Damage

Less than 15 minutes later they were entering Spike's house. Buffy took his hand and dragged him towards his study. Once inside, he closed and locked the door. He turned around and the next thing he knew he had an armful of Buffy as she pushed him up against the door. She attacked his mouth and putting her arms around him, hoisted her legs up around his waist, rubbing herself against him.

"Buffy...baby...wait..slow down, luv" Spike gently disentangled her limbs from him. As much as he wanted her, he was also hurting now and in a lot of emotional pain. He needed to get it off his chest.
"What's wrong, Spike? Don't you want to? I mean...we only have a couple hours..." Buffy began.
"Yes and I know but...here, come sit with me on the sofa so we can talk." Spike led her over to the plush seats and sat down with her, pulling her into his lap.
"You're not breaking up with me, are you?" Buffy said nervously.
"WHAT?..NO! Of course not. Buffy...see this is one of the things we need to talk about. You not trusting me and being afraid of me..." Spike told her.
"I'm sorry" Buffy looked down embarrassed.

Spike took his hand and raised her chin with his fingertips. "Hey...look at me. Sunshine? Why are you afraid? How come you can't talk to me?" Spike asked her quietly.
"Because you're a man" Buffy said softly.
"Well, uhh..yes...that's not in dispute" Spike replied in confusion.
"I don't know how to...to talk with you...all serious and stuff. I never had a father...I mean..Giles did as much as he could but he was away most the time...and Mom never remarried or anything...and I..I...I guess I never learned how to communicate with a man...and I'm afraid you'll leave me...just like my dad left me. Why did he leave me, Spike? Am I that bad?" Buffy teared up during her explanation.
"Oh Buffy, sweetheart. No, you're not bad at all. He's a stupid git for ever leaving you and your mum and the little bit." Spike hugged her close.
"When you get mad and raise your voice...I'm so afraid it's me who has made you act that way and that you'll be mad at me and then leave me and so I try so hard not to make you mad and be a good girl." Buffy was crying openly now.

Spike ran one of his hands through his hair, "Buffy, baby. I admit, I have quite a temper on me. I yell and throw things but I would never hurt you or leave you. I just have to get the anger out somehow. I'm just blowing off steam. Now, I'm not going to say that you and I are never going to disagree or have arguments but please believe me that I would never strike you or leave you just because we fight. All couples fight sometimes. Anyway, that being said, lately, my anger hasn't even been because of you, sweetheart. There are a lot of other things going on that are pulling at me" Spike informed her.

"Like Riley?" Buffy said.
Spike took a deep breath, "Yes, like Riley. Buffy...there's something I have to tell you. Drusilla decided to come clean and she says that Riley is not actually my biological son. It's this stupid poof named Angel who went to school with us. He lives in L.A. now and that's where Riley went; to find his "REAL" father." Spike choked up when he said the words "real father".
"Oh my God, Spike! I'm so sorry..." Buffy began.
"He's still my son, isn't he Buffy?" I mean...so I didn't get the lying bitch pregnant...but..he's still my son...right?" Spike's tears began to fall as he pleaded with Buffy to reassure him that Riley was his son.
"Oh...Spike...of course he is...you raised him...took care of him all his life..you LOVED him...You STILL LOVE him. He is as much your child as this baby I am carrying is" Buffy moved to face him and took his face in her hands and kissed him gently.
"What if I lost him forever, Buffy? He hates me. I stole his girlfriend. I cheated on his mum. And now..now..I'm not even his father...I'm just the patsy that Dru suckered. How can he ever forgive me?" Spike sobbed.

"Oh Spike...it's O.K. It will be O.K." Buffy had moved so she was sitting on the sofa and Spike's head was in her lap. She hugged him to her breasts as she stroked his head.
She tried to sooth his tears and worries. She leaned down and softly kissed him again. This time he kissed her back, more urgently and demanding, his body seeking a release for all the tension that was in it. He looked into her eyes and could see all the love that was shining there.
"God, I love you. You have stars shining in your eyes." he whispered against her mouth.
"I love you too, Spike" she said back.
"Does that mean I'm going to get lucky?" he grinned trying to lighten the tense mood.
She giggled at him, "You already ARE lucky. You have me, right?" she flirted.
"That I do, pet. I'm the luckiest bloke in the world" he replied and began kissing her again.

When she laughs she's got the power of a child in her eyes
And when you cry now, she'll hold you like a man's supposed to be held

Spike slid to his knees on the floor and knelt before Buffy on the sofa. He moved his hands to the hem of her shirt and pulled it over her head, revealing her lacy pink bra. He then made quick work of her pants, sliding them off her legs to reveal the matching pink thong she wore.
"Christ, you are so sexy" he muttered as he placed a trail of kisses across her stomach and abdomen. While he was there, he said a soft, "Hello baby" which caused Buffy to smile brightly.

