The Courtship of Buffy Summers

A/N: Ok, so I know I said I was going to take a break, but this idea popped into my head and wouldn't leave me alone. So here is an update, but after this I am taking a break, I mean it. Anyway, enjoy your update.
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Buffy sighs a very deep sigh and tries to hold her breath for just a few more seconds. She’s laying on her bed with Faith, and the two have been making out for the last hour or so. Their bodies are very close together, almost touching, but not quite. They can feel each other’s body heat and it’s driving them both a little crazy. So are the soft moans, and sighs the girls are making. The blonde is being a little more vocal tonight then she usually is, and Faith’s panties are ruined because of it.


One of Buffy’s hands is lightly caressing the brunette’s soft neck that at this point has two or three small hickies along the pulse point. Her other hand is placed on the slightly taller girl’s jean clad hip. That’s the only place she’s allowing that hand to go for now, even though she wants to put it in some more interesting and enjoyable places. Self-control is the watchword, and Buffy is definitely looking out for it tonight.


For her part, Faith is trying to keep her hands under control. She knows that whenever she gets a little too grabby the blonde pushes her away. Even if she smiles, and giggles while she’s doing it, she still does it. The brunette doesn’t want her hands swatted at right now. She just wants to enjoy this moment while it lasts. And she knows it isn’t going to last for much longer. And after this she won’t get to feel the blonde again for another month. She leaves for Sunnydale tomorrow afternoon.


She pulls back from the kiss and pants in some deep breaths. She looks into the blonde’s hazel eyes and smiles a little. Then she looks passed the blonde’s shoulder and to the alarm clock on the night stand. The big red numbers mock her and she has to force herself not to glare at them. Then she looks back at the blonde and gives her a little kiss on the lips. ‘I don’t want to go. Why is leaving always so hard?’ Because you’re totally head over heels for her. ‘Fuck you, you’re not even my narrator. Stay out of my fuckin head.’


“B, I need to get going. Your dad’s going to be home soon,” she says and gently brushes the hair out of the blonde’s face. Mr. Summers has been working late for the last couple of nights. He hasn’t been getting home until ten thirty at night, it’s now ten twenty. She tries to scoot away from the blonde, but Buffy doesn’t let her. She moves her hand from Faith’s hip, to the small of Faith’s back.


“He’s not coming home tonight. He called right before dinner and said he has to go to San Diego tonight to meet with a client tomorrow morning,” the blonde says and gently bites her bottom lip. She’s been thinking about this moment since she got off the phone with her dad. Because her father has been working so late the brunette has been sneaking in here at night to get in some quick kisses before she heads back to her hotel room.


“Stay with me tonight,” the blonde says and looks deeply into Faith’s soulful brown eyes. She searches their depths for any sign that the brunette is going to turn her down, but she sees none. All she sees is the love, and lust that Faith has for her. ‘I’m ready. Right now I’m ready for her. It isn’t the heat of the moment, and it’s not because she’s leaving tomorrow. I want her, and I want her to have me.’


“I don’t want to do anything you’re gonna regret in the morning,” Faith whispers and tries as hard as she can to ignore Buffy’s soft, inviting lips. “Next month you’re coming back to Sunnydale, and we can finally get back to normal.” Even though Faith is trying to convince her not to do this, Buffy doesn’t feel rejected. She doesn’t feel insecure, or angry at the brunette’s words. She feels even hornier that the other girl cares for her so much that she’s turning her down, even though it’s been a long time since they’ve done more then kiss.


“Tomorrow morning the only thing I’m going to regret is the fact that we only have until tomorrow morning.” The brunette goes to interrupt but Buffy silences her by putting her index finger of her soft, kiss swollen lips. “I’m ready. I’m absolutely, one hundred percent sure. Faith, I love you, and I want you to have me.” She moves her finger and replaces it when her lips. The kiss is soft, and very slow. It lingers for about a minute and a half before the brunette finally pulls back to say her piece.


