Goodbye William

Un-mixy things.

“Jasmine I don’t want what I had before…I want all or nothing…either I am her man or I’m not. Not just when she feels like it. Been there done that got the sodden T-shirt. I want her all the time or not at all.
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Spike was standing at the front of the church in his tux, waiting for her. Buffy wearing a beautiful wedding gown walked up to him and he removed her veil. Spike looked into her eyes and she could see his love for her shining through. “I love you Slayer…love you more than anything. I would do anything for you. I’d never hurt you Baby.”

“I know Spike. I love you too.” She said leaning in to kiss him. Spike ran his finger tips down the side of her face.

“Say it again…Please Buffy I need to hear it.”

“I love you Spike, I love you so much…I’m sorry that it took me so long to realize it, and I’m sorry that I let things come between us that never should have.”

“Buffy I want to make love to you. I love you so much none of that other stuff matters.” Spike said passionately.

Spike picked Buffy up and lay her down on her bed, instantly he was beside her, and they were both naked.

Buffy spread her thighs and Spike placed two fingers inside of her. She bucked her hips wildly. Spike shifted his weight and was on top of her thrusting slowly inside of her. “See Buffy we were made for each other, you fit me perfectly.” Spike was thrusting inside her and Buffy was bucking wildly underneath him.

“Spike. Fuck yeah, you know how to touch me…you make me so wet.” She said suggestively running her tongue over her bottom lip. Spike leaned down and kissed her passionately. Buffy arched up into him “Spike I’m gonna come…taste me…” She pleaded.

She watched his fangs descend. He plunged them gently into her jugular. Buffy closed her eyes and relaxed into his embrace. Spike took a few pulls of her blood as her juices flowed making her contract around him. “Spike” She cried out her release, as she did it sent him over the edge and he spilled his cold seed inside her.

“Buffy, love you baby.” Spike moaned his release.
Buffy opened her eyes.

Spike was standing in the sunlight on the grass in her back yard. His arm around Dawn, they were smiling. “Come on” Spike encouraged as he knelt down in the grass. Buffy saw a baby crawling towards him.

“Spike?” Buffy asked walking up to him and placing her hand on his arm. WARM? NOT ON FIRE? “Spike is this real? Are you real?” Buffy questioned. A hint of panic in her voice.

“It could be Buffy. I love you that much.” Spike said smiling genat hat her. “I could become human for you.”

“But Spike I don’t care about that…I love you the way you are.”

“But Buffy…I could be accepted by all of your friends. We could have a baby…” Spike said looking at the child rolling around on the grass with Dawn.
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Buffy awoke with a start. What the hell? That couldn’t have been a slayer dream…Spike couldn’t…could he? Do I want him to? Research time.
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Buffy arrived at the magic box. “Will, did fin find anything out about that demon?” Buffy questioned.

“Yeah Buffy there were a few things we …discovered.” Willow said with a sigh. “Mohra demons are Soldiers of Darkness—assassins—whose sole mission is to kill warriors serving the Powers That Be. With green skin that’s more like armor than flesh, adorned with spikes on either cheek and a red jewel in the middle of their forehead. They are experts in swordsmanship and unarmed combat, particularly martial arts. They need vast quantities of salt to survive and their “veins run with the blood of eternity.” Willow said. “Its blood has healing properties and can heal a person or demon if its blood makes contact. If a Mohra demon is killed, it’s only temporary, and they return bigger and stronger than before. To kill it permanently, the jewel in their forehead must be shattered causing them to explode in a fireworks display of yellow light.” Willow finished.

“It disappeared Buffy, I think it’s gonna go looking for you again, cause hey, ya cut it’s head off.” Xander said with a shudder.

“Spike cut it’s head off, it it attacked me. I guess I’ll patrol. I’ll find it…What was that about it’s blood?” Buffy asked suddenly.

“It has healing properties, it can heal people or demons…not really sure what that means. I’ll do some more research.” Willow said distractedly as she opened a book.
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Spike awoke at 5 PM feeling groggy and disoriented. Bugger I feel like I just went fifteen rounds with Buffy. I feel like hell. Spike thought to himself. After he fed he felt like his normal self. Well I guess it’s off to patrol. I wonder if Buffy will meet up with me? If she’s as upset as Dawn said she was maybe she won’t want to see me.
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Buffy entered the cemetery at the same time Spike did but at the opposite end. They ran into each other less than five minutes later.

