The Courtship of Buffy Summers

It’s a bright sunny day in the ‘Dale and most of the Sunnydale residence are out shopping, or at the park, and just relaxing on this very calm Saturday afternoon. I said ‘most people’ are out. As for the leading lady of this story, she’s inside sitting on Willow’s bed and having some best friend time with the ginger girl. It’s been a long time since they’ve spent time together with it being just the two of them. Xander is usually around, which limits the conversation topics. He is a boy after all, and even if he’s just a friend there are some things you don’t talk about in front of a boy.


“And you’re sure about it, Buffy? This is a big deal, and you should be absolutely sure,” Willow says and sits down on the edge of her bed. Buffy hasn’t been here long, and the two are already having one of those important conversations that only best friends can have.


“I’m pretty sure I’m ready,” the blonde says and slips her shoes off. The last time Mrs. Rosenberg walked in and caught Buffy with her shoes on the bed bad things happened, and Buffy doesn’t want to repeat that experience. The redhead gives her a skeptical look and the blonde sighs. “I’ve never felt like this about anyone before. I love her, and I want her to be my first. I’m just not a hundred percent sure.”


“Well you shouldn’t do it if you’re not sure. You don’t want to rush into it,” she says and takes a little sip from her water bottle. “I’m not trying to tell you what to do, it’s your decision, I just don’t want to see you get hurt.” Buffy sighs and flops down on the bed. She rests her head on the large fluffy pillow and stares up at the ceiling.


“I know. I’m just so confused. I mean, how will I know when I’m really ready? Like you said, it’s a big deal, so in the back of my mind I’m always going to worry if I’m making a mistake or not. Not just that but I don’t know if I’m going to be any good or not. I want her to feel good too. What if I can’t, you know...make her have an orgasm?” Willow sighs as she thinks about the question and she lays down next to the blonde. Now they’re both laying on their backs, staring up at the ceiling and thinking about the same thing.


“I don’t think you can ever be a hundred percent sure. You just have to try and think ahead. If you sleep with Faith will you regret it five years from now?” The blonde groans and puts a hand on her forehead. ‘I can’t even decide what I want now, and she wants me to try and predict the future? She’s crazy.’ “And for the other thing, you’ll just have to talk to Faith. You’ve done stuff with her before and she...climaxed, right?” ‘Did she really just use the word climax?’


“Yeah she did,” Buffy says with a small smile. Just remembering what it was like to get Faith off puts her in a better mood. “She makes this cute little squeaky noise when she comes. After that there’s a bunch of moaning and ‘Oh God, yes’.” Buffy’s smile gets a lot bigger when she hears the redhead clear her throat, and then shift around on the bed a little.


“Ok, I really didn’t need to know all of that. But why are you so worried if you can make her come?” Now that’s a question that Buffy is having a hard time answering. She’s asked it to herself at least a hundred times and nothing she came up with is good enough.


“I don’t know. This is different. The third base stuff we do just because we need release, and it’s nice to fool around and get away with something. This is more then just third base we’re talking about. It’s a home run, grand slam, giving myself to her like I’ve never done before and will never be able to do again, with complete nudity. I’ve seen parts of her and she’s seen parts of me, but we’ve never been completely naked. I’ll be exposed and nervous.”


“It sounds like you’re just afraid of getting hurt, physically I mean.” Buffy gives Willow a strange look and the redhead sighs. For someone as smart as Buffy she can be very dumb sometimes. So the redhead explains, “You two haven’t gone passed third base, right?” Buffy nods her head and Willow continues. “Right, well your first time is probably going to hurt. No one’s ever been inside you before. Maybe you’re just afraid Faith is going to hurt you.” ‘Maybe, but I still don’t think that’s it,’ she thinks and sighs.


“No, I don’t think that’s it. I know it’s going to hurt a little bit, and I’m not afraid of that.” Willow has an opinion that she knows Buffy is going to hate. She wants to voice it, but she doesn’t want to make the blonde mad. ‘Hey, she’s asking me for help, she can’t get mad if she’s asking what I think.’ With her mind made up she carefully words what she wants to say.


“Maybe you’re afraid of the afterwards,” she says and the blonde stays quiet. “I don’t want to make you mad, but maybe deep down you’re scared that Faith really is just using you, and after you two finish she’ll leave you and act like you don’t exist. Or maybe she’ll want all of your time together to be spent having sex.” The redhead props herself up on an elbow and looks down at the blonde.


“Would it make me a terrible person if I said I think you’re right?” she asks in a voice no louder then a whisper. She looks up at Willow with guilty eyes and sighs a little bit. She wants to say more and the redhead can tell so she stays quiet and lets the blonde speak what’s on her mind. “It’s not just her, or her reputation or any of that. I think it’s because I’m a virgin and she’s not. I know I would be even more paranoid if I were dating a guy and considering sleeping with him. Faith has been so sweet to me, and I know she’d never do anything like that. I just can’t help but think about all the what if’s.”


“Well, you’re thinking about it and seriously considering it, which means it’ll probably happen. I know this is a total stereotype, but what if you two just get caught up in the moment and you end up sleeping with her, do you think you’ll regret it?” Buffy thinks about it for what seems like forever. She tries to think of every scenario where she and Faith would get caught up in the moment and go farther then they’ve ever gone before. Then she tries to think of the after, what it would be like in the minutes and hours following the event.