“If you’re sure. Lets just take things slow, pick up where we left off before we started talking, and if it happens it happens,” she says with a small smile, and Buffy can’t help but smile back. They slowly bring their lips together in a soft, and very sensual kiss. For the blonde, time stands still, and everything else just melts away. ‘This is so perfect. I don’t care if I don’t have flowers, or music, or that we didn’t have a romantic dinner first. I don’t care, because I don’t need any of that stuff. I just need her.’


Buffy moans into the kiss when Faith gently rubs the tip of her tongue along the blonde’s bottom lip. She opens her mouth and grants the brunette access to it. The tips of their tongues touch, and for the blonde it feels like its for the very first time. All of this feels so new to her even though they’ve done it countless times before.


‘But this is different. Before we both knew we wouldn’t go very far. Now there are no restrictions.’ Every nerve ending feels like it’s on fire as the kiss deepens. It isn’t soft like it was before. Their tongues and tips are now demanding, and battling with each other for dominance. It isn’t long before the blonde gives up the battle and gives the brunette free rein. But then the blonde pulls back and sucks in a deep breath.


“Faith,” she whispers, her voice a little deeper then normal. She looks into the dark brown eyes of the other girl, and her expression becomes very serious. “Make love to me.” ‘God, that was so corny. I didn’t want to say that I was going to say something way more romantic. I just need another second to think of something better,’ she thinks, and concentrates on coming up with something else to say.


Faith doesn’t hesitate before she kisses the blonde deeper then she’s ever kissed her before. She wraps her arms around the blonde’s tiny frame and carefully rolls the blonde onto her back. She doesn’t lay directly on top of her. Their torsos are pressed together, but Faith’s legs are off to the side. Even though Buffy’s made it very clear what she wants tonight, she still doesn’t want to overstep that invisible bound they’ve had between them for the last five months.


‘Or maybe that was the right thing to say,’ she thinks and moans as the brunette kisses her deeper then she’s ever been kissed before. ‘It’s like she’s kissing my soul. Eww, that sounds kind of gross. God, who cares? I just want her.’ The blonde kisses the brunette back with just as much passion. She wraps her arms around Faith’s back and arches her back, pressing herself firmly against the other girl.


“I think,” Buffy says when she pulls back from the kiss. They’re both panting heavily, and their breath is hot. “We need to lose some of these clothes.” She smiles a little and gently tugs on the hem of Faith’s shirt. The brunette smiles and lifts herself up until she’s sitting on her knees. She looks down at the blonde and gives her a small wink. Buffy just watches as Faith takes off her shirt, revealing her bra clad breasts.


“Is that better?” Faith asks and Buffy nods her head. The brunette leans down and kisses the blonde. Faith taking off her shirt was a step in the right direction, but it isn’t enough for Buffy. ‘I need to take matters into my own hands. I know I agreed to go slow, but I didn’t think we were going to go this slow,’ she thinks and gently caresses the newly exposed skin of Faith’s back. As they kiss she slowly inches her hands up towards the brunette’s bra strap. She slowly unclasps it and smiles into the kiss when she feels it loosen.


Not a word is said as Faith sits up a little to take the bra off. She holds herself up on her hands, her breasts dangle temptingly above the blonde. Now Buffy’s touched these breasts before. In a few of their more steamy make out sessions in the bed of Faith’s truck her hand wandered under the cup of Faith’s bra. But she’s never seen them, never tasted them, and now that she has the opportunity she can’t wait.


‘Is there any part of her that isn’t perfect?’ Buffy thinks and gently teases one of Faith’s nipples with her thumb. The blonde watches as the areola wrinkles and the nipple hardens. She watches as Faith’s chest moves up and down with her heavy breathing. Then the brunette sits up and very slowly unbuttons the blonde’s shirt.


Buffy watches as Faith slowly unbuttons her shirt. IT’s a little odd to the blonde how slow Faith is being about all of this. She didn’t think the brunette would instantly stip and then rip the blonde’s clothes off, but she’s spending way too much time on the buttons. ‘I just want her to take me. These clothes feel so...heavy and binding. I just want them off,’ she thinks and starts to unbutton her jeans.


