Learning To Live Instead Of Exist

Learning to Live Instead of Exist
Written By: Mistress Titania
Beta: Neviditelny
Disclaimer: I do not own nor did I create Torchwood, Doctor Who. Buffy the Vampire Slayer, CSI-New York, Navy-NCIS, Stargate-SG1 or Stargate-Atlantis, they belong to to own creators and distribution companies. I make no profit off this and write only for my own pleasure.
Rating: FRAO
Pairing: Xander/Ianto/Jack, Dawn/Toshiko, Don Flack jr/Danny Messer, Jack O'Neill/Daniel Jackson, Gwen/Owen
Characters who are single so far: Faith, Tony DiNozzo, Abby Scuito, John Sheppard, Rodney McKay, Carson Beckett, Teyla, Ronon, Elizabeth Weir, Paul Davis, Teal'c, Jonas Quinn, Cameron Mitchell, Jon(clone of Jack O'Neill), The Doctor, Martha Jones and anyone else you the reader want to see from either Torchwood, Doctor Who, Stargate-SG1 or Stargate-Atlantis.
Spoilers: All seasons of BtVS, first season of Torchwood in particular the last two episodes, right around Tanglewood episode of CSI-New York and up to Twilight of Navy-NCIS, Up to first couple episodes in Season 9 of Stargate-SG1,and all of Season 2 in Stargate-Atlantis, Doctor Who Season 3.
Warning: Will contain slashy threesome sex scenes eventually, some femslash and hetero hinted at; OOC(especially Gwen, Owen, Samatha, Buffy, and Willow);
Summary: Xander is called upon by a power-to-be and sent to another universe to save our world and theirs, along with the bonus of finding love and happiness.
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Notes: The ages and height I'm taking from the actors, as according to IMDB.com but I'm changing the ages for the Buffy characters, I'm making up Dawn's age, Xander's I got by making him 18 when they graduated in '99 and I decided to make Faith around 15 when she appeared on the show, I think that was the typical age of how old a slayer was when they were activated;

The ages of all the characters in my fic are going to be as follows-Dawn-18, Tony is 38, Danny is 33, Don is 29, Abby is 38, Xander is 26 , Faith is 24, Owen is 32, Gwen is 28, Rhys is ?, Jack is 40(at least that's the age we'll say he was when he was made immortal), Ianto is 25, Toshiko is 31, Daniel is 36, General Jack is 57, John is 40, Rodney is 39, Carson is 38, Teyla is ?, Ronon is 27, Elizabeth is 37, Teal'c is 42, Jonas is 35, Paul is 40, Cameron is 44, and Jon(cloned O'Neill) is 19.

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Chapter 1

It was pure and utter chaos in the underground base of Torchwood. Everybody was screaming at Jack that the rift needed to be opened completely and he was trying in vain to talk them out of it. Deciding that time was running out, Owen pulled out a gun that he had stolen from Jack's desk and quickly pointed it directly at his head. Jack just stared up from the floor, both at the gun and the team that had betrayed him. The team moved to stand behind Owen, showing him their support. It hurt that they had all turned on him but what really ripped Jack's heart out was Toshiko’s and Ianto’s betrayal. Jack had finally started to let himself feel again, let himself love again, and even let himself hope again. Toshiko had become a sister to him, and slowly but surely, Ianto was becoming Jack's lover, not just another sexual partner, but a true lover. All that was destroyed now, because none of the team apparently ever really trusted him. If opening the rift didn't have the major chance of ending the entire existence of time and space, then Jack would have been more than happy to let them kill him and open it. Pretending to be dead would give him a chance to start a new life, since this one seemed to be ruined.

Jack was pulled out of his thoughts by a bright light that appeared in the space between him and Owen. Everyone in the room closed their eyes, as it kept getting brighter and brighter. When the light vanished a few seconds later, the members of Torchwood were shocked at what had been left behind. Seven humanoids stood there, each holding a suit case and backpack; three females and four males. They all appeared to have modern American in clothing and hair styles.

"Hey, don't you know it's rude to point guns at people, especially the good guys?! Actually, using guns period is rude! It's a wimpy way to kill someone, hands off killing; you don't even have to see the blood or the face of your victim, especially if you use a sniper scope. No offense to the cops with us, but I much prefer hand-to-hand combat." This was spoken by the youngest of the group. She appeared to be around 5'7'', but came across as taller because of the laced-up black high heeled boots she wore. Her long hair was dyed a rainbow of colors and piled atop her head so a few pieces framed her face. Her outfit was a plain black baby t-shirt and a pair of blue jean capris, her toned stomach, exposed allowing everyone to see her pierced belly button. With a wave of her hand, the gun that Owen had been holding vanished.

