Lovers Walk

Chapter Fourteen: The Invitation


Ravyn walked down the dark dirt road hopeing her plan was going to work. Spike had went on and on about how stupid the idea was, but Ravyn was sure this was going to go exactly as planned. She smiled to herself as she remembered the look on his face as she told him her plan. She wasn't sure if it was `the trying to get in' part or the `heavy flirting' part that he was having the most trouble with. She knew first hand how he liked her flirtations...and it wasn't something she was looking forward to seeing again.

As Ravyn approached the guard house to the Complex, she prayed to whoever was listening that this went `exactly' as planned.

"Halt, who goes there" a blond haired guard said.

"Oh, Hi...I was wondering if you had a phone? My car broke down up the road about a mile." she said laying on the charm as heavily as she could.

The guard looked at her before stepping inside the tiny structure and started talking to another guard. They both walked back outside, smiling like idiots, looking her over from head to toe. She knew this outfit would work, no matter how much Spike complained about it.

Ravyn smiled at them, her biggest brightest smile, as she slowly walked closer to them.

"So, is there a phone?" she asked


"Uh...yeah, sure" blondie told her, "right this way."

Ravyn smiled at him and gave him a look from head to toe only as a gesture of her `faked' interest in him, before following him inside the booth. She smiled and winked at him as he handed her the telephone receiver. "Thanks Sweetie"

"My pleasure" he said before turning and going back out to talk to his friend. She could hear their whispers plain as day and knew her plan was working. Glancing over at them, she quickly jerked the phone cord from the wall while they were laughing about all they would like to do to her.

"Excuse me, but this phone doesn't seem to be working" she said sweetly leaning out the door. *might as well give them a good look* she thought as her very low cut top hung open to reveal her breast to them even more.

"Let me take a look" the blonde said after giving her half exposed breast a another glance. Ravyn stood purposely in his way as he reentered the booth so he would have to brush up against her to get by. She smiled longingly at him as she lightly thrust her chest towards him, earning her a big smile from him.

"Huh...that's weird, phones dead" he said as the other guard walked over to the door.

"Oh, now what am I going to do" Ravyn said looking like a lost child. "Do you think one of you could come and give it a look?"

"Sorry Miss, not allowed to travel beyond the road here."

Ravyn sighed. "Well, I guess I'll have to walk back to town" she said sadly. "Thank you for your trouble"

As she stepped outside the booth, she smiled big when she heard the guard call out to her.

"Hey wait. I know I'll probably get court marshaled for this but, how about I take you inside. You can use the phone in there."

"Oh, really?" she said brightly. "Thank you so much, you don't know how much I appreciate this" she said.

"Not a problem Miss"

"Oh, please...call me Ravyn" she said, fluttering her eyelids at him slightly.

"Sure thing....Ravyn" the guard said smiling at her as he led her to the jeep parked beside the building.

As he helped her into the jeep, she made sure her skirt was hiked up enough to leave nothing to the imagination. "You are so sweet, how am I ever going to repay you?" she asked as he got in and started the engine.

"Don't mention it" he said as he glanced down at her legs before driving off to the main building.

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Spike was sitting on a hill, binoculars in hand watching the whole scene play out. He rolled his eyes at Ravyn's flirtation, but was shocked when he saw the guard help her into the jeep. He was sure this plan wasn't going to work. Hoped was a better word. Not that he didn't think she could pull it off, he just didn't want her risking herself by going in there alone.

As he watched the jeep pull up to the front of the Complex, a wave of fear gripped him. He watched as the guard placed his hand on her back and guided her inside. Spike growled softly and shook his head when he realized he did. When she was out of site he felt for the cell phone they had purchased the day before and checked to make sure it was on and had a single. Seeing that it did, he placed it back in his pocket and waited for her call.

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"Wow, this place is enormous" Ravyn said in stunned aw.

"Yeah, it's pretty massive" the guard said as he led her down a long corridor.

"Addams...what are you doing in here" a male voice asked from behind them.

"Sir" the guard said as he spun around and saluted the man that spoke. "Uh...this lovely lady had some car trouble and our phone seems to be out, so I thought...maybe it would be okay to bring her here to call someone."

The older, very distinguished looking gentleman that had stopped them looked over at Ravyn and smiled as he saw her smiling at him.

"It's very nice of you to help me out like this, I don't know what I would have done otherwise." she said sweetly.

The man looked at her for a long moment before smiling bigger at her as he held out his arm for her. "My pleasure Miss....."

"Oh, please...call me Ravyn" she said taking his arm, leaving the guard standing there...alone.

