of non-con.
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
A/N: Anya broke up with Xander after “Once More with Feeling” He began another relationship not long after that. Buffy never told Tara why she wanted to know if she ‘came back wrong’, so Tara doesn’t know about her and Spike. Tara doesn’t die, because she isn’t there to get back together with Willow. This takes place right after Xander & Buffy see Anya and Spike on video, courtesy of spy cams.
Xander lay in his hospital bed shifting restlessly in his sleep.
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Xander was seething. How could Spike do that? How could he sleep with Anya? On camera? Okay, so he didn’t know about the ‘caught on tape’ part, but still.
But that wasn’t the worst part. Not only had Spike slept with Anya, but, come to find out, he had been sleeping with Buffy for months.
Spike had been having sex with Buffy almost the whole time he and Xander had been together.
Xander threw open the crypt door and stormed inside his lover’s ‘home’. He immediately saw Spike lounging in his beat up old recliner nursing a bottle of Jack.
“Oi, Whelp, whatcha doin? Makin’ a right racket, you are.” Spike’s words were slurred. He appeared to be even more drunk and depressed than he’d been at the Magic Box.
Xander just stared at Spike in disbelief. How could the blond just sit there, pretending that nothing had happened?
“What the hell is wrong with you? How could you do that? With Anya? With Buffy? How could you cheat on me like that?” Xander yelled.
“Whoa, hold on. What’re you talkin’ about?” Spike asked. Xander wasn’t sure if Spike was playing innocent or just too inebriated to understand.
“Buffy and Willow and I saw you today Spike. Those stupid nerds had cameras all over the place, even inside the Magic Box. We saw you and Anya together. By the time we got there to confront you two, you were gone. I didn’t understand why Buffy was so angry, until she told me that you two had been having sex for awhile and that she had broken it off, but you were still sniffin’ around her proclaiming your love and all that crap.”
“She was angry? Like jealous angry?” Spike asked, completely missing the point.
“Spike!”
“What?” Spike asked.
“You’re my freaking boyfriend and you have been sleeping with my best friend behind my back for months, on top of that, you just had sex with my ex on the research table of the Magic Box.”
Spike looked at Xander incredulously.
“You know I love her. If anything, I was cheating on her with you. This isn’t a relationship Xander, it’s fuck-buddies. You know that.”
“But, I love you,” Xander said brokenly.
“Yeah, but you knew that I love Buffy.” Spike said in confusion.
“I thought, when we… got together, that you were over it, or at least were getting over it. I thought that we were together. I thought you felt something for me too.”
“I like you well enough. I like that you love me. It’s a nice change to be touched with love and affection for once, especially compared to being with Buffy. There was nothing nice and sweet about what we did together,” Spike said with a leer, recalling some of their raunchier moments.
Xander just stared at him. He felt like his whole world was crumbling around him. It was really just the delusions that he had built for himself. The delusions that someone would really love him and choose him. Xander could almost hear his own heart shattering into a million pieces.
Spike continued to speak, oblivious to the boy’s distress, “Once Buffy stops playin’ hard to get, maybe we can still work somethin’ out……”
“What do you mean?” Xander asked incredulously.
“Do I need to draw you a picture?” Spike asked, draining the last of the whiskey and letting the empty bottle roll away, “You and I could still see each other, even after Buffy takes me back….”
“No, you idiot, I mean about Buffy? Do you actually think that she wants anything to do with you now? After seeing you with Anya? And I haven’t even told her about us yet. She doesn’t love you. She was just lost and confused. She was using you to make herself feel. She’s not playing ‘hard to get’, she just doesn’t want to be gotten. At least not by you.”
Spike was up and in Xander’s face before Xander had even seen him move.
“You don’t know what you’re talkin’ about, you git. She loves me, she just needs some time to realize it. And you’ll not be tellin’ her about you and me, not while she’s confused about where she belongs,” Spike growled.
Xander stared at his lover, aghast at the thought that the blond vampire was really that blind to the situation.
Xander turned to leave, but stopped and started to speak without looking back. “She doesn’t love you, she’ll never love you. You’re insane if you think that she ever would. And you’re nutso if you think I’ll ever let you touch me again…”
His words abruptly ended when Spike grabbed his arm and pulled hard. Xander fell back against Spike’s chest, where strong arms wrapped around and held him tight.