“Wait,” Faith whispers, her voice husky and a little shaky. The sound of it sends a jolt of arousal straight to the blonde’s pulsing clit. “I want to undress you.” Buffy smiles and leans up the short distance to leave a small peck on the brunette’s kiss swollen lips.


She lays back down and looks up at her girlfriend with nothing but love in her eyes. She’s fantasized about this moment for a couple months now and in those fantasies the brunette is always caring, and sweet, but seeing it in real life, experiencing all of the emotions that are running through her body right now is something she couldn’t prepare herself for. But she’s not freaked, or having second thoughts. She’s ready, and she knows that in the morning Faith will still be here.


The blonde sits up when her shirt is completely unbuttoned. Her body presses very intimately against Faith’s and she feels her body head rise. As Faith slowly pulls the shirt off the blonde she places light kisses right behind Buffy’s ear. The smaller girl quietly moans and arches her neck to the side, silently asking the brunette to turn her attention there.


She doesn’t have to wait long. When her shirt is removed Faith drops it to the floor and trails warm, lingering kisses along the blonde’s neck. She stops at her pulse point and lightly sucks on the warm flesh. Not enough to leave a hickie but enough to make the blonde moan. She pulls her head back when she reaches the other girl’s shoulder. She hooks the bra strap under her thumb and slowly pulls it down. She trails slow, lingering kisses behind the material.


She follows it along Buffy’s shoulder, and down her arm. The position is a little uncomfortable, but well worth the little sighs the blonde is making. When the strap is as far down Buffy’s arm as it can go the brunette sits up straight and kisses Buffy on the mouth. It lingers, but doesn’t deepen, and when Faith pulls back for air Buffy is shaking.


At first Faith is concerned. She knows she hasn’t done anything to physically hurt the blonde, but maybe she’s just feeling too overwhelmed? Maybe she’s having second thoughts and this is going to way too fast? But then Faith looks into Buffy’s eyes and the raw emotion she sees take her breath away. No one has ever looked at her like that before. The hazel eyes are piercing, and Faith shudders at the feeling.


Buffy opens her mouth to say something but she doesn’t get the chance. Faith’s mouth is on hers in an instant. Her gentle yet demanding tongue enters her mouth and softly teases her own. The kiss seems to last for hours. It finally stops when they need to breath but their lips don’t stop touching. Faith gently nibbles on Buffy’s bottom lip and gives it a little tug.


Then she pulls back and kisses her way down the other side of Buffy’s neck. The kisses aren’t as slow as the others. That last kiss they shared has left both of them even more worked up then before. The brunette reaches around and unclasps the blonde’s bra and gently tugs it off. She drops it to the floor with the rest of her clothes and she looks at the blonde’s bare chest for the first time. She gets a very strong urge to suck on the hard pink nipples, and scrape her teeth across them, but she decides to wait on that.


The two kiss again. Their tongues softly massage each other, and their hands refuse to stay still. Buffy wraps her arms around Faith’s back and presses herself against the slightly taller girl. Their breasts press against each other, their hard nipples become even harder as they touch, and the sensation makes Buffy moan very loudly.


Faith gently caresses the blonde’s stomach, and tries not to smile when the muscles quiver under her touch. She slowly moves them upwards towards Buffy’s breasts, the only problem is that Buffy is pressed against her so tightly that she can’t get her hands between them to touch what she wants to touch. She lets out a little groan and slowly leans forward, gently pushing Buffy backwards, until they’re laying down.


The brunette kicks off her shoes and uses her foot to push them off the bed. Her hands instantly go for the button of Buffy’s jeans, but she forces herself to go slow. It’s been so long since she’s had someone like this and it’s driving her a little crazy. But what’s really getting to her is the fact that her hands are slightly shaking. She prays that the blonde doesn’t notice, and tries to make it go away.