“Spike!” Buffy squeaked, remembering her dream from earlier…and what Willow had said about the blood of a demon.

“Yeah…Still need help don’t you Slayer?” Spike asked casually. Trying not to let her see how much she affected him. God Buffy your scent is driving me crazy. I want you so much. You look amazing in that tiny tight skirt, almost naked. Spike thought lustfully. He tried not to stare at her, tried not to breathe so her scent wouldn’t affect him. It wasn’t working. He felt like he had to breathing every time he was near her.

“Yeah Spike remember that demon from yesterday? Well…it’s apparently kicking again. We have to smash the jewel in his head to kill it fully.” Buffy said. Don’t you love me anymore? She thought to herself.

“Bloody hell.” Spike muttered rolling is eyes.

Seven vampires came towards them. Buffy and Spike in their beautiful way with silent communication and body language had all seven dusted in minutes. They were both breathing hard and as always at the end of a fight they were staring into each other’s eyes. Buffy took a step towards him. Spike sent her a warning growl. “Slayer.” Buffy’s panties were instantly soaked and her scent assaulted Spike’s nostrils. “Buffy, go home, I’ll find him myself.” Spike said desperately trying unsuccessfully to block the nearness of her body from his mind.

“Spike…there’s no way I’m gonna just leave. You want someone to leave it’s gonna be you.” She said glaring at him. “This is after all MY calling. I asked YOU to help not the other way around.”

“Slayer would you please quit being such a bitch!” Spike yelled at her.

“Spike I…I’m sorry I didn’t mean to…I just…I want you.” She said taking a step closer to him. He didn’t back away. She thought and took another step closer.

This time Spike did back up a step. “What are you afraid of Spike?” Buffy asked placing a gentle hand on his shoulder.
“I …Slayer stop please.” Spike said desperately.

“I don’t want to stop.” Buffy said softly leaning in to kiss him. Spike deepened the kiss pulling her in closer.

Oh Buffy love you so much. Spike thought to himself as Buffy pulled her body into his.

“Spike …I want you inside me…it’s been way to long…” Buffy sighed into his mouth.

“No…Stop…Buffy please Stop.” Spike said gently pushing her away. “You told me to move on. I did, I can’t keep going this way. I died a hundred years ago. But you can make me feel like it isn't so. Why you come to be with me I think I finally know. You’re scared. Ashamed of what you feel and you can't tell the ones you love you know they couldn't deal. Whisper in a dead man's ear, It doesn't make it real.” Spike sighed. “That's great. But I don't wanna play. 'Cause being with you touches me. More than I can say. But since I'm only dead to you I'm saying stay away. And let me rest in peace.”

“Spike it’s not like that I…”

“I know I should go. But I follow you like a man possessed. There's a traitor here beneath my breast. And it hurts me more than you've ever guessed. If my heart could beat, it would break my chest. But I can see you're unimpressed. So leave me be.” Spike said turning and walking away. He didn’t look back and didn’t see the tears welling in Buffy’s eyes.
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“Yeah I’ve thought about having my chip removed…but what if that’s what’s keeping me from killing? What if I remove it and kill someone? What if the chip is the only thing making me be good?”

“That’s a crock Spike…yeah ok, you started changing because of the chip…but that only meant you couldn’t kill living things…you coulda still been evil. You could have had minions or…your mate kill for you and you could have eaten. You are a strong powerful warrior. You chose to be good, and you keep choosing every day.”

~~ FLASHBACK ~~

“I don't believe in science. All those bits and molecules no one's ever seen. I trust eyes and heart alone. And do you know what mine is singing out right now?” Drusilla asked “You're a killer. Born to slash ... and bash ... and... oh, bleed like beautiful poetry. No little tinker-toy could ever stop you from flowing.” She smiled placing her hand on Spike’s head.

“Yeah.” Spike whispered.

“Ohh.”

“But the pain ... love, you don't understand, it's ... it's searing. It's, um, blinding.”

