Just love me...

Title: Just love me… (2/?)

Author: Valeria (valepuiguy@yahoo.com)

Rating : R and NC-17

Disclaimer: All characters of ‘Buffy the Vampire Slayer’ belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy and Fox. I just borrow them, blah blah blah...

Category: Romance/Drama/Mystery

Time: Middle of season 6.

Pairing: B/S (Spuffy, of course)

Feedback: Yes, please!

Author’s note: Cursives sentences are Spike’s dreams, ok?

Summary: A new evil power invades Sunnydale and takes Spike with him.
“Love? What’s love without passion, tears and devotion? Drama, action, romance and adventure, mix up in this fantastic story. Would you choose between them? She won’t choose one. She’ll do everything, to save the man she fell in love with.”

Spike woke up in the middle of the night, sweating and trembling. He was scared. Something was there. He looked around, searching for it. That was when he realized that Buffy wasn’t there.

“Buffy?” he asked, looking around. The bed was empty; she had left.

He suddenly heard something, a voice...

‘You will return to me, William, just like before...’ the voice said.

It was cold. He breathed, and he saw some his breath come out in a frosty mist. A shadow appeared inside the crypt; it was dark, but he could still see it.

“Who are you? What...”
‘I’m the one who will change you into who you were...

“What...? I won’t... What are you? A demon? Some kind of ghost? I’m not afraid of you...”

“Yes, you are, I can feel it. I feel it in your bones, in your essence, in your entrails. I come from the darkness... I’m that evil thing you are afraid of; I’m the cause of the nightmares, all the nightmares... I’m death; I’m life... I’m the master; I’m the slayer... I’m God; I’m the devil... Ii’m all what I want to be, and you won’t stop me... they think that I don’t exist…I came with death…with the slayer…and I’ll drag you with me into the darkness…, and no one will save you.’

“She will”, he said, looking out at the darkness of the crypt.

“You think so? You think she would love anke cke care of you, like I would? She has no idea of what you are: a beast, a killer... you are not human, and you never will be... one of them.”

And then she vanished... and Spike woke up.

He sat on the bed, feeling a warm arm pull around him.

“What’s wrong?” Buffy asked. “A nightmare?”

He didn’t respond.

“Come on, it’s me; you can tell me...”

“Why?” he asked, without looking at her.

“What do you mean, ‘why’? Because I’m worried about you… I take care of you…” she said.

Spike remembered what the ghost had said: “You think she would love and take care of you, like I would? She has no idea of what you are: a beast, a killer... you are not human, and you never will be... one of them.”

“You don’t love me,” he bitterly told her.

“I do…” she said, still not looking at him.

“You love me?” he asked, laughing sarcastically.

“Yes, I do,” she insisted, hurt by his sarcasm.

“You love me...”He continued to laugh, and then some tears appeared in his eyes.“You love me...” –he covered his face with his hand– “You cannot love me.” He started crying.

“Spike” –she hugged him, wrapping his head securely between her arms– “Yes, I do. I love you. I realised that tonight. These feelings… what I feel for you…. It’s natural.”

He buried his face in her neck.

“Why?” he asked, crying.

“Because I know you. I know who you are.”

“I’m a killer, Buffy,” he said, looking directly at her. “That’s what I am. How can you love a killer?”

“Spike!” She held his face with her hands, making him look into her eyes. “You are not a killer, not anymore! Yyou are not the evil man you used to be.”

“But...” he said, “She told me... you didn’t love me. That I was a beast... a killer, that you would never love me…”

“She… in your nightmare? She was lying... I’ll always love you! You know that… don’t forget it...” she added in a whisper. “Never forget it… Come here...”

He leaned on her chest, still crying. She hugged him more, kissing his hair, his forehead and his cheeks.

“Everything is gonna be ok...” she told him.

After a few minutes he calmed down.

“Do you want to tell me about your nightmare?” she asked, softly.

“I think it was more than a nightmare,” he said, sitting on the bed.

“A premonition, you mean?” she said, caressing his hair and then his back.

“Yeah.” He looked over at her. “Buffy, remember when you came back, and that demon came with you?”

“Yeah... I killed him.”

“Well, in my nightmare a shadow appeared...” –he started thinking– “...it was like a ghost, something in the darkness.”

“She talked to you?” Buffy asked, looking at him.

“Yeah” –he swallowed– “She said... that the demon who came with you from death, wasn’t the only one who... passed. She said that she was the darkness, and that... she would take me with her... that she would change me into the beast I was before...” He looked over at her again, scared.

“Spike, listen to me” –he looked at her eyes– “That won’t happen, I promise. I won’t let it.”

“She said that you wouldn’t be able to stop her.”

“Hey, I’ve stopped everything in my way, remember? Even you for a while...” She smiled. “Don’t worry. We will search some information tomorrow, ok?”

“Yeah. Ok.”

*

A few hours later…

Spike covered himself with a blanket while Buffy put her skirt on.

“Cover all of your body; I don’t want a dusted vampire as a boyfriend,” she told him, smiling.