"You must be someone of great importance" she told him, as he led her down the hall "An "And why do you say that?"

"Oh, well from the looks of this uniform, you have to be" she said rubbing her free hand up his arm. "Which if I may be so bold to say, you look absolutely handsome in."

*God, are all men this gullible Ravyn thought as her `escort' straightened up taller as they continued walking.


"Well, Thank You Miss Ravyn" he said completely lost in her flirtations.

"I've always loved a man in uniform" she told him as they entered a large office. "They're just so....sexy" she added in a seductive manner.

Ravyn had to hold back her giggles as this man strutted over to his desk and picked up the phone.

"Here you go" he said as he handed her the phone.

"Thank You Sweetie" she said smiling as she took the receiver.

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Spike was lying on the hood of the car wondering what was taking so long when the cell phone started ringing. He nearly dropped it he snatched it out of his pocket so fast. "Hello" he answered anxiously.

"Hey Will...car broke down again" Ravyn said into the phone still looking at her escort.

"Are you okay" Spike asked relieved to hear her voice.

"Yeah, not sure what happened. ust ust died again. I thought you said you fixed it." she said smiling.

"Does anyone suspect anything?"

"No, don't worry about it, just hurry up. I've wasted enough of these people's time as it is" she said running her finger's along the desk.

"I'll be there in 30"

"Okay, see you soon"

Ravyn hung up the phone and walked around the desk. "My brother's on his way. Shouldn't take him to long, not with the way he drives."

"Well, how about a drink while we wait?"

"I'd love one" Ravyn said as she sat down on a large leather sofa. "So, what's your name, you never told me." she said as she crossed her legs, causing her short skirt to ride up further.

"Richard Collins" the man answered as he handed her a drink.

"Well, Richard, tell me what it is you do down here exactly."

Richard sat down beside her and smiled as she put one arm on the back of the sofa and leaned towards him. "Well, Ravyn, I'm afraid I'm not exactly allowed to tell you that"

Ravyn gave him her `pouty face'. "Ah, you can tell me...who's going to actually believe I was in here anyway" she said placing her hand on his leg.

Richard looked down at her hand resting on his thigh and smiled when she gave it a little squeeze. "Guess it won't hurt to give you the basics" he said with a shaky voice as Ravyn slid her hand up and down his thigh. She just smiled and licked her lips as he began to tell her what this facility was used for.

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Spike was driving up the long road from the guard house to the Complex slowly, looking at everything. He needed a visual of the surroundings. If they were to successfully get in there, they need to be prepared.

Ravyn was standing outside with Richard talking and laughing as Spike stopped the car in front of them. He rolled his eyes when he saw the way Ravyn was flirting and how the man was eating it up. Ravyn kissed him on the cheek and turned and got in the car.

"Laying it on a little thick there, weren't you luv?"

"No"

"Well, did you get anything?" he asked as he started to drive away.

"Yes" Ravyn replied with a smile.

"Well....what did you get?"

"A date"

Spike looked over at Ravyn, squinching up his forehead trying to understand if he heard her correctly.

"Ah, what....'cause it sounded a lot like you said a date."

"That's because I did"

Ravyn was watching Spike. She could see his jaw slightly clenching, not much, but enough to notice. He was staring straight ahead, making no efforts to look at her.

"Some big ritzy event held `here' at the Complex. Black Tie affair. What better way to get a good look at the place. There's a weapon's hold here to. The actually make the weapons here." Ravyn went on to tell him. "Richard, the geezer who was with me, spilled just about every little secret they have in there, then asked me if I would like to be his date for the party."

"No!" Spike said forcefully, not bothering to look at her.

Ravyn looked over at him. She was kinda shocked at his remark."This is perfect Spike. They'll be so manopleople in there no one will even notice me snooping around."

"I said no Ravyn...end of story!" Spike said looking over at her. She could see the hard look his eyes held now and knew he meant it.

*What is his problem * she thought as she stared at him.

She remained quiet all the way back to the motel as did he. This was her little adventure and she would be doing it if he wasn't there. She already had her mind set...whether he liked it or not.

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Ravyn ws lying in bed, wide awake. She hadn't spoken to Spike since he had tried to pull rank on her. He was acting really weird, Ravyn thought. She couldn't make out what was bothering him.

"Spike, you awake" she asked quietly.

"Yes"

Ravyn rolled over so she could see him. He was laying on his back staring up at the ceiling.

"Care to explain to me the problem you have with this party."

Spike looked over at her before turning onto his side, propping up on his elbow.
"The `problem'...is that's it's dangerous. More so than tonight." he said in a firm voice.