“All in your head. I can see it. Little bit of ... plastic, spiderwebbing out nasty blue shocks. And every one is a lie. Electricity lies, Spike. It tells you you're not a bad dog, but you are.” Drucilla said softly.
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“It's been fun while it lasted, Harm, but I think it'd be best now if you hit the road.” Spike snarled picking her up by the throat and tossing her into the wall.

“Why? Because she's back?” Harmony asked tears filling her eyes.

“No. Because I am.” Spike said with a malicious cocky grin.

“And there you are, my darling, deadly boy.” Drucilla said putting her arm around him.
~~ END FLASHBACK ~~
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“So you see it’s a muzzle” Jasmine said confidently.

“Yeah …but it’s the only reason the Slayer hasn’t dusted me already.” Spike said sighing.
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She was upset and thouroughly pissed. Why would he refuse me? He’s the one who’s supposed to be in love with me. Buffy thought to herself entering the house.

“Hey Buffy, you gonna come Bronzing?” Dawn asked startling her out of her thoughts

“You know… I really think I will...Spike’ll be there right?” Buffy asked trying to make it sound innocent.

“Yeah probably. Him and Jasmine where there last time.” Dawn replied.

“Ok just give me a couple of minutes to get ready ok?” Buffy smiled He won’t know what hit him. She though to herself, a plan already forming in her mind.
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“Wow Buffy you look amazing!” Dawn exclaimed when Buffy finally made it downstairs. She was wearing a super short black mini skirt. Black leather high healed boots that reached mid calf. A see through hunter green blouse over a tiny black tank top. She also had on a leather jacket that was longer than her skirt. The finishing touch was her hair piled loosely on top of her head, exposing her neck. Yeah watch him drool. Two can play his little game. She thought excitedly. “Thanks Dawnie, ready to go?” She asked.
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Buffy and Dawn entered the Bronze, all of the Scoobies were sitting at the table waiting for them.

“Wow Buff, you look amazing.” Xander said, his eyes almost falling out of their sockets.

“All dressed up? Got a date?” Willow asked.

“Can’t I want to look nice for no reason?” Buffy asked. Then suddenly she felt the signal that told her Spike had entered. A tiny tingle in her spine, that sent moisture to the apex between her legs. Let’s see what he thinks of my outfit. “I’ve gotta go to the bathroom, I’ll be back.” She said

She spotted Spike and Jasmine, just sitting down at a table. Spike was pulling out a chair for her. “Hi Spike, Jasmine.” Buffy said stopping at their table. “Buffy.” Spike said nodding to her. Fuck she’s amazing. She trying to kill me? Spike thought to himself.

“I’ll see you later. Just stopped by on my way to the ladies room.” Buffy said walking off.

“What the bloody hell is she trying to do to me?” Spike asked Jasmine.

“I’d say she wants you really badly, trying to show you what you’re missing especially since you’ve rejected her twice.” Jasmine smiled. “I think she may try to win you back…”

“No way…she wouldn’t do that…all her friends are here.” Spike sighed glancing in their direction.

Dawn came bounding up to their table. “Hey guys…have you seen Buffy?”

“Yes Dawn she just went to the ladies room.” Jasmine said politely.

“Ok well, just stopped by to say hi, and find out if you had seen her. I’ll see you later.” Dawn said leaving to rejoin the Scoobies, smiling softly to herself.
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Buffy walked up to the bar where he was sitting. “Hi Brian remember me?” Buffy asked seductively.

“Yeah…Buffy right?”

“Yeah, so did you still want that dance?” She asked casually.

Spike and Jasmine were dancing to a slow song when Spike noticed Buffy coming on to the dance floor pulling some guy along behind her. Spike felt a wave of jealousy and possessiveness come over him so strong, he had to stop dancing and clench his teeth together or he would have gone over and ripped his bloody arms off.

Buffy noticed Spike looking in her direction and pulled Brian in close and wrapped her arms around his neck, pasting a fake smile on her face she let him guide her along the floor.

“It’s ok Spike…let her come to you.” Jasmine whispered in his ear and pulled his body back into the swaying motion. Jasmine leaned her head on his shoulder. Spike closed his eyes and tried not to let his jealousy show.

