The Silent Urge Series

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PLAGARISM:

The Author "kat" (http://adultfan.nexcess.net/aff/authors.php?no=20460) has again posted her fic "To You I Belong" of which almost the first chapter is COPIED from RakshaTheWolf's fic NEXUS (Chapter 2) even after it was already once deleted by the Webmistress because of exactly that problem. She also took shorter paragraphs and phrasings from author authors i.e. Jenn (Playing Games). You can find Nexus here: http://www.slashaholics-island.com/library/viewstory.php?sid=1146
and I hope you writers and readers of fanfic show your dislike of copying other people's work.
I can't understand why people do that, sorry, those people are a shame for the fandom, for all of us fanfic readers and writers, don't let them get away with it!

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Sorry for the mix up - I forgot to post Chapter 29 here, now everything is in order again. New chapters coming soon.

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The Silent Urge Series

Chapter 33 – Fulfilment II


~ Xander ~

When the warm post-orgasmic feeling sets in I slowly open my eyes and push up my head, looking for Spike. He is fumbling with his duster getting something out of a pocket and before I see what it is I just know. Lube. I swallow hard and look away from the little tube embraced by long lean fingers up to Spike's face. At least that was what I wanted to but instead I am fixated on his other hand, how it strokes down his muscled belly to the waistband of his jeans. I hold my breath when the button pops open without any sound at all and then the zip goes down, agonizing slowly like a rollercoaster on its way up. The dreaded stomach lurching keeps out and it's not fear that makes me lick my lips. I've never been in a situation like this. I am afraid of doing things wrong – I am always afraid to do things wrong, nothing new there.

I get a glimpse of Spike's cock, not enough to really see anything clearly, before he drops down on his hands and starts crawling towards me. His shoulder and arm muscles play together with the fluid grace I have never seen on him without clothes and I wish for a second I could see him fight naked. Which is completely ridicoulous. I try to keep the grin from my face and when our gazes lock, Spike stops suddenly. He kneels between my still slack, spread open legs and just looks at me with an impressionless face. Well, it would work if he wouldn't keep tapping his fingernail against the tube impatiently.

We're stuck in something like a tie that's slowly killing the mood and someone has to break the silence, the tension. That would be me.

"Thought you'd be more the leadsinging type, not the drummer." I say and it looks like Spike's brain kinda short circuites.

"What?!" He asks, confusion clearly written on his face and I laugh a little and get a growl for it. I bite my lower lip and look down, freezing when I realise that Spike is completely naked, kneeling there with his cock proudly errect out from dark curles. Whoops, that is big. *swallow*


~ Spike ~

What the hell? Lead singer? Drummer? Me? I shake my head in irritation. I am not going to think about that now. Later. Now I want him. Badly. And well, if the look he gives my cock is anything but clear admiration. I suppress the smirk and open the cap of the lube, turn it and squeeze nearly too much in my hand. So, I am a bit nervous 'bout this too.

I rub my hands together and then, very slowly I lower my left hand down to my cock, fasten my fingers around it and give it a leisurely up and down stroke. Damn, feels like I have been waiting decades for this to happen and not just about over a week.


~ Xander ~

My own cock twitches when Spike wraps his long fingers round his own. He thrusts his pelvis out, abs fluttering like his eyelids do when the sensation hits. I watch him as he closes his eyes, takes in forcefully long breathes as he jerks his cock and all I can think is that he looks gorgeous and alive. Alive and just like any other guy in this world would look caught in pleasure and anticipation of... more pleasure.

The need to touch him, to share the experience with him gets so strong I try to sit up. That seems to snap Spike out of his preparations, if you want to call it that and he bows down to me, nearly touching his lips to mine while he stares in my eyes.

I can feel his breath on my lips, he's hesitating, waiting for something. I hold his gaze and sink deeply into the midnight ocean blue of his eyes, see the golden stars rise and sparkle and then I get it.


~ Spike ~

Blanketing his body with mine, taking comfort in the heat of his body I look at him and watch him figure it out. No lies. No hidden truths. No pretenses. I am what I am.
He seems surprised, not afraid, which is good.

"I want you. All of you." I whisper against his lips and flash my real eyes at him.


~ Xander ~

My mind goes completely blank for a few seconds and my cock jerks back to life almost but not quite painfully.

"Then take it." I finally force out the words in my head and surrender myself completely to Spike. He gasps before his tongue dives in between my half open lips. I moan, still overwhelmed by the way Spike kisses, as if nothing else but I exist for him and I like it that way. Don't think I've ever been this ...important to any of my former partners.


~ Spike ~

Bloody hell. As soon as he says it I need all my control to not let my demon out and roar in triumph. I settle myself a bit by claiming his mouth and touching every inch of flesh available to me. He is eagerly pushing back into every touch, every thrust of my hips. Then our cocks slide against each other and he cries out. Oh fuck, he has still so much to experience, so much to learn.

He rubs himself against me, frantically and his kisses get harder, demanding, more. Yeah, that's what I want to see, want to see you lose yourself, lose control.