"I can take care of myself"

"I know you can, but not with a room full of people who get off on experimenting on demons for a living."

Ravyn stared up at him. How was she ever going to convince him that she could do this.

"Look, I'd be doing it if you weren't here, so what's the difference?"

"The difference is...that I `AM' here, and you're not going!" Spike said glaring at her.

"You can't tell me what I can and can't do Spike! I'm going" she said as she rolled back over in a huff.

"No your not!"

"Yeah....well, just hide and watch!"

Spike stared at the back of her head fuming. He wasn't letting her go! Who knows what would happen. It was to dangerous, even if she thought she could handle it. He wasn't letting her risk herself by going in there alone. At least when they made their move, he would be there to watch her back.

Laying back down, he returned his gaze to the ceiling. He had to admit, that the thoughts of her getting caught was the main reason for not wanting her to go. Her being captured scared him, but losing her completely, he wasn't sure if he was ready for that. He couldn't stand back and watch someone else he could have protected die. He liked her, even more than he wanted to admit. Each day he spent with her made the pain Buffy put him through a little more bearable. Glancing back over at her, he let out a long sigh. *You're not going..I can't lose you to* he thought before closing his eyes to sleep.

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Spike carried Ravyn's bag to the car and threw it in the trunk before slamming the lid down. To say he was mad was an understatement. She had not let up an inch on the party idea. She was determined to go no matter what he said. Getting in the car, he glared at her before turning the key and taking off towards town.

"I really wish you'd calm down" she told him as he whipped the car out onto the highway.

"Oh..and how exactly am I suppose to be acting knowing I'm going to let you walk in there and get your stubborn self killed!"

"I'm not going to get `killed'. Geez Spike, I'm know what I'm doing. I'm not stupid!"

"I didn't say you were stupid Ravyn' he said softly as he looked over at her, "It's just dangerous."

"I'll be fine" she said with a small smile. "I've been in scarier situations than this and lived to tell about them, don't worry so much"

"Can't help it" he said so softly she almost didn't hear him.

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Pulling up in front of the Hartsoe's B&B, Ravyn went inside and got herself a room. She couldn't let her `date' pick her up at the motel, so she decided to stay in town tonight and return to the motel after the party. After getting herself settled in, she went to meet Spike who was unusually quiet now.

"Get everything taken care of" he asked when she sat down beside him.

"Yep, good to go" "I still don't like this" he said looking at her.

"I know. Everything will be okay...I promise"

Spike smiled at her. "It better be. Who am I going to argue with if your gone?"

`As bossy as you are, I'm sure you'd find somebody else in no time" Ravyn said giggling.

*Maybe I don't want to find someone else* Spike said to himself. He was worried beyond belief. Every time he thought about it, he'd get a sick feeling in his gut.

"Well, I better go, don't stay out to late with that git" Spike said as he stood up and helped Ravyn to her feet.

"I won't. And don't worry." she told him as he walked her back to the B&B.

Spike hugged her and lightly kissed her on the fead ead before releasing her. He inhaled deeply, taking her scent with him. "Please, please be careful" he said.

"I will...night Spike"

"Night pet" Spike said as he watched her walk into the house. He knew the next 24 hours would be the longest in his life as he returned to his car and drove off into the night.

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Chapter Fifteen: About Time


Ravyn was getting nervous about her date. When she saw the black Limousine pull up...she had a brief desire to run. She was scared..not that she would have told Spike that..but none the less, she was. She couldn't help not to be. What if Spike's fear's became reality. Would he ever forgive her for doing it even though he told her not to and would he forgive himself for not stopping her.

"You are a vision" Richard told her as she stepped out onto the porch.

"Well, Thank You Richard" she said putting on her best smile.

"Shall we?" he asked offering her his arm.

Ravyn continued smiling as they got into the Limo and she charmed him the only way she knew how. She was starting to get a little worried though, as his hand had found the split up the front of her dress and he now had his hand on her thigh.

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The size of the room the event was being held in was huge. There were people everywhere. Richard took great pleasure showing off his `catch' to every old geezer in there. Ravyn felt uncomfortable under there gazes. After lots of talking and drinking..Ravyn was finally able to sneak away and see what she could find. From what she had seen, the blueprints back at the motel, were in fact this facility. Finally...something was going right. She had followed a group of party guest down into the weapon's hold. She was shocked at the amount of guns and other weird looking devices she saw. Some she had seen used, other's she didn't even know where to begin to figure out how to use them.