Crap. Well this backfired nicely. Buffy thought to herself, furiously jealous that it was Jasmine in Spike’s arms and already bored with Brian. “Well thanks for the dance.” She said politely extracting herself from Brian’s cloying embrace as soon as the song ended.

“Can I get you a drink?” Brian asked

“Uh…not right now I’ve gotta go check on my sister.” Buffy said already walking away.

Buffy walked up to the Scoobie table and sat facing Spike and Jasmine.

“Why the hell didn’t he…stupid vampire.” Buffy muttered under her breath.

“Oh…hey look the walking un-dead has a new girlfriend.” Xander said casually. “Probably why we haven’t seen much of him. Guess he really did get over his obsession with you Buff.” Xander said smiling at her. “And you're sitting here at the Bronze looking like you just got diagnosed with cancer of the puppy. Ok Buff, what's the 'what' here?”

“Yeah…I guess he did.” Buffy sighed sadly ignoring Xander’s statement.

“That’s Jasmine. She’s super nice, they’ve been dating for a while now.” Dawn said smiling. She looked over at Buffy. Buffy was staring at Spike and Jasmine seething. Just a few more words and She’ll be over there getting him back! Dawn thought to herself. “I think they make a cute couple, good for Spike…I’m glad he finally found someone who cares about him.” Dawn said

“I care about him.” Buffy said softly.

All conversation at the table stopped and everyone turned to Buffy.

“You don't know how hard it's been.” Buffy said sadly when she noticed everyone staring.

“What, lying to us?” Xander asked.

“*Being* here. After I was brought back... You have no idea how hard it is just being here.” Buffy said getting angry.

“You could have told us.”

“You didn't want to know.”

“So you went to *him* instead?”

“Xander, what I do with my personal life is none of yours or anyone else’s business.”

“It used to be.”

“It just happened, okay.”

“Oh, like, "Say, you're evil. Get on me."?” Xander was getting angry.

“You fought side by side with him when I was gone. *You* let him take care of Dawn …” Buffy was ticked.

“But I never forgot what he really is. God, what were you thinking?”

“You're asking *me* that? Oh, 'cause your decision making skills have *really* sparkled.”

“I'm not saying I didn't made mistakes. But last time I checked, slaughtering half of Europe wasn't one of 'em. He doesn't have a soul, Buffy, just some leash they jammed in his head. You think he'd still be all snuggles if that chip ever stopped working? Would you still trust him with Dawn then?”

“It doesn't matter. He doesn’t…I'm not seeing him anymore. It's over.” Buffy said tears threatening to fall.

“Yeah.” Xander said softly.

“Buffy you are the one who told him to move on…he still loves you, but he wants to do the right thing. He wants to follow the rules you set down.” Dawn said softly.

“Doesn’t look like he still loves me.” Buffy said glancing towards where Spike was still dancing with Jasmine. I want to hate her…really but it’s not her fault. It’s mine. I never realized what I wanted till it was gone. “Dawnie I made a big mistake I wish I could just take it back…”

“Why would you do that Buffy? Just to hurt him again?” Dawn asked.

“No…I …I really never realized how happy he makes me…until recently…”

“But Buffy he’s an evil Killer!” Xander said his voice panicky. “You can’t want that!”

“I do want that Xander, sorry but I do. I am in love with him.”

“Buffy he…”

“Shut up Xander! She deserves to be happy, especially after what you put her through.” Dawn said furious with him. “Go to him Buffy, talk to him…tell him you’re sorry…” Dawn said.

“Yeah I think I will.” She said getting up from the table and walking slowly towards the dance floor.

“Xander…Spike loves her…he changed his whole life to be with her…even while she was being cruel to him, he only wanted to be there for her. She told him things she never would have told you guys. She hid their whole relationship with him from you guys, cause she knew how you’d react. He doesn’t have a soul that much is true, but he also doesn’t have a happiness clause, so he has no soul to lose.” Dawn said confidently. “I spent a lot of time with Spike I know he loves her, he’d rather die than hurt her, after everything doesn’t she deserve someone who loves her like that?” Dawn asked softly

“Yeah someone who would never leave her.” Tara added quietly.

The table got really quiet each of the deep in thought over that, as they all watched the Slayer stalk her Vampire.
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