"Xander." I moan and his leg comes up, wraps itself around my back. Fuck. No better time than now. A slight movement and my cock is gliding smoothly between his ass cheeks, not penetrating, just giving him the idea. He hisses, when the tip of my cock nudges carefully against the entrance of his body.


~ Xander ~

Oh. Oh. Yes. I think. I want more. So this is more. I want more. Easy. More. Everything that counts right now. More of Spike, of his kisses of his body, of this intimacy.

I push my hips forward a little, making clear that I want him in me now. Don't wanna wait. Need him now.


~ Spike ~

I... didn't expect that reaction. God – he's so eager. I pushes against the tip of my cock a bit more, and more, and more and I just press against him, waiting for him to open up farther, to take me in. He groans with every little millimeter his hole opens to me, every little millimeter I can get my cock in deeper inside his body.


~ Xander ~

Breathing seems to be a luxury I can't afford right now. I wriggle under Spike, rock against the steady pressure of the blunt head of his cock. Damn, I want him inside me now.

"Spike... more. Need more." I gasp out and try to emphatisize my request with another harder push.


~ Spike ~

Okay. Can't let him wait any longer, can I. I readjust my position, giving myself a bit better leverage and pull up his other leg, too. I look down and have to look away again quickly because the visual is just too good and would take me right over the edge if I would dwell on it.

I just hope I won't hurt him, much. I start pressing forward a bit more forcefully, watching his face with those wide brown eyes while I do and his hole clenches close. Oh come on. No.

"Relax. Just push a bit, will be easier." I whisper, not letting up the pressure and he nods. Seconds later I feel him open around me like a flower to the sun and heat is welcoming me. I shudder involuntarly.

"Yeah, Xan, that's it, baby, let me in." I moan, groan, whimper.


~ Xander ~

I didn't expect pain, maybe a bit but this has nothing to do with pain. A slow, deep strech that centers your whole world inside and nothing is important but that feeling – god – this is good. Getting better with every little thrust Spike makes and I feel the anticipation spiralling higher and higher to the moment he'll be full sheathed inside of me.

Another push and I bend up to him, try to keep my eyes on his when something gives and the thick head of his cock enters me. I feel like screaming and holding my breath at the same time and it's so weird and good and all together. Goosebumps and cold shudders race up my spine, making me push out my chest, arching of the floor.


~ Spike ~

Bloody hell. His passage clenches around my cock as soon as the tip is fully inside. Only experience keeps me from coming right then. The look in his eyes... complete ravishment and want, need is so intense. I give both of us time to get used to this new connection of our bodies, just a few breathes, in, out, in, out... before I dare to shove forward carefully. He lets out a long drawn out whimpering groan that makes me stop and he cries out. For more.

Inch by inch I push inside, trying to be gentle not urgent. Hard to keep control. The iron grip of his hands on my shoulders fastens even more and I know I rub against his prostate. His eyes are open and nearly black, staring at me with disbelieving wonderment. I bow down, resting my weight on my forearm while I tangle my hand in his hair, kiss him deeply and thrust in to the hilt. He gasps and shudders.

God, I love him.


~ Xander ~

It's too slow and too fast, too deep and not deep enough until finally I feel his balls against my ass. He's inside me. Deeply embedded inside of my body as if he belongs there, always was there, always will be there.

We're kissing with a basically new understanding of ourselves and it's soft and tender and ... original. There's something between us now in such a simplicity that wasn't there like this before. Two beings being one. Belonging. Love.


~ Spike ~

I draw back a bit to look into his face and his eyes are filled with amazement. I can't remember when - if anybody ever looked at me like that. We start rocking togther and his eyes roll back in his head while his mouth opens, groaning when I withdraw, lowly grunting when I return. I shift a bit so I get my hand free from under his leg which he wraps around my back immediately and I take his cock into my hand, start fisting it in time to my thrusts. He is so close, only a few strokes and he's crying out and coming in long thick ropes of semen across our both bellies.

His body's reaction, going rigid, then jerking in the midst of the orgasmic wave, his hole clenching and unclenching and clenching around my cock, sends me over the edge too and I pump my essence inside of him, losing it completely.


~ Xander ~

Seeing, feeling Spike come inside me, eyes flashing and his natural face emergeing than dissapearing in the calm down phase, knowing that this was fulfilment for both of us, makes me feel all warm inside. I know I am prolly grinning like mad.

Slowly my vampire opens his eyes and there is a new light shining inside the swirling golden-blue orbs. He starts to tremble, the strain of the events catching up with him and I pull him down to me, kiss his temple, his forehead, down his cheek bones and his soft lips. His mouth twitches in a weak smile and I embrace him, welcome him inside my heart.


End of Part C – Revelations


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Okay, you lovely people, this was Part C and yes, Part D will come but I don't know when. I am really busy with my exams and all and I don't know how much time I'll have to write. I try but I promise nothing and well - the exams are really important -> I lose my job if I don't pass.

But I hope you are all okay with the way this Chapter ended and I promise a lot of action and answers to open questions in Part D.
Thanks very much for the support and the comments. You rock. Thank you.

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