‘Why am I so fuckin nervous? I mean, she’s shaking like a leaf, but it’s her first time so I get that. But why am I shaking?’ She finally gets the button undone and pulls down the zipper. She puts all her weight on her knees as she uses both hands to pull the jeans down. She doesn’t stop kissing the blonde though, and when she can’t push the pants down any further, she leaves it up to Buffy to take them off, and she gets kneed in the stomach a couple of times in the process.


Buffy pulls back from the kiss when she needs oxygen. She moans when Faith starts to lightly kiss her neck. ‘Ok, she needs to hurry up and take me because I think I’m going to explode,’ she thinks and slides her hands under Faith’s jeans and cups the other girl’s toned ass. She gets a little frustrated because of the restrictions caused by the jeans and she pulls her hands out of Faith’s pants to take them off.


The brunette is already a step ahead of her, and she unbuttons and unzips them herself. She does let Buffy help her slide them off. She doesn’t want the other girl to feel like she’s being controlled. Faith doesn’t want to do that to her. She’s different from anyone she’s ever been with, and what they’re doing now is far from a need to be in control. ‘Thanks the for psych 101,’ the brunette thinks and kicks off the jeans.


Now they’re both down to nothing but they’re panties. Both thongs, both dark colors, both completely soaked from the wetness coming out of the girls. Buffy looks into Faith’s eyes and really thinks about what they’re about to do. ‘After this there’s no going back. Right now I’m a virgin, if I don’t stop it now then I won’t be in a few minutes.’ She lets that thought roll around her head for a minute or two as Faith softly caresses her thighs. ‘And I’m completely ok with that.’


She grabs onto the elastic of Faith’s panties and gently tugs on them. The brunette helps her take them off and then pushes them off the bed with her foot. Buffy’s hands caress Faith’s back, and she lightly digs her nails into the soft skin. ‘She loves it when I do that,’ she thinks and holds back a smile. The brunette moans, and her head drops down onto Buffy’s shoulder. Her hips thrust forward and grind against the other girl’s.


Buffy’s legs spread wider at the feeling and she bites back a moan. All her mind can focus on is the heat coming from Faith’s crotch. It’s burning into her own wanting sex, and turning her on even more. She kisses the shell of Faith’s ear, and it gets the brunette’s attention. Faith reaches down with one hand and slowly pulls down Buffy’s thong. The blonde lifts herself off the bed a little to help out and then watches as Faith sits up and slowly pulls the underwear down her silky legs.


“Push the blankets down,” Faith says in a low voice. Buffy doesn’t ask why, she just does as she’s told. ‘The faster I push the blankets down the faster she’ll come back up here,’ she thinks and grabs onto her comforter and over sheet. It takes a little bit of struggling but she manages to kick the blankets to the foot of the bed.


‘God, she’s so beautiful,’ the blonde thinks as Faith slowly crawls back up the bed. Buffy spreads her legs a little wider and holds her arms out for the other girl. As soon as Faith is in reach Buffy gently tugs her down and kisses her. It’s deep from the start, and gets much deeper. The blonde’s trembling increases when she feels Faith’s hand gently caressing her thigh. It keeps moving a little higher and Buffy knows now it’s only a matter of time.


Now that it’s really happening she is a little scared. Not of being with Faith, but of the pain that she’s going to feel when Faith enters her for the first time. She tries to distract herself by gently scratching the brunette’s back, and softly battling with her tongue, but all her mind can really concentrate on is the hand that’s now between their bodies. She moans deeply into the kiss when the brunette’s fingertips lightly brush against her aching clit.


Faith pulls back from the kiss and looks deeply into Buffy’s eyes. She slowly works her fingers on the blonde’s pulsing, needing clit and smiles a little when the blonde’s head rolls back against the pillow and her hips start to buck, trying to gain more contact. She lightly kisses the blonde’s collar bone, and licks the sweaty skin. She lifts her head up and looks into Buffy’s eyes again as she slowly moves her fingers down towards the blonde’s entrance.


‘I hope I don’t hurt her too bad. Ok, so one finger or two? God, she’s gonna be so fuckin tight, I better go with just one for now,’ she thinks and softly kisses Buffy on the mouth. Every muscles in the blonde’s body tenses when she feels Faith’s middle finger gently tease her entrance. She tries to make herself relax but she can’t. She gets a little frustrated with herself and tries not to let it show.