“Shut up! She does love me, her jealousy proves it. Only a matter o’ time before she comes back to me. And you love me too, remember? Want to think I’m your ‘boyfriend’. You’ll let me touch you whenever and wherever I want, and you won’t say anything to her,” the cruel words were whispered mockingly in his ear.
Xander struggled against the arms holding him tight, regretting for the first time that Spike’s chip had never worked properly on him. Xander hated more than ever his time on the swim team which had left him changed just enough for Spike’s chip to deem him different.
“Let me go you un-dead asshole!” Xander shouted as he continued to struggle despite the fact that he was making no progress in freeing himself from the arms of the drunk and enraged vampire.
“You love me. You can’t pretend that you don’t. Maybe you just need to be reminded of what you love to do with me. I’ll make you remember, make you admit it,” Spike said as he manhandled Xander over to the concrete slab that covered the tomb of some forgotten man.
He pushed Xander face down, lowering his own body to cover the boy’s as he had done countless times before. When a flailing arm almost hit him, Spike grabbed both of the boy’s wrists and held them together behind his back with one hand. He knew he was being a little too rough, but it was all part of the game he and Buffy played, wait, no Xander. He had to keep hold of Xander, just until he gave in, the way she did. All the barriers came down during sex; if he could just get them to stop fighting it, he could show them they loved him, make them admit it. He pushed Xander back down as the boy bucked up, wrenching his hands up higher to keep him in place.
Xander felt his cheek scrape roughly against the concrete.
He heard the rough scrape of a zipper being lowered before he felt Spike grab for his pants.
It was at this moment that he fully realized what was going to happen and he started screaming silently in his mind.
~~~~~~
Tara had to call the nurse when Xander woke up screaming and couldn’t be calmed down. His voice was raw and hoarse by the time the nurse came in with the sedative.
When the sedative took effect and Xander finally settled down, Tara sat back down in the chair she had been dozing in before Xander had woken. She pulled her knees to her chest, wrapped her arms around them and started sobbing and praying that Cordelia and Angel would get here soon.
Author: Xanfan
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: eventually, X/A
Summary: SLASH - Xander is assaulted by his secret boyfriend and needs to get out of Sunnydale to heal. He and Tara go to L.A. to recover from their screwed up lives.
Spoilers: Up through most of season six of BtVS, goes AU at end of Entropy. Through season 4 of Angel, Okay, just pretty much anything from all seasons of both shows is fair game.
Warnings: SLASH M/M, violence, description of non-con.
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
A/N: Anya broke up with Xander after “Once More with Feeling” He began another relationship not long after that. Buffy never told Tara why she wanted to know if she ‘came back wrong’, so Tara doesn’t know about her and Spike. Tara doesn’t die, because she isn’t there to get back together with Willow. This takes place right after Xander & Buffy see Anya and Spike on video, courtesy of spy cams.
Xander lay in his hospital bed shifting restlessly in his sleep.
********************
Xander was seething. How could Spike do that? How could he sleep with Anya? On camera? Okay, so he didn’t know about the ‘caught on tape’ part, but still.
But that wasn’t the worst part. Not only had Spike slept with Anya, but, come to find out, he had been sleeping with Buffy for months.
Spike had been having sex with Buffy almost the whole time he and Xander had been together.
Xander threw open the crypt door and stormed inside his lover’s ‘home’. He immediately saw Spike lounging in his beat up old recliner nursing a bottle of Jack.
“Oi, Whelp, whatcha doin? Makin’ a right racket, you are.” Spike’s words were slurred. He appeared to be even more drunk and depressed than he’d been at the Magic Box.
Xander just stared at Spike in disbelief. How could the blond just sit there, pretending that nothing had happened?
“What the hell is wrong with you? How could you do that? With Anya? With Buffy? How could you cheat on me like that?” Xander yelled.
“Whoa, hold on. What’re you talkin’ about?” Spike asked. Xander wasn’t sure if Spike was playing innocent or just too inebriated to understand.
“Buffy and Willow and I saw you today Spike. Those stupid nerds had cameras all over the place, even inside the Magic Box. We saw you and Anya together. By the time we got there to confront you two, you were gone. I didn’t understand why Buffy was so angry, until she told me that you two had been having sex for awhile and that she had broken it off, but you were still sniffin’ around her proclaiming your love and all that crap.”
“She was angry? Like jealous angry?” Spike asked, completely missing the point.
“Spike!”
“What?” Spike asked.
