No! But? Bollocks!

Chapter 3 - Supplies and Nightmares (NC-17)

"I hate bloody Walmart!" Spike groused. "And how are we supposed
to know what size to buy?" Spike muttered while they walked down
the baby aisle together. There were several different sizes of diapers
that came in several different quantities. How were they supposed to
know what size the little bugger wore?

"Well, he looks like he's close to two, all the diapers are marked with
ages. Probably this one will work." Xander offered a bag of diapers to
Spike to put in the cart. "There wasn't any formula or bottles in the
diaper bag, so he probably doesn't need them anymore. He might
need some baby food though. Probably these ones will do." Xander
grabbed a few bottles of food and threw them in the cart.

"Maybe we should buy a book on parenting?" Xander wondered
aloud.

"I don't know, luv," Spike answered warily. "We may not have them
that long." Spike really didn't want Xander getting hurt if they had to
give the kids up, but he knew it was probably already too late for that.

"Spike!" Xander rounded on his husband. "Stop reminding me of that
already! I know there's a chance they might have relatives, or
somewhere else to go, but what if there isn't? Then they're ours! I
don't need you to remind me every five seconds that we might be
losing them!" Xander's face was hot with anger.

Spike stepped up and tried to wrap his arms around Xander, but the
boy pulled away. Hurt, Spike replied quietly, "I'm sorry, Xan. I just
don't want to see you get hurt, luv." Spike turned and grabbed the
cart, pushing it down the aisle. "I won't mention it again, Xan. Let's
just get the rest of the stuff so we can get back."

Xander felt like a heel. He hurried to catch up to the vamp, stopping
his progress and sweeping him into his arms. "No, I'm sorry, Spike. I
didn't mean to yell, I know you're just trying to protect me." He pulled
away from Spike, pausing to place a swift kiss on his lips. "B kno know
what might happen. It doesn't stop me from caring about the kids.
And believe me, you don't have to remind me that we might not get to
keep them." The last was whispered in a rush of breath.

"Oh, luv." Spike returned the kiss with one of his own. "Let's not talk
about it now, yeah? We'll worry about it if it happens."

Xander smiled up at his love, gratitude shining in his eyes. "Thanks,
Spike," he said, before grabbing the cart himself and continuing their
shopping trip.

***

"We're home!" Xander sing-songed as he unlocked the door. "Are
the kids asleep?" he asked when he spied the girls sitting on the
couch, watching an old movie.

"Geez! Did you guys buy the whole store?" Dawn sprang up to
divest Xander of some bags. "What the heck did you get?"

"Just some supplies. You know diapers, food for Dor, food for
Lonnie. Some clothes for them, an air mattress, some toys, some
books, toothbrushes…you know. The essentials," Xander replied
before going back for more bags.

Willow and Tara came over to help unpack the bags. "Essentials?"
Willow questioned with a quirked brow as she pulled out the latest
Spiderman comic book.

"Sure! Uhm...bed time stories." He grinned triumphantly, stopping
briefly to give Spike a peck on the cheek as they passed each other.

Spike rolled his eyes indulgently. "Xanpet's right though. The kids
will probably love those. Along with the thousand other things he
bought them."

"Oh, like you didn't buy anything, mister!" Xander admonished while
poking an accusing finger at his chest.

"Hey, I only bought them what they needed!" Spike answered.

"Oh, like Dor really needs a tiny Manchester United jersey!" Xander
teased.

"Hey, the little bit needs clothes, don't he?" Spike answered, looking
slightly embarrassed.

"And the little soccer ball you bought?"

"All bits need to work on hand eye coordination. That's just a tool,"
Spike answered smartly. "'And Lonnie can use it, too."

The girls just smiled at the interplay between the guys. After almost
four years as a couple, they were used to it by now. Once all the
groceries were put away, Dawn took the air mattress and inflated it in
the spare bedroom. She made up the bed before re-entering the
living room. "You sure you guys want to sleep on an air mattress?"

"It's just temporary, Dawn, until we buy the bunk beds. We don't want
the kids having to sleep on the air mattress so they can stay in our
room. It'll just be for a few days," Xander answered.

Exhausted after the supply run, Xander and Spike thanked the girls
and showed them out. "We'll see you tomorrow. Thanks again, Wills,
Tara, Dawn," Xander nodded at each in turn as they stepped out into
the hall. "Yeah, thanks, ducks," Spike followed up.

Once the girls had left the boys checked on Dor and Lonnie, finding
them both fast asleep. They quietly shut the door. Xander was glad
that they'd gotten the baby monitors so that they would know if either
of the kids woke in the middle of the night.

After triple checking that the monitor was on, Xander joined Spike on
the couch. "You know, we don't need that bleedin' monitor. I can
hear everything that goes on in that room."

"Yeah, but what if you aren't here? I need to be able to hear, too."

Spike conceded, leaning his head on Xander's shoulder. They sat
together for a few moments, until Spike gave in to his desire to taste
his nummy treat. The vampire trailed kisses all along Xander's
collarbone, reveling in the soft murmurs that escaped Xan's lips.
After a while, Spike took Xander's face in his hands and pulled him
down for a long, wet smooch. While they were snogging, Spike
crawled into his lover's lap, straddling him and allowing their groins to
come in contact.

"Ungh! Spike!" Xander thrust up against the contact. "Wait, we
can't," he tried to protest in between kisses. "The kids…"

"They're asleep, Xan. And I'll hear them before they can get out of
that room." Spike countered his protests.