‘Ok, so this isn’t how I imagined it. In my fantasies I wasn’t shaking like a dried out leaf, and tensing up at her touch. Her gentle, loving touch that I want to feel twenty-four seven,’ she thinks and hisses in a breath when Faith enters her. She goes very slow, pushing her finger inside of Buffy until she feels the resistence of her hymen. She looks into Buffy’s eyes and she sees a mix of love, pleasure, and pain.


She brings her lips to Buffy’s and places several butterfly kisses on them as she pushes passed the resistence. She feels the blonde’s mouth open, and the other girl lets out a small cry of pain. Faith stops moving, she lifts her head up slightly to look into Buffy’s eyes. She can’t, however, because the blonde has hers closed. The brunette waits for some type of signal to continue and after a minute or two Buffy lightly nods her head.


‘Ok, so that didn’t hurt as bad as I thought it was going to. I completely over exaggerated. I hope she doesn’t feel guilty about hurting me. I don’t want her to feel guilty about this,’ she thinks and tries not to wince when Faith starts up a slow rhythm. Buffy meets her thrust for thrust, and it isn’t long before the pain lessens and becomes a dull ache. She muscles finally start to relax, and she concentrates on the pleasure Faith is bringing her.


“Oh God, Faith,” Buffy moans and arches her back a little. ‘Ok, so I found the g spot,’ Faith thinks and rubs the spot again. “Oh God, yes.” This time the blonde is louder. Faith smiles and softly kisses Buffy’s throat. She rubs the spot again, only of a light, teasing touch she presses her finger firmly against it, and starts to stroke it with the right amount of pressure.


“Oh God, yes Faith, I’m coming ” Buffy yells out as she thrown into ecstasy. Her eyes slam shut, and she sees every color of Crayola. Her hips thrust faster against Faith, and she digs her nails into Faith’s back hard enough to draw some blood. But she doesn’t notice any of that. The only thing she feels is the intense pleasure that’s flooding her system.


‘God, that was so amazing. What was I so afraid of again?’ she think with a small smile. She doesn’t know how long it takes her to come down from that high, but she does she feels completely satisfied. She looks up into Faith’s smiling eyes and suddenly she doesn’t feel completely satisfied, just mostly.


“Faith that was so...” she trails off and tries to think of a way to describe it. “There are no words.” She hugs the brunette very close to her body, and she isn’t the least bit surprised when she feels Faith nuzzle her neck. She kisses Faith’s cheek, and the shell of her ear, and starts to gently caress the other girl’s back. “I love you so much.” Her voice is a little strained with emotion and her eyes start to well with tears. The brunette lifts her head up and looks into the hazel eyes that are blurry with tears.


“I love you too,” she whispers and softly kisses the other girl. “Did I hurt you?” She can’t help but ask. She needs to know what she did so she can make the blonde stop crying. ‘I didn’t want to make her cry. I thought she was happy? A second ago she was smiling, right?’ she thinks and watches as the tears leak out the corner of Buffy’s eyes and get lost in her hair.


“It hurt a little, but not so much anymore.” ‘Ok, so that’s a little bit of a lie.’ “I’m sorry, but that was just so...and I just need a second.” Faith lightly nuzzles her neck again and Buffy wraps her arms tightly around her back. She doesn’t want to let go, not even for a second. She calms herself down, and can’t help but giggle at the tickling feeling of Faith’s breath against her neck. She’s always been a little ticklish there.


“Am I too heavy?” Faith whispers and starts to push herself up. But she stops when she feels Buffy tighten her grip. “Ok, I won’t go anywhere.” That sentence has more meaning behind it then either girl realizes. Faith is still afraid of crushing the other girl, so she rests most of her weight on her elbows and knees. She lifts her head up just enough to look into Buffy’s eyes. She rests her forehead against the smaller girl’s, and the blonde gently rubs their noses together. It makes both of them smile and Faith chuckles a little.


