Just Another Game

Author: pixel
Title: Just Another Game
Chapter: 4/?
Pairing: MasterSpike/slaveXander
Rating: NC17
Feedback: always welcome
Concrit much appreciated and possibly needed.
Disclaimer: Anything you recognise is still owned by Joss et al ~ anything new is mine.
Warnings/Squicks: BDSM,implied n/c, anal/oral
Summary: ficlet, spander through the years
Beta(s): don’t have one
Distribution: hell, if anyone wants it just take it. Just drop me a line so I can take a look.


Author’s notes :~ Should probably have mentioned it earlier but this was only supposed to be a little two shot pwp, i never expected it to actually turn into a story. (Ruddy out of control muse strikes again.) This is AU season 7, Spike has his soul and has got rid of the chip. But no First Evil, or hordes of Sits; just business as usual on the Hellmouth. As for Angel, I’m skipping ahead in Ats land, it’s season 5, Angel is running Wolfram and Hart, leaving the Hyperion empty for our boys to play in later.

Thanks for the reviews/encouragement i do appreciate all comments. Sorry it took me a while to update but i got a bit caught up with other fics and the dreaded RL.


Lessons In Love


Spike came awake slowly, revelling in the sight and feel of his toy pressed tight against him, arse to crotch. He knew they probably made an incongruous picture, his smaller frame wrapped around his lover’s larger form. To an outsider, it would be easy to assume that he was the weaker of the two, the one who’d need protecting. Nothing could be farther from the truth; since that wonderful moment Xander had let him into his life, the boy had become his whole world; his to protect and love, nothing else mattered. He was still buried deep in Xander’s arse and the smell and touch of his boy had already made him hard. Waking up surrounded by that heat was, to him, the most amazing feeling in the world.

He knew that Xander would be stiff and sore; his body would wear the bruises and marks from last night’s punishment for days to come. However much he hated seeing Xander suffer he had no intention of helping the healing along in any way, he needed to make sure that Xander learned his lesson from last night; and the aches and pains would be a constant reminder. Right now though, he wanted to make love to his boy, he’d taken him last night; but there had been no love in the coupling. It had been brutal and harsh, more about the demon reasserting its dominance, than it had been about pleasure; for either of them.

Now that the demon had been sated and calmed, Spike was free to give into his more tender feelings. Gently rocking his hips, he began waking Xander, in the most pleasurable way he could think of. The boy was already half hard, even in sleep he was the most responsive lover Spike had ever known. As the scent of Xander’s reawakened arousal began to fill the air, Spike started nibbling and sucking at his neck, reaching one hand around to play with his nipples.

A muffled groan indicated that Xander had finally woken, instinctively arching his back to give his Master easier access to his body. Last night had been a nightmare for him, thinking that he might have driven his Master away, and enduring the worst punishment in their time together. It wasn’t the pain he hated, he’d expected that, wanted it even; it was his way of showing how sorry he was, his submission was the only real thing he could give to Spike. It was the silence that had scared him so badly. In that endless time he’d been left alone; he’d feared that he’d never feel Spike’s hands on him again, it had been a relief when Spike had finally started the beating. The sex afterwards had been so hard and fast, so unlike their usual lovemaking, that it had done little to dispel Xander’s insecurities. It had felt like something Spike wanted to get over and done with, nothing like the passionate encounters that usually followed a punishment.

This was the way it should be; Master’s cock buried deep in his ass, filling him completely; Master’s mouth on his neck, tongue licking teasing patterns on the sensitive skin; Master’s fingers gently sweeping up and down his chest, pausing every now and then to tease hardened nubs or to fleetingly caress balls or cock. Spike’s body was pressed hard against his back and that should have hurt, but the cool of his Master’s skin was a balm to his bruised form.

Spike increased his movements, twisting his hips and starting to hit Xander’s prostate on every second or third thrust, never setting up a rhythm, not wanting this to be over to soon. Last night had been about showing Xander who he was, what he’d chosen to be, who he belonged to; this was about showing him how much he was loved. Spike licked his way up Xander’s neck and began to whisper in his ear.