Xander was finding it difficult to concentrate with Spike's tongue
swirling delicious patterns on his skin, and Spike's hips thrusting
down towards his own. "Wait! At least let's go into the spare room
and lock the door!" Xander tried omoremore.

"Okay, luv. If that's the only way to get you to let us shag, then let's
go!" Spike pulled on Xander's arm and practically flung him into their
temporary bedroom. Once there, he pushed Xander down onto the
air mattress, pulling and tugging at his clothes as they went. "I've
been horny ever since the fight in the cemetery, luv." Kiss. Kiss.
Kiss. "Want you." Kiss. Lick. Kiss. "Now." Kiss. Nibble. Kiss.

Within a matter of moments, they were both naked and hard. Xander
was panting and begging Spike to hurry. Spike's fingers were in
Xander's hole, stretching and lubing in preparation. "Are you ready
for me, Xan?" His fingers continued to piston in and out slowly.
Xander moaned and thrust back onto the intrusion. "Want more?
Want my cock in you?"

"Yessss," Xander hissed out. His eyes opened and he focused them
on Spike's blue gaze. "Spike, please. I'm so hard, I *need* to cum."

"Don't worry, Xanpet." Spike leaned down and gave him a relatively
chaste kiss on the lips. "I won't leave you wanting, luv." Spike
smirked down at his dazed lover, maneuvering them both so that the
head of his cock was just brushing against Xan's puckered hole.

Spike pushed in slowly, the head just breaching Xander's tight ring of
muscle. He paused there for a moment, just savoring being inside his
Xanpet. Spike looked down at his lover's face, urging Xander to open
his eyes. He would have balked to know the look he sported when
Xander finally focused enough to see him. Xander's mouth turned up
into a silly grin, seeing the look of love on his husband's features.

Before moving any further forward, Spike brought his hand up to play
with the silver chain shining against Xander's bronzed skin. He
leaned forward and placed a reverent kiss on the intricate design
lying on Xan's chest. After Xander had donned the necklace on their
wedding night, he'd never taken it off. And that thought was what had
brought the look of absolute love to Spike's face.

Xander leaned forward and pressed his lips to Spike's whispering, "I
love you." He lay back onto the pillows and hitched his legs further
up onto Spike's shoulders. Without saying a word he urged Spike to
push further in, hands on the slim, pale hips, pulling him forward.

"Love you too, Xan," Spike answered before thrusting all the way in,
his balls slapping up against Xander's ass cheeks. They both
groaned at the sound of naked flesh hitting naked flesh. Spike
allowed Xander just a moment before beginning a slow but steady
rhythm.

They made love, slow and sweet. Xander's whole body broke out in a
light sheen of sweat that Spike loved. The vampire leaned in to lick
the salty liquid off his lover's skin, until Xander was begging
incoherently. "Spike! Ungh! Faster! I need…ungh! Please…God,
need…harder! Fuck!"

Spurred on, Spike increased his rhythm. His hand shot down to
grasp Xander around the base of his penis, jacking him fast and hard.
"Come on, Xan. Cum with me," Spike whispered as his other hand
came forward to massage Xander's sac. He was rewarded with a
whimper from his mate. "That's it, luv." Spike's breath tickled the
hairs on Xander's neck, just beneath his ear. "Want to see you cum.
You're bleedin' beautiful when you cum, luv. Yeah. Fuck!" Spike's
own orgasm was building up fast. The vamp cried out with relief
when he felt Xander's anal walls contract around him, his cum
splattering onto Spike's cool skin. Spike let himself go, his orgasm
thundering through him.

They lay sated for a few moments before Xander insisted they get up
and shower. Afterwards, he forced Spike to wear pajama bottoms,
just in case one of the kids woke up looking for them. He'd just have
to learn not to sleep starkers with the kids around. Before they could
fall fully asleep Xander heard a light knock on their door. He jumped
up quickly and opened it to find Dor standing there, looking
frightened, with Lonnie just behind him.

"What's wrong?" he asked, quickly crouching down to their eye level.
Spike was now standing beside him, checking the kids for injuries and
the hall for intruders. "Did you guys have a nightmare?"

Dor nodded and Lonnie sniffled. "Did you want to sleep with us?"

"Please?" Lonnie's small voice echoed in the empty hall.

Spike felt something tug at his heart as he scooped up the small girl.
"Sure, luv." He motioned to Xander to get Dor. "'Course you can
sleep with us." Spike laid Lonnie down in the center of the air bed,
while Xander laid Dor beside her. Then they each got in beside them.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" Xander asked them. He was surprised
when it was Dor that answered.

"Was scary. Dark. Momma and Daddy wouldn't come." Dor turned
and snuggled into Xander.

"They left us alone. We called and they wouldn't answer." Lonnie
continued for Dor. She too turned to snuggle up, burrowing into
Spike's arms.

"You two shared the same dream?" Spike asked, perplexed to hear
them both describe the same thing.

"Yeah. Not always, but sometimes. Usually the scary ones, though,"
Lonnie answered. "I like it that way. So's I'm not alone."

Spike kissed the top of Lonnie's head, his hand rubbing soothing
circles on her back. "I'm glad, luv. It's good you and Dor have each
other," Spike reassured her.

"And now you have us, too," Xander replied.

As the kids drifted off to sleep, Xander and Spike glanced at each
other. They'd have to do some research soon. They needed to figure
out exactly what Dor and Lonnie were, especially if they were going to
try to take care of them. Shared dreams? At least it was a clue. And
then they, too, drifted off into slumber.