Two days till Christmas

If Spike would have had a beating heart it would have burst with the deep love and tenderness he felt at that moment. “Buffy I…” ~ Shit almost let it slip. ~ “Thank you.” he said softly.

He covered the window and watched her eat her soup. “More?” He asked when she was finished.

“No I’m …ready to sleep now.” She said softly. “Hold me?” She asked timidly.

Spike wrapped his arms around her and she melted into his embrace.
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Spike was watching Buffy sleep. ~ She is so beautiful. ~ He sighed happily to himself. Spike gently brushed a lock of hair out of her face. Buffy unconsciously turned her head into his fingertipspikepike.” She whispered happily in dreamland.

Spike was having a hard time not touching her. She was so close and warm. Spike was getting aroused lying beside her inhaling her scent.

~ Fucking bastard is gonna pay for hurrying my Slayer. ~ He thought angrily to himself.

Spike could feel her heat, his longing for her was so intense he had to bite the inside of his cheek so he didn’t start something he couldn’t finish. ~ Not right now anyway. ~ He thought growing painfully hard.

Buffy moved closer to Spike in her sleep, her hand brushed across his stomach. Spike groaned and grabbed her hand to still it. “Buffy…Luv…I’ll be right back.” urmuurmured against her hair.

“MMhhmm.” She replied sleepily.

Spike removed himself from her bed and went down to the basement, trying to conceal his growing erection. He entered the basement and immediately started to relieve the pressure.

He imagined it was Buffy stroking his hardness, rubbing herself on him and moaning softly in pleasure. ‘I love you Spike.’ His imaginary Buffy said softly looking into his eyes.

Spike stroked faster. He tightened his grip. ‘I need you Spike…I need you inside me…’ Imaginary Buffy whispered to him. Spike caught his seed in the sweats he was wearing. “Buffy…love you so much…” He whispered as he came.

Spike cleaned himself up and pulled his now dry clothes from the dryer and hurriedly got dressed.
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Buffy was having the sweetest dream. Spike was holding her rubbing her back lightly.

‘I want you Buffy’ Dream Spike whispered to her, he was looking right into her soul with his piercing gaze. ‘I love you.’

“I have always wanted you Spike. From the moment I saw you in that back alley, and you threatened to kill me.” She said softly, running her fingertips over his marbelesque chest.

‘Buffy…I didn’t know…’ Spike started to say.

“Shhh Spike it doesn’t matter now. I love you…I think I have for a long time.” She whispered. She sought his lips for a kiss.

‘Buffy …Luv…I’ll be right back.’ Dream Spike whispered

“OK…I’ll miss you.” She replied in her dream.

When Spike left her room and she could no longer fell his presence strongly the nightmare started. – Riley was holding her down. Choking her. Buffy tried to call out. She tried to call Dawn, Xander, Willow, Giles, Mom, no one heard her, and no one came.

“SPIKE!” She screamed, fear and desperation etched in her voice.

Buffy startled awake as he crashed into her room.
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Spike heard her scream and was of in a dead run. He was at her door instantly. ~ If that bastard is anywhere near her I’ll fucking kill him. ~ He thought as he got to her door. Spike was so upset he forgot that he would have smelled Riley if he’d been in the house.

“Buffy? You OK Luv?” ~ It’s OK she was having a nightmare. She’s OK. ~ He thought looking into her tear stained face.

~ Spike. Love. ~ “Better now.” She said reaching her arms towards him.ike ike was across the room in three strides. He held her close and inhaled her scent.

“I was scared Spike…I was …I had a nightmare that he…” Buffy broke down and sobbed.

“s’ok Baby…I’m here and I’ll never leave your side. I promise as long as you want me here I’m yours.” He whispered stroking her hair.

“How’s forever? Does forever work for you?” ~ Oh my god! I can’t believe I just said that. ~ Buffy closed her eyes and rested her head on his chest.

“Yeah…Yeah that works for me.” He whispered softly rubbing tiny circles on her back with the palm of his hand. ~ My Buffy. ~

“Oh Spike…” Buffy murmured seeking his eyes with hers.

She opened her mouth to speak and then snapped it shut. ~ He's being nice. He's a friend. Doesn't mean he wants anything more. ~

Spike pulled away from her penetrating gaze. “You should get some sleep Luv.” He growled softly trying to ignore her scent, her blood. ~ Not like this. ~ He silently pleaded.