Buffy looks into Faith’s eyes and smiles a little. ‘She’s so amazing,’ she thinks and lightly kisses Faith on the lips. Her demeanor changes from the light, post orgasmic state. She’s serious now, and the brunette has no idea where this is coming from. ‘One second she’s all smiles and hugs, and now she’s dead serious. I’m surprised I didn’t get whiplash her mood changed so fast,’ she thinks and reciprocates to Buffy’s actions.


“Faith,” the blonde whispers and gently rubs Faith’s back. Her right hand moves from her back, to her side, and it’s moving lower with every gentle caress. “I want to make you feel just as good as I do. I just don’t know how.” The brunette smiles and leaves a little kiss on the tip of Buffy’s nose. The blonde smiles but then goes right back to being serious.


“That’s ok, B,” Faith says and gently kisses the blonde on the lips. While they kiss Buffy moves her hand from Faith’s side, to Faith’s abdomen, and she feels the muscles quiver, and shake under her gentle touch. She hesitates for a few seconds, wanting to continue but she’s so nervous and afraid of doing something wrong. Her insecurities are starting to get the better of her, and she knows it.


‘Will she still want if I’m not good?’ she thinks and very slowly moves her hand lower. Her fingertips lightly brush against Faith’s bald mound. They both shiver at the contact. The kiss deepens, their mouths open, and their tongues come out to play. As their tongues swirl together, and their lips softly caress Buffy dips her hand lower and her fingers rub against Faith’s wet, aching clit. The brunette pulls back from the kiss and moans deeply.


She moaned louder then she usually does. Having Buffy just touch her clit does feel good, but it’s nothing to moan about. She is trying to be as supportive as possible since she knows how nervous Buffy is. If she has to exaggerate the pleasure she’s getting then so be it, as long as Buffy stops feeling self-conscious. Then the blonde starts to very slowly rub her clit and the moan that comes from the brunette isn’t forced or exaggerated.


“Use two,” Faith whispers and Buffy slightly nods her head. Then she starts rubbing the brunette’s swollen, pulsing clit with her middle and ring fingers. She watches as Faith’s eyes shut, and her mouth parts, and she starts to breath a little harder. ‘Ok, so she likes what I’m doing. That’s good to know,’ she thinks and starts to move her fingers faster. The brunette moans again and the blonde smiles. ‘I hope she doesn’t get too loud,’ she thinks and lightly kisses Faith on the neck.


She teases Faith for a few minutes, watching all of the different facial expressions, and feeling the brunette’s body tense, and grind against her hand is completely different then what she thought it was going to be like. She never really thought Faith would be on top. She thought that after Faith was done pleasuring her, then they’d switch positions, but that hasn’t happened yet. Buffy is actually relieved that Faith is still on top. This way the brunette is still in control, and the blonde can relax and just go with it, and not feel as pressured.


‘Ok, I think I’ve teased her enough,’ she thinks when Faith gets an expression on her face that resembles pain. She slowly moves her fingers lower until she’s at Faith’s entrance. She’s a little surprised when she feels the amount of fluid that’s built up. ‘God, she’s so wet. I don’t know if she’s even going to feel this,’ she thinks as she slips a finger into the wanting girl. Faith’s muscles tightly contract around Buffy’s finger and her head drops onto the blonde’s shoulder again.


“I need more,” Faith whispers breathlessly, and Buffy can’t help but smile. ‘She’s all breathless because of me. This is going way better then I thought it would,’ she thinks and adds another finger with the first. The brunette moans deeply, and Buffy kisses the shell of her ear. She starts to slowly thrust them in and out and the brunette meets her thrust for thrust.


Buffy’s eyebrows furrow when she feels Faith start to move her hips in a circular motion. Her fingers touch things that they’ve never touched before, and the heat inside of the other girl is almost too much to bear. Then they rub against something that feels a little squishy and Faith hips start to thrust harder and she breathing picks up, and she very loudly into Buffy’s shoulder. ‘That’s gotta be her g spot,’ she thinks and rubs it again. Now that she’s found it she isn’t going to leave it alone.