“So beautiful, my pet. Waking up, feeling you all around me, every touch makes me burn for you. You’re mine pet, my love, my heart; made for me. So responsive you are, my perfect toy, just for me, nobody ever saw this, did they my love? This is all mine, the real you, no games, no masks, just you, my pet. Fell me luv, deep inside, this is us pet, this is who we are. Nothing on our own, but like this, perfect. Don’t think pet, just feel, feel me touching you, loving you, nothing else in the world pet, just me and you. Let go my love, want to see you cum, that’s it pet; cum for me now.”

The whispered words were too much for Xander and he came with a strangled cry of, Master!” Spike thrust a few more times before following him over the edge. He gently withdrew from Xander’s body and rolled onto his back; turning Xander with him and gently cradling his boy’s head on his chest. After a few minutes the scent of tears filled the air and Spike could feel water dripping onto his ribs from Xander’s eyes. “Pet? Luv, what’s wrong?” Spike had been expecting this, but knew that Xander had to work his way through it, had to hear the words before he could talk himself.

When Xander finally did speak, he was barely coherent, between choking sobs he tried to make Spike understand, “So sorry Master….Never meant to disobey…. Wasn’t supposed to be like that….don’t know why I did it……Sorry….love you Master….Never do it again…Promise I won’t….Need you so much….Sorry..”

“Ssh pet, know you’re sorry, knew that last night. Just cry it out pet. Let it go, let the pain out. I’m here Xander, I’ll always be here. Had to punish you pet, you know that, but let you go? NEVER. You’re mine pet, for always. I love you Xander, I will always love you. Doesn’t matter f you screw up or make me mad, I will never let you go. Might tan your arse so hard you can’t sit down for a month, but I’ll be here every single day. Not leaving you Xander, not for anything.”

Spike continued to talk to Xander, telling him how much he was loved, was wanted, all the while petting his head and body. Eventually the words and gentle touches reassured Xander and his tears began to peter out. Spike let him recover a little but knew they had to get everything sorted, so when he was sure Xander had calmed he began again. “Xander luv, I know you didn’t mean to go against me but we got to talk about it, you got to tell me how it happened so’s we can make sure it doesn’t happen again.”

Xander snuggled close to his Master’s chest and began to talk. “I was going to Buffy’s, she wanted me to come for a movie night with her and Willow. You said I should go, that it’d help them see I was happy. I just got to the end of Buffy’s street and had parked the car when I saw her. She was heading away from the house and I thought maybe she’d forgotten I was coming. When she saw me she came over, she said that she had to go do something before she picked up the movies, that I should go with her. I never thought anything was wrong, I just assumed she had to pick up food or something; then I noticed we were walking away from town. When I asked her what was going on, she said she’d heard about a demon at the edge of the park and that we were going after it. She said that it wasn’t all that dangerous but that it only came out at certain times and that’s why she had to go now.

I asked why she hadn’t told me and she just said that I’d always backed her up and wanted to know if being with you meant I wasn’t going to be there for her any more. I tried to tell her that that wasn’t it, and how I’d always be her friend but she was so angry. Kept saying how you were taking me away from them and changing me. It made me mad that she wouldn’t even try to understand, I just didn’t notice how close to the park we were getting. I know I should have called you as soon as she mentioned the demon but I was arguing with her, trying to get her to listen to me and not just yell. I should’ve walked away, found a phone and called you; but I got so caught up arguing with her, I didn’t notice how far from town we’d gotten; all the time we’d been shouting at each other, we’d kept walking. By the time I realised what I’d done we were in the park and the demon was rushing us. Only Buffy had gotten it wrong, there wasn’t just one demon but a whole pack, then we were fighting to stay alive; you know what happened then, ‘cos that’s when you showed up. I was so stupid, should’ve walked away instead of letting my temper provoke me into fighting with her. Should never have been near the park without you.”

“You’re right pet. Remember when we talked about what it meant for me to be your Master. I said you wouldn’t always like the decisions I made but that they’d be for your own good. This is what I meant; you tend to rush in pet, to act before you think. You’re a white knight pet, my white knight and I love the fact that you wanted to defend me, defend us; but you knew better than to let her push you that way. She played you pet, know you’ve figured that out, she could’ve called and told you ‘bout the demon, but she didn’t want me there, left it ‘til you couldn’t call me, then provoked you into following her Doesn’t excuse what you did, but I do understand.