As the night wore on, Ravyn had all the information she and Spike would need to successfully get in and get there revenge. Now, the only problem was, getting out of here.

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Spike hadn't slept a wink that day and his constant pacing was starting to get on his own nerves. It was midnight and no sign of her yet. He knew deep down it would be later before she actually came back, but he was hopeing she didn't really go through with it. Lighting his 20th cigarette in the past hour, he sat down and tried not to think about her or how worried he was.

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It took Ravyn 45 minutes to find Richard. He was busy dazzling his guest with all his plans for the future. She had been ready to go for hours now. *How long can these dorks actually stay here* she thought to herself as she glanced at the clock again. It was 3:15am. She knew Spike was probably climbing the walls by know and ready to rip her a new one the minute she stepped foot back in the door.

Taking Richard off to the side, she complained of a headache and asked to be taken back to the house. He insisted on her going home with him...but *I THINK NOT!*

Finally, at 4:30 she was in a cab headed back to the motel for the fight she knew was waiting on her.

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*Where the hell is she!* Spike screamed in his head. He was beginning to get a dull sick ache in the pit of his stomach. He knew something was wrong. *5:10...sun'll be up soon* he thought and he continued to pace around the small motel room. Throwing himself in the only chair in the room he buried his head in his hands. He looked up minutes later as he heard the key enter the lock and the door swung open. She was home.

Spike was across the room in a flash and had her in a tight squeeze before she even had a chance to shut the door. "I was so worried about you" he said softly still holding her.

"Wow..didn't know you cared" Ravyn said smiling.

Grabbing her by her shoulder's, he jerked her back from him and let hours of pacing and gut wrenching worry take over. "Where in the hell have you been! Do you even know what time it is! No one there have a watch!? I thought those bastards had you in some little cage already! What would you have done then?"

Ravyn let him rant and rave as she walked across the room and put her bag down. She knew this ass chewing was coming, so why not let him get it all out of his system. She busied herself by removing her jewelry and getting out her bed clothes when she noticed the screaming had stopped. For a minute she thought he may have just had that heart attack he was always complaining about.


She slowly turned around to face him. He was looking at her like he had never seen her before. She was almost freaked out by it. Was he waiting on her to say something? Had he actually asked her a questions when she wasn't listening to him?


Spike was standing there looking at her speechless. He had never seen her look so stunning. She was breathtaking. Her hair was pulled high up on her head and clipped while the majority of it hung in long curls down her back. She wore a blood red silk gown. The back of the dress was very low cut, revealing her small waist. Thin spagetthi straps held up the front that plunged into a deep V that enhanced her breast, and a long slit that traveled up the entire length up her right thigh. He was having a hard time thinking as he took in her appearance.

"What?" Ravyn asked, as he slowly made his way across the room to where she was.

"You look beautiful" he told her softly as he stopped directly in front of her.

Ravyn felt like `she' was the one having the heart attack, as Spike reached up and cupped her cheek in his hand. She was having a hard time keeping eye contact with him. He had the most intense eyes she had ever seen. You could get lost in his gaze. She looked back up at him, when he started lightly running his thumb over her cheek.

As he lowered his lips to hers, she let her eyes fall shut as they made contact.
She was in heaven. She wanted him so much she could barely stand to be in the same room with him anymore. She brought her arms around his waist and leaned into him as she decided to finally give into her desires. His lips were so soft, she felt like she was melting. She moved her lips along his and lightly licked them, wanting to taste more of him. As his mouth opened, she was met half way as his own tongue reached out to caress hers. She moaned softly as she tasted him.

He ran his hand up her exposed back, sending shivers all the way up her spine. He broke the kiss and starting placing small, feather soft kisses over her face, making his way down to her neck.

"I want you" he whispered softly into her ear.

"I want you to" Ravyn replied in a shaky voice, as she was being swept away by the feel of his lips on her skin.

Spike brought the hand on her back up and slowly pulled the small strap of her dress off her shoulder placing soft kisses as he followed the strap down.

"God, I love the way you smell." Spike said wrapping his hands in her hair and pulling it softly to her shoulder.

He lifted his head up to look at her, as he reached over and removed the other strap and watched as the dress slowly fell down her body to the floor. All that remained was a small red thong.

"You are so beautiful" he told her softly as he took in the sight of her.

Ravyn pulled the clip from her hair and let it fall down her back. She reached out and pulled his shirt from his pants and he helped her pull it over his head. She placed small kisses and licks on his chest and got a moan out of him when she ran her tongue softlyr onr one of his nipples and bit lightly down on it. She continued raining kisses and licks up his chest and his neck, biting him softly with her blunt teeth when he held her head at his neck.