While she'd been talking and distracting everyone, one of the men started quickly chanting. The members of Torchwood, except for Jack, found themselves forced to sit down on chairs that appeared behind them, and moments later were tied at the wrists and ankles to those very same chairs. Then the man chanted something again, and Billis appeared trapped inside a bubble. The man who had been chanting nodded to his companions. The blonde female in leather gently moved the other two women in the party over to the computers and whispered something in their ears. They both nodded, and quickly went to work shutting down the rift and putting in better security programs to prevent the rift from being opened again by Torchwood. Two of the three remaining men, who had police badges visible on their belts, slowly moved closer and wrapped their arms around each other’s waists, nuzzling. The final man, a pretty boy dressed in a suit, worked on moving all the luggage and bags the seven had brought into conference room.

"HEY! GET AWAY FROM THE COMPUTERS! WE NEED TO OPEN THE RIFT TO SAVE THE WORLD!" screamed Owen, as he struggled to get free from the chair. "I don't know who the hell you are or where you came from but you’re going to be in a huge amount of trouble once I get free! You are condemning this world to be destroyed if we don't open that rift in the next five minutes!"

"Dude, were you dropped repeatedly on the head as a child?! How stupid can one person be?! We know Jack explained to you idiots the incredible dangers of opening the rift; it's not for mere mortals to control! And besides, you were being tricked into opening the rift because it would allow the demon Abaddon that is buried beneath Cardiff to get free," growled Dawn at Owen and the rest of the team. She smirked as they all paled, as they remembered the research Ianto had done earlier which had mentioned how horrible Abaddon was. She went back to typing with Abby, and they finished their shutdown and update of the security program.

"Yeah, starting to understand how you almost ended the world?! You people all owe Jack a huge apology and lots of ‘I'm sorry’ cookies. That man in the bubble is not a man, at all but a demon that got trapped here with his boss, Abaddon. He’s been working for a very long time to free him. You guys were the first idiots he'd ever gotten to really believe him in a very long time. You’re just lucky that Jack was able to stall long enough for the Powers-That-Be to send us here. You were just going to let Owen shoot Jack in the head, step over the dead body of your boss, and go ahead and open the rift! You all need to take a long, hard look at what kind of people you are!

“In the meantime, while we wait to decide if you’re going to have your memories erased or not, you will be staying in the brand new cells we made for humans." Dawn pointed to a new wall that had appeared. Each cell looked like a single hotel room with a simple bathroom attached. She walked over to the demon in the bubble and flipped him off. "Hey, Jackass, give it up, your ex-boss, the lord of wish demons will be here to pick you up later tonight, and he’ll deal with your punishment. You’re in major trouble!" She smirked as Billis whimpered and his shoulders slumped in defeat.

"Listen little girl, you really don't know what type of things you’re messing with," Owen said, as he once again tried to talk his way out of trouble. "Jack, do something, you idiot! Don't just sit there and let them treat us like this! Hello, you’re supposed to be protecting us! GET OFF YOUR ASS AND DO SOMETHING!"

While all this was going on, Jack had stayed on the floor where the last punch from Owen had left him, and curled himself into a ball. While he was vaguely aware of what was going on, for the most part, he'd retreated into his mind. Hearing the anger in Owen's voice caused him to start rocking, and he wrapped his arms around his knees. His inner pain started to escape, as tears began to run down his face.

"I really have had enough of your mouth! You are a little brat that needs a good spanking and his mouth washed out with soap!" With a small show of power, Xander had Owen gagged tightly with a scarf. "All of you should really be ashamed at your behavior! Jack has always been there for you! He gave all of you second and third chances! And how do you repay him? By attempting to kill him! By dismissing every piece of knowledge that his years and years of experience have given him! So what if there are some secrets he hasn't told you? He's your boss, not your child; he's allowed to have some personal secrets! I know you all didn't tell him every one of your dirty little secrets. Once we get Jack stabilized again, we’ll let him decide what your punishments will be, and if we’ll erase you memories of Torchwood.