The more she strokes the tissue, the harder Faith thrusts against her. The only sounds coming from the room are their heavy breathing, a wet clicking sound, and the headboard lightly banging against the wall. Buffy places several kisses along Faith’s neck and shoulder. She can tell that Faith is close. Her muscles are starting to tighten, and the rhythm they built is starting to get a little out of control.


“Uunnggghhhh, uunnggghhh, don’t stop,” Faith moans. ‘Yeah right, like I’d stop,’ the blonde thinks. She starts thrusting even harder into the other girl, and then curls her fingers upwards as hard as she can. “Oh fuck ” Faith yells and then squeaks a very high pitched squeak. The outpour of her orgasm feels like liquid fire, and Buffy is more then ok with that. She feels Faith’s hot come drip down her hand and wrist. ‘Jeez, pull back the flood gates why don’t you,’ she thinks but it’s mock anger. She has a big smile on her face. ‘She’s never come that much before. Is it weird that I feel proud because of it?’


She gently rubs Faith’s back with her free hand, and waits for the other girl to come down from her high. Her body is still shaking, and her muscles are still contracting almost painfully around Buffy’s fingers. When the muscles finally relax Buffy pulls her fingers out of Faith and wipes her hand off on the sheet. Buffy waits for Faith’s breathing to return to normal. She’s quiet as she waits and she continues to caress Faith’s back. She can’t make the smirk on her face go away, but she isn’t trying very hard.


“Now I know why you had me push the blankets down,” Buffy says with a little giggle. Faith chuckles, her voice is deeper, and raspier then normal. The blonde looks into the dark brown eyes of the girl above her when Faith lifts her head up to look at the other girl. She doesn’t say anything, instead she places a very gently kiss on Buffy’s lips and then rolls off of the other girl. They lay on their sides facing each other. Buffy can’t help but get the feeling that Faith is uncomfortable.


“Is something wrong?” she asks, her voice barely above a whisper. Her insecurities are creeping up and strangling her at the moment, and she can’t force her voice to be any louder then that. She watches as Faith adverts her eyes away from the blonde’s, and stares at the bed sheet. Buffy’s eyes never leave Faith as she waits for an answer.


“Nothing’s wrong, I’m just not used to the whole ‘pillow talk’. I’ve never stuck around afterwards. I always just leave,” she says and picks at some imaginary fuzz on the sheet. Buffy watches, her heart in her throat as she waits for Faith to continue, but she doesn’t. The silence is deafening, and she doesn’t know how much longer she can take it.


“Do you want to leave?” she asks her voice even lower then before. She isn’t sure if Faith heard her, until the brunette looks into her eyes. The emotion that Buffy sees in those dark eyes leaves her feeling a little breathless. She gets lost in those eyes and forgets that she asked a question, until Faith speaks.


“That’s just it, I don’t want to leave. I don’t feel trapped, or claustrophobic or whatever. I keep waiting for it, but it’s not coming. It’s just a little weird. And I’ve never done the pillow talk. I don’t know what to talk about.” Buffy smiles and gently caresses one of Faith’s cheeks.


“If it makes you feel any better I’ve never done the pillow talk either,” she says with a smirk. Faith chuckles and slowly turns her head and kisses the palm of Buffy’s hand. They both shiver, and get goose bumps on their cooling skin when the AC turns on. Buffy reaches down and pulls the large comforter up. She covers both of them up and scoots a little closer to Faith. She isn’t sure what she should do. ‘I want her to hold me, but I don’t want to make her do something she isn’t comfortable doing.’


Before Buffy can say anything about the sleeping arrangements, Faith puts a hand on the blonde’s hip. She lets it rest there for a few seconds, and she looks into the sleepy hazel eyes with a little uncertainty. When she sees Buffy smiles she knows she’s doing something right. She slowly scoots a little closer until their bodies are almost touching. She wraps her arm around Buffy, and lets her hand rest between the blonde’s shoulder blades. She holds her close and they both just lay in a comfortable silence until they drift off to sleep.