Need

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Need 3

"What do you want Buffy?" He questioned.

"You." I said simply. "Always."

Spike thrust gently into me, and I swear, it was like...he knew, exactly what I wanted. What I craved. His hands, stroking my stomach, fingers filicking over my nipples. His mouth, gently sucking my nipple into his mouth. His cool tongue licking gently.

"Oh Spike..."

"Buffy." He looked into my eyes and I saw it. His soul. It was beautiful. Radiant.. I'm losing controll looking into his eyes. I can feel myself rushing towards orgasm.

It crashes over me and I can see how much he loves me.

I could feel him thrusting harder as I rocked into him. "I love you Spike." I moaned into his ear.

He lost control again and spilled into me, vamping as my walls clenched around him.
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I decided. I have had eough of Angel thinking he knows what's best for me. It's time I told him.

I called Giles. "Hey. It's me. Sorry I didn't call...I've been a little busy."

"It's ok Buffy. How are things there?"

"Great. I'm gonna be home in a couple of days. And I'm bringing someone with me." I smiled as I heard him sigh.

"It's not Angel is it? Please tell me Buffy..."

"No. It is definatley not Angel." I couldn't get the grin off my face. "It's a surprise. I'll see you in a few days."
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I walked into Wolfam and Hart, freshly showered, though that got a little argument from Spike. But when I told him what I had planned he grinned and allowed me to wash his scent away. I could see Harmony staring wide eyed at me.

"Buffy?? What are you doing here?" She asked incrediously. "What is going on?" I could almost see the steam coming from her ears.

"Is Angel in?" I asked the airhead.

"He's in there but you can't just..."

I walked over to Angel's office and threw the door wide. "Angel." I growled.

He looked up at me sadly. "Buffy."

"How have you been?" I questioned taking a seat on the chair in front of his desk.

"I'm good...how are you?" He asked. I could see the strain behind his cool exterior.

"I'm done Angel. I'm ready to move on with my lifemademade my choice." I smiled brightly watching his reaction.

"You've made your choice?" He asked.

I nodded. Waiting.

"Buffy...there is something....I probably should have..."
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"Spike? What are you doing here?" Harmony squeeled.

"Going to see Angel..." Spike growled as he tried to stalk past her desk.

Harmony jumped over her desk and landed in front of him. "You can't. He's with... someone...why don't we ...go get a drink? We can come back later...."

"Sod off Harm." Spike growled pushing past her.

Harmony punched him.

Spike growled softly and grabbed his nose. "What was that for you stupid bint?" He growled.

"You know. You know she's back. I can smell her on you..." She said with tears in her eyes.

"I am in love with her Harmony. Always have been feels like." He smiled. "I'm sorry Ok? Sorry for the way I treated you...I was mean and hurtful. I know you cared about me, and I was wrong to hurt you like that." He placed his hand gently on her shoulder. "I need her, can you understand that? She's a part of me..."

Harmony nodded. "I do understand. Could you just wait though? Until she's done with Angel?"

Spike nodded and stood by Harmony's desk to wait.
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"Angel....? What is it? What's wrong?" I got up from my chair and walked over to him. I placed my hand on his shoulder and waited to see if he would tell me.

"Spike." He murmured.

I gasped. ~ I didn't think he'd say anything. ~

"I loved him Angel. More than anything. When he died...I was so lost...I don't think I've ever cried as much in my life...I was really angry at you when we got here after.....because you gave me that stupid amulet and if you didn't...he'd still be with me..."

"You love him that much?" He asked looking into my eyes.

"I did. He was everything to me. He was the only one who loved me compleatly, the slayer in me the woman, the scared little girl. He didn't pull punches. He knew me. He accepted all of it. Everything I ever dished out to him. He was inside my soul..." I felt the sobs coming, but I had to get it out, I needed Angel to know how much I felt for Spike.

"Buffy, He's...."

"The one time I told him...that I loved him...he didn't believe me...He thought I was just saying it cause he was dying...god I would have given anything for him just to have said it back..." The sobs started and I couldn't stop. The relief at seeing him, making love to him. It was just to much.

"You still love him." It was a statement, not a question.

"Mo...more than...an...anything...." I said through my sobs.

"He's back." Angel murmured softly.

"Don't. Angel...I can't..." I sobbed. I couldn't believe he told me.

"He is...I swear..." Angel pulled me into his arms offering comfort. "I'll get him right now...Buffy I didn't know..."

"How long? How long has he been back?" I wanted to know what his excuse was.

"Four days after you left. I opened a peice of mail and the amulet fell out. Spike materialised right in front of us..."

"Why didn't you call me?" I pulled back a little to look into his eyes.

"I thought you were moving on with you're life..." He said sadly.

"Cut the crap angel. You knew I would have come back. For him. Because I love him. And you couldn't stand it..." My hand flew to my mouth. I can't believe I just said that to Angel.

"Yeah. Maybe deep down I did know. I kept him away from you, told him not to try to..." Angel sighed. "Why don't I just get him? I'm sure you'd rather..."

"Angel..." I waited until he looked up at me before continuing. "You were my first love. I will ALWAYS love you. But Spike, He's my future. He's my everything. I need him like I need air."

Angel nodded and let me go. I watched him press a button on the phone. "Harmony. Could you please find Spike? Tell him I want to see him..."

Before he even finished his words Spike was striding through the door. His gaze raked hungrily over my body sending shockwaves through me. It amazes me that when he looks at me like that everything else dissapears.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I kept you appart..." Angel murmured. "I..."

I couldn't wait. I walked up to Spike and put my arms around him. I rested my head against his shoulder.