“Of course from what little I saw in the visions, I have to say that I'm most disappointed in Ianto’s and Toshiko's behavior. Out of everyone, the both of you know that there is much more to Jack than what he shows to the world; that’s all just a mask for protection. Toshiko, did what happened in the 1940s mean nothing to you?! Did Jack not do everything in his power to protect you and keep you safe? You know damn that well he did! You know that he promised to take care of you if you couldn’t get back to the proper time! Yet, when the chips were down, you didn’t return the favor! Instead, you turned your back on him! You really need to think about what honor means to you and what type of person you want to be!

“And you, Ianto, who fought to keep you a part of Torchwood after you betrayed everyone by keeping Lisa in the basement?! Jack might have been hard on you at the time, but later he fought to prevent you from losing your job! Do you know that Jack could really have allowed himself to love you? In his very long life, there have been less than a handful of people that truly stole Jack's heart. Yes, he enjoyed the sex, but that’s very different than giving his heart to someone. When Jack’s in love, he gives everything to that person, and no, he doesn't cheat!" Xander glared at Gwen, who had been about to open her mouth. He waved his hand and she was now gagged, too. "I really hope you people use this time to think about what you’ve done."

With another wave of his hand, Xander sent them all into the cells and slammed the doors. Their gags and restraints were removed once the doors were locked. In his cell, Ianto was starting to have his own breakdown as he realized what a fool he'd been for listening to Owen and the others instead of Jack. It was killing him to think that he had lost the last shot he had at happiness. He could see Jack from his cell, and even though he had no right to, Ianto still longed to give Jack the comfort he had received after Lisa's death. Toshiko was also feeling an enormous amount of regret and shame. Rhys was furious withGwen, his soon to be ex-girlfriend, because if what that man had said was true, then she was not the woman he thought she was. Only Gwen and Owen still thought that they had behaved okay, and were furious at being yelled at. They also were angry that Jack had done nothing to stick up for them.

Dawn and Abby smiled at Xander and gave him a thumbs up as they finished with the computers. The rift was now closed for good and it would take lots of work to open it again. Faith, Tony, Don, and Danny had moved to the conference room with the luggage, and were reading a couple of newspapers to learn about their new home world. Abby and Dawn joined them after they gave Xander a hug of encouragement. Xander took a deep breath and walked up to where Jack was still curled up, crying.

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Jack slowly lifted a hand to wipe away some of his tears. He lifted his head and looked around a bit surprised that Owen hadn't shot him yet. He was even more surprised when he realized that the computers were back in standby mode. Jack uncurled himself, sat up, and started looking around for his team. It shocked him to see that they were in some sort of cells that had appeared out of nowhere, nice cells, but cells nonetheless. He suddenly remembered that there had been a bright light and that seven strangers had appeared all of which had agreed with him that opening the rift was a bad thing. Jack noticed that one of the men was sitting next to him, just watching. The man noticed that Jack appeared to be aware of his surroundings again. Jack was in for another surprise when the man suddenly pulled him onto his lap, cuddling him.

"I'm Xander Harris. My friends and I are here to help you save this world. We’re from another universe; we didn't have aliens there. Instead, we had magic and demons. So, now you have some new help, people that believe and trust you. I'll introduce you to the others later, just know for now I have a witch, a chick who's like Wonder Woman called a Slayer, three forensic scientists, and an American detective.


“Now comes the really strange part: see, to get us to agree to come here, the Powers had to promise us a few things. The most important was that we would all find happiness and love. Jack, you’re part of that package for me, I would like a chance to get know the real you. Don’t worry, when I was sent to this world they made me the same type of immortal that you are. You never have to worry about being alone again Jack, never! The rest of my group was also made immortal, but they all have the option of giving up their immortality if they ever get tired of living. My life is tied to you, when you get your perment death, so will I," explained Xander. During the explanation, he kept rocking Jack gently in his arms, rubbing his back soothingly. "Let it out, it's okay. You now have help in being the strong one."

End Chapter 1
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I would love to hear some pairing ideas for those characters that are un-attached at the moment, you can pick from characters that appear in any episode of Doctor Who, Torchwood, Stargate-SG1 or Stargate Atlantis. I'd also like to hear if you'd rather see the eventual Stargate crossover focus on SG1 or Atlantis, it will be then either Torchwood/SG1 or Torchwood/Atlantis, the only Buffy characters are Xander, Faith and Dawn. Thanks for reading and all the wonderful feedback. If someone would like to be my beta who is familiar with Torchwood and Stargate, that would be great.