“You’re my freaking boyfriend and you have been sleeping with my best friend behind my back for months, on top of that, you just had sex with my ex on the research table of the Magic Box.”
Spike looked at Xander incredulously.
“You know I love her. If anything, I was cheating on her with you. This isn’t a relationship Xander, it’s fuck-buddies. You know that.”
“But, I love you,” Xander said brokenly.
“Yeah, but you knew that I love Buffy.” Spike said in confusion.
“I thought, when we… got together, that you were over it, or at least were getting over it. I thought that we were together. I thought you felt something for me too.”
“I like you well enough. I like that you love me. It’s a nice change to be touched with love and affection for once, especially compared to being with Buffy. There was nothing nice and sweet about what we did together,” Spike said with a leer, recalling some of their raunchier moments.
Xander just stared at him. He felt like his whole world was crumbling around him. It was really just the delusions that he had built for himself. The delusions that someone would really love him and choose him. Xander could almost hear his own heart shattering into a million pieces.
Spike continued to speak, oblivious to the boy’s distress, “Once Buffy stops playin’ hard to get, maybe we can still work somethin’ out……”
“What do you mean?” Xander asked incredulously.
“Do I need to draw you a picture?” Spike asked, draining the last of the whiskey and letting the empty bottle roll away, “You and I could still see each other, even after Buffy takes me back….”
“No, you idiot, I mean about Buffy? Do you actually think that she wants anything to do with you now? After seeing you with Anya? And I haven’t even told her about us yet. She doesn’t love you. She was just lost and confused. She was using you to make herself feel. She’s not playing ‘hard to get’, she just doesn’t want to be gotten. At least not by you.”
Spike was up and in Xander’s face before Xander had even seen him move.
“You don’t know what you’re talkin’ about, you git. She loves me, she just needs some time to realize it. And you’ll not be tellin’ her about you and me, not while she’s confused about where she belongs,” Spike growled.
Xander stared at his lover, aghast at the thought that the blond vampire was really that blind to the situation.
Xander turned to leave, but stopped and started to speak without looking back. “She doesn’t love you, she’ll never love you. You’re insane if you think that she ever would. And you’re nutso if you think I’ll ever let you touch me again…”
His words abruptly ended when Spike grabbed his arm and pulled hard. Xander fell back against Spike’s chest, where strong arms wrapped around and held him tight.
“Shut up! She does love me, her jealousy proves it. Only a matter o’ time before she comes back to me. And you love me too, remember? Want to think I’m your ‘boyfriend’. You’ll let me touch you whenever and wherever I want, and you won’t say anything to her,” the cruel words were whispered mockingly in his ear.
Xander struggled against the arms holding him tight, regretting for the first time that Spike’s chip had never worked properly on him. Xander hated more than ever his time on the swim team which had left him changed just enough for Spike’s chip to deem him different.
“Let me go you un-dead asshole!” Xander shouted as he continued to struggle despite the fact that he was making no progress in freeing himself from the arms of the drunk and enraged vampire.
“You love me. You can’t pretend that you don’t. Maybe you just need to be reminded of what you love to do with me. I’ll make you remember, make you admit it,” Spike said as he manhandled Xander over to the concrete slab that covered the tomb of some forgotten man.
He pushed Xander face down, lowering his own body to cover the boy’s as he had done countless times before. When a flailing arm almost hit him, Spike grabbed both of the boy’s wrists and held them together behind his back with one hand. He knew he was being a little too rough, but it was all part of the game he and Buffy played, wait, no Xander. He had to keep hold of Xander, just until he gave in, the way she did. All the barriers came down during sex; if he could just get them to stop fighting it, he could show them they loved him, make them admit it. He pushed Xander back down as the boy bucked up, wrenching his hands up higher to keep him in place.
Xander felt his cheek scrape roughly against the concrete.
He heard the rough scrape of a zipper being lowered before he felt Spike grab for his pants.
It was at this moment that he fully realized what was going to happen and he started screaming silently in his mind.
~~~~~~
Tara had to call the nurse when Xander woke up screaming and couldn’t be calmed down. His voice was raw and hoarse by the time the nurse came in with the sedative.
When the sedative took effect and Xander finally settled down, Tara sat back down in the chair she had been dozing in before Xander had woken. She pulled her knees to her chest, wrapped her arms around them and started sobbing and praying that Cordelia and Angel would get here soon.