You nearly died out there pet, and I’m not going to let that happen again. Some things are going to change around here; there’ll be no chances for them to get at you like that. From now on you don’t leave the house without me, not forever pet, just ‘til I’m sure you’re not going to pull a stunt like that again. There’ll be some new rules here too; you need to understand your place. When you accepted my collar you made a commitment. You trusted me to make your decisions for you pet, to keep you safe and know what’s best; then you went ahead and did what you wanted anyway. You didn’t think about what you were doing, just reacted to Buffy and forgot everything you promised. There’s got to be consequences for that, something to make sure you don’t forget again. So as well as staying here unless I take you out, your time here is going to be a bit different for a while.

You don’t get to wear clothes for at least a month, not unless I’m taking you somewhere, and you’re going to be plugged all the time. Want you to feel it inside you, every time the plug moves, it’ll remind you who you are, remind you that you belong to me. If I think you’re behaving better I’ll let you start walking around the house again, but it’s a privilege you’re gonna have to earn, for now you stay on your hands and knees. Know it’s gonna be hard for you pet, but that’s how it’s going to be for now. You’ll eat from my hand and you’ll ask permission for anything you want to do.

Know you’ve been making your own choices, doing what you want when I don’t need you, like you think the rules only count in the bedroom, and I think that’s half the problem; it’s like you forget when I’m not there to remind you. Do this for a while and it’ll be second nature to you, you’ll learn to stop and think before you do things and that’ll teach you to be more aware of what you’re doing. You know this isn’t a game Xander but sometimes you act like you still think it is; once I’m sure you’re not going to do anything stupid again, I’ll start to relax the rules a bit.

You need to understand how bad things were last night. When I left you alone, it wasn’t to punish you love; it was to keep you safe. You know I’ve got the soul now, but sometimes I think you forget that the demon’s still there. Last night when it saw you lying on the ground, it went crazy; if I’d touched you when we first got back here it would have been in charge. It might have hurt you pet, more than you could safely take. I would never let that happen, never let you get hurt by me; so I had to stay away ‘til I got the demon calmed down. Even then I had to let it have its way. It needed to be in charge, to show you that you belonged as much to it as you do the soul. When I took you hard and fast the way I did, it was what the demon needed, its way of showing that it owned you.”

“Feral, like an animal marking its territory.”

“That’s right pet.”

“I understand it better now, I just got so scared when you didn’t talk to me.”

“Wasn’t about scaring you luv, you get that, right?”

“Yes Master. Master, the new rules, I get it why you’re doing it and I understand; but you never said if I can still work.”

“I’ll give you set times pet, the workroom’s always there and I’ll let you get your orders out, but once they’re done, I’ll be the one talking to the shop and doing the delivery. You can do some more pieces later, so long as you follow the rules.”

“Thank you Master.”

“Got to talk to you ‘bout something else as well, hated wot happened last night, watching you almost die. Was going to wait a bit, talk about this when you’d had some more time to know what it’s like being mine, but I don’t want to risk losing you. There’s a ritual, a spell, we can do. It’s a bond, makes you mine forever.”

“Yes!”

“Wait luv, let me tell you all of it, if we do this, there’s no changing your mind, you’ll be mine forever, even if you don’t like it, there’d be no way for you to change your mind.”

“Yes! That’s what we are already master. I told you that I meant it when I accepted your collar.”

“Know you did pet, but we both know that if you changed your mind you could have Buffy dust me and walk away.”

“Master I’d never….”

“Not now, but it’s always there, words are one thing but right now, if you wanted to, you could still walk away. The mojo takes that choice away. We’d be bound together, neither of us could ever leave and it’d tie us together, you’d live as long as I do and if one of us gets killed the other wouldn’t last but a day.”

“You really want me that much, forever?”

“Told you often enough pet, there’s never been anyone meant to me what you do. You have to think about this pet. I’m not going to order you to do this; the mojo won’t take unless you do it of your own free will. You get yourself cleaned up and we’ll have something to eat. You can have a couple of hours in your workroom and then we’ll talk it through. One more thing luv, you should know the spell has to be performed by the head of the line. Means we’ll have to get Angel’s permission and go to LA to get it done. He’ll have to be part of it, be with both of us or the spell won’t take. Now don’t just react Xander, I know how hard that’d be for you, but you need to think first and we’ll talk later. Now get your arse in the shower and then meet me in the kitchen.”

“Yes Master.”


tbc……