I can't get into words how I feel, get it right in this song now
I set her free, I needed a friend to come back to me
Oh, Starry eyes, Oh, oh Starry eyes Oh, oh

Spike then slid his hands in her panties and tugged them down before reaching up to unclasp her bra and toss it to the side as well. Buffy was left naked and open before him. He slowly shoved her legs apart, still kneeling between then. He gave her a smoldering look before lowering his head and licking her from bottom to top coming to a rest on her engorged clit and then expertly sucking it into his mouth.
"OH God Spike!" Buffy's hips shot up from the sofa but he placed a hand on her stomach and held her down. He continued to lick and suck her pussy for what seemed like hours to Buffy. He slid his tongue down and shoved it up inside of her as far as he could get it while fingering her exposed clit. Buffy moaned and thrashed on the sofa as she felt herself come close to orgasm.
"That's it baby, let it go....come for me...all over my face...do it..NOW" Spike teased and taunted between sucks, licks and plunges of his tongue.
"Ahhhh...I am...Spike...Now..I'm cumming...now...oh oh...yessssssssss" Buffy shouted as Spike lapped up all her spendings before raising himself up to kiss her pouty lips.

Standing alone in the light, you could see her cry
With a smile and a wink and a sparkle in those eyes
She calmly sighed, I will be alright

"Are you alright?" Spike asked when he noticed some tear streaks on her face.
"Yes...it was just...emotional...you know...what you do to me. How you look at me." she sighed.
"I feel the same way, Buffy. I can't put into words how you make me feel." Spike hugged her fiercely and began kissing her voraciously.
"You're a writer and you can't find the words...wow" Buffy breathed when they came up for air.
"I need you so bad, Buffy. Please...just love me...please...let this be real...love me" Spike's eyes had clouded over with intense lust again, mixed with a painful sadness and need to be loved, truly and fully. His whole life and love before Buffy had turned out to be a lie. He couldn't take the heart break if this wasn't real either.

Spike's achingly hard cock was now positioned at Buffy's entrance and he began shoving himself inside. Buffy hugged him tightly and wrapped her legs around him, holding him tight and warm with all of her body.
"Oh...Spike...it's real...very real...I love you...love you.." Buffy sighed as he slid home.
"You're mine, Buffy. MINE. Only Mine" Spike chanted as he began thrusting in and out of her quivering orifice.
"Yours, Spike..Always Yours" Buffy agreed as she lifted her hips up to meet each hard thrust.
"Oh God...so tight...so wet...all for me..." Spike moaned as he rammed her even harder.
"Yes...Spike...like that..harder...give it to me..all of you..I want all of you." Buffy scratched down his back with her nails causing Spike to buck harder and deeper against her.

Buffy looked up at his face and he had tears streaming down his cheeks. God, he was so beautiful, she thought to herself. She pulled him down to her and began gently licking his tears away. Spike's eyes snapped open wide in wonder and awe. He hadn't even realized he had been crying until that moment. He regarded the creature beneath him in reverence.
"I love you, Buffy with all that I am or ever will be" Spike said slowing down his thrusts.
Buffy answered him with a kiss then said, "Come inside me, Spike. I want to feel you...please...come inside me"
"Christ..." Spike muttered and dropped his head to the crook of her neck and began thrusting again in earnest.
"Yes....that's it...ohhh yes...Spike...please...please." Buffy moaned.
He reached down and squeezed clitclit and she screamed her climax.
"Take it Buffy...take my cock...I'm cumming...in you..oh baby...can you feel it? Can you feel me? Can you feel me, Buffy?" Spike demanded.
"Yes!...Oh yes...I feel you...I feel you, Spike" Buffy replied.
Spike gave a few more jerking thrusts until he was completely empty and spent and then collapsed on top of Buffy.

Okay child you've had to take the pain of a man in the streets
You gotta let me in, you needed a friend even just for one night
Oh, Starry eyes, Oh, oh Starry eyes Oh, oh

The telephone rang at the Summer's residence. Dawn ran to answer it.
"Summer's residence" she said into the receiver.
"Dawn. It's Mom. I was just calling to check on you and Buffy. I will be home in about an hour." Joyce said.
"Hey Mom...oh o.k. I'll let Buffy know" Dawn replied.
"Can I talk to Buffy myself, Dawn? Please go get her." Joyce told her.
"I would but she is in the tub taking a bath. She'll probably be in there for hours. You KNOW how she is with her bubble baths" Dawn sighed in perfect younger sister exasperation.
"Oh..O.K. sweetie..well just tell her I'll see you two when I get home. Talk to you later." Joyce responded.
"O.K. I will. Bye Mom. Love you." Dawn said.
"Love you too. Bye." Joyce hung up.
Dawn breathed a sigh of relief and said out loud, "You so owe me Buffy!"

Riley turned the corner onto his street. He was nervous about seeing his dad again after the way he had left. Would he be mad at him? Would he forgive him? What had happened between him and his mom while he was gone? The questions muddled his mind as he pulled into his driveway. His dad's car sat there so he knew he was home. Well, time to be a man and get this over with, Riley thought as he parked and got out and walked up to the door.

Continued in Chapter 19- Mending Fences

A/N: Song is "Starry Eyes" by Motley Crue. Used without permission. Spank me!