Picking her up he carried her to the bed and laid her down. Laying beside her, he again found her mouth and dove in as the desire to have her was becoming to much. The musky scent of her arousal was sending his senses into overdrive. It had been `way' to long.

Ravyn grabbed the back of his head and held him to her, thrusting her tongue into his mouth. She ran her finger's through his hair and moaned deep in her throat.

His hand found her left breast and gently massaged it. Spike broke the kiss and moved his lips down the side of her neck and made a path down to her other breast. Licking her extended nipple, she arched her back bringing her breast closer to him. As he suckled her, his other hand lightly squeezed and pinched her other breast, earning him the pleasure of her small keening noises. She held his head to her as she starting squirming on the bed.

Moving to her other breast, he showed it the same attention as the first, before moving his way down her body.

He kissed a trail down her stomach and ran his tongue around her navel before lightly darting inside. He kissed the soft skin just below it before lowering his head farther down.

Spike sat up on his knees and hooked both thumbs in the sides of her underwear before bringing them down her legs. The smell of her arousal hit him hard as he spread her legs and lowered his head, licking and kissing her inner thighs.

Spike took his hand and rubbed lightly over her moist wet center. She arched her hips up into his hand.

"Please Spike...." she said as her need for him increased.

Spike smiled to himself after hearing her cries...he loved to hear `em beg.

Lowering his head, he stuck his tongue out and ran it up the entire length of her folds. She was gasping for unneeded air as he ran his tongue around her swollen clit. Ravyn ran her finger's through his hair, holding him in place as he continued to lick her. Exploring lower, Spike found her wet entrance and thrust his tongue deep inside her. He moaned as he tasted her, causing her to move her hips slowly against his face, as the vibrations of his moans sent shocks to her belly.

"Spike...oh god...feels so good....." she babbled, as her head was thrashing back and forth against the pillows.

Spike withdrew his tongue and sucked on her nub again as he inserted a finger inside her. Pumping slowly, he inserted another finger, gently stretching her. Ravyn was rocking her hips against his fingers as he inserted a third. He felt her inner muscles tighten around his digits and he sucked hard on her clit as she exploded around him,eamieaming out his name as she came, shaking from the release.

Spike sucked his finger's cleaned, then crawled back up her body.

"I think I love the way you taste better than the way you smell." he said before attacking her mouth again.

Ravyn reached for the waist band of his pants and unfastened them as Spike kissed her. She pushed them down with her hands as far as she could before hooking them with her feet and pushing them down his legs.

Spike kicked the unwanted garment away and gasped as Ravyn grabbed his member and stroked it.

Kissing and nibbling on his neck, Ravyn ran her free hand up his back as he bucked his hips into her hand.

"I want you inside me Spike...now" she said as she positioned him at her entrance.

Spike thrust into her hard and they cried out, both from pleasure and pain. He remained still as he buried his head in her shoulder.

"Cor luv, your so bloody tight." he gasped out with a shaky breath, unable to move from the sensations he was having.

Ravyn giggled slightly at him, "Never had a virgiforefore?" she asked him as he brought his head back up to look at her.

"A virgin?" he asked finding her lips again.

"mmmm..yeah..virgin when I died."

Spike slowly pulled out until only the head remained and pushed his way back in.

"Oh.... god..Ravyn..you're so wet...." he said as his thrusting was getting faster, still kissing her.

Ravyn hooked her legs around his waist, in an attempt to get closer.

"Deeper Spike...need you deeper" she said with shallow breaths.

Spike grabbed her around the waist and sat up on his knees, pulling her into his lap, both moaning as he penetrated her all the way.

Ravyn had her arms around his neck and was using her legs around his waist to rock them into a fevered pace.

Spike watched her face as she flung her head back. Her mouth was slightly open and her eyes were closed. She brought her head back up and caught his lips again.

"You feel so good inside me" she whispered against his mouth. She licked and sucked at his lips until he was moaning.

He felt her inner muscles tighten around his cock as her orgasm approached. Wrapping his arms up her back, he grabbed her shoulders and rammed into her as hard as he could. He buried his face in her hair as he felt his own orgasm approaching.

Ravyn screamed out his name as she climaxed and brought her mouth to his neck. Letting her fangs extend, she bite into Spike's neck and drank him as he screamed her name and exploded inside her.

Pulling her fangs out of his skin, she lapped at the borrowed blood as he quivered beneath her. Kissing a trail up his jaw, she found his mouth and kissed him hard as he crushed his lips to her in return.