Spike ran his fingers through my hair. He leaned down and kissed the top of my head. "Love you." He murmured, just loud enough for my ears.

"I love you too." I whispered back.

I turned in his arms to face Angel. "I don't want to hurt you. I didn't mean to ..I hope you know that."

"I know Buffy." He smiled. "I am glad you're happy."

"I will be. Now." I shivered in pleasure as Spike's arms tightened around me.
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Angel and Wes got me the things Giles required. A book on prophecy's that Wolfram and Hart had in a vault. They also gave me the amulet. Spike's Amulet. The one that brought him back to me.

I packed both in my carry on, and finished getting ready. Spike had his things packed too. Angel drove us to the airport. I was really surprised. I didn't think he was going to be ok with me and Spike.

He shocked us both when we arrived at the airport and he spoke. "I am really sorry for keeping you guys appart. I wish you both the best, and I hope we can all learn to be friends. This time I spent with Spike..." He glanced at the love of my life. "It really made me realize how important some relationships are. I hope I get to see you both again. Soon."

"So do I peaches. Can't beleve I'm saying this but I'm gonna miss you."

I smiled. The're getting along. Wow.
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We landed at the airport and took a cab to Giles' flat. Spike glanced at me nervously. "What if they...well you know freak out?" He questioned as we waited for someone to answer the door.

"They probably will. But I don't care." I reassured him again as I linked my fingers with his.

Giles opened the door and stood there his mouth hanging open, staring as if he was seeing a ghost. "Buffy?" He whispered. It was all his overloaded mind would allow.

"Hey Giles. I brought your book..." I held it up for his inspection.

"Book?" He questioned. Glancing at it and then returning his eyes to Spike.

"Yeah...you know prophey's...facinating read?" I shoved the book at him.

"Oh...oh forgive me...come in Buffy..." He reached forward and poked Spike in the chest. "Spike?"

Spike smirked. "Yeah watcher it's really me." He grabbed Giles in a tight bear hug, startling us both.

"Spike...put him down." I giggled.
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"didndidn't you tell me when you called?" Giles questioned.

"Giles, you didn't even accept it when he was standing on your doorstep. You would have thought I was crazy..." I rolled my eyes and looked down at Spike's hand in mine. It was almost too good to be true.

"We're gonna go home Giles...We'll talk in the morning ok?" I gave him a light kiss on the cheek.
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I took the amulet out of my purse and hung it centered on my mirror. It brought him back to me. I needed to keep it close.

"Whatcha doing with that?" He asked coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around me.

"I just...it feels like it should be here..."

He nodded in understanding. I watched him pull his clothes off slowly. The hunger that I had for him was growing rapidly, every time I looked into his eyes.

"I love you." His words. I loved to hear them.

"I love you too." I smiled up into his eyes as I my my pants slide to the floor, I kicked them off and quickly took of the rest of the restrictive clothing, suddenly it was too hot to wear anything.

He was on me instantly, pressing his hardness into my belly, stroking my back.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him into me for a kiss. He deepened the kiss, running his fingers through my hair.

He made me feel so loved, so cherished. "Need you...need to ..."

I knew exactly what he ment. I pushed him against the wall and wrapped my legs around his waist. I sank down on his hardened column of flesh and groaned at the sensation. He thrust his hips up to meet my down strokes and we both groaned in pleasure.

"Too long baby...too long since I've made love to you..."

I nodded and licked the sensitive flesh behind his ear. Spike growled and walked over to the bed, me still clinging to him and him still burried deep inside me.

He lay me gently on the bed and slowed his thrusts, prolonging our lovemaking. I knew he was loosing control.

"Spike..." I gasped. I waited until he looked into my eyes. I wanted him to know how much I wanted this.

His eyes locked with mine. "I belong to you...and you belong to me...I want to claim you..."

I watched as he closed his eyes and inhaled my scent. His nostrils flairing. "You sure?" He questioned eyes still closed.

I didn't use words to reply. I bit him, I bit his neck and let his blooow iow into my mouth. He tasted different than I'd imagined, he tasted like life, blood, a mixture of things I couldn't describe. He moaned and writhed in pleasure.

I pulled my mouth away from his broken flesh and looked into his startled eyes. "You are mine. You belong to me." I growled thrusting my hips up to meet his.

"Yes." Was his simple reply. He leaned down and kissed me softly.

"Your turn." I murmured as I broke the kiss. I turned my head to give him better access. He stilled compleatly above me. I glanced back at him and into his yellow eyes.

"I love you." He whispered. "That's not...enough, not a strong enough word Luv, you're everything." I raised my hand and let my fingers trace his ridged brow.

"I know." I snaked my fingers behins his head as I turned again and pulled his fangs towards my neck. I felt them enter me and cried out in pleasure as it triggered my release.

Spike thrust into me as he removed his fangs and brought his lips to mine. I felt his body shuddering uncontrolably.

"Spike..." I moaned, I felt my walls clenching around him, milking him.

"You are MINE. You belong to me." He growled. He pulled back to look into my eyes.

"Yes." I said simply. He moved off of me to lay beside me. I turned my body into his and curled up beside him.

Both of us fell instantly asleep, drained from the emotions we were feeling. A vampire holding his slayer.

Netiher of us noticed the pale blue light seeping from the amulet. It hit the mirror and turned to us, filling us both with internal light. I sighed in my sleep turning my back to him.

Spike rolled in behind me in his sleep, he rested his mouth over the bite he left on my neck and purred softly, his hand sneaking over my hip to rest curved around my belly.

It would be three months until we realized what had happened that night.
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