“Spike I…I…” She begged, tears prickling her eyes. “Why are you...we need to talk about...us…”

“Buffy…” ~ Oh God more than anything I want to tell you I love you. ~ “We do need to...Just…not like this Luv. I …don’t want you to regret letting me be here for you. I …you are really vulnerable right now …I would feel like I was taking advantage of you …I respect you too much to …”

“Oh.” She said. ~ Full of surprises. That is so sweet. ~ She thought to herself. “But you do want to talk? About us?” She asked.

“Yes.” He said simply.

Buffy rested her head against his shoulder and they held each other until sleep overtook them.
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“Buffy?” Dawn knocked again.

“Go away. I need more sleep.” She yelled through the closed door.

“OK just remember Mom is coming home today, and the Scoobies will be here later too. It is Christmas eve after all...” Dawn said through the door.
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Spike stretched and looked into Buffy’s eyes. “How’d you sleep Kitten?” He asked gently reaching up to cup her cheek in his hand.

“I have never had such a peaceful sleep before.” She replied truthfully. “I’m glad you were here.”

“So am I.” He said softly. “I guess I should go ‘fore your Mum and friends get here.” He said taking her hand in his.

“Do you have to? I would like you to stay…” She asked quietly, looking into his eyes and awaiting his response.

“Are you sure Luv?” Spike asked completely stunned. “Everyone’s going to ask questions.”

“I don’t care. Just cause they ask doesn’t mean I have to answer. Right?” She asked.

“If that’s what you want.” Spike said looking into her vulnerable face. “But I think we should get out of bed before someone mistakes what happened here.”

“Oh…What do you mean?” She asked.

“If you Mum of friends show up I don’t think they’d be too happy seeing us in bed together considering I am an evil soulless demon Buffy.” Spike replied pulling her up from the bed. “Sides’ I think you need breakfast. Shall I cook for you?” He asked.

“What can you make?” She asked.

“Do you like eggs? I am an expert at eggs.” Spike said pulling her into a hug.

“I love eggs!” She replied.
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Buffy and Spike were finishing the dishes together and Dawn was watching TV When Joyce returned.

“Spike nice to see you.” Joyce greeted the vampire warmly.

“Thanks Joyce nice to see you too. Here let me help you with your bags.” Spike said picking up all of her suitcases and depositing them just outside her bedroom door.

“So girls…come sit…tell me what you did while I was gone.” Joyce said grinning at the girls.

“Mom…you were only gone 5 days.” Dawn smiled at Joyce.

“Well still…what did you do?”

“I went shopping. Spike helped me pick out presents.” Dawn giggled. “I love shopping with Spike. He makes it fun.”

Joyce looked up at Spike. “Thanks for taking her.”

“S’no problem at all.” He smiled. He really liked Joyce. ~ Reminds me of my own Mum. ~ Spike thought.

“I …I …uh…broke up with Riley guys so if you see him…don’t talk to him or anything OK?” Buffy closed her eyes and sighed.

Spike walked up behind her and placed a gentle hand on her shoulder. Buffy visibly relaxed under his touch. “Let’s go make your mum some Tea while she chats with little sis OK Buffy?” He spoke quietly.

“Yeah…” She said turning to him. She laced his fingers into hers and they went into the kitchen.

“What was that all about?” Joyce asked.

“I think…I think Riley did something…or tried to do something…and Spike stopped him.” Dawn said looking up at her mother. “She’s not ready to talk about it and Spike won’t. He says if she wants anyone to know she’ll tell them.”

“Oh…Oh …Well…he’s always there for her.” Joyce said thoughtfully.

“Cause he’s in love with her mom. He’s walk through fire and turn to dust if she asked him to.”

“Wow.” Joyce said softly. “That devoted huh?”

“Yeah…and the Scoobies will be here soon ….” Dawn said softly.

“I’ll be right back.” Joyce said going to her room to make a call.
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“Rupert? It’s Joyce. I think you better sit down.”
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“Where’s Mom?” Buffy asked returning a few minutes later with tea and cookies.

“She went upstairs for a few minutes. She’ll be down soon.” Dawn replied staring at the TV.

Buffy sat on the couch near Dawn and Spike sat beside her, running her golden locks through his fingers. “You sure you want me here when your friends get here Luv?” Spike asked.

“Yes Spike. You have been wonderful to me. You are my friend too…if they can’t accept that …”
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“So you’ll make sure to tell them? I …He’s been so sweet in the 5 minutes I saw of them Rupert and *she* grabbed his hand when they went into the kitchen.
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