Breaking the kiss, Spike lowered them back onto the bed, turning so they were both on there side facing one another.

"You bite me" Spike said kissing her neck

"And you liked it" Ravyn said smiling.

"Yeah, maybe" he said grinning, "but you could've warned me you know."

"Then I wouldn't have gotten that oh so delicious scream out of you"

Spike chuckled into her neck and nipped at it with his blunt teeth.

"You're the first person I've bite since being chipped...now don't you feel special?"

Spike raised his head and looked at her smiling as he kissed her softly. "Yeah.....especially knowing I just had my first virgin"

Ravyn giggled into his mouth. "I really wished I could have seen your face. Would have been priceless."

"I'm sure it was" he said smiling.


Spike let his hand travel down her side as he continued kissing her. He parted her legs slightly and slid a finger down the length of her sex. Rolling her sensitive clit with his finger, Ravyn moaned and thrust her hips into his hand.

Ravyn draped her leg over his hip to give him better access, as she licked at the puncture wounds she had given him. He moved his head to the side, giving her more access to this neck.


He was panting and moaning with need as he withdrew his fingers and grabbed his once again firm rod and entered her slowly.

Ravyn gasped as he stretched her. Using all her strength, she flipped Spike over on his back and sat up on his shaft.

He looked up at here, almost shocked as she rose up off of him and slowly lowered herself back down. His eyes almost crossed as she squeezed her vaginal muscles around him.

Spike reached up and grabbed both her breast and pinched her nipples lightly as she road him. He was panting as her bouncing became faster. He closed his eyes and let the feel of her overtake him.

As Ravyn felt her orgasm getting closer, she leaned down and kissed him. He grabbed her by the head, running his finger's through her hair, holding her face to his.

As her rocking motions became faster, Spike reached around and grabbed her ass with both hands quickening the pace. He felt his release coming as he brought his legs up, bending at the knees slightly.

"Oh god...come with me Ravyn...." he said as he was about to explode. He drove his head back against the pillows as he felt her tighten around him, both screaming out the others name as they climaxed together.

Ravyn fell bonelessly against his chest as he wrapped his arms around her and held her tight. He kissed her forehead and stroked her hair as her body shivered slightly.

She rolled off him and laid her head on his chest, hugging him closely to her. She tucked her head under his chin, her eyes closed. She was enjoying the fell of him, but a little voice in her head was telling her not to get to comfortable. He didn't love her...she was only setting herself up for another heartbreak. She held him tighter to her, ignoring her nagging conscience, as she let sleep take her over.

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Chapter Sixteen : Reality


Spike opened his eyes as he heard Ravyn turn the shower on. He sighed and sat up slowly, throwing his legs over the side of the bed. He had been awake for a while, just watching her sleep and questioning himself again as to what he was doing.


He knew Ravyn felt something for him, he saw it in her eyes last night. The same thing he saw when he looked at Buffy, only she denied it with a passion.


It was true that he wanted Ravyn, what man wouldn't, but he didn't want to lead her own into thinking to much of it. It was just sex. He was in love with Buffy. He didn't think of Ravyn what way...right? He liked her sure but, it was just sexual attraction...wasn't it? You can't love two people at the same time. It's just not possible.


Reaching for the phone, he tried to push his guilt away about last night and decided he needed a friendly voice to cheer him up.


"Hello" Willow replied as she picked up the phone.

"Hey Red, Dawn around?"

"Spike, hey. Sorry she's not here right now. How are you, you okay?" she asked him. Not that she would tell her friends but she kinda liked Spike. He had done alot of `good' helping them and he took care of Dawn when he really didn't have to.

Spike grinned when she asked if he was okay. "Sure Red, wasn't aware you cared."

"Oh, well...it's just...you know, you've been helping us so much...just kinda got use to you being around. Wouldn't be normal to not think about you and wonder where you are."

"Thanks, that really means alot." Spike said. He had always liked the Wiccan, she was the only one besides Dawn who didn't treat him like dirt.

"Oh, Spike hold on a second, okay?"

"Sure thing Red"

"Hello...Spike?" Buffy said quietly as Willow handed her the phone.

Willow knew Buffy's feelings where Spike were concerned. After a month of mopping, Willow had finally forced her to fess up after she confronted her about it. She knew Buffy wanted to talk to him, might do home ome good to.

Spike froze the minute he heard her voice. He Did Not want to talk to her yet. Especially not right now, with what had happened with Ravyn. His guilt came flooding back to him ten fold. Why he even felt guilty for what he did was harder to answer than what he actually felt for Ravyn.


