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Chapter 18: Love Mattered
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Chapter 18
Love Mattered
Julian sat across from Buffy. He eyed her tear stained face. “I am sorry about the other day. I was too rough,” he said, his expression serious.
“No you weren’t, “ she said blushing furiously. She chewed on her lower lip and stole a look at him.
“Good, good,” he said, his voice shakier than he would’ve of liked. He nervously clasped and unclasped his hands. “I didn’t want to hurt you but I wasn’t really my self. But you were so warm, so tempting, you make me lose all my control. And your scent was so intoxicating, I just wanted to have a taste.”
Blushing and avoiding his gaze, Buffy said. “That’s okay, I enjoyed it.” Every time his gaze met hers, her heart turned over in response. She remembered what Whistler said, and she was tired of running.
Intense astonishment touched his face. “You did!” he asked.
“Yeah,” Buffy said, coloring fiercely.
“Bu-but, you left,” Julian said, staring at her in bewilderment. ”
Her hazel eyes met his dark ones. “Look,” Buffy said, “I couldn’t reconcile my feelings for you and what I had felt for Angel. Now, that’s all changed.”
“How? What?” he said, his eyes darken with emotion.
“Whistler.”
“Who, and what is a whistler,” Julian asked puzzled.
“Whistler is a balance demon, who worked for the Powers That Be.
“Okay,” said Julian confused. Balance demon? Power that be?
“Don’t worry,” Buffy said, smiling gently. “I’ll tell you later. What did you want to talk to me about,” she said.
Julian walked over to the window. With his back to Buffy, he said “Some people had called me weak; because I had hesitated in calling a blood hunt on Alexandra when we found out she had broken the masquerade. You see I loved her for years and I though I had never thought I would love again after my wife Evelyn had died in childbirth. I did. I was embraced into the Kindred and in it, I found a new family. I was falling for the woman I was dating before you came into my life, Caitlin. With her, I was risking not only my heart but also the masquerade. But I could not, would not, risk the masquerade.”
“Lillie was a different story. I had loved Lillie. You cannot be with someone for over fifty years and not grow to love them. But with her, it was all about sex and control. She wanted to be seen as the prince’s girlfriend. However, that is all in the past. Yes, I lived along time and have had many women, but that stopped when I found you. You complete me. You are my mate. I love you Elisabeth Buffy Summers Winters. I would gladly give up being the Prince if I cannot have you in my life. The last thing Alexandra had said to me was *’she wanted to be a woman, a girl consumed by love.’ I had never understood, but I do now. I am standing here before you a man consumed by love.”
She stared longingly at him, while tears slowly found their way down her cheeks. She stood up and walk slowly towards him. She was overwhelmed by her love for this man. Eight months ago, she was in such despaired. She never thought she would find someone who understood her completely. Flaws and all. “You gave me strength and the courage to live again. I was a coward, hiding behind my pain. Not realizing you was in pain too. I hated being a coward. I hated that you made me feel. But most of all, I couldn’t help but be in love with you,” said Buffy, stopping in front of Julian. “I was so conflicted, I loved Angel a long time and it’s hard letting someone else in my life. And I thought you would hurt me the same way that he did.
Julian opened his mouth to defend him self.
“No, I understand you would never hurt me,” Buffy said, stopping him in mid motion. He was so handsome he astounds her. “And I know Angel wouldn’t have hurt me if he was in his right mind. However, I was seventeen and it was my first sexual experience. In addition, what he said after, made me feel like a lesser of a person. But I wanted you to know I wasn’t running from you, but my self.”
“Oh, Lissa you do understand.” said Julian, meeting her in the middle of the room. “Since Archon death, no one knew how it is to be the judge, jury and executioner. But you do,” he said, bringing his hand to caress her face. Her skin tingled when he touched her. “You have seen the best of me and the worst and still you are here by my side.” Julian cupped her face in both hands. Parting her lips, she raised herself to meet his kiss. His tongue traced the soft fullness of her lips. Giving herself freely to the passion of the kiss, it was like coming home.
