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To You
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-Buffy the Vampire Slayer › FemmeSlash - Female/Female › Buffy/Faith
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Adult +
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Category:
-Buffy the Vampire Slayer › FemmeSlash - Female/Female › Buffy/Faith
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
2
Views:
2,436
Reviews:
5
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
i do not own or profit in anyway from the BTVS tv show or merchandis
To You 2
To you,
Its been almost a year and a half, the last six months have been tortuous. I have gone crazy, and i cannot lie to you, that feeling of insanity was a blessing, a brief reprieve to the pain that thrummed through my moments. Every thought was consumed by you, every dream, every woman that resembled you from the corner of my eye. Through chance i took a job that was by your work and the afternoons i would see you would both be tormenting and joyous. For it felt as if i could feel you again. Until finally the knawing pain that came with seeing you with her overthrew my sanity and i lost it. The alchohol wouldnt stop flowing, the sorrow that permeated my every step wiped me of everything. It was addicting. The need to throw your attempts at friendship to the dirt and drive you away thrummed through me. The reality that you would always be within reach but never mine wouldnt cease. Through all this i stumbled upon the quote "If two exes are friends it is either because they are still in love or never were"
I couldnt let that become reality. Because i know i loved you. Just now i am forced to believe it wasnt for you. I have done everything i can to fade you from my mind, including of all things taking a lover. Who adores me, who i love a great deal and most days i know that i love her enough to try. But even now months after i have driven you away you still dominate my thoughts always. You are away on some mission once again and all i want to do is protect you. I can feel it maddening me along the edges but i force myself to hope itll change. That someday youll no longer matter. but how can it be possible that you wont when you are the only person i have ever said i loved, because you see with people like me love is a myth so when we say it and mean it thats it.
Its been almost a year and a half, the last six months have been tortuous. I have gone crazy, and i cannot lie to you, that feeling of insanity was a blessing, a brief reprieve to the pain that thrummed through my moments. Every thought was consumed by you, every dream, every woman that resembled you from the corner of my eye. Through chance i took a job that was by your work and the afternoons i would see you would both be tormenting and joyous. For it felt as if i could feel you again. Until finally the knawing pain that came with seeing you with her overthrew my sanity and i lost it. The alchohol wouldnt stop flowing, the sorrow that permeated my every step wiped me of everything. It was addicting. The need to throw your attempts at friendship to the dirt and drive you away thrummed through me. The reality that you would always be within reach but never mine wouldnt cease. Through all this i stumbled upon the quote "If two exes are friends it is either because they are still in love or never were"
I couldnt let that become reality. Because i know i loved you. Just now i am forced to believe it wasnt for you. I have done everything i can to fade you from my mind, including of all things taking a lover. Who adores me, who i love a great deal and most days i know that i love her enough to try. But even now months after i have driven you away you still dominate my thoughts always. You are away on some mission once again and all i want to do is protect you. I can feel it maddening me along the edges but i force myself to hope itll change. That someday youll no longer matter. but how can it be possible that you wont when you are the only person i have ever said i loved, because you see with people like me love is a myth so when we say it and mean it thats it.