"Spike...you still there?" Buffy asked when he didn't respond.

"Yeah, I'm here." he answered her quietly.

"Oh...um...how are you?" she asked him.

"Fine"

"Oh, well...that's good." Buffy said, worried that he was being so quiet.

"So, you know when you're coming back...Dawn misses you." she told him.

Spike sighed. "Not sure Slayer. Haven't decided."

"Oh." It was Buffy's turn to sigh this time. This wasn't going like she had hoped.

Both sat quietly holding the phone, neither knowing exactly what to say. So much needed to be said, but neither one wanting to say it.

"Look, I better go" Spike finally said.

"I miss you" Buffy said so softly he barley heard her.

Buffy's heart was racing in her chest. The words had just slipped out of her mouth without even thinking.

"Look Buffy, you don't have to pretend with me. I know better."

"I'm not" she interrupted. "I came to see you that night, after we talked, but you were already gone.

"Yeah, for what?" he asked hopefully.

"Well, I thought about what you had said and...I don't know...I just thought maybe we could talk about it some more." she said not wanting to tell him `I love you' on the phone.

Spike ran his hand through his hair. If he would have only waited. What could have happened?

He was pulled from his thoughts by Buffy's voice.

"Are you with her?" she asked him, not really wanting to know the answer.

"Who?"

"Ravyn..are you with Ravyn?"

"Yeah. But it doesn't mean anything Buffy." he said quickly. "I still love you. I'm just helping her out."

Buffy still felt no better knowing. She thought she would. She didn't know what was going on, but she knew she didn't want him with Ravyn."Oh,"Oh, I see." she said.

"No. you don't. I'm coming home. Just not sure when. I Do Love You. It's just...I need some time to sort some things out right now."

"Okay, I understand" she said lying.

"Well, I need to get going. Tell the nibblet I called and I'll talk to her soon."

"Okay. I will. Bye Spike."
e Bue Buffy. I love You." he said quietly before hanging up the phone.

Ravyn stood with her forehead pressed against the bathroom door, tears rolling down her face. She had heard every word of Spikes conversation. She knew Spike loved the Slayer. She knew last night didn't mean anything to him, but it still hurt like hell.

Dryinr far face and getting her emotions under control she opened the door and stepped out of the bathroom.

"Shower's free" she said in her usual chipper mood. She couldn't look at him, so she busied herself sorting her clothes.

Spike looked over his shoulder at her when he heard her voice. She was her usual happy self this evening. Didn't act any differently from any other. Maybe the sex was just that to her after all. Not able to process his emotions, he got up and headed for the shower.

Once the door shut, Ravyn's shoulders slumped and her fake plastered on smile fell away. Grabbing her boots, she slipped them on and went out the door. She needed to be alone for a while and away from Spike. Finding a nice quiet spot behind the motel she sat and tried to figure out a way to deal with the mess she had gotten herself into.

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The first thing Spike noticed when he stepped out of the bathroom was that Ravyn was gone. He opened the front door and peaked out dit didn't see her anywhere. Closing the door, he dressed and sat there waiting for her to return.

He knew they needed to have a talk. What he was going to say....he had no idea.

Ravyn bounced back in the room a few minutes later. She didn't look nearly as confused asfeltfelt.

"Where'd you go?" he asked her

"Just for a walk." she said as she flopped down on the bed. "Let's go into town"

"Sure, what you wanna do?" Spike asked her.

"Doesn't matter. Just getting restless. Maybe we can go find something to kill. Try out those weapons you got stashed in the trunk." Ravyn told him, really needing a way to vent her frustrations.

Spike looked over at her and smiled. "Sure we can do that."

"Cool..hurry up" Ravyn said as she stood up and flew out the door.

Spike stood up and grabbed his duster. He watched as Ravyn went out the door, as if everything was exactly the same. Like last night hadn't even happened. Shaking his head, he closed the door behind him and was off to find something for R to to kill.

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Finding something to kill in this town was proving harder to do than they thought. Spike and Ravyn made there way through their third graveyard. They hadn't seen anything remotely demonic all night.

"Where are all the vamps and slimy things around here?" Ravyn asked, in desperate need to pummel something.

"Don't know, guess that Complex keeps the place pretty clean."

"Guess so" she said with a sigh. "Maybe were not far enough away from town."

"Maybe"

Ravyn stopped and looked around."I even wore my `ass kicking' boots just for the occasion."

Spike chuckled slightly as her and searched for his smokes. "Aren't those the same as all your other's?" he asked lighting his cigarette.