Chapter 18
Love Mattered
Julian sat across from Buffy. He eyed her tear stained face. “I am sorry about the other day. I was too rough,” he said, his expression serious.
“No you weren’t, “ she said blushing furiously. She chewed on her lower lip and stole a look at him.
“Good, good,” he said, his voice shakier than he would’ve of liked. He nervously clasped and unclasped his hands. “I didn’t want to hurt you but I wasn’t really my self. But you were so warm, so tempting, you make me lose all my control. And your scent was so intoxicating, I just wanted to have a taste.”
Blushing and avoiding his gaze, Buffy said. “That’s okay, I enjoyed it.” Every time his gaze met hers, her heart turned over in response. She remembered what Whistler said, and she was tired of running.
Intense astonishment touched his face. “You did!” he asked.
“Yeah,” Buffy said, coloring fiercely.
“Bu-but, you left,” Julian said, staring at her in bewilderment. ”
Her hazel eyes met his dark ones. “Look,” Buffy said, “I couldn’t reconcile my feelings for you and what I had felt for Angel. Now, that’s all changed.”
“How? What?” he said, his eyes darken with emotion.
“Whistler.”
“Who, and what is a whistler,” Julian asked puzzled.
“Whistler is a balance demon, who worked for the Powers That Be.
“Okay,” said Julian confused. Balance demon? Power that be?
“Don’t worry,” Buffy said, smiling gently. “I’ll tell you later. What did you want to talk to me about,” she said.
Julian walked over to the window. With his back to Buffy, he said “Some people had called me weak; because I had hesitated in calling a blood hunt on Alexandra when we found out she had broken the masquerade. You see I loved her for years and I though I had never thought I would love again after my wife Evelyn had died in childbirth. I did. I was embraced into the Kindred and in it, I found a new family. I was falling for the woman I was dating before you came into my life, Caitlin. With her, I was risking not only my heart but also the masquerade. But I could not, would not, risk the masquerade.”
“Lillie was a different story. I had loved Lillie. You cannot be with someone for over fifty years and not grow to love them. But with her, it was all about sex and control. She wanted to be seen as the prince’s girlfriend. However, that is all in the past. Yes, I lived along time and have had many women, but that stopped when I found you. You complete me. You are my mate. I love you Elisabeth Buffy Summers Winters. I would gladly give up being the Prince if I cannot have you in my life. The last thing Alexandra had said to me was *’she wanted to be a woman, a girl consumed by love.’ I had never understood, but I do now. I am standing here before you a man consumed by love.”
She stared longingly at him, while tears slowly found their way down her cheeks. She stood up and walk slowly towards him. She was overwhelmed by her love for this man. Eight months ago, she was in such despaired. She never thought she would find someone who understood her completely. Flaws and all. “You gave me strength and the courage to live again. I was a coward, hiding behind my pain. Not realizing you was in pain too. I hated being a coward. I hated that you made me feel. But most of all, I couldn’t help but be in love with you,” said Buffy, stopping in front of Julian. “I was so conflicted, I loved Angel a long time and it’s hard letting someone else in my life. And I thought you would hurt me the same way that he did.
Julian opened his mouth to defend him self.
“No, I understand you would never hurt me,” Buffy said, stopping him in mid motion. He was so handsome he astounds her. “And I know Angel wouldn’t have hurt me if he was in his right mind. However, I was seventeen and it was my first sexual experience. In addition, what he said after, made me feel like a lesser of a person. But I wanted you to know I wasn’t running from you, but my self.”
“Oh, Lissa you do understand.” said Julian, meeting her in the middle of the room. “Since Archon death, no one knew how it is to be the judge, jury and executioner. But you do,” he said, bringing his hand to caress her face. Her skin tingled when he touched her. “You have seen the best of me and the worst and still you are here by my side.” Julian cupped her face in both hands. Parting her lips, she raised herself to meet his kiss. His tongue traced the soft fullness of her lips. Giving herself freely to the passion of the kiss, it was like coming home.