“A boyfriend?” –they both smiled– “You know, that’s why I love you so much.” He threw away the blanket and started kissing her.

Hmmmm... “Spike!” she exclaimed. “We have no time for this...” she added, letting him kiss her neck.

“Sure we do.” He put a hand between her thighs. Then he carried her to the bed.

“Hmmmm, I love when you do that.” He started touching her clit through her panties. –

“But Spike... we need to go...”

“I don’t want anything but you,” he said, kissing her face.

“But they will worry...”

“Forget them...” He unhooked her bra, kissing her breasts and her nipples.

“Ahhhh... I can’t...” –he bit one of them– “Ahhhhhh...”

“Why not?” he said again, biting the other one.

“Because... they are... my friends...”

“I’m your boyfriend...” he said, smiling at her.

“Yeah...” He took off her skirt and her panties. His cock was begging for attention. He unzipped his pants, and took it out. She sat on his lap, with his cock in her wet entrance.

“Easy...” he said.

She put it inside of her, slowly, feeling a bit of pain.

“Shhhhh... let me help you...” He picked her up, and helped her. – Slowly...

“Unh...”

He saw an expression of pain in her face.

“You want me to stop?” he asked, looking at her, but he already knew the answer.

“No...” –she buried her face in his neck– “Never stop...”

He smiled.

“You know that I love you, and that I would never do anything to hurt you...” he said, looking at her.

“I love you too.” These words made him focus on his actions again.

“Unh… Spike…”

“Shhhhh… trust me... do you trust me?”

“Unh-huh.”

He started a slow rythm with her body, and moved his thumb to her clit, caressing it.

She moaned.

“Like that, don’t you?” he said, smiling.

“Yeah...” –she looked at him– “I love you.”

“I love you too pet,” he said, kissing her.

*

That evening…

“Buffy!” Dawn said, seeing her sister enter the magic Box. She hugged her.

“Where were you?” Giles asked. “We were worried.”

“Sorry, something came up.”

“Something we should worry about?” Xander asked.

“Well” –Buffy said, looking at Spike– “Spike had a premonition.”

“Nothing?” Xander said again, like he hadn’t heard anything.“Yija! We have the night off!”

“Xander!” Buffy screamed, looking at him.

“What kind of premonition, Spike?” Giles asked him.

Spike told them what he had dreamed, except for the part when the shadow said that Buffy would never love him.

“See?” –Xander said– “He’s always causing a new problem!”

“Xander!” Anya and Buffy said at the same time.

“Well, that’s interesting...” Giles said, picking at his glasses. “And, you have no idea why choochoose you? This... being?”

“Hummm, no...”

“Well, I think we should do some research... Willow...?”

“Computers? Sure! That’s something fun to do... looking for a demon who comes to destroy the world... searching a way to kill him first, before he kills us...” –she stopped when she saw the expresion of their faces. “Sorry, I though it would be fun.” Tara grabbed her hand and they smiled at each other.

“Well, I’m glad that someone sees the fight against the Hellmouth like a hobby,” Giles said.

“Okay!” –Xander added– “This will take long. So... who wants pizza?”

*

After a half and hour…

Xander broke the studious silence first. “That’s it! I give up! This is a waste of time. It’s impossible!” Buffy looked at him. “We even don’t know what we are looking for. I didn’t find anything.”

“Yeah, me either,” Willow said, closing the book. “There’s nothing here.”

“What if you had just a nightmare?” Xander asked.

“It wasn’t a nightmare; it was more than that. I could feel it in my bones, inside of me.” Spike said.

“Spike” –Giles asked– “You said that this demon... or ghost... told you he would drag you into the darkness with him?”

“Yeah” –he stood up, a bit nervous– “she said ‘You will return to me, William, just like before...’ and ‘I’m the one who will change you into who you were...’

“Wait” –Xander stood up– “That means that you will be an evil vampire again?”

Suddenly, the vampire side emerged from Spike.

“AARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!” He picked up the table and fliped it over.

“BUFFY, WATCH OUT!” Xander shouted.

But she didn’t move. Instead, she grabbed him by his t-shirt and carried him to the training room. She closed the door behind them, and let him go.

The vampire was going to attack her again, but something stopped him.

“NO! I won’t do it!”

They both heard the voice in the room:

“Yes, you will, and your soul will be mine..”.

“NOOOO!!! ARRRGGHHH!!!!!....”

“Spike!” Buffy held his face with her hands. “Listen to me! I know you are in there; you can control this, don’t listen to her.”

“No, he can’t. He will never control it. It’s his instinct. He will never defeat the beast he has inside.”

All the scoobies were at the door, listening, but Buffy never realized.

“Come on, you bitch! Show yourself!” she yelled at the ceiling.

The voice started laughing.

“Not yet... you will have your turn...”And then she was gone.

Spike sat on the floor, trembling and exhausted.

“Spike, are you ok?” -she kneeled in front of him and hugged him– “Don’t worry.”

“I’m here,” she said.

Some of the scobbies omited that part; others, like Xander and Giles, turned around and left.

TBC…