"Nope, these are special...see" she said with a grin, as she threw her foot up towards Spike's face.

Spike caught her foot and looked at the boot, trying to see what was so special about them. They looked exactly the same as all her others did, except these were red to math her outfit. As he studied the boot, a sly grin came over his face.

"You've got to be kidding me right?" he asked when he spotted the `special' feature.

Ravyn smiled big at him as she lowered her leg. "Nope, had these babies special made for that most intimate moment." she said giggling at his reaction.

"Does it work" he asked her.

"Yeah, you wanna find out?"

"No, I'll take your word for it" he said taking a few steps away from her smiling. "Let's go find you a `stupid' vamp...I wanna see this"

"Let's go" Ravyn said smiling, following behind him.

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Ravyn had her little `pouty face' on as they headed back out of the last graveyard in town. She sooo wanted to hurt something. Trying to act like nothing had happened the night before was starting to get to her.

"Stop poutin', your face is gonna freeze like that one of these days." Spike told her grinning.

"Shut up! Ravyn said rolling her eyes at him. "God, I HATE this place! Can't we just hurry up, go storm that Complex and get ouuta here?"

"We can't just go marching in there unprepared. It'll only get us killed."

"So, I know my number will be up sooner or later." she said crossing her arms over her chest.

"Yeah, well I'd like mine to be a long time from now." Spike told her.

"I never asked for your help you know, you're free to go whenever you want." she said, getting snappy with him. "I know you have more pressing business elsewhere to attend to, so don't let me stop you."

"What's that suppose to mean?"

"Just what I said."

"You don't want me here?" Spike asked her, grabbing her arm to stop her from walking.

"Don't matter to me one way or the other" Ravyn lied as she shrugged her shoulders, unable to look at him long.

Spike looked at her. She wasn't keeping eye contact with him, so he knew something was up. Her mood had also fallen way down the scale.

"What's this about?" he asked her.

"It's about me not asking for your help. You just volunteered you services. Nothing's stopping you from leaving."

"I haven't said anything about wanting to leave."

"So what....you're gonna stay here, help me get the bad guy's, and go home afterwards like nothing happened!" she said more loudly than she wanted to.

"This is about last night, innit" Spike asked cocking his head to the side, after seeing her whole face take on a harder look.

"No!" she spat out before turning and heading back down the street. "It was just sex Spike. People do it all the time."

"Ravyn stop." Spike said as he tried to catch up with her. "That's not all it was."

"Really?!" she said as she spun around to face him. "So, what was it exactly?"

"I don't know, but you make it sound like it didn't mean anything."

"That's because it didn't. I'm not stupid Spike. I know you're in love with that girl. We. Had. Sex. That's all. You're not obligated to me in anyway. I'm not going to get all starry eyed over the possibilities of there being anything between us, so you can put your mind at ease." she said irritated at him and hurt at the same time. "I'm all for a good lay as much as the next person, but don't do me any favors by pretending it was something more than it was...jusx!" x!"

Spike knew she was venting out of hurt. She held every emotion she was feeling in her eyes. He could barley stand to look at her. He knew now what Buffy saw when he went off on her. He never meant to hurt Ravyn but, now it was to late.

"Oh, look a lover's quarrel" Laughed a greasy headed vamp as he walked up behind Ravyn.

Ravyn whipped around and glared with yellow eyes at him before stomping over to him and landing a hard sidekick to his chest. The heel of her boot went through his chest and he exploded into dust as her wooden heel made contact with his heart. "Didn't you momma ever tell you it was rude to interrupt someone when they were talking?!" she yelled as his ashes crumbled to the sidewalk.

Ravyn turned around to where she had left Spike. "See, now I feel much better." she said sarcastically with a fake smile as she turned once again and started back down the street.

"I'm hungry, let's go eat!" she yelled over her shoulder.

Spike stood there, wide eyed as he watched Ravyn walk down the sidewalk. He never would have believed that if he hadn't seen it. She was wearing her red leather today, and her hair was down. She looked sexy as hell he thought, but that wasn't all she was. She was quick...and deadly...especially when she was pissed. She could kill you before you ever had a chance to look at her good.

"Are you coming or not!" Ravyn yelled out to Spike at the corner of the street.

*I'm in deep shit* Spike thought as he started walking to where she was standing, hands on her hips...completely glowing with anger. *I thought Buffy was bad. Ravyn made Buffy look like one of the scoobies on the `dangerous' meter.* Spike smiled to himself as he walked to her. He always liked fighting Buffy. *Maybe a couple rounds with Ravyn would be even better...as long as she didn't wear those boots.*

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