“No, I don’t think I’ll regret it at all. But I don’t want my first time to be an int the moment thing. I want it to be special and romantic. I’m not saying lots of candles or flowers or music or anything of the cliche stuff, but I want some planning to go into it.” As she thinks about it more and more not only does the fear and the nervousness go away, but she figures out exactly what she wants. Now this brings her comfort, a sense of calm, and a small smile to her face.


“I want her to take me out first, to a fancy place that has the cliche romantic stuff. A nice, candle lit dinner, with soft music playing in the background. We’ll both be dressed up, and I’ll be wearing some new, sexy lingerie. Then when we’re done eating she can take me back to her place and we’ll go really slow. We’ll just lay on her bed and kiss for a while and when things start to build and get really heated I won’t stop her when she hands start to wander. She’ll be gentle with me, like she’s afraid if she’s rough with me I’ll break. But the next morning she won’t be afraid to get a little rough.”


“Wow,” Willow says and can’t help but smile at the look on Buffy’s face. ‘Yep, that’s how I want it. That would be so perfect.’ “I have a couple questions.” Buffy looks over at the redhead and she has a little confused look on her face. “Since Faith spent almost all of her money fixing her truck up, how is she going to take you out to somewhere fancy?” ‘Jeez, Willow rain on my parade why don’t you?’ “And if she shares her bedroom with her foster sister how are you two going to do anything without getting caught?”


“Ok, I never said it was perfect, but that’s what I want to happen. I never said it was going to happen right away, so she can save her allowance for a while, and then after the date maybe we can get a hotel room or something. God, that sounds really slutty. I don’t want to lose my virginity in a hotel room. So I guess that isn’t a very good plan, but all that matters is that Faith is going to be my first. I guess it doesn’t really matter the where or the scenery or what we do before. As long as she loves me, and I love her then it will be special.”


“How is Faith holding up? I mean, you two have been dating for, like, four months or something like that.” ‘Three months, three weeks, and five days.’ “Isn’t she going a little insane with the lack of sex?” Buffy smiles a little bit and chuckles. She watches as Willow gets a confused look on her face, and it makes Buffy laugh a little more.


“She’s holding up just fine. Whenever the tension gets a little too much for her to handle I give her some release. The same goes for me. And the things she can do with her tongue...I’m sure a lot more woman would switch the lesbianism if they knew what that tongue could do.” That makes Willow blush about three shades of red and Buffy starts laughing almost hysterically. She feels better now that she’s talked this out with someone about this. ‘Now all I have to do is talk to Faith. God, that conversation is going to be so awkward.”


“I’m sorry I was so harsh to her before,” the redhead says and the laughter coming from the blonde stops. They’ve talked about the way Willow and Xander treat Faith, but the redhead was always very stubborn in her ways. They do talk to the brunette and they’re civil but things can be very...chilly. They’re not exactly friendly towards the other girl. They tolerate her because Buffy wants them to. “It’s been hard trying to thin of her as anything other then the heartbreaking bitch that everybody thinks she is.”


“Willow, there’s no need to apologize to me. You guys have been trying to get along with her even though you don’t want to. But I think if you apologized to Faith it would really help out. She wants you guys to accept her even if she’ll never admit it.” Silence falls over the two girls as they both think about the brunette girl. But then Buffy thinks of something else, and it isn’t as pleasant as the thoughts of her girlfriend. “Where does Xander stand in all of this?”


“Xander can hold onto a grudge for a very long time. Larry Blaisdell gave him a swirly in the fourth grade and they haven’t talked since. Well, they never really talked before so I guess that’s a bad example. The point is, even though Anna was popular she was nice to us. When Faith broke up with her in front of the whole school Xander wanted Faith’s blood. He can’t just let it go because after the breakup Faith started hanging out with the bad crowd and started sleeping around. I don’t think she slept with as many people as everyone says she did, but I know there were other girls.” The redhead chances a glance over at the blonde and Buffy does look a little upset.


“But Faith would never do that to you. I know she hasn’t told you yet, but she does love you. Everyone can see it. The way she looks at you when she thinks you aren’t looking, it’s like you’re the sun and she’s the rest of the solar system, everything revolves around you.” Buffy can’t help but smile a very soft smile at that. “She’s changed so much, that it’s really hard to believe. I just need to get used to it, and I’ll try to be nicer to her. It’s just hard. I hated her for so long, it’s going to take time to get over all that.” ‘We’ve been together for almost four months, you’d think these two would be over it by now.’


“It’s not that big of a deal. I want us all to get friends, but it’s not like I’ll ever turn to one of her friends for comfort. We eat lunch together every other day, but I don’t like them very much. You guys are at least trying to be nice to her, that’s more then what they’re doing for me.” Just thinking about Faith’s very rude friends is putting the blonde in a bad mood. ‘Great, just when I was starting to feel better. If I were one of those hard ass, controlling girlfriends I’d so make Faith stop hanging out with them. But I could never do that. She’d go insane if she couldn’t hang out with the guys.’