Out of Control
part 5
Author: Caliadragon
Category: AU/Crossover
Fandoms: Buffy/Anita Blake
Spoilers: Up to the current seasons. Unfortunately I haven't seen
many of this season's Angel. All of the ABVH books.
Pairings: Xander/Harry, Spike/Angel and others.
AN: I love these different pairings so I'm going to cross them.
AN: Buffy, Willow and Faith all died fighting the First. Giles has
adopted Dawn and moved to England with her. Cordy and Fred also died
in the battle. Spike couldn't stay in Sunnydale and went back to his
Sire. Xander and Spike have made peace. Anya and Andrew are living
with Angel and Spike in the hotel. Angel being cursed and the whole
sending the world to hell thing never happened. The Triumvirate have
settledt pro problems and Asher has taken Larry as his human servant
and lover. Mussette has not come to town. I haven't read Cerelun
Sins so it won't factor in to this story. The Buffyverse won't play a
major part in this story.Oz now lives in St. Louis and is part of the
Pack. Everyone knows about vamps, Buffy worked for the Watchers who
were an opposing group of the Vampire Council. When vamps were made al ial it changed and Buffy only hunted vampires that had been
corrupted by the Hellmouth.
Summary: Xander has given up on everything and everyone in Sunnydale.
He travels to say goodbye to everyone he knew and to find Oz to tell
him about Willow.
Thanks as always to Edi for the beta.
This is for everyone who has supported me in my writing and puts up
with my being a WIP wonder.
Chapter 5
Xander was still furious later that evening as he stood pacing in the
main chambers underneath the Circus of the Damned. He couldn't
believe that the bastard actually had the nerve to come and demand
that Xander tell him where they were buried.
Xander was so glad that he had cremated the girls. He would have
cremated his Willow as well, but the transfer of her magic had burned
her body to ashes.
Grief slammed into him full force as he thought of all he had lost.
His family was gone or separated from him. He wasn't sure he would
ever get over losing his girls.
Nathaniel watched as his new friend paced from wall to wall. He
could sense the other man's wildly fluctuating emotions. Grief,
rage, desolation and pain bled from him. Thepirepires in the room
were all fairly glowing. Especially Damien who was feeding,
unwantingly, off of Xander's emotions.
Oz stood suddenly and blocked Xander's path. The larger man looked
down at him in question. "What's happened, Xan? You were fine
this morning."
"Travers, that bastard that runs the Watcher's Council, came and
demanded that I raise Buffy and Faith. When I refused he demanded
their resting place. I told him to fuck off. I didn't bury them. I
cremated them and scattered their ashes. I want that bastard dead.
It was all I could do not to kill him. He nearly destroyed our
Willow. He corrupted her magic and forced her to raise Buffy from
the dead." Xander was screaming in rage.
"What, wait, how many times has she died?" Jason blurted
out.
Xander looked at him for a minute then shrugged. "Three times,
but you can't really count the first time, she was only dead for
about five minutes." They all gaped at him in stunned silence.
Well all but Oz. Like Xander he was used to Sunnydlifelife.
"How did Buffy die the second time? It must have happened after
I lost touch with you guys."
Xander rubbed his forehead. "A hell god was trapped in our
dimension. She got pissy because she thought we had her key home.
So she attacked us and in the end she opened a portal to her
dimension. You know, the whole hell on earth thing." Oz
nodded, while Asher sank heavily into a chair and Richard shook his
head in disbelief.
"To close the portal, Buffy had to jump into it. It killed her.
She was dead for about three months. The Hellmouth was out of our
control and Faith was still in prison. Because she was aive and no
new Slayer had been called, Travers ordered some of the Council's
magic doers to corrupt Willow. She was under a spell that made her
obey them. By the time Giles returned and found out about the spell,
she had put a compulsion on me, Anya and Tara.
In the end Buffy was raised from the dead, but the magic that was
used also released the hold that kept the First Evil from entering
our realm." Xander paused in his explanation and ran a hand
across his face. Those listening knew there was more to the story,
but they also knew that there was likely no way he would go into
detail either. Like Oz, living on tellmellmouth had given him a
natural immunity to vampires so they couldn't even compel the answers
from him.
"By the time the compulsion was broken it was too late for all
of us. Tara had been killed by Warren and Willow had gone insane
with grief and hunger for magic. I barely stopped her from
destroying the world. As it is I have all of the magic knowledge
that she sucked out of the books at the Magic Box and the magic that
she took from Giles." Xander sighed and began to pace again,
despair radiating from him.
Oz knew his friend, there was more to the story. Xander shudder at
the memory of that horrible day. Memories of the terror and the
pain. Memories of watching what his sweet Willow had done to Warren.
Would he do that? Would he lose himself the way Willow had? Giles
had told him it wouldn't happen, but what if it did?
The new powers he possessed made him as strong and as lethal as
Anita, but without having to take vampire marks. However, unlike
Anita, he knew that there was bigger and badder out there, and that
there was always someone better. Anita had forgotten that over the
years.
Xander could see that she had already lost pieces of herself to the
things she hunted. Buffy would have lost them as well if she hadn't
had the rest of them to go to. Unlike Buffy, Anita didn't give
herself to others. Even her lovers didn't have her completely.
Sooner or later that was going